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Learning to move on
CHAPTER FOUR: Learning to move on
Disclaimer: the dialogues written between * * are quoted literally from the third book of Harry Potter “The Prisoner of Azkaban”. I took them because they match perfectly with the plot of my story, I hope you don’t mind!
Special thanks to my beta reader Kristle Blackman, thank you very much for your help and for giving me the title of this new chapter. The remaining grammar mistakes in this chapter are entirely my fault so please be patient with me.
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Remus looked back at the old castle, going away for the last time. He stood there for a few minutes, freezing due to the unusual cold wind that was blowing that summer. Suddenly he saw a light in the Gryffindor tower and remembered a talk he had with Harry two days before.
He was at his office thinking about the year he spent at Hogwarts ‘He believed it has been a good decision to take Dumbledore’s offer as a DADA professor. It has been the first job where he had felt useful and appreciated’
He took the cup of coffee and drank. ’Mmm… too much sugar’… he thought, and remembered a day when Severus drank from the wrong cup without realizing it was Remus’ coffee. He almost choked and after he could breath again he started yelling at him about ‘the unhealthy effects of the abusive use of sugar’ and after asking him ‘what did he think he was doing with his life’. He was so angry that his cheeks were painted red and Remus couldn’t help but laugh. A brief smile passed across his lips for a moment before remembering the present situation.
He sighed and started packing his bags to leave, when the young Harry Potter entered the room quite exited, he was sweating due to the run he had just made and was looking at him with pleading eyes. He smiled, ‘he had seen this expression on James’ eyes too often’. Harry saw his old suitcase full of clothes and without letting him explain himself he asked:
*\"I just saw Hagrid. And he said you\'d resigned. It\'s not
true, is it?\"*
*\"I\'m afraid it is,\"* Remus said tiredly
*\"Why?\" said Harry. \"The Ministry of Magic don\'t think you were helping
Sirius, do they?\"*
Remus moved closer to the boy and put a gentle hand on his shoulders
*\"No. Professor Dumbledore managed to convince Fudge that I was trying to
save your lives.\"* He sighed.
*\"That was the final straw for Severus. I think the loss of the Order of Merlin hit him hard. So he -- er -- accidentally let slip that I am a werewolf this morning at breakfast.\"*
‘Yes, accidentally!’ he thought looking at the Gryffindor window ‘Severus had made it well. He wanted him out of his life so he spread his ‘little’ secret all over the damned school’ he thought angrily. ‘He really didn’t understand him. After nine long years he couldn’t tell if the Potions Master wanted Remus with him or not’
But then a wave of sadness invaded him ‘It all went so terribly wrong! Certainly he couldn’t blame him after all, he had found him embracing Sirius…’ but angeanger soon increased again ‘Of course it was his fault… maybe if he wasn’t so stupid… maybe if he had let him speak…’
*\"You\'re not leaving just because of that!\"* said Harry.
*\"This time tomorrow, the owls will start arriving from parents.... They will not want a werewolf teaching their children, Harry.\"*
*\"You\'re the best Defense Against the Dark Arts- teacher we\'ve ever had!” said Harry. \"Don\'t go!\"*
‘Remus smiled, Harry was a good boy, even better than his father. Resolutely he took his suitcase and went away; Sirius was waiting for him at Grimauld Place.’
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Severus woke up Monday morning. ‘The first Monday of a new bloody year, full of stupid students that were there just to heat the chairs’. He blinked several times and instinctively moved his hand towards the right side of the bed, where Remus used to sleep, but he found it cold and empty.
Slowly he opened his eyes and stared at the empty space at his side. Three months passed since his lover left and he was not used to sleeping alone yet.
He stood up and went to the shower trying not to think about his lover. He was drying himself with a towel when he heard a strange noise coming from the bedroom. He entered the room and saw an owl flying around the bedroom, throwing things on the floor with his wings.
“Damned owls” He said out loud trying to get him out
When the animal was gone he picked up all of thjectjects spread on the floor. One of those objects was a small frame with a picture inside and the glass slightly broken. It was a photograph from his thirtieth birthday.
Remus was trying to put a ridiculous sparkling hat on his head and he was trying to take it off from Remus hand. They struggled for a few seconds and then fell down to the floor laughing. He looked at this image for what seemed to be years, an unusual smile on his face. Then a wave of sadness invaded him and he put the frame on the table again.
‘He knew he had taken the right decision. Remus loved that bastard, he always had, even when he was with him and he was not going to have them around, kissing each other like teenagers’
Tiredly he put on his robe and went away to the Great Hall. The room was full of laughs and noises and that made him even angrier. He ate silently trying to avoid Dudoredore’s eyes.
‘The old bastard was trying to change his life again.’ He thought bitterly
He barely ate and tried to leave the Great Hall early so the old man couldn’t have the opportunity to talk to him. Then he went straightly to the first class with the second-year students. As usual the lesson was incredibly bored.
‘And what so you want, Severus! Teaching a group of teenagers how to make a simple healing potion for small cuts and bruises was not what he could classify as an exciting job’ He thought exasperated.
After the class he had a free hour so he decided to go back to his quarters. He walked through the corridors, full of children running and shouting. The first five minutes he concentrated on deducing points for every student stupid enough to walk near him but then he focused on the new potion he was creating in his lab.
Suddenly he literally crashed against someone. They both fell on the floor and he started to insult the ‘idiot project of a child unable to watch where he was walking’. Then a sonorous laugh made him raise his head to see ….
“Now, now my boy, you shouldn’t get angry for a little incident like that”
‘Oh no… why is it always me?’ He thought when he saw the Headmaster sitting on the floor in front of him
“By the way Severus, I would like to talk to you this evening after class if you don’t mind… I wanted to tell you this morning but you just left so quickly…” Dumbledore starteile ile he was trying to stand up.
“Today I can’t Albus, I haven’t finished the potion you asked me and precisely this evening I have to add the Mandragora’s root or…”
“Oh, don’t worry my child, it will be just a few minutes, I won’t delay you.”
‘Damned old git’
“Ok Albus, as you wish. I will be at your office around seven o’clock” He said walking away
“That would be perfect” the Headmaster said satisfied
The day passed quite fast for the Potions Master. In fact it passed faster than he wished. Around seven o’clock in the evening he made his way to Dumbledore’s office. A usual, before he could even knock a soft voice from the inside made him enter the room.
“Ah Severus, you arrive on time, I have just made some coffee. Black and without sugar or milk, isn’t it?”
“Yes, thank you Albus”
Professor Snape sat in front of the Headmaster and drank his coffee just as he liked it, black and bitter ‘like he was’ he thought ironically amused. They drank in silence and ate some biscuits, both focused on their own thoughts.
“Albus if you don’t mind I have some work to do in my lab”
“Oh yes, forgive me Severus I was just thinking…I am worried about you Severus, since Remus left you barely eat and you didn’t even moved away for holidays. Maybe you should take a rest; I can find someone to substitute for a few weeks….”
“There’s no need to worry Albus, I am perfectly fine, I don’t need a rest and I am in no need of your advises” Severus said angrily
“Calm down my boy, I just want to help you. You are thinner than usual and even paler. You barely sleep and you are always closed in your lab. I am seriously worried and I am going to give you some free days if you don’t start taking care of yourself. And I won’t accept no as an answer” the Headmaster said severely
“And what exactly do you want me to do?” he said exasperated
“First of all you won’t miss any meal at the Great hall and be sure I will check whether you eat or not. And then I don’t want you to spend all your free time working in your lab so I want you to participate in the school activities, even the non-compulsory.”
“I am not a child Albus; I think I can spend my free time wherever I want”
“Not until you start acting like the adult you are!” The Headmaster said rising his voice. “I won’t let you play the victim anymore Severus. I’m sick and tired of seeing you live like a ghost. It is time to carry on with your life, with Remus or without him”
Without uttering a word the Potions Master stood up and walked toward the door. He was going away to his dungeons when he heard a voice from the office.
“And remember, this Sunday we have a school trip to Hogsmeade and I want to see you there…”
‘Bastard’ was all he managed to think, the anger filling his head like a drug. ‘I think I’ll need some alcohol tonight’ he thought furious.
TO BE CONTINUED
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To Nazzy: First of all thank you for your review, it’s always a pleasure to know the opinion of those who read your story. About your comment, well... I hope this new chapter will clear your doubts. Just in case I can tell you that Remus doen’t leave Severus just because Sirius is back, he leave him because Severus insists on it. I explain myself: Severus thinks Remus always loved Sirius and never him and when he sees them together he decides to push Remus away from his life, even if he loves him. I also think they both need to discuss the situation but Severus will never give Remus that opportunity. He is so broken and he has been hurt so many times that he doesn’t believe someone could love him. Well, that’s the point, I hope you are not bored and please if you have any questions I’ll be pleased to answer you. You can also send me an email (daphne_hell@hotmail.com) with your questions and we can discuss it
Disclaimer: the dialogues written between * * are quoted literally from the third book of Harry Potter “The Prisoner of Azkaban”. I took them because they match perfectly with the plot of my story, I hope you don’t mind!
Special thanks to my beta reader Kristle Blackman, thank you very much for your help and for giving me the title of this new chapter. The remaining grammar mistakes in this chapter are entirely my fault so please be patient with me.
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Remus looked back at the old castle, going away for the last time. He stood there for a few minutes, freezing due to the unusual cold wind that was blowing that summer. Suddenly he saw a light in the Gryffindor tower and remembered a talk he had with Harry two days before.
He was at his office thinking about the year he spent at Hogwarts ‘He believed it has been a good decision to take Dumbledore’s offer as a DADA professor. It has been the first job where he had felt useful and appreciated’
He took the cup of coffee and drank. ’Mmm… too much sugar’… he thought, and remembered a day when Severus drank from the wrong cup without realizing it was Remus’ coffee. He almost choked and after he could breath again he started yelling at him about ‘the unhealthy effects of the abusive use of sugar’ and after asking him ‘what did he think he was doing with his life’. He was so angry that his cheeks were painted red and Remus couldn’t help but laugh. A brief smile passed across his lips for a moment before remembering the present situation.
He sighed and started packing his bags to leave, when the young Harry Potter entered the room quite exited, he was sweating due to the run he had just made and was looking at him with pleading eyes. He smiled, ‘he had seen this expression on James’ eyes too often’. Harry saw his old suitcase full of clothes and without letting him explain himself he asked:
*\"I just saw Hagrid. And he said you\'d resigned. It\'s not
true, is it?\"*
*\"I\'m afraid it is,\"* Remus said tiredly
*\"Why?\" said Harry. \"The Ministry of Magic don\'t think you were helping
Sirius, do they?\"*
Remus moved closer to the boy and put a gentle hand on his shoulders
*\"No. Professor Dumbledore managed to convince Fudge that I was trying to
save your lives.\"* He sighed.
*\"That was the final straw for Severus. I think the loss of the Order of Merlin hit him hard. So he -- er -- accidentally let slip that I am a werewolf this morning at breakfast.\"*
‘Yes, accidentally!’ he thought looking at the Gryffindor window ‘Severus had made it well. He wanted him out of his life so he spread his ‘little’ secret all over the damned school’ he thought angrily. ‘He really didn’t understand him. After nine long years he couldn’t tell if the Potions Master wanted Remus with him or not’
But then a wave of sadness invaded him ‘It all went so terribly wrong! Certainly he couldn’t blame him after all, he had found him embracing Sirius…’ but angeanger soon increased again ‘Of course it was his fault… maybe if he wasn’t so stupid… maybe if he had let him speak…’
*\"You\'re not leaving just because of that!\"* said Harry.
*\"This time tomorrow, the owls will start arriving from parents.... They will not want a werewolf teaching their children, Harry.\"*
*\"You\'re the best Defense Against the Dark Arts- teacher we\'ve ever had!” said Harry. \"Don\'t go!\"*
‘Remus smiled, Harry was a good boy, even better than his father. Resolutely he took his suitcase and went away; Sirius was waiting for him at Grimauld Place.’
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Severus woke up Monday morning. ‘The first Monday of a new bloody year, full of stupid students that were there just to heat the chairs’. He blinked several times and instinctively moved his hand towards the right side of the bed, where Remus used to sleep, but he found it cold and empty.
Slowly he opened his eyes and stared at the empty space at his side. Three months passed since his lover left and he was not used to sleeping alone yet.
He stood up and went to the shower trying not to think about his lover. He was drying himself with a towel when he heard a strange noise coming from the bedroom. He entered the room and saw an owl flying around the bedroom, throwing things on the floor with his wings.
“Damned owls” He said out loud trying to get him out
When the animal was gone he picked up all of thjectjects spread on the floor. One of those objects was a small frame with a picture inside and the glass slightly broken. It was a photograph from his thirtieth birthday.
Remus was trying to put a ridiculous sparkling hat on his head and he was trying to take it off from Remus hand. They struggled for a few seconds and then fell down to the floor laughing. He looked at this image for what seemed to be years, an unusual smile on his face. Then a wave of sadness invaded him and he put the frame on the table again.
‘He knew he had taken the right decision. Remus loved that bastard, he always had, even when he was with him and he was not going to have them around, kissing each other like teenagers’
Tiredly he put on his robe and went away to the Great Hall. The room was full of laughs and noises and that made him even angrier. He ate silently trying to avoid Dudoredore’s eyes.
‘The old bastard was trying to change his life again.’ He thought bitterly
He barely ate and tried to leave the Great Hall early so the old man couldn’t have the opportunity to talk to him. Then he went straightly to the first class with the second-year students. As usual the lesson was incredibly bored.
‘And what so you want, Severus! Teaching a group of teenagers how to make a simple healing potion for small cuts and bruises was not what he could classify as an exciting job’ He thought exasperated.
After the class he had a free hour so he decided to go back to his quarters. He walked through the corridors, full of children running and shouting. The first five minutes he concentrated on deducing points for every student stupid enough to walk near him but then he focused on the new potion he was creating in his lab.
Suddenly he literally crashed against someone. They both fell on the floor and he started to insult the ‘idiot project of a child unable to watch where he was walking’. Then a sonorous laugh made him raise his head to see ….
“Now, now my boy, you shouldn’t get angry for a little incident like that”
‘Oh no… why is it always me?’ He thought when he saw the Headmaster sitting on the floor in front of him
“By the way Severus, I would like to talk to you this evening after class if you don’t mind… I wanted to tell you this morning but you just left so quickly…” Dumbledore starteile ile he was trying to stand up.
“Today I can’t Albus, I haven’t finished the potion you asked me and precisely this evening I have to add the Mandragora’s root or…”
“Oh, don’t worry my child, it will be just a few minutes, I won’t delay you.”
‘Damned old git’
“Ok Albus, as you wish. I will be at your office around seven o’clock” He said walking away
“That would be perfect” the Headmaster said satisfied
The day passed quite fast for the Potions Master. In fact it passed faster than he wished. Around seven o’clock in the evening he made his way to Dumbledore’s office. A usual, before he could even knock a soft voice from the inside made him enter the room.
“Ah Severus, you arrive on time, I have just made some coffee. Black and without sugar or milk, isn’t it?”
“Yes, thank you Albus”
Professor Snape sat in front of the Headmaster and drank his coffee just as he liked it, black and bitter ‘like he was’ he thought ironically amused. They drank in silence and ate some biscuits, both focused on their own thoughts.
“Albus if you don’t mind I have some work to do in my lab”
“Oh yes, forgive me Severus I was just thinking…I am worried about you Severus, since Remus left you barely eat and you didn’t even moved away for holidays. Maybe you should take a rest; I can find someone to substitute for a few weeks….”
“There’s no need to worry Albus, I am perfectly fine, I don’t need a rest and I am in no need of your advises” Severus said angrily
“Calm down my boy, I just want to help you. You are thinner than usual and even paler. You barely sleep and you are always closed in your lab. I am seriously worried and I am going to give you some free days if you don’t start taking care of yourself. And I won’t accept no as an answer” the Headmaster said severely
“And what exactly do you want me to do?” he said exasperated
“First of all you won’t miss any meal at the Great hall and be sure I will check whether you eat or not. And then I don’t want you to spend all your free time working in your lab so I want you to participate in the school activities, even the non-compulsory.”
“I am not a child Albus; I think I can spend my free time wherever I want”
“Not until you start acting like the adult you are!” The Headmaster said rising his voice. “I won’t let you play the victim anymore Severus. I’m sick and tired of seeing you live like a ghost. It is time to carry on with your life, with Remus or without him”
Without uttering a word the Potions Master stood up and walked toward the door. He was going away to his dungeons when he heard a voice from the office.
“And remember, this Sunday we have a school trip to Hogsmeade and I want to see you there…”
‘Bastard’ was all he managed to think, the anger filling his head like a drug. ‘I think I’ll need some alcohol tonight’ he thought furious.
TO BE CONTINUED
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To Nazzy: First of all thank you for your review, it’s always a pleasure to know the opinion of those who read your story. About your comment, well... I hope this new chapter will clear your doubts. Just in case I can tell you that Remus doen’t leave Severus just because Sirius is back, he leave him because Severus insists on it. I explain myself: Severus thinks Remus always loved Sirius and never him and when he sees them together he decides to push Remus away from his life, even if he loves him. I also think they both need to discuss the situation but Severus will never give Remus that opportunity. He is so broken and he has been hurt so many times that he doesn’t believe someone could love him. Well, that’s the point, I hope you are not bored and please if you have any questions I’ll be pleased to answer you. You can also send me an email (daphne_hell@hotmail.com) with your questions and we can discuss it