Love is a Battlefield (COMPLETE)

Days turned into weeks and weeks into months. My pregnancy came along fine, I was in my second month. Death eater meetings had been few, and the order was unsure as to what was going on. Severus watched me like a hawk and I contently had Molly stopping into Malfoy Manor whilst Lucius was out to drop off knitted clothes for the baby. I knew I was having a girl even though Lucius hoped it would be another boy. Yet he had told me he also just hoped the baby wasn’t a squib, I couldn’t stop laughing the day he had said that. Sometimes I had to ask myself if this was all a dream, I was in love with Lucius had a baby on the way and was due to graduate Hogwarts after Christmas. Lucius did not want me to work after school but I was adamant that I would. It was on Christmas Eve that I knew something wasn’t right. There was an unnatural storm brewing, I don’t know what made me venture out into the night but something was calling me. The last thing I remember was hearing Draco calling out to me before darkness took over. When I awoke I was in a hospital, a hospital in the muggle world and looking down at me with concern was my mother. “Oh my Kellie your awake, nurse she’s awake.” Suddenly I had a lot of people around me asking a hundred questions, all that kept going through my head was what was I doing back here. “What year is it?” Mum gave me a sad look before answering. “Its 2007, you have been missing for three years. Where have you been Kellie and how is it your back obviously not alone.” Looking down I realized my stomach showed. So it had not all been a dream I really had been in the wizarding world. I knew they would think I was mad if I really said where I had been “I have no memory of where I was mum,” she looked at me in shock suddenly I heard a commotion in the room as Leeanne the lady I was living with before I had vanished appeared trying to make her way to me. Taking one look at my pleading face then bulging stomach she quickly took over telling everyone including my mum that I was coming home with her.

Once discharged from the hospital we went home I was not surprised that my room was the same nothing had moved at all. “I always had a feeling you would return I just did not know when, your own family gave up hope two years after you vanished, now Kellie are you going to tell me where you really were I know you remember.” I looked up at her sheepishly I knew I could never lie or hide anything from her. “Promise me one thing mum, that when I tell you what has happened to me you wont commit to a Loony bin,” she nodded so I continued telling her how I had awoken at Hogwarts castle in my fifteen year old body and how I had been taken in by Severus and Albus. She sat there and looked at me I wondered if I should just get up and call the asylum myself. “I always wondered after you vanished if you had finally found a way to make your dreams come true, I wasn’t to sure until I decided to open one of your Harry Potter books your name had appeared and read all about your adventures.” I looked up shocked quickly looking over at my entertainment unit where my books were. Grasping one I quickly flicked through it realizing what she had said was true. My name had appeared in the story, yes my name and the fact that I had married Lucius and was with child I wondered how many avid readers had noticed the differences. Suddenly my heart started to ache as I thought about how horrible it would be to never see any of my friends again, how could I raise a child by myself. Tears suddenly started flowing down my face as I clutched the book close silently willing it to take me back to the world I had grown to love, my life would mean nothing here where magic wasn’t believed in and my husband could not hold me close.

I\'m lying alone with my head on the phone
Thinking of you till it hurts
I know you hurt too but what else can we do
Tormented and torn apart
I wish I could carry your smile and my heart
For times when my life feels so low
It would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
When today doesn\'t really know, doesn\'t really know
Chorus:
I \'m all out of love, I\'m so lost without you
I know you were right believing for so long
I \'m all out of love, what am I without you
I can\'t be too late to say that I was so wrong
I want you to come back and carry me home
Away from this long lonely nights
I\'m reaching for you, are you feeling it too
Does the feeling seem oh so right
And what would you say if I called on you now
And said that I can\'t hold on
There\'s no easy way, it gets harder each day
Please love me or I\'ll be gone, I\'ll be gone
(All out of love is by Air supply)

I must of finally fallen asleep for when I awoke it was to Leeanne shaking me saying I had visitors, I did not want to greet people and once again plead that I had no memory as to where I had been for the last three years. Finally deciding to see whom it was I got up putting on a long dress trying to conceal my pregnancy as much as possible. I was happy when I realized it was my best friend Casey, she jumped up when she saw me hugging me close. We held each other for a little while both sobbing, I knew she was crying cause she had missed me yet I was crying cause I could not go back. Sitting down I watched her light up a cigarette nearly tempted to ask for one when I remembered I had not smoked since I had been in the wizarding world. Suddenly she looked at my stomach shock on her face I knew sitting down she could see I was pregnant. “Oh Kellie how sad your pregnant and don’t even remember the father,” suddenly more tears flowed down my face. Oh Lucius I thought, what would happen to them all without me there, would Severus kill Albus and Draco finally turn evil, would Lucius be lost to me forever. “Kellie I just wanted to let you know when your ready your job is still available we have all missed you so much.” I smiled knowing I would not be going back to work.

I knew the months would pass quickly, my stomach grew I could feel Lucius and my child growing and the power in it; in no time I had reached six months. I still had not gone and found out the sex wanting it to be a surprise. I kept telling myself that no matter what I would name the child a name Lucius would of liked. Thinking of him brought tears to my eyes, Leeanne noticed quickly deciding to take me shopping to take my mind off it all. I had not even noticed the latest Harry Potter had been released until Leeanne pointed it out to me. Looking at it I was curious to know what the author had written about the seventh year at Hogwarts, picking it up I flicked threw it stopping when I reached an important part. “Mum we have to go home now!” Knowing this was urgent she quickly got me to the car and took me home, what I had read was swimming in my mind as we approached home I got out of the car as quickly as I could in my heavy state. Grabbing mums keys I ran in to the house straight to my room stopping in shock.

Mum stopped behind me shock also in her eyes for there sitting on my bed highly engrossed in Harry Potter and the Half-Blood prince was non other then my husband Lucius. He looked up at me and both of us just stared when suddenly he had me in his arms kissing me deeply tears falling down his face. Realizing mum was still watching I pulled away wrapping my arms around him not wanting to let go. “Mum this is my Husband Lucius Malfoy, Lucius this is my Mum Leeanne.” I was worried at how they would react to each other, Mum being a muggle and Lucius being a Fictional character in flesh. “Malady I am proud to finally meet the woman who raised my wife to be such an outstanding woman.” Taking her hand he elegantly kissed it, I was not sure how such a casual woman would take to being treated so. “Well he defiantly is different Kellie, now out side I think we all wish to know how you found her and how you Kellie knew he was here.” Following Mum outside I took a seat next to Lucius not willing to let him go. “How did you know Kellie?” I laughed. “Well when I flicked through the book it said how Lucius had vanished in an attempt to find his love, as he had not been able to get over loosing her and his child,” Looking at Lucius I waited for his side of the story. “Well they did get that part right, when I was flooed by Draco I knew something was wrong he kept going on about how you had collapsed and then you were gone.” I nodded knowing Draco would not of known how to deal with this. “I went into a wild rage I was worried, then finally Severus and I decided to try and see if we could find a way into your world it took four months but we finally did it so I am here to take you and our child home.” I smiled cuddling into him. “And when will you leave?” mum had been silent up until now. “Straight away the device we made is only in effect for two hours we only have ten minutes left.” Smiling at mum I gave her a hug telling her I loved her lots, then holding my husband around the waist I felt a strange pulling at my body and we had vanished.

I knew we were at Hogwarts the moment we reappeared, mainly cause I heard my name being yelled by Hermione as she engulfed me in a hug. Severus looked at me with happiness giving me a warm hug. “I am glad the trinket worked Lucius, was it hard to find her?” Lucius smiled holding me tight, “no it was easy the trinket took me directly to her house I actually landed in Kellie’s bedroom.” I blushed thinking about him being in my private room, then I suddenly remembered he had been ready the books when I arrived I suddenly had the urge to see him in private. Making a quick exit and telling Severus to let everyone know I was back and would be back at school tomorrow we left arriving at Malfoy Manor. Lucius went straight to the study pouring himself a scotch then sitting on the couch next to me, noticing he wasn’t getting to close to me I decided to ask him straight out about what he read in the book.

“I wouldn’t be asking what I read in that particular book Kellie, it wasn’t the only one I flicked through I looked at them all.” Oh god I thought I am in for it now, he will have found out I am a spy as well as Severus. “And what did you find out?” I looked at him wearily. “I know the truth Kellie I know you and Severus are spies for the order, what makes me curious is how long did you think you would both be able to hide all this, I know that you have changed a lot of things here that should of happened you stopped them.” I was not sure if I should have been frightened, but the tired look in his eyes made me not fear for my life I knew he would not harm the baby or me. “So you now know the truth, what are you going to do?” I was fearful mainly for Severus. “I don’t know Kellie, I just have to ask you one thing?” I looked up at him never had I ever thought I would see so much pain in his eyes. “Do you really love me or was it all just a show for the order and the dark lord?” His question shocked me as I sat back. “I will be honest, when I first married you I never thought I could love the man that had killed so many muggles, then as much as I tried to fight it when I told you I loved you I meant it, I love you Lucius and that’s my biggest fault I fell in love with the enemy, you have been nothing but kind to me and you have no idea how much it pained me to think that one day we would face each other off on the battle field, that it would most likely be you and I having to throw the killing curse at each other, that I would have to kill the man I loved the father of my child.” I finally finished looking at him with tears pouring down my face. I had no idea how he had taken it all his face had no emotion at all. I waited patiently for him to talk or at least say something.

Suddenly he was up, my heart jumped to my throat as he stalked up to me pulling me to my feet, and then he was kissing me ravishing my body with his hands. I moaned into his mouth the last four months of loneliness coming out as I hungrily explored his body learning it again. It might have proceeded further if I both of us hadn’t suddenly grabbed our arms as the dark mark burned. “We have to go, the dark lord would of learned of your return he will want to initiate Hermione now.” I looked up in shock. “What now!” I was shocked. “Yes he said as soon as you returned he would want Severus to bring her to him I was under strict orders to bring you as well.” My heart skipped a beat; I only hoped that the twisted wizard would not want anything from me in my condition. Both of us went to our room changing into our death eater robes and putting on our masks, then we apperated to Voldemorts hide out. We were greeted by the rest of the death eaters, and I noticed Hermione standing in the middle of the group looking around, her large brown eyes were fearful.

I had only hoped Severus had successfully taught her Occumalcy. I noticed Lucius walk away from me and then I lost him as Voldemort addressed Hermione. She was scared I understood where she was coming from, her initiation was different from mine, instead of being whipped she was laid out on a bed chained then one and only one death eater ravished her, I knew it was painful from the way her face winced and she cried out. Hermione did not have the same urges as me so I knew she would not enjoy it at all and Voldemort would make it extremely painful for her. Being that she was part of the golden trio this was a victory in itself for him. The death eater finished and suddenly Voldemort was on top of her, to my horror I realized he was going to take her in front of us all. His evil red eyes searched the crowd and seemed to lock with mine as he plunged into her already torn depths. As she moaned and cried in pain he watch me the whole time and suddenly a voice filled my head and images of instead of Hermione being there it was me. I suddenly realized it was me all along he wanted, and he didn’t want to share me with Lucius I was suddenly fearful for my husband he had just joined Voldemort\'s list of expendable men.

A/N I know that no one can read her mind but that does not mean images cannot be placed there lol