The way she feels
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Harry Potter › Het - Male/Female › Hermione/George
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Adult +
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29
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12,224
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40
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I think you should know that I've been damaged
The way she feels
Chapter six: I think you should know that I've been damaged
It may have seemed like a dream, George being like the perfect boyfriend for her. But for Hermione, it seemed too good to be true. She couldnt find herself to trust him like she should, and unable to break away from her old habits of her nightly rituals with the knife. She knew she wasnt being fair to George but she couldnt help but get stuck in the same rut that she has brought herself into.
George seemed so patient with her, he was calm when she would not open up like she normally would, where she would get suddenly depressed if she even thought of looking at another girl, or anything of that sort. He would reassure her always, and she knew he could make her happy, but there was just something to do with the whole trust issues that made her feel miserable with herself. She wasnt ready to come let her gaurd down because she wasnt sure if he would just screw her over without any warning.
She knew his patients was running thin, she could see it as he stayed calm with her because he knew she was only doing this because of Ron and how he hurt her badly. It was the hardest first few months for both of them. Hermione would start silly little arguements and George would try and proove himself because everything she did was to test him. It wasnt until he walked into his bedroom to find Hermione looking through his things one night after a dinner out, that he finally snapped alittle.
"What the hell are you doing?" George asked with his voice alittle to tense than he intended it to. Hermione pulled back as she held his underwear in her hands. "Looking for something?"
Hermione wasn't able to speak as she dropped his underwear as George continued into the room his arms crossed. "I been patient Hermione, I been calm through all this. I hoped that you would be able to give you the benefit of the doubt, but as I see you arent! Why do you continually compare me to that good for nothing brother of mine! Yea he hurt you, but you got to look past taht and see that you have someone who cares and will never hurt you!" George saw her eyes start to water, as he walked over to her to her and pulled her close to him. "I know you been hurt, but that doesnt give you the right to snoop and try and find evidence that I am doing the same thing. Im not. You have to believe me."
"Im not just hurt George..." Hermione whispered, her eyes shimmering with tears that started to fall gently down her cheeks, George whiping them away with his thumb. "Im destroyed, Im damaged...I put all my trust in one person, and I should have realized the mistake of loving and trusting in someone who obviously didnt love me back. Now I cant have a real relationship without freaking. I been with him since I was 15! Im almost 21! I only been with one guy besides you...and I dont know how to trust anyone anymore. Im sorry George I shouldnt have even tried to start a realationship still letting the wounds heal."
"No no, you are not giving up now. Im not going to let you give up. This is your chance to truly heal, to find out that men arent all the same. Because if you give up now...you will never be able to heal." George whispered as he made her look at him, wiping the tears as they came down her face. Kissing her forehead he held her close as she cried to his chest. "You are strong, I know you are. You can go through with this. And for now on, know that I am not doing anything with other girls, looking at other girls, or thinking about other girls, when I have the most beautiful, pure, amazing woman in the whole world. You are more than enough."
Hermione closed her eyes, she tried desperately to believe him, and some part of her did believe him, but it wasnt going to be enough to change her paranoid ways until she could come to the terms that she doesnt need to have the constant worry and give the trust that he deserves, she wont be able to stop herself from doing these things. Looking into his eyes she smiled weakly and kissed him softly. He knew she was damaged but he was accepting it and being the supportive boyfriend she knew he was.
"I dont deserve you, at all....you are too amazing. I dont know how you can stick up with the crazy paranoid loony that I am. I just need to get over the fact that I feel like I cant move on because if I do...Ill get hurt again. I just want you to know, that I have been damaged far worse than what you think...and I really care about you, and I really want to be with you, and I want to make this work. But I will always be paranoid, especially since I gave everything to someone, just to have it all thrown back into my face...." Hermione spoke softly, her tears slowly stopping. George just smiled and kissed her again.
"Come on, let get you home, I know the little ones will be missing their mum." Hermione laughed at this, George always called the kittens 'the little ones' as if they were their own children. It was sweet and it gave Hermione more of reason to smile when she would walk into her almost empty flat to see two little kittens running around. And sometimes have George waiting in the kitchen with supper ready so she didnt have to eat. Everything was perfect.....she just couldnt understand why she wasnt able to believe it always will be like that.
Chapter six: I think you should know that I've been damaged
It may have seemed like a dream, George being like the perfect boyfriend for her. But for Hermione, it seemed too good to be true. She couldnt find herself to trust him like she should, and unable to break away from her old habits of her nightly rituals with the knife. She knew she wasnt being fair to George but she couldnt help but get stuck in the same rut that she has brought herself into.
George seemed so patient with her, he was calm when she would not open up like she normally would, where she would get suddenly depressed if she even thought of looking at another girl, or anything of that sort. He would reassure her always, and she knew he could make her happy, but there was just something to do with the whole trust issues that made her feel miserable with herself. She wasnt ready to come let her gaurd down because she wasnt sure if he would just screw her over without any warning.
She knew his patients was running thin, she could see it as he stayed calm with her because he knew she was only doing this because of Ron and how he hurt her badly. It was the hardest first few months for both of them. Hermione would start silly little arguements and George would try and proove himself because everything she did was to test him. It wasnt until he walked into his bedroom to find Hermione looking through his things one night after a dinner out, that he finally snapped alittle.
"What the hell are you doing?" George asked with his voice alittle to tense than he intended it to. Hermione pulled back as she held his underwear in her hands. "Looking for something?"
Hermione wasn't able to speak as she dropped his underwear as George continued into the room his arms crossed. "I been patient Hermione, I been calm through all this. I hoped that you would be able to give you the benefit of the doubt, but as I see you arent! Why do you continually compare me to that good for nothing brother of mine! Yea he hurt you, but you got to look past taht and see that you have someone who cares and will never hurt you!" George saw her eyes start to water, as he walked over to her to her and pulled her close to him. "I know you been hurt, but that doesnt give you the right to snoop and try and find evidence that I am doing the same thing. Im not. You have to believe me."
"Im not just hurt George..." Hermione whispered, her eyes shimmering with tears that started to fall gently down her cheeks, George whiping them away with his thumb. "Im destroyed, Im damaged...I put all my trust in one person, and I should have realized the mistake of loving and trusting in someone who obviously didnt love me back. Now I cant have a real relationship without freaking. I been with him since I was 15! Im almost 21! I only been with one guy besides you...and I dont know how to trust anyone anymore. Im sorry George I shouldnt have even tried to start a realationship still letting the wounds heal."
"No no, you are not giving up now. Im not going to let you give up. This is your chance to truly heal, to find out that men arent all the same. Because if you give up now...you will never be able to heal." George whispered as he made her look at him, wiping the tears as they came down her face. Kissing her forehead he held her close as she cried to his chest. "You are strong, I know you are. You can go through with this. And for now on, know that I am not doing anything with other girls, looking at other girls, or thinking about other girls, when I have the most beautiful, pure, amazing woman in the whole world. You are more than enough."
Hermione closed her eyes, she tried desperately to believe him, and some part of her did believe him, but it wasnt going to be enough to change her paranoid ways until she could come to the terms that she doesnt need to have the constant worry and give the trust that he deserves, she wont be able to stop herself from doing these things. Looking into his eyes she smiled weakly and kissed him softly. He knew she was damaged but he was accepting it and being the supportive boyfriend she knew he was.
"I dont deserve you, at all....you are too amazing. I dont know how you can stick up with the crazy paranoid loony that I am. I just need to get over the fact that I feel like I cant move on because if I do...Ill get hurt again. I just want you to know, that I have been damaged far worse than what you think...and I really care about you, and I really want to be with you, and I want to make this work. But I will always be paranoid, especially since I gave everything to someone, just to have it all thrown back into my face...." Hermione spoke softly, her tears slowly stopping. George just smiled and kissed her again.
"Come on, let get you home, I know the little ones will be missing their mum." Hermione laughed at this, George always called the kittens 'the little ones' as if they were their own children. It was sweet and it gave Hermione more of reason to smile when she would walk into her almost empty flat to see two little kittens running around. And sometimes have George waiting in the kitchen with supper ready so she didnt have to eat. Everything was perfect.....she just couldnt understand why she wasnt able to believe it always will be like that.