Potions in the Moonlight

Stretching out on the broad common room sofa, the late January sun streamed through the leaded windows, Remus smiled watching James beat Sirius at chess for the eighth time that day. He loved afternoons like this, lazy and relaxed. In two hours he had agreed to meet Severus in the library. They had some Potions revision to do and it was a chance to catch up on their respective weekends.

Their arrangement for the past month had been comfortable. Neither delved too deeply into Severus's reckless actions on the full moon or his subsequent depression and isolation. It seemed as if, every time they spoke either about school or leisure, that they were moving on and gently gaining each others trust. At least, Remus hoped.

He knew once he got to the library that Severus would already be there pouring over his books. It had been the same way for the past two weeks... they would meet every night at seven o'clock sharp. Severus would already have been there for nearly two hours either working on work from other classes or reading random books. Once or twice he was caught sketching in a sketch book but Remus had yet to see any of his drawings...

Hauling himself out of his comfy seat Remus grabbed his satchel, muttered his excuses and made for the portrait hole. His friends rolled their eyes and said he was working too hard.

"They're only exams!" called James as Remus left, practically running to the library.

Severus was once again in his rare moments, sketching in his sketchbook the book resting against his knees, his feet up on the table. Remus wanted to peek over his shoulder to see what he was drawing but the book was too encased by the boys limbs and ducked head. He couldn't make out what it was.

Instead he satisfied himself with running a warm finger along the exposed back of the older boy's neck. It was a tiny gesture, one unnoticeable to anyone else who may have seen, but to Remus it was contact they both sorely craved. Remus took his seat with a sweet sigh and started rummaging in his bag.

Severus quickly snapped the hard covered cloth bound sketch book closed and shoved it onto the table.

Remus rolled his eyes.

"I wasn't looking, Severus..."

He flipped a few pages in his textbook.

"Sure..." Was all Severus said as he pulled his textbook to him. He glanced at his sketchbook. He had never shown anyone his drawings before and wanted Remus to see them, but on the other hand he was nervous about what he would think of it. Would he think they where bad? Inappropriate? Would his artistic thoughts disturb him?

Remus was making every effort to ignore the older boy. He knew how easily they got side tracked and today he vowed to get some work done.

"You don't have to be so nervous, Severus."

"I'm not nervous." Severus said.

The younger boy couldn't help but laugh. Severus tended to get defensive whenever Remus poked fun at him, and it was cute. It was strange that most of Severus' moody little tics, Remus found cute. He reclined in his chair, trying to compose his brain for a particularly difficult and dull essay.

"Did you write down the requirements Slughorn gave us?"

"I have Lily's notes right here." Reams and reams of neat penmanship covered the table, all perfectly ordered and categorised. "I think Slughorn's trying to kill us. I mean only four of us are taking NEWT Potions who aren't in his precious club, you'd think he might be a little nicer to us..."

"Yeah well what do expect from NEWTS?" Severus asked pulling out a few pieces of parchment.

Scribbling some neat notes, his fingers already stained with ink, Remus rolled his eyes.

"I know, I know... It just bugs me his favouritism... he's a good teacher, but it's enough to put you off potions for life..."

"Favourtism?" Severus asked.

"Yeah..." Remus was going a little pink. "Just that... if your not somebody then, you're nobody. We're good at potions but because we aren't rich or important or ridiculously talented... then he just sets work and that's that. Made me want to give up, to be honest."

"Slughorn isn't like that."

Bringing his legs up to his chest, and hunching over his notes, Remus muttered.

"Well you would say that. He's your head of house..."

"He's not like that Remus." Severus insisted.

"No other teacher has a mad club, only for their favourite students... That's why Sirius quit potions because he was sick of his fawning. And I'm better at potions than him..." Remus didn't want to look at Severus when he was this irritated. Potions with Slughorn was a sore spot for the young Gryffindor. He'd never gotten on with the subject, but had worked hard enough to get where he was...

"Yes well moaning about it isn't going to get it done."

"I know! I am getting on with it. I just want to make it known that I don't like him and I don't like his subject."

Remus pulled his cloak around him tighter, the library was suddenly very cold. He reached over and browsed through Lily's notes with a frown.

Severus poured over his own pile of notes writing down ingredients and things for potions. He glanced over at his sketch book again wondering if he should put it away.

Remus sighed, he didn't like arguing with Severus, but he supposed it was inevitable. He followed the older boy's line of vision and smirked.

"If you're that paranoid about it, why not leave it in your room?"

"Cause I was working on a new one... I didn't expect you to show up two hours early." he said shrugging.

"I just... wanted to see you is all... sorry... I thought that's why we did this..."

"I'm not complaining... Just stating why I brought it"

Looking back down at his notes, Remus nodded and smiled.

"So.... you going to show me your picture?"

Severus was torn. "I don't know... I mean I don't mind you looking at them but... I don't want them to have a drastic effect on what you think of me."

A laugh escaped Remus before he could stop it, a passing second year looked at them strangely but hurried on before Remus could say in a hushed voice.

"Severus, I think you an intelligent, handsome, sensitive, neurotic; who is sometimes brave, often irrational, incapable of accepting certain realities, and scares the shit out of me more than I am comfortable with... But I still love you and none of your pictures are going to change that."

Severus sighed and slid his book towards him.

Remus hesitated then flipped the book open to a page somewhere near the beginning. The book wasn't even half full yet, but it was obvious that the life Severus had lead up to this point was not a happy one. Remus saw a little girl in a white dress crying, a young woman with no face, a grizzled looking man being hounded by angels, Lily Evans on a swing, Remus passed out in the Shrieking Shack slashed along his back and legs...

Breathing calmly as he flicked through the thick pages, Remus refused to show how bad he felt. Severus was a beautiful artist; a lot of vague shapes coupled with clearly defined lines. All black and white but for a few blocks of red and blue... He stopped at the current work in progress and froze, snapping the book closed and returning it to the table.

"My eyes aren't that big..." was all he felt able to say. He returned to his essay.

Severus put the sketchbook back into his bag, his hands shaking. He knew he shouldn't have showed him. He moved back to his essay but couldn't concentrate on it. The silence was killing him. He picked up his stuff and quickly moved out of the library.

Remus had expected this, he swept his things into his bag, not even waiting for the ink to dry and chased him out.

"Severus wait."

Severus was already half way down the hall and didn't listen as he headed towards the Slytherin common rooms.

"Severus, please don't be like this." Remus was pleading with him. "I think you're very good."

"Yeah... I'm sure..." He said reaching the common room door.

Remus barred his way. He wasn't going to let him walk away this time.

"What was I supposed to say? Oh how wonderful you are drawing pictures of me sticking knives in you! Like I said... this doesn't change... how I feel."

"I never said that... but some reaction would have been nice other than throwing my book across the table..." He said annoyed.

"It's kinda hard to react well to that sort of thing!"

"Well you wanted to see it... I warned you you probably wouldn't like it...." He said.

"You kept looking at it, what else was I supposed to ask!"

"You could have ignored me like every one else does." He said. "You didn't need to pry if you didn't want to see how my mind really works."

"That's not why I asked and you know it. It's not in me to ignore you, because I love you, you idiot. I like knowing how your mind works, it makes these mad outbursts a little more predictable."

Severus looked away from Remus. "So this is my fault then?" He asked.

If Remus could have torn his hair out he would have. He wanted to throw his arms in the air and give up on this whole insane relationship, but he knew he wasn't going to do that...

"No Severus. That's not what I said... "

Severus leaned against the wall, he crossed his arms over his chest and stared at the floor. He wasn't pouting he just.... didn't know what to think of Remus at the moment.

Casting a quick eye to the stony Common Room 'door', Remus swooped and kissed Severus, deepening it only briefly before pulling away and taking a step to where he'd dropped his bag.

"I'm sorry I was insensitive..."

"Fine..." Severus said moving away from the door and moving back towards the library.

Remus smiled broadly, picking up his stuff and trailing Severus back.

"Are you... ok?" he ventured. He knew that he asked too much, but he really worried sometimes that Severus didn't much care for spending time with him any more. But why would he lie?

"Yeah... I'm fine. Why?" He asked.

"Just asking... you know, paranoid."

Remus laughed weakly, swinging his bag.

"Remus... do you uh.... want to go somewhere?" He asked looking at him shyly before looking back at his feet.

Cocking his head innocently, Remus was confused.

"Like the library?"

"Um... no... it's just..." His eyes didn't leave his shoes as he walked. "It's... just that.... we haven't really done anything in almost a month and..."

A broad grin broke on Remus's face.

"I thought you said you didn't want that to be the focal point of this relationship..."

"I never said that.... I just.... I'm feeling a bit.... well..." He paused not knowing what word to use. "Neglected?"

He didn't get a chance to say much else as Remus hauled him into a vacant room. The younger boy giggled. He loved this school and its many rooms.

"Neglected? That's wrong. I can't have that..."

"For a while I thought that maybe you didn't want me anymore... that you just kept coming to our little meetings so you didn't hurt my feelings..."

Remus kissed him a little harder than he meant to. But he wanted to get his point across. It had felt like ages since he'd felt right touching Severus. The last thing he wanted to do was push him into something he didn't feel in the mood for. He pulled away with a shy smile.

"I guess I was thinking the same thing."

"I always want you Remus..." He said before a sly smirk spread across his lips. "Unless I have a headache or its my time of the month." He joked.

"Hey. It's my time of the month that we have to worry about..." he blushed and was suddenly quiet. He always joked about it with his friends, but he didn't know if Severus would be comfortable with it.

Severus smiled. "At least you don't have to be alone anymore." He said running his fingers along Remus' collar bone.

Remus was suddenly tense.

"What?"

"Well.... I figured since you don't attack me.... I'd come again this full moon." He said shyly. "At least this time I'd know what to expect."

Remus wasn't angry, but he stared at Severus incredulously.

"Are you mad? You can't honestly be suggesting I put you through that again."

"I wouldn't mind..." He said. "I know you like it... or Mooney likes it... And I'm sure it won't hurt as much the second time around..." He said. "Especially if we start doing it more often..." He said trailing his hand down Remus' chest to the soft bulge in his pants.

An almost horrified expression on his face, Remus looked away, a dark flush on his cheeks.

"But its.... sick..." he breathed.

"No it's not.... it's just.... natural." He said rubbing him through his pants.

Groaning and weakly trying to resist, Remus shook his head sleepily.

"No.... Severus. Please... I'm not going to put you in that sort of danger again!"

Severus cupped his cheek in his hand and leaned up to kiss him. Normally he was much taller than Remus but because he was leaning against the wall made him a few inches shorter.

"I'll be fine." He said. "You don't deserve to be alone when that happens. Please... let me be with you."

Remus frowned again.

"I'm not... alone, I just can't stand it when I hurt you..."

"You won't.... I want to be with you..." He said leaning forward and kissing him again. He unbuttoned his pants and slid his hand inside. "You just need to get me a bit more used to it... and it won't hurt." He said stroking his flaccid cock.

Remus pushed against his hands, not entirely sure what he was hearing. His head rolled back, he was quickly losing any sort of free will Severus allowed him.

"I... I'll think about it Severus... we've got some time yet for you to... change your mind..."

Severus reached his hand over and clicked the lock on the door before pulling out his wand and placing a silencing charm on it. He pushed Remus back against a nearby desk and smirked.

"Do you really think I'm handsome?" Severus asked.

Remus nodded weakly, his eyes fixed on the older boy. He couldn't bring himself to speak, just swallow hard. He loved it when Severus was like this, dominating and smoldering.

Severus smirked shyly and backed away from Remus dancing slightly as he removed his black robe and loosened his tie.

Bringing his knees up to his chest, Remus watched, mouth closed tight. He's never seen Severus dance, he seemed so awkward and jerky in his movements normally. But now he seemed amazingly graceful and... beautiful.

Severus slowly removed each article of clothing until he was fully bare In front of Remus. He moved closer to him and began pulling at Remus, clothes.

Remus helped him, pulling off his own tie and throwing it on the floor. The red and gold clashed horribly with the green and silver, but Remus barely noticed. As his shirt was loosened he whined at the feeling of those cold hands on his chest. It made the hairs on his arms stand up on end, almost as much as Severus's subdued voice.

Once Remus was naked he pushed him back to lay on his back on the desk and moved over him straddling his hips.

The younger boy looked at him, confused. He could feel his hardness pressing against Severus's slim leg, but Severus made no move to prepare him or enter him.

"Severus?"

"Just relax. I want to try something different." he said spitting into his hand. He ran his soaked palm over Remus cock which stood proudly behind him just under his ass. He felt his soft cock start to swell in anticipation.

Remus tried to sit up, the pressure of Severus's hand was unexpected, a blush spread down his chest.

"Severus! What? ..."

Severus pushed him back down. "Relax" he said as he coated Remus with the fluid. After stroking him a few moments he led the tip to his entrance and sat down gently the head pressing against his anus.

The younger boy's eyes widened, his muscles tensing. He knew what Severus was doing and it left him stunned. Did Severus know that he'd never done it before with anyone, in that way. His heart was going wild, he reached a hand out to grip the older boy's hip his hand trembling.

Severus noticed the boys sudden panic. "Is... This okay?" he asked "I just wanted to try it. I wanna know what it feels like."

Laughing awkwardly, Remus smiled, trying to show his confidence and bravery.

"Yeah... I'm fine... just... adrenaline I guess. It's a bit nerve wracking really..."

Severus looked down and concentrated on what he was doing. He sat down farther the head pushing against the tight ring. Severus had a look of utter concentration as he slowly lowered himself, the tight ring stretching slowly around the head finally. Severus didn't look all too comfortable with the slight invasion but it was tolerable.

Remus however, was in a state of bliss. He gasped, his head falling back against the battered old desk. Severus was tighter than anything he could have ever imagined. It was indescribable.

"Oh... God... Sev!"

Severus tried to move down farther and paused. It burned a little and he closed his eyes. He wasn't even an inch into him and it hurt. How was he supposed to take the whole thing?

The younger boy wanted to smile, he dug his fingers into Severus' skin. Subtly tilting the angle of his hips. He knew how painful the first time was. But he was quickly losing grip on his ability to make rational thoughts, he wanted this so badly.

Severus pulled up a bit before moving back down making slow shallow thrusts trying to move down farther but he couldn't bring himself to go much farther. He worked himself down wiggling his hips a bit and managed to take Remus half way. He could feel tears pricking his eyes. This really did hurt though a lot less than Mooney.

Choking back a cry, Remus held him tighter.

"Seriously... Sev... I'm not going to ... last long like this...."

Severus closed his eyes and bit his lip pushing down farther finally engulfing his whole length. Severus didn't move right away allowing his body to become used to the foreign object invading him.

Remus held him firmly in place, he wouldn't be able to take it if Severus moved again. He went to sit up but lay down again, his head hitting the desk with a thud.

"Jesus!"

"Please don't say that while we're having sex." he said.

He couldn't help but laugh, almost hysterical

"Sorry... It's just... wow! How... How do you do this!!"

Once the pain subsided he began moving over him. Pulling almost all the way off his cock before sitting back down taking the full thing to the base. The tight ring of his anus spreading nicely for his thick shaft.

Remus dug his nails in deeper.

"Fuck! Sev. Please! Give me a sec..."

Severus sank back down on him and held still. Though all he wanted to do now was move. He felt so good.

With his back flush against the table, Remus was holding his breath. Then after the longest of time he gave a tiny little nod, only releasing his grip ever so slightly.

Severus moved against him in slow long thrusts. It felt amazing having Remus's cock moving in and out of him. Pulling off of him before sinking back down again over and over. He leaned back and gripped the corners of the desk behind him and cried out as he sank back down. He closed his eyes and stilled himself.

Remus had long since stopped making sense, his moans and whines were all he could manage. He was becoming more and more feral. This is why Mooney wanted him so much!

Severus gasped as he moved making Remus hit that one spot over and over. His cock was dark against his pale skin standing proud against his stomach. It almost hurt it was so swollen...

Remus was losing it, he was practically drooling on himself.

"Sev I.... I really can't..." he wanted to cry, it was...

Severus rolled his hips against him still holding onto the desk behind him. His cock leaked from the tip as it bounced against him as he moved.

Remus knew he was coming before he had time to warn his partner. He didn't need to move, he just let out a hollow cry emptying himself totally.

Severus shuddered as he was filled with the warm sticky fluid and pulled off of him, cum dripping from his ass.

Letting his head loll, utterly embarrassed.

"Sev... I'm. I'm really sorry..."

"It's fine..." He said though actually was disappointed he didn't last very long. It felt amazing.

Gasping desperately for air Remus opened his eyes.

"Fuck... I'm really... sorry, you know."

He tried to sit up, but Severus's weight and angle made it impossible.

Severus slid off of him and sat down on the desk next to him. Seeing that Remus was in no mood to do anything about his still neglected cock he took hold of it himself and moved his hand in the usual way he did when he was alone.

But before he could get his rhythm going, his hand was batted away. Remus smiled sleepily, crawling towards the adjacent desk. He looked totally different to his usual pale, studious prefect, instead he was red faced, still trembling and totally fuckable. He lazily reached forward and took Severus in his hand.

Severus moaned and tilted his head back before looking at Remus. "I didn't want to cum this way." He said. But he understood it was Remus first time and had suspected that he wouldn't last long.

Remus looked up at him sadly, still running his warm hand along the length.

"I'm sorry I let you down Sev..." and he meant it.

"You didn't it's just...." He gasped as Remus ran his thumb over his head. "Not how I wanted it to end is all..." He said watching Remus as he worked his cock.

Still with those deep, mournful eyes on him, Remus scrambled off the desk and stood in front of him, young and awkward.

"How did you want it to end, Sev?"

Severus moaned as he moved his hand over him agonizingly slow. "Ung... I.... I wanted to... I wanted to feel you inside me... filling me. I wanted to feel you as you moved in and out of my ass..."

Remus bit his lip, a slight shudder running through him. He whispered against Severus's graceful neck.

"Keep talking..."

Severus reached between them smirking and stroking Remus's thigh.

"I needed you to fuck me, over this desk. It felt so good being fucked, please... be ready to fuck me again. It aches. It aches so bad..."

Remus whined, his erection growing against Severus's thigh. The way his words washed over him was enough to make him ready for anything. He snarled, spinning Severus round sharply and pushing him over the desk.

"Ah... fuck yes...." He practically begged as he hit the desk. This is what he had wanted from Remus. He just hopped that the shy boy wouldn't back down now.

His hands shaking with anticipation as he grasped his lover's side with one hand and lined himself up with the other. He hoped he had the angle right, he was flying solo now and that sent a thrill up his spine. Slowly, slowly, he began slipping inside.

"Ah Yes!" He grunted as Remus slowly moved into him. "Fuck you're so big. You feel so good."

Remus wanted to say something. He wanted to say anything intelligible. But all he managed was a staggered groan and a sharp snap of his hips as he encased himself totally.

Severus moaned and pushed back into him causing him to go deeper, his cock hanging between his legs unattended.

Remus tried to grasp him but he couldn't reach. Ever spasm of pleasure that past through him made him arch his back straighter. He growled, shoving into the older boy harder, knowing how close they both were. The whole room smelled of sex and arousal; it was like Remus was drowning in it.

"Ungh I'm going to cum..." Severus moaned as he pushed back into him meeting him thrust for thrust. He shivered as he felt Remus sliding in and out of his slick entrance.

Trying not to think of how hot Severus looked when he came for fear of losing control himself, Remus leaned forward and gripped his shoulder, fucking him rougher and deeper.

Severus gripped the table firmer. He was coming close. "Harder...." He was going to cum any second.

Choking on his cry of almost completion Remus dragged his nails along Severus's shoulder, acquiescing with his demand.

Severus hard cock moved of it's own accord between his legs as Remus rammed into him. "Oh fuck... I'm cumming..." He said his eyes closed as he felt it build up in his sac.

Bringing his hand down hard on Severus's smooth waist, Remus pulled him back flush against his thighs. He didn't think he could last another stroke.

Severus cried out as he came, his cock twitching in the air as the came onto the side of the desk, his body clenching around Remus.

That was the end for Remus too, he couldn't move all he could do was whimper and leave bruises on Severus's pale skin. Neither of them moved for some time.

Severus stayed on the desk pinned by Remus. His breath coming in short harsh pants.

Remus was the first to move, pulling out of the older boy and slouching back to where Severus had dumped his robes.

Severus slid down the side of the desk, his cum rubbing off onto his skin as he sat against it.

Brushing the dust of his patched uniform was easy, but slipping on his boxers took a little more time for the young Gryffindor. He winced and reached for his shirt, only then turning to look at his partner.

Severus looked completely exhausted. He didn't look like he wanted to move any time soon. But he looked.... content. Almost like a cat that had found a refreshing patch of sun light.

It wasn't until Remus had mostly done up his shirt did he kneel beside the older boy and ask,

"You ok?"

His sweet smile gave no hint that he had just bent someone over a desk and fucked them senseless. In fact in his green boxers and semi attached shirt, Remus seemed far more innocent than Severus could give him credit for.

Severus smiled up at him completely smug with himself. "Yeah.... never better..." He said and stood up. "Fuck I'm light headed." He said. He's never came that hard before. And he wasn't even being touched when he did.

"You know... I came just from having your dick in my ass...." He pointed out as he lazily grabbed at his clothes.

Remus giggled, scrambling to the pile to retrieve his trousers.

"That wasn't bad, was it." He was still trembling from the rush that coursed through him. "Sorry about... you know..."

"About what?" He asked, putting on his own pants.

Remus waved at himself to obviously signify his prematurity during their first attempt, trying to remember where he'd left his tie.

"Don't apologize. It turned out better than how I wanted it." He said walking shirtless up to Remus and wrapped his arms around his neck. He kissed him passionately his tongue sliding into his mouth.

Forgetting about his recent position 'on top' Remus submitted totally to the kiss, placing a hand on his bare chest and whining. Severus's skin was so soft.

Severus pulled away from him but didn't let him go. "We should get out of here.... before we're caught."

Sighing and picking up the crossed ties, Remus eyed the door.

"Hazard a guess at the time?"

"Around nine o'clock." He said as he finished getting dressed and took his tie from him. "I need to draw a picture of that." He paused and looked at Remus. "No not all my pictures are morbid."

Raising an eyebrow, Remus grinned at him.

"Uhh... Severus. You wanna take another look at that tie?"

"How bout I just wear both... I'll be a Slythandor." He laughed handing back Remus's tie and taking his own.

Remus had to laugh, the idea of Severus Snape making up ridiculous words just tickled him. He clumsily redid his tie and smiled.

"I don't think red's your colour really..."

"Naw greens more my colour." He said finishing getting dressed. "Aren't your room mates going to wonder where you where considering curfew was ten minutes ago and by the time you get across to your dorm rooms unless you run like you know who is on your ass you'll be there by nine thirty."

Remus shrugged, pulling his cloak snug around him and reaching for his bag.

"It's not like it happens to me a lot, I'll say I was working late... I am pretty trust worthy... you know... Hey. Do you think you could take some of my books until tomorrow? You know, lighten my load back a bit. We're together first period..."

He shuffled his feet, still grinning to himself, feeling like he had far too many clothes on now he was completely encased in his uniform.

"Sure..." He said taking them from him. "Just come here to get them from me tomorrow I don't want to have to lug both mine and yours all the way to class tomorrow."

"Can I meet you outside our potions cupboard?" Remus perched on the edge of the desk, pulling his shoes on ready for the long walk back.

Severus looked down ashamed at the thought of what had happened in "their" potions store.

Sensing his discomfort, Remus hopped up on his toes and kissed Severus on his forehead, smiling.

"Hey. Get home and get some sleep. You're going to be sore tomorrow!"

He pulled away and went to the door, magically opening it again.

"Good night Remus." He said sadly as he picked up his and Remus books.

Pausing and then running back to deliver one final, lingering kiss, Remus whispered,

"Thanks for tonight... love you" and was gone down the corridor.

Severus looked around the room and threw down the books. He righted the things on the desk that they had knocked off and pulled out his wand. He suddenly felt.... used. He knew he initiated the act but... Remus had pretty much thrown his books at him and left him to clean up. He pulled out his wand cleaned up the rest of the mess before picking up the books again. He was tempted to just leave the books in the class for Remus to hunt down later but... he wouldn't do that. As hurt as he felt he... He sighed and made his way back to the common rooms.

((AN..... alright so another day another chapter... hope you all liked.... more to come soon.... with a few surprises

Me: Remus you jack ass!
Pasha: Pfft you love him....
Me: I love him.... not liking him at the moment.
Pasha: Hey he's a guy
Me: ......))