Potions in the Moonlight

Remus blinked and staggered on; everything was vague shapes and colours. He struggled to make forms out of the jagged black and white shading. A block of red streaked past him and was engulfed in shadow. Someone was hurt? Was it him? Deep in the recesses of his mind he heard a little girl crying... Then he was falling, the grey blurs seemed to pass through him not around him.

He came to after what felt like days in a tiny room, wood paneled and shabby. The Shrieking Shack? Everything was still represented with rough lines and harsh shading. There was blood all down his hands... no. Claws. He looked up to see Severus crying in the corner, alone and afraid. Those endless black eyes fixed him with a look of hatred and betrayal. Remus howled...

...

It was the soft wood of his four poster and the morning sunlight streaming through the latticed windows that let Remus know he has no longer dreaming. Despite the frost on the inside of the window he was drenched in a cold sweat. It had been like he was locked in Severus's sketches; drowning in melancholy.

Remus shook his head and cast his eyes about. James was still fast asleep by the window, Sirius was gone, probably in his morning shower. Peter was nowhere to be seen, Remus frowned. Pete was usually the latest sleeper of them all. Still feeling as if he couldn't trust this current reality, he swung his legs out of bed and quickly dressed. Checking his watch he realised that Severus was probably waiting for him already.

With a pang of guilt he remembered Severus and the night before. He'd been too rough, he could see it in Severus's face. And then leaving without helping to clear up, and leaving his books with the older boy... Remus felt like an utter bastard. He'd only been worried about getting back up here in time. It had been a long and awkward conversation with the boys as to why exactly he was late, and why exactly he didn't seem to have any of his essays for them to copy...

Remus got out of bed and quickly got dressed. He grabbed the few things he needed and was surprised when he left to see Severus standing a little ways down the hall with his books.

Freezing, Remus desperately tried to read Severus's face. Was he angry? Upset? Disappointed? He wanted to rush to him and apologise for his behaviour, but if Severus hadn't even registered a problem then rampant apologising would only irritate him this early in the morning.

"You... didn't have to come all this way..."

"You were late." He said simply as he walked towards class, leaving Remus' books on the ground for the boy to pick up.

"Severus..." it was a half-hearted call. He hated it when Severus was mad at him.

Severus paused and looked back at him waiting for him to continue.

Remus checked behind him that the corridor was empty and ran over to the older boy, ditching his bag and standing up straight to kiss him.

"I'm sorry I was a idiot last night. I guess I was a little stunned... about the whole situation. You know I nearly went to the astronomy tower instead of my common room!" He smiled faintly. "I should have cleaned the room with you... I'm sorry... God, it seems like I can't do much right eh?"

"Whatever... we're going to be late for class." He said as he turned once again and made his way down the hall. He wasn't really mad at Remus anymore he just wanted to get to class and was a little peeved at having to walk all the way to the Gryffindor tower with so much stuff.

Remus's stomach growled but he ignored it. Sweeping up his things and matching Severus's pace with double steps. He wasn't even sure what they had first.

"I am though... I know I irritate you... and I really try not to... but you know... I fuck up a lot..."

"I know you are." He said as they made their way into the main courtyard towards their class.

Remus sighed, shoving his hands into his pockets. This was going to be a long day.

To Severus class had ended as soon as it had started. He loved his potions classes with Slughorn they went by so fast. He was lucky he had a spare next class and thought of what he'd do for the period as he collected his books.

His fist on his head, Remus sat at the other side of class Lily gently nattering his ear off about their mock Potions practical coming up. This class just always made him feel small. He was good at Potions but for some reason whenever he was asked a question he just froze and rambled like a moron. He could tell Severus was smirking at him, and that just made things worse.

The long walk to Arithmancy would be a welcome time to clear his head.

Remus risked a glance over at Severus who was packing up his stuff as class ended. What did Severus have now? He thought to himself.

As Lily and the other Gryffindors swept past the lanky Slytherin, Remus hung back with the pretense of checking his bag. He muttered.

"I've got Arithmancy next... will I see you in Trans?"

"When have you ever known me to skip classes Lupin?" He asked. Remus remembered full well how much Snape hated missing classes. He even remembered one time when he had even come to class with a full bout of the bristlen flu.

Remus giggled. He knew Severus would be there, but any excuse to talk to him was a bonus. He blushed.

"Well... you know... I'll see you then. You still up for the library tonight?"

"Maybe..." He said quietly as he stood up from his seat. He started moving towards the front of the room with the intentions of speaking to Professor Slughorn.

Putting his hands back in his pockets, Remus sighed.

'I'll just go meet Peter for Arithmancy then...' he thought, heading for the door.

Before he disappeared through the door he muttered darkly, just loud enough for Severus to hear,

"Favouritism..."

Severus's scoff could be heard across the room as he approached the desk.

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Remus hated sitting next to Peter in Arithmancy. Every time anything complicated came up (and since this was a NEWT class, everything was complicated), he would sweat and twitch and bother Remus for the answer. Usually the quiet, werewolf was quickly losing patience with his stupidity, especially following their little... confrontation concerning Severus.

"Remus?" Peter asked tugging on his sleeve.

Rubbing the bridge of his nose, Remus turned from his notes, trying his best to channel Severus's 'go away' look.

"What Peter?"

Peter visibly flinched and pointed at his paper. "What does this mean?" He asked.

"Work it out. You can use the cypher for your notes..." he hissed.

"Yeah but it would be faster if you just told me. And I would stop bothering you about it."

"It would also mean you don't learn anything!" Remus didn't raise his voice, not in class, there was nobody listening during quiet note taking sessions. But he didn't feel like wasting energy on Peter right now.

Peter slumped down in his chair and seemed to pout as he fought over his ill constructed notes.

Remus's hand flew over his notes. Their mock exam was next week and he was almost perfectly prepared. Arithmancy was one of his favourite subjects, it was logical and simple if you understood it. And he found it almost relaxing when he didn't have Peter chewing his ear off all the time.

"Hey Remus..."

"What?!" Remus asked annoyed before he realized who had spoken. It was James this time.

"Jeez calm down Mooney..." James said. "Sirius isn't going to be coming with us tomorrow night... he got detention with Slughorn." He laughed remembering what Sirius had done the day before. Snivellus had never seen it coming. "But don't worry, me and Wormtail will keep you company." He said still laughing at what Sirius did to earn his detention.

Looking up from his notes to stare at his pudgy friend.

"How did Sirius get detention? Without James."

Peter shrugged. "I don't know... I wasn't in their DADA class." He said. Remus looked back at James expecting an answer.

"Ah relax Mooney, Sirius just pulled a stupid prank on Snivelly... Don't worry he'll be back next full moon." He said laughing. "Though you should have seen the look on Snivelly's face it was priceless. I've never seen anyone move so fast."

Remus sighed, blinking away his frustration.

"I wish you boys wouldn't call him that..."

"Why? It suits him!" James said. "Every time we see him he's either crying or sniveling about something."

"He is!" Wormtail agreed.

Remus didn't look up from his work. For the first time in months he was becoming frustrated with his best friends. He missed Sirius in Arithmancy. James and Peter together did manage to talk a load of crap. James could do this class on his head but he did nothing but doss about.

"Oh come on Remus we haven't seen you much since we got back from winter break. Did you find yourself a girlfriend? Is this why your hiding from us?" He asked smirking.

Remus rolled his eyes.

"Oh come on James... With Sirius around who gets a chance..."

"Hey could be why you're hiding from us... I mean when was the last time we hung out other than in class or the short time before you take of to the 'library' to 'study'" He said making dramatic air quotes with his fingers.

"I need to study James! We can't all be a genius like you." He didn't like the note of sarcasm in his voice, it didn't sound like him. He blushed and bowed over his notes.

Remus waiting as the clock ticked past trying to ignore Peter and James talking about their next prank against 'Snivellus' and the constant jabs they made at the poor boy. Remus knew Peter was doing this to piss him off, he knew what was going on and he couldn't say shit about anything to them cause he knew Peter could rat them out.

His eyes bored into Peter's red face, silently communicating his hatred. He knew it shouldn't, but hearing things said about Severus upset him, because he knew how sensitive his lover really was.

He dug his fingers into his desk and packed his bag early so he could make a clean get away and go think for a while.

As soon as they where dismissed Remus bolted for the door.

He didn't want to talk to James or Pete right now. He didn't want to talk to anyone, he hadn't been able to focus on work for days now. He hated getting close to his 'time'. Sitting in a quiet alcove, he pulled out his notebook, some translation would help him.

"You look like you're having a wonderful day." Remus looked up as Severus sat down on the bench next to him.

Smiling his world weary smile, Remus snapped his book shut.

"Sometimes James Potter infuriates me more than I can express in words..."

"Mmm.... what are they planning against me now?" He asked with a slight smirk at Remus' annoyance.

"I heard something about vomiting curses and Valentine's Day... So just... you know, be careful.... it just pissed me off the way he talks about you. And Pete's only doing it now because he knows it bothers me!"

Remus folded his arms against his chest, clutching his notebook. A chill ran down the corridor and he shuddered, despite his cloak.

"Yes well Peter's always been a follower." Severus said.

"Except when he's tormenting me...." Remus muttered darkly.

"Tormenting? At least you don't have four of them ganging up on you." Severus paused and realized what he had said. "I meant three."

"It's alright... I understand. If you want I can talk to Sirius... he'd understand..."

"What do you mean talk to him?" Severus asked shocked.

"About the way he treats you. He doesn't think sometimes... he just says things." Remus blushed darker. He had never really talked to Severus about Sirius before. It made him feel, weird.

"Don't.... it'll just make things worse."

Remus sighed again.

"Severus I want to talk to you about something." Severus watched him as he spoke. "I... I don't want you to come with me tomorrow night." He said. "I couldn't imagine if that was maybe just a one time thing with Mooney and.... I don't want anything to happen to you."

Severus flinched and looked away from him looking hurt and rejected. He bit his lip as he tried to think of something to say.

Remus knew he couldn't say it was because of his friends and their late night castle trips. Also since his dreams had become more violent, he was desperately afraid he would hurt or even kill Severus this time.

"Fine.... I understand." Though from the tone in his voice it seemed that by 'understood' Remus could tell he was thinking the worst. Severus stood up and grabbed his bags. He wasn't mad at Remus just... hurt that he wouldn't want him there.

Remus grabbed hand before he could leave their little covered spot. The kiss was only supposed to be a brief, chaste one to remind Severus who loved him. Then the older boy moaned and deepened it, Remus wasn't going to argue. He pushed Severus up against the wall and deepened the kiss, his body flush against his.

Feeling and insistently growing erection against his thigh Remus pulled away only slightly, and whispered into Severus's ear,

"Really... here?"

"No one will know." Severus said smiling slyly. "Just make it quick. I'm sure you can manage that eh, Mr. Hurricane." He laughed...

Remus took a step back, looking confused, not only at what Severus said, but at his laugh it sounded so... natural

"I"m sorry... what?"

"Never mind it's a muggle joke." He said pulling Remus back to him.

Remus smiled, as he nuzzled against Severus's warm chest.

"But... what if someone comes?"

"Well then I suggest you hurry up." Severus moaned. "I want you inside me."

Swallowed hard, Remus looked up at him again. That was a request no sane man should refuse but he faltered.

"Are you sure? So soon after the last time?"

"Yes..." He practically begged.

Remus' hands were already inside his trousers, his hands were trembling again. He was hardly able to spit on his hand as a sort of rough preparation.

Severus pulled Remus' hand out of his pants and pulled his pants down just under his ass. He took his cloak off and turned to face the wall, his forearms pressed against the cold stone, his ass towards Remus.

Pressing himself up against the older boy with a sigh, Remus murmured,

"Are you sure of this?"

"Do you want to get caught?" He asked annoyed. "Yes I'm sure!"

Before Severus could finish his exclamation, Remus was already pushing inside of him. The last thing he wanted was to get caught. He was a Gryffindor prefect! Fucking a Slytherin in a school corridor, during break time!

No... he was wrong it wasn't break time.... he was skipping his next class. Or was going to be late for it in the least. So was Snape...

Their pace was much quicker; less careful, less patient. Both needed to come soon, Remus badly hoped he wasn't hurting Severus too much...

Severus moved back against him and moaned. "Ungh... more..." He begged.

Ramming himself in deeper Remus moaned, pressing his forehead against Severus's shoulder blade. Without a doubt he was still not able to last long enough.

Severus moved his right hand down to his own aching cock and stroked himself in furiously in time with Remus' thrusts, his other arm still supporting his weight on his forearm.

Remus' moans were becoming difficult to mask. He needed to come, soon and he knew Sev was close to.

Severus could hear footsteps down the hall but didn't want Remus to stop. "Fuck don't stop." He begged.

Remus couldn't stop if he wanted to. The fear that thrilled through him was electric and he never wanted it to stop. Biting down hard on his own lip for silence he fucked deeper and harder into Severus, praying the older boy wouldn't cry out. This would be far more mortifying than the library incident.

"Fuck I'm close..." He whispered as the footsteps got closer.

Wanting to say 'me too', but unable to make a sound for fear of loosing a louder moan than he meant, Remus stayed quiet, blood dripping into his mouth from his fierce biting. They were nearly.... yes... there... Oh God....

Severus came harshly against the wall his mouth open in a silent cry of pleasure.

Groaning and pulling himself out, Remus reached for his wand, tucking himself away. Trying to do everything at once when he still couldn't see made him feel ill...

Severus cleaned himself up and grabbed his books. Remus and Severus made their way down the hall moments before they ran into Professor McGonagall.

Remus let out an uncharacteristic squeak and dropped his wand. His heart was still racing and his face flushed darker, he hoped she chalked his weirdness down to the almanac and not the boy stood half an inch away.

"Pro... Professor!"

"Mmm... just the two boys I've been looking for. I hope there is a good reason for you two to be missing my class." She said.

Remus gulped and glanced at Severus, hoping she wouldn't notice the blood on his lip either. Did he even have his bag? His brain was still a post sex mess and he didn't think he should be the one talking to her.

"Um.... we where in the library. We lost track of the time Professor McGonagall."

"Yeah... and then Severus hit me!"

"I did not!" Severus said angrily. "He opened the door to fast and it swung back and hit him in the face. He's just to embarrassed to admit it."

"You can't make me admit anything! You're too embarrassed to admit that we got lost on the 4th floor!"

"Enough you too. You'll have detention with me this evening for your tardiness now get to class."

Remus picked up his wand and folded his arms. Detention? He'd never had a detention without the guys before... he shot a glare to Severus, but then cracked a smile he couldn't stop.

"Thanks a lot Lupin!" He said annoyed as he brushed past them both towards his class.

Nudging him with his foot, Remus hissed in his ear.

"At least this proves my point about favouritism..."

Glancing back to see how far away they where from their Professor Severus leaned in and whispered. "Think she bought it?"

"Me walking into a door? Probably, I'm rubbish this time of the month she knows that... that you and I both happen to be late in the library together? Its not outside the realm of possibility... what else can she say?"

"No I meant the arguing." He said. "We're supposed to hate each other remember? We are still keeping up appearances to keep down suspicion correct? Or have you forgotten?"

Remus paused...

"Oh... Oh yeah... " he blushed. "I thought you were really arguing with me... you do it enough anyway..."

Severus laughed. "Yeah I have gotten pretty good at it haven't I?" He asked. "Come on lets get to class."

((AN.... Another.... Chapter (pants from excursion) so many chapters.... lol nother to come soon hopefully

Schiff: CHEESE AND PANCAKES!
Pasha: Sounds like crapes
Schiff: Ew... Cheese and Pancaked crapes?
Pasha: I'm not a fan of savoury pancackes... But I am le tired, let me get some sleep and stop beating me.
Schiff: I don't beat you!
Pasha: ^_^ I'm sure you would if you could
Schiff: Only if you want me too
Pasha: ^_^ ooooooh you wouldn't be that nice, you're too meean
Schiff: Oh just shut up and get back in the closet!
Pasha: Yes sir... ((huddles back in closet))

anyway please rate or review))