Couldn\'t you be that someone?

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Couldn\'t you be that someone?


You know I have this big something in my chest. Like a huge weight, a pressure, or a really big knot of a some kind. I know exactly what it is and I’m not happy at all! It’s the fucking stupid monster called depression.

I don’t even have a good reason to be depressed. My family is rich and respected, I’m healthy and there’s a great future waiting for me. There’s just something missing in my life, something big. I know ‘cause I can feel it, or more correctly I can’t feel it. I don’t even what is it exactly, I just know that I need that feeling.

Even at this moment I’m sitting in the school library trying to find the answer from the books. I doubt greatly that I’m going to find it from these books, these are all just magic and witchcraft. Maybe I should get some more muggleish books, something about feelings, I don’t know.

I sigh heavily, I’m just all stuck up with this, I feel like I’ve had enough. Enough of the knot in my chest, enough of crying my heart out night after night for all these confusing thoughts. Bloody hell, why won’t this stop! I’m just all messed up right now and day by day it gets even worse. I don’t know hoe long I can take this anymore.

They all think I’m either inside-out rotten shit, or so fucking high and mighty, someone to adore. But they’re all wrong. At least those who think I’m something tough, I’m actually rally fragile and frighten.


Why does everything have to be so complicated?...


I wake up at the stare of beautifully deep green eyes. When have I passed to the realm of dreams, I do not know.

“Oh my God! Draco, you look so…”He gulps. He doesn’t say a what I look like, he just gulps. Disgusted, I assume.

“Well you ain’t that good looking either, Potter!”

“No no, I didn’t mean it like that, I’m sorry! I meant from the inside.”

I look at him on the dim light of the library in the middle of the night and wonder weather this is still just a dream or if he’s gone totally out of his mind.

Now that I take a closer look I can’t help but notice how he was shivering, he didn’t even have his robe on. I wonder why he has left his common room in the middle of the night without even taking his robe on in the chilly castle. That’s when I notice he has put it on me as a blanket while sleeping.

I start pinching myself while staring at him, but I don’t wake up. This is all real.

“Are you fucking crazy Potter?!”

He just watches me without even blinking. Then he leans towards me and plants a soft little kiss on my lips. I can’t even breathe, I’m just so surprised. Surprised about how Potter kissing me, Draco Malfoy can feel so heart meltingly good.

“Come here”, he whispers softly and draws me closer to himself on the couch we’re sitting on. He takes me in a tight embrace and starts to softly caress my blonde hair. He’s acting so oddly towards me! Normally he’s just a big fuckbag towards me and I to him. Now it’s all just different, upside down.

“It’ll be all right, it’ll be all right Draco…” Just how does she know that everything is messed up right now in my head? I most definitely didn’t tell him.

At first I’m very stiff in his arms, it’s all so weird. In a few minutes I just let myself relax and fall down against his chest. I can still hear him muttering soothing words in my left ear, but my right ear is just being busy trying to listen his heartbeat. It’s a heavenly bliss to hear the rhythm of his heart, the rhythm of life. Even though it is his life.

“Love and care”, he says suddenly and I rise my head off of his lap to see his eyes.

“Those are the feelings you miss Draco. You need to love and take care of someone, you need to feel loved and taken care of.” How in the seven pits of hell did he know! I just keep staring at him until I spit something absolutely awful out.

“Couldn’t you be that someone?” What the hell am I thinking about! I mean, me, Draco Malfoy and that Harry Potter, huh? Never gonna happen!

He doesn’t say a thing, just keeps staring at me blankly. I’m starting to panick.

\"Oh... oh shit, just forget what I said Harry.\" I start to back up from him.
\"You must be so disgusted, I mean you\'re not even gay or anything\"

\"Shut up Draco\", he says as he takes a tighter grip around my body and smiles.
\"I\'d love to be tyat someone.\"

With that, he plants a soft, small kiss on top of my forehead and wrinkles his nose cutely.

\"Lets get you some hot chocolate from the kitchen and then go to sleep. It has been a long day for you, so I think we can both be \'sick\' tomorrow and sleep late together.\"

I can\'t do anything else but smile widely and nod weakly, I am jist so fricking happy right now. It doesn\'t even cross my mind where would we be sleeping, but eventually he takes me to sleep in his bed.

The next day we missed all the classes and neither of us did leave the bed. Except for when he went to gwt us some fruits for breakfast from the kitchen. Whole day we just snuggled with each, kissing and hugging. You should have seen Rons\' and actually the whole schools\' expressions when we went together, holding hands for dinner to the Gryffindors table in the Great Hall. People talked about us for long, but as long as we were together, we were happy


A/N
Please review, I know there\'s probably more than thousand typos since I haven\'t slept at all during this night and it\'s around 8am. here, but comments please. either good or bad, an honest opinion!