The way she feels

The way she feels



Note: see I am not the type to complain about reviews, but god its hurting my feelings..maybe I should just not give out another chapter after this for a while, seeing if people are wanting more. I know I am not that bad. Oh well if I stop then maybe I can start on my Draco/Hermione one, and my other George story BUT that will be with a OC character (Its a really old story I wrote, I lost all the work but I remember alot it so I will be able to write it, with new twists and everything), well this chapter title isn't from a song. But this is where the story takes a turn. T.T I hope I don't lose readers.

Oh and Hermione is a reporter, if anyone was interested in her job...George runs a joke shop with Fred (no surprise there)




Chapter eight: Why couldn't it have been me?!



Hermione smiled as she sat at her desk, unable to concentrate on her article that was on the monitor of her office computer. She hadn't smiled in work in a long time, and everyone noticed the change in her there and had been letting her know that she seemed to be more happier than she had been in the last year and a half. They all wanted to know what the change was about, and she smiled every time thinking of George. She was still untrusting to him, but when he made love to her it was enough to boost her spirits for days on end.



The only thing that knocked her out of her little daydreaming world was her cell started ringing. Picking up the phone she answered it knowing that only time someone was to call her during work was when they needed something, or something to do with work. Today it was Ginny and she seemed rather happier than usual.



"We're having lunch. You better come or I will cry. Haha" Ginny laughed as she gave her empty threat. Hermione laughed too lightly.



"Why may I ask you want lunch with me? Do you need money?" Hermione joked as Ginny did a fake gasp.



"Never would I ask for money from you, and cant a friend have lunch with another friend for the hell of it?" Ginny mocked seriousness as well as George and Fred would do.



"I can make it around noon. So meet you at the 'l'express de café' then?" Hermione suggested.



"Brilliant! See you there!" Ginny squeaked as she hung up. Hermione laughed and hung up her phone.




"Someone seems extra happy today." Ginny smiled as she sipped her expresso and took a bite of her cinnamon scone. Hermione blushed, she must have seemed really happy if everyone is noticing and complimenting her. "My brother being good to you."



"Of course...hes wonderful. I never thought I would actually be able smile again." Hermione's smile weakened at the painful memories. "George has brought the happiness back in my life. I mean I still am not going to be able to truly trust him for a long time, but he can see I'm making an effort. And oh my god the sex...wow..."



"K, I don't need an image of you and my brother having sex. It was hard enough to get the image of Fred and Imogen out of my head." Ginny crinkled her nose in mock disgust. Making Hermione laugh. "Are you in love with him?"



Hermione looked up at her surprised not expecting the question. Biting her bottom lip she shrugged looking down at her frapaccino. "I honestly don't know still...I mean everything likes a dream and if it is...I dont want wake up...but there is just that whole trust issue thats keeping me from truly being what George needs and wants in this relationship...I just dont know. I want to believe that hes the one...but I made that mistake before, and look what happened...."



"Just because you picked the wrong Weasley doesn't mean you have picked the wrong one again...Because I know you havent...George is different from my other brother...I mean, hes like Fred, Bill, and Charlie...but hes not at the same time. He gives his all no matter what hes doing, and hes the most patient out of them all, and hes obviously the kindest...and I know he would never hurt someone like some of us." Ginny smiled as she suddenly frowned. "Oh bloody fucking hell."



"What?" Hermione looked at the youngest Weasley confused. Before turning over her shoulder and saw her as pregnant as ever with a bunch of snobby looking women walking into the cafe with baby bags in their hands. Passing them she caught Hermione's eye and smirked, having her and her friends sit right in perfect view so Hermione could see the large Bump that Hermione should of had.



"Honestly I dont even know why my brother has to go from having wonderful taste with you to something so trashy." Ginny said in disgust, and instantly saw Hermione's happy face change to something unreadable.



"Whats her name...I never learned it.." Hermione asked as she looked at the pregnant blonde. Other than the overlarge stomach, she was everything Hermione wasn't..small and petite and looked exactly like a model with the brightest blue eyes she could ever see.



"Cynthia...the perfect slut name if you ask me." Ginny said as she finished her expresso. "She isn't going to get her figure back Ill tell you. She's having triplets, so you know she is going to be stuck with ugly stretch marks and flabby skin."



"But that could have been me..." Hermione whispered as Cynthia gave her a nasty glare as she talked loudly with her friends about her and Ron's 'perfect relationship' so that Hermione could hear. Looking over Ginny's shoulder she rolled her eyes.



"Stupid git, she fat and no longer what Ron wanted. So you know hes getting it elsewhere." Ginny tried to reassure Hermione that those two relationship is far from perfect.



"I need to get back to the office. Ill talk to you later." Hermione's voice cracked as she dropped the money to pay for the drinks and everything onto the table and got up, leaving as fast as she could. Ginny quickly followed hearing the slut's annoying laugh with her friends.



"Hermione! Stop!" Ginny called as she caught up with Hermione who was running down the street in tears. Hermione stopped and whirled around tears streaming from her eyes. "Don't listen to her, Shes a stupid git, and a tramp."



"You don't get it Ginny! That was suppose to be me! Why couldn't have been me?! I was ready to spend the rest of my life with that jerk, and I was suppose to have his children. We talked about it all the years we were together...we were suppose to try even before the wedding, and then he goes and has THREE with her!" Hermione screamed pointing back in the direction of the cafe. "It was suppose to be me who was getting large with babies, I dreamed for a child for so long, but I wasn't ready until Ron told me he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me and got down on one knee. I wanted a baby Ginny! I wanted his baby!"



"But you have George now. You can have one with him when you are ready." Ginny tried to calm down the hysterical woman.



"You don't get it Ginny! It was suppose to be with RON! Not George! I don't even know if I
am in love with him! How can I imagine having a baby with him when I don't know if he will be there like everyone says he would." Hermione cried leaning against a wall and sliding to the ground, her hands covering her face.



"I cant promise you that George and you will work out forever! But I do know that George would do anything for you. And if you want a fucking baby, he would give you one! Stop with this Ron shit. You have George now, someone who does love you and who doesn't fool around on you, who doesn't use you and lie to you. You guys have been together almost 7 months now, and you are still pining over that git that left you for some low life piece of trash? Get with it Hermione!" Ginny screamed at her finally, as she stomped her foot. The famous Weasley temper coming through. "This isn't boarding school anymore! We're adults and its time to act like one! I know you been with Ron for 4 years, but you aren't anymore. You have George and he has an STD infested whore! Think about it Hermione!"



Hermione looked up at her eyes swollen. She knew everything Ginny was saying but she couldn't bring herself to believe it. She knew George loved her, and she knew that Ron didn't anymore, but she couldn't bring herself to moving on from Ron, though her mind and body left him, her heart didn't, and it over ruled everything else. She wondered to herself, if she would ever love George like her body and mind want her to....was her heart ready to go to George or was it a mistake on trying to be with him when she clearly wasn't ready.


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No sleep! Whoo Might get this story finished by tuesday!