Give and Take

CHAPTER 1
Roaring flames kept the bare Gryffindor common room and Lily Evans warm as she gazed mindlessly out the window. Wrapped in a warm quilted blanket, she was deep in thought; her brain occupied by the sensations of her beloved James Potter and his best friend, Sirius Black. She chuckled slightly to herself when she realized that those two men were all she ever seemed to think about today. It was only three weeks ago that her boyfriend of 3 months first made love to her. It was slow, fulfilling, pleasurable, and now her favorite extracurricular activity. James was all that she had ever wanted. He gives everything he has to her. He loves her, craves her, desires her. He praises her and tells her she’s beautiful at every opportunity. She should be the happiest woman in the world. But she’s not. Lily Evans wants more. She needs more. She deserves more. At least that’s the se sse she gave herself last night when she let Sirius fuck her against the bathroom wall.

James’ best friend. The free-for-all, lazy, two-timing, and incredibly sexy best friend. Sirius had looked at her with lust and greed in his eyes. It stirred her insides, made her realize what was missing. All that James had given to her, Sirius took in one night. She realized that she had wanted it to be taken; she wanted to be had, to be a pleasure-making tool. But she also wanted to be loved, worshipped. To feel ecstasy. How was she to experience both worlds with out hurting one of her lovers? And this is where she sits, a raging debate of undying love and undenying lust.

It’s the Christmas holiday and Lily was only one of the three Gryffindor’s remaining at Hogwarts for the school break. All her friends left for home. Lily’s parents were in France for the hols visiting Petunia’s fiancé and his family. James wanted to stay and be with Lily, but she insisted she would be fine. Besides, Sirius was staying and she knew she wouldn’t be alone. The other House member staying was a second year girl who decided to sleep with her friend in the Ravenclaw dorm room. They would be alone. That evening Lily and Sirius sat together in the common room playing wizard’s chess and Gobstones by the fire, drinking butterbeer he had gotten from Hogsmeade and revealing their deepest secrets. Lily was terrified of the dark and disliked snakes. Sirius loved to shower, was deathly afraid of squirrels and couldn’t live without the daily crossword. It was only after Sirius cracked open the bottle of Ogden’s Firewhiskey that the night became one they wouldn’t soon forget.

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“Lily, I think you’ve had enough Firewhiskey to last a week!” Sirius said. Damn she’s beautiful, he thought.

“Nonsense,” Lily leaned on the couch to support her weight and clumsily stood, “I’m perfectly fine. Just a little woozy.”

No sooner had the words left her mouth did she stumble on her own feet and nearly fall face first to the ground. Sirius doubted she would have been able to catch herself. The muggle jeans she had on were too long; they were sliding down her waist and sat sensuously on her curvy hips, giving Sirius the perfect view of her belly button. He knew she would trip again.

Great Merlin, if I don’t find the loo quick, I think I might piss myself,” she cried.

“I don’t think I’ve ever heard foul language from you before,” Sirius laughed.

“Sod off.”

Sirius just shook his head. They had been drinking for nearly three hours and talking non-stop about everything they could think of; from exploding snap strategies to favorite foods to their biggest fears. Sirius watched her stagger up the stairs to the boys’ toilets. He sat and stared at the fire a bit longer, telling himself to stop thinking perverse thoughts about his best friends girlfriend. Truth about it was, he had been sexually attracted to Lily since 5th year, though he would never tell James.

There was a loud thump from upstairs. Sirius listened and heard nothing more, assuming she was still okay. She drank half the bottle herself; he only had two or three shots of it. But Sirius was far from drunk, or even tipsy. He guessed that Lily didn’t drink very often.

She was so vulnerable right now. Sirius could sense the sexual tension between them. Every time she gently touched his leg or shoulder she had a sly smirk on her face, as if it was intentional. Then she would deliberately caress her collarbone and play with a strand of her long red hair. Just thinking about it made Sirius hard in his pants. Maybe she wanted it.

“SIRIUS!! HELP!”

Sirius hesitated a bit. Nodding his head in confirmation, he stood up quickly, in case he changed his mind, and rushed up the stairs towards the toilets. He opened the door and walked to her stall, swung the door in, and was surprised to find Lily fully clothed sitting on the toilet struggling with her jeans zipper.

“And what seems to be the problem, miss?” Sirius joked.

“These stupid…jeans…the zipper…I can’t,” she desperately sighed. Lily couldn’t even deliver a coherent sentence as she fought with her feisty zipper. Finally, she gave up the battle and settled back on the toilet, her hair resting across her face.

“Can you help? I really have to go!” she begged.

Sirius just grinned and took a step forward, lifting her by her arms to stand in front of him. He looked down at her pants and began to unbutton the clasp. She swayed towards him and grabbed his shoulders to hold herself upright, her mouth inches from his. He stopped and looked up at her face and into her green eyes. They were pleading. She wanted to be kissed. They were so close, noses barely touching; both began breathing heavily. Merlin! This was Lily!

She was overwhelmed. Completely taken by Sirius and his presence. He smelled like peppermint. She wondered if he tasted like it…

Sirius grabbed her face with both of his hands and crushed her lips to his, taking everything. If he was to be damned, he would be damned for taking what he wanted. Her mouth was warm and wet, and with restless nips and nibbles grew eager under his. She deepened the kiss as her body rubbed and rocked up against his. She let out a soft whimper and pulled away.

This is Sirius. James’ best friend. Sirius Black. I can’t be doing this. I love James. The thoughts, regrets, hesitations raced threw her head all at once. The Firewhiskey wt het helping, all she could focus on was how he made her legs numb and her heart beat faster.

Sirius gazed into Lily’s eyes, looking for any sign of anger. Then he saw it. It was confusion, then realization, then… something he couldn’t place. He shut his eyes, fully prepared to be hexed.

But no, she gripped his shirt collar and pressed her mouth back to his, wanting more of what she just tasted.

“Mmm…peppermint…” she sighed into his mouth, Sirius smiled. Then the kiss grew desperate and needy, carnal. Lily moaned as Sirius began to massage down her back to her arse, continuing his assault on her mouth. Caught up in the passion, Lily started to sway and loose her footing. Sirius decided it was time to take over. He wanted it so much. Slowly, he pulled back from her lips and stared into her eyes, both panting.

It felt so wrong and so good. She should stop, but with the Firewhiskey and sexual burn both conquering her body, she had no power to. Lily looked and saw the hunger in Sirius’ silver-gray eyes. He went back to her zipper and jerked it down. Then he abandoned her jeans and raised her arms over her head. He left them there, extended towards the ceiling as he drew her tight fitted shirt over her head. He threw the black shirt on the tile floor. What was he going to do to her?

“Turn around,” he ordered huskily.

Lily obeyed and rotated to face the toilet and wall, her arms still above her head. Sirius gently pushed her arms down to lean her over the toilet. She now stood bent over at the waist, hands resting on the toilet seat, Sirius standing tall behind her. He took hold of her jeans and slowly pulled them down her legs, his body squatting to move with them. He and the pants were now down to the floor, as Lily just stood there, helpless. He helped her raise one foot to pull the leg of the jeans completely off. On his way back up, Sirius ran his hands up her calves, her thighs and once again cupped her behind. He kneaded the soft flesh and rubbed his groin up against it, eliciting a quiet moan from Lily.

Sirius couldn’t take it anymore, repercussions be damned, he was going to have Lily. She was bent over before him in nothing but black knickers and a pink lacy bra. He wanted her and everything she had. Sirius took both of her thighs from the back and forced her into a wider stance. He reached around her waist and stroked the tops of her thighs and slowly made his way into the band of her knickers. He was hard as stone; pushed up against her arse he began to rub his hips in circles to get the needed friction, simultaneously massaging her clit in small but firm circles with his right hand, making her thrive beneath him. He pulled his left hand back to her arse and into the back of her knickers, finally feeling the soft skin of her buttocks on his palms.

Before she could utter a sound, Sirius had shoved her knickers to the floor, his caresses to her lower body never faltering. She felt a sudden rush of cold air and then warmth as he returned, pressed up against her. Her lower body began to burn with heat as his hand circled faster and harder, with more need. She began to push herself up against him and circle her hips into his fingers, wanting, needing him to give her more.

Then, from behind, Sirius dove two fingers inside her wetness. Lily gasped at the contact and dropped her head with a low groan. His fingers rapidly caressing her clit, more fingers delving into her and the feel of his cock against her arse was too much for her. Lily began to pant and moan with every thrust of his fingers, heat passing through her body wave after wave. The pleasure only intensified when he bravely massaged her asshole with his thumb. Just as she would feel her release near, he would back off and slow down, driving her to the brink of insanity.

“Unh- Sirius…please,” she whined. He backed off even more, enjoying his torment.

“Lily…” he breathed, “does it feel good? Do you want me to let you cum?”

She nodded her head vigorously, whimpered, and pushed against his fingers for more. Sirius sped up, his hands working together to bring her to her climax.

“Come on baby, cum for me…” he whispered.

Lily moaned loudly and grinded her hips to match his rhythm. She was close and they both could feel it; Lily panted and breathed heavily with every beat.

“Yes… oh, Sirius…unh.” Lily felt the calm, for a fraction of a second, and then was hit full force with pleasure. Her body convulsed and her pussy contracted around his fingers. She shut her eyes and opened her mouth, though no sound came out. Sirius continued his caressing, slowing down with every contraction.

“That’s it Lil…” he sighed.

He expected her to want to collapse onto the toilet, through for the night, but he wasn’t done. He wanted more. He wanted all of her, complete possession. Her body went limp and he put his arm under her to stand her up. She turned around to face him, still in her colorful bra. It pushed her breasts up, displaying her perfect cleavage.

When Lily finally felt whole again, she raised her head to look at Sirius once again, her breath still loud and erratic. She was trapped, held captive by his sensual gaze. They held each other’s stare for a moment, wondering what would come next.

Sirius broke the stare first, his eyes roaming down to her heaving chest. Her breasts were exquisite, creamy and pale flesh. He reached to her shoulder strap and slid it off, then the other. Lily stretched her arms back behind her and unclasped her bra, her only remaining clothing falling gracefully to the floor. Sirius wasted no time. He groaned and took one breast in his hand, a perfect fit, and the other in his mouth.

Lily shut her eyes as Sirius ravished her chest, his hand roughly kneading the delicate mound, his lips suckling her pink nipple until it was hard against his tongue. The pleasure and euphoria she felt was overpowering. She ran her hands through his long, silky hair, urging him on, a light gasp escaping her throat.

Sirius continued to groan against her bosom until he had all he could stand. He rose quickly, resulting in a whimper of protest from Lily. She didn’t want him to leave. She clutched his collar and yanked his lips to hers, yearning for his taste. In her attempt, they both stumbled backwards, out of the stall, slamming against the bathroom wall. Sirius growled loudly. Lily tore off his button-up shirt while their kisses grew frantic and ravenous. She wanted to taste him, all of him. She wanted him inside of her, moving together. Sirius began to breath even heavier when Lily moved down his body, licking and biting his chest and stomach. She circled his bellybutton and lapped at it, her hands desperately trying to undo his pants.

Sirius, realizing her mission, helped her unclasp the button, his head swimming in ecstasy. Lily yanked his pants down to his ankles then went back for the under shorts.

“Good Lord…” she sighed. He wore boxer briefs… she groaned and pulled them down, careful of his member. Sirius was big, not as big as James, bit big enough. He was beautiful. On her knees now, Lily looked up at his face. He was looking down at her. He knew what she wanted… permission.

“Go on, Lily. Open…” he instructed, she opened her mouth and he directed his cock towards her flushed lips. She quickly licked her lips and then the tip of his penis. Opening wide, she took Sirius into her mouth, deep. Swirling her tongue around his erection, Lily felt Sirius grab her hair and pull it back. He began to press her head further and closer to him, setting his own rhythm.

“Ugh…” he grunted with every other thrust into her mouth, “More…faster.”

Lily obeyed his voice and his hands as he held her head and plunged in and out of her wet lips. Sirius thrust faster. Harder. Deeper. Lily moaned around his cock, the taste of him filling her.

She felt so good, so warm. He gave a few more quick thrusts and withdrew from her mouth. She looked up, scared she had done something wrong, confusion in her eyes. He pulled her up and crushed her lips to his, his tongue diving deep into her mouth, his hunger growing. He groaned once more and turned them around so that she was smashed against the wall. She wrapped her arms around his neck when he lifted her legs up around his waist. She was held between the wall and his throbbing erection.

“Ready?” he asked.

She nodded her head, “Please, Sirius…now…”

He lifted her up and pushed her body back down, onto his cock. Lily gasped loudly and gripped his neck tighter, her head resting on his shoulder. Immediate gratification and warmth surrounded him. He remained still for a moment, basking in the feel of her wet pussy around his member. His hands gripped her arse hard, holding her up.

“Sirius…move. Please. Fuck me,” she pleaded, begged.

“Ugh… Lily,” he muttered into her ear, his mouth and tongue licking and biting. He reared back and plunged back into her. Hard. She gave a small cry when he thrust again. Faster and faster, Sirius fucked her, just as she wanted.

Lily held on with all the strength she had left as Sirius continued his assault. It was hard, fast. Obscene. He would kiss her lips, her cheek, her shoulder. Biting, nibbling every now and then. She groaned with every push, the pleasure she felt was indescribable. She could feel the climb, the tension, in her loins as she rose towards another climax. Sirius knew what he was doing. With every shove he leaned his pelvis forward to brush against her clit. He hit it every time.

“Oh… yes. More…ugh…there. OH!” she couldn’t think, couldn’t see, couldn’t even utter a coherent phrase.

Sirius’ thrusts became more frantic, grunting with each drive.

“Unh…fuck!” he cried, shutting his eyes and leaning his head back. She sensed he was near his own release. He grasped her arse harder, squeezing her cheeks and pressing her closer to him, diving deeper each time. Lily knew she was close. His head fell to her shoulder as he neared his finish. She clung to him tighter, his thrusts now harder than ever; she could hear the slap of their skin.

“Yes, Sirius… cum for me,” she whined. His hips kept hitting her clit and one more thrust gave her what she wanted.

“Oh God… cum, Sirius, now!” she cried out as she came for the second time, her pussy contracting around his pulsing cock. She cried out while he continued his rhythm.

“Yes, Lily. Fuck…fuck me,” he moaned, beyond the point of no return, his head on her shoulder, deep in concentration. Sirius came hard deep inside of her, his cum filling her entirety. He moaned and grunted with his final push into her, the pleasure completely taking over his body. She released a final moan, then a sigh.

Sirius collapsed to his knees on the floor, bringing Lily with him. Her bare arse hit the chilly tile and they fell to the side, Sirius resting on top of her, still inside of her. Lily looked him in the eyes, his face covered in sweat. She stretched her neck and gave him a passionate kiss, their tongues dancing, swirling together. They pulled apart and stared deep into each other’s eyes, their chests heaving. Lily smiled and Sirius laughed softly. He rolled off to her side, sliding out of her.

They lay naked on the floor, not even phased by the cold tile. It felt good against their bodies slicked with sweat. Staring at the ceiling, both Gryffindor’s replayed what had just happened. Lily brought her and to her forehead and Sirius took her other hand in his, placing them on his chest to feel his heart pounding.

“Lily…” he started.

“No. No excuses. No apologies. We did what we did, and no one is at fault,” she said.

“But Lil-” he tried again.

“Sirius… we can’t tell James,” she said quietly, lifting her head to look down on him.

“I wasn’t planning on it. But Lily… wow…” he tried to string together his thoughts. They were racing through his mind so quickly he couldn’t say what he wanted to say.

“Yeah… wow” she sighed, laying back down.

Lily curled up against Sirius’ side for warmth and he wrapped his arm around her, pulling her in tighter. She played with the small hairs on his chest. For the first time, Lily noticed Sirius’ physique. He was so tall and lean; his torso stretched nearly her entire leg length. He was firm. His chest and abs just perfectly taught. She watched his chest rise and fall with his every breath, listening to his rapid heartbeat. She gave his stomach a quick peck and went back to lying down.

“Sirius?”

“Mmm?” his eyes were shut as if almost asleep.

“I honestly have to pee now,” she stated.

He lifted his head and looked at her. Sirius smiled, his teeth white and gorgeous, as he stood up and helped lift her off the floor. She wobbled a bit, naked, towards the stall and finally made it to the toilet.