How Severus Spends His Summer Hols

The trio and two canine companions pulled into the camp there outside of Sturgis not long after the naming and Harry quickly let his liDISCLAIMER: JKR owns everything that is in reference to the Harry Potter world if it is in one of my works of fiction. If it is not found in one of her creations, then it is mine unless otherwise stated. I am not making any profit from the writing of this story.


ttle charges down to do their business. Severus had given him the collars and leashes he’d picked up for them at the store and helped him get the wiggling little fellows all buckled up. Allie met the small group and joined Harry after kissing her husband hello.

“Hey Harry, how are you feeling?” she asked as she put her hand on his upper arm and gave it a little squeeze. “You had us all worried about you.”

Harry gave her his patented crooked little grin and shrugged as he scuffed the toe of his trainer in the dust.

“I’m sorry Allie. I didn’t mean to cause anyone any trouble.” He said softly as he pulled his foot back while Asphodel pulled on his laces. “I guess I just went blank again and forgot where I was. It hasn’t happened in a long time, but it’s been happening a lot out here.”

“Like flashbacks?” Allie asked as she picked up a small stick for Bezoar to chase. Harry nodded and sat down in the lawn chairs in front of the Snape tent.

“You know like when you have a really bad chest cold and you are all congested and how bad it hurts when it starts to break up and come out?” he looked at her quizzically and when she nodded, he continued. “Well with all the crap that happened to me when I was with Morgan, it’s like being sick inside and now it’s finally coming out, only it feels like it’s ripping out parts of my soul with it.”

The two played with the puppies as they sat in companionable silence for awhile before Allie squinted up at the sun and then turned to her pregnant comrade in arms.

“You know Harry; I know what that’s like. It feels like a disease you have to cut out piece by piece or you are never going to be happy again, but it doesn’t want to let you go, it likes being able to control you and control how you respond to the one that loves you.” She said with a sad smile as she held Bezoar in her arms and leaned back in her chair. “I almost lost Max from my craziness; the poor lug didn’t know what to do with me.”

Harry nodded, he was afraid of the same thing with Severus, especially after this morning, and now, Merlin, now what he was going to ask of him tonight. His husband may well decide to be well shut of him for good, and truth be told, Harry wouldn’t blame him.

“I knew this morning I should stop, that I should tell him. I even opened my mouth to tell him I was hurting, and then I heard Morgan in my head telling me to shut up and take it like the whore I was born to be.” Harry whispered, a teardrop fell and darkened the skin on one knee.

“And…and...and when there was all that blood,” he continued, his voice hitching slightly as he roughly brushed at his face with the back of his hand. “I knew I’d messed up, I knew Sev blamed himself, and it was my fault.”

Allie reached over and rubbed her friend’s shoulders and let him collect his thoughts. Harry rocked himself back and forth in his chair with his puppy in his lap, his hands and fingers clenching and unclenching as his lips moved in silent pleas for control. Shaking his head slightly, he began again.

“Allie, I swear, if I could, I would take a knife and I would cut all of the bad, infected Harry out and leave nothing but the good Harry for Severus and for me. Even right now it feels like parts of the sick Harry is trying to come out. I think I am going crazy.” He whimpered. His fingers curled into claws and started to dig at his thighs, as if trying to tear something out. Allie reached over and placed her hand over his to still it.

“Don’t Harry. You are going to be fine. The same thing happened to me. It feels like something crawling in your skin, doesn’t it?” she asked as she laced her fingers in his and watched as he nodded.

“Grant told me that is because your magic knows it is time for you to be rid of all of that ugliness and it is pushing it out bit by bit. You aren’t going crazy Harry, I promise.” She said and then hugged him. He looked at her from under the fringe that had escaped his ponytail, his green eyes wanting to believe his friend and what she had to say.

“This is normal?” He breathed slowly. “I’m not nutters?”

She grinned at him and then yelped as Asphodel sank his milk teeth into her ankle and hung on as she tried to shake him off. He laughed and reached down to remove the tiny terror from her skin, scolding him as he set him down a few feet away.

“Allie, do you think if someone was beaten badly for a long time, that there is something wrong with them if they still want something more than just…gentle sex?” he asked with his face down, he knew it was burning in shame. He was so nervous about talking to Severus, hell to be honest, he was afraid of the need himself, but he knew that he craved something more.

“Like what Harry, a whip?” Allie asked as she watched him shake his head. “I honestly don’t know how Sev will react to giving you pain.”

“No Allie, I don’t want pain…”he stammered as he pulled the crumpled Wal Mart bag from next to him in the chair. Opening it, he pulled out a thick hank of deep purple sateen cording and a half a dozen rabbit skins used for crafts. He laid the items in his lap and began drawing designs over them and stroking them with the tip of his wand as he murmured enchantments. Soon he had two very non threatening floggers lying over his knees.

One was made of thick soft strips of rabbit hide, the falls almost fourteen inches long each, the other was a fluffy, purple confection that looked like a cloud with a braided handle. One look told Allie all she needed to know, these toys were for pleasure only, Harry just wanted to be taken further out on the edge for now. Severus couldn’t hurt him with either one if he tried, heck, even Max swinging one as hard as possible would do no more than tickle and caress the skin of the one struck.

“Oh those are nice Harry.” She said in admiration as she reached out and Harry handed her the one conjured from the purple cording. “Could you make one for me?”

Harry grinned and not long after there was a mate to the first one draped over the back of a nearby lawn chair.

“I just don’t know how Sev is going to react to me asking.” Harry said as he played with the fur flogger. If he were right, it was going to feel so good on the backs of his legs. He didn’t want anything that hurt, he’d had enough of that, but he did want something…more. Severus had been nothing but the most considerate lover since they’d become intimate, but Harry wanted to give his man more.

“Ask him if you can use them on him.” Allie said as she spotted the men headed their way and quickly nudged Harry, who stuffed everything back into the bag and then ducked into the tent to stow it in a bag for safe keeping.

When Harry came back out of the tent, he found his husband in his chair and began to kneel down next to him when the older man stopped him and pulled him down into his lap instead.

“So what mischief have you two been plotting?” he asked as he carefully smoothed some of Harry’s hair back behind his ear and then kissed that ear softly. Harry looked at him and smirked.

“Why world domination of course, Sir.”

Max laughed at that and Severus only raised a brow as Harry quirked the corner of his mouth up in a little smile.

“Somehow that is truly not shocking news. Should we panic?”

Allie and Harry only looked at each other and grinned.

“Don’t panic.”

A/N~ the puppies names came from the first speech given in Snape’s class in Harry’s first year. It made an impression.