Dreams No Mortal Ever Dreamed Before
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Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male › Harry/Snape
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
40
Views:
14,176
Reviews:
131
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Currently Reading:
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Incredibly Painful
33. Incredibly Painful
It took him twenty minutes to reach the apparition point and then he apparated to London, feeling exhausted and his leg was trembling again, the tremors getting worse every minute.
It was a good ten minute walk back to Snape's house and he leaned heavily against the wall of the ice cream parlour.
Feeling a warm hand on his shoulder he spun around and found Snape who looked concerned.
“You look exhausted Harry. Here lean on my shoulder for the way back.” Gratefully Harry supported most of his weight on the elder wizard's shoulder and they slowly began the walk back.
“I am sorry,” he muttered but Snape was having none of it.
“Do not be stupid Harry, you managed to visit a friend on your own and exhaustion is to be expected.”
Harry grunted when his leg began to spasm but tried to not let on how much it hurt.
“But a nineteen year old should not be unable to walk a fucking twenty minutes at a time.”
Snape wanted to say something but with the next step Harry felt a pulsing ache shooting from his thigh into his lower torso, making him groan in pain. Tears of frustration were in his eyes when he pushed Snape away roughly.
“Fuck, leave me be Snape,” he shouted with anger at himself not caring that some late customers began to stare. “I should not be forced to live that way, you should not be forced to take care of me like a toddler.” The pain was beginning to make him sway on his feet. “Maybe Zabini was right, what if it never gets better? What if you never get the chance to join that stupid society!”
Snape tried to calm the boy somehow. “Harry, listen this is not the right place-”
“The right place for what? This is nothing but incredibly painful, for both of us. I do not want to live that way, I cannot bear to let you live like that.”
Now he felt his stomach getting upset, and he stumbled into the nearby wall. Extending his left arm he smashed it against the stone, not caring that it began to bleed and hurt.
“Ahhhh fuck, I wish he had just killed me.”
“Harry,” Snape sounded panicked now. “Please calm yourself-”
“No. NO! I hate this fucking life and you know what Snape, I am going to release us both. I am too weak to let you go, to do this on my own so I am doing the next best thing.” He drew his wand and pointed it at himself. “Avada ke-”
“Expelliarmus!” Snape shouted and Harry's wand flew into his hand.
Now feeling close to breaking down, close to losing conscience he sagged down onto the floor, hammering his head against the wall.
“You should have let me kill me Snape, I cannot endure this one more second.”
Sinking down next to Harry, Snape gripped the boy's shoulder to keep him from further injuring his head.
“Harry, please stop hurting yourself,” he whispered into Harry's hair but the younger wizard just hyperventilated until the world went black.
He felt dead when he woke up, once again in St Mungo's staring at the ceiling blocking everything out. He had ignored the doctors, the nurses, Dumbledore and Snape not reacting to anything they said or did.
He was refusing treatment and had to be sedated so that they could patch up his arm.
He wished with all his heart that he had died, to spare him this, to prevent Snape from throwing his life down the toilet. Because that was what he did, putting everything on hold, his plans, his dreams.
He closed his eyes ignoring the doctor who was talking to Dumbledore and Snape, not hearing what they were saying. It did not mean anything to him, nothing did , he was at the end of his rope.
Tears had dried on his cheeks, he had cried so much that he had no more tears left, and now there was only numbness.
He drifted into blackness hoping that somewhere along the line, he would die and never wake up.
I promise things are starting to look up for poor Harry now... for a while. I guess I have a sadistic streak in me... that from someone who is vegan and does not condone violence! *grins* Tell me what you think.
It took him twenty minutes to reach the apparition point and then he apparated to London, feeling exhausted and his leg was trembling again, the tremors getting worse every minute.
It was a good ten minute walk back to Snape's house and he leaned heavily against the wall of the ice cream parlour.
Feeling a warm hand on his shoulder he spun around and found Snape who looked concerned.
“You look exhausted Harry. Here lean on my shoulder for the way back.” Gratefully Harry supported most of his weight on the elder wizard's shoulder and they slowly began the walk back.
“I am sorry,” he muttered but Snape was having none of it.
“Do not be stupid Harry, you managed to visit a friend on your own and exhaustion is to be expected.”
Harry grunted when his leg began to spasm but tried to not let on how much it hurt.
“But a nineteen year old should not be unable to walk a fucking twenty minutes at a time.”
Snape wanted to say something but with the next step Harry felt a pulsing ache shooting from his thigh into his lower torso, making him groan in pain. Tears of frustration were in his eyes when he pushed Snape away roughly.
“Fuck, leave me be Snape,” he shouted with anger at himself not caring that some late customers began to stare. “I should not be forced to live that way, you should not be forced to take care of me like a toddler.” The pain was beginning to make him sway on his feet. “Maybe Zabini was right, what if it never gets better? What if you never get the chance to join that stupid society!”
Snape tried to calm the boy somehow. “Harry, listen this is not the right place-”
“The right place for what? This is nothing but incredibly painful, for both of us. I do not want to live that way, I cannot bear to let you live like that.”
Now he felt his stomach getting upset, and he stumbled into the nearby wall. Extending his left arm he smashed it against the stone, not caring that it began to bleed and hurt.
“Ahhhh fuck, I wish he had just killed me.”
“Harry,” Snape sounded panicked now. “Please calm yourself-”
“No. NO! I hate this fucking life and you know what Snape, I am going to release us both. I am too weak to let you go, to do this on my own so I am doing the next best thing.” He drew his wand and pointed it at himself. “Avada ke-”
“Expelliarmus!” Snape shouted and Harry's wand flew into his hand.
Now feeling close to breaking down, close to losing conscience he sagged down onto the floor, hammering his head against the wall.
“You should have let me kill me Snape, I cannot endure this one more second.”
Sinking down next to Harry, Snape gripped the boy's shoulder to keep him from further injuring his head.
“Harry, please stop hurting yourself,” he whispered into Harry's hair but the younger wizard just hyperventilated until the world went black.
He felt dead when he woke up, once again in St Mungo's staring at the ceiling blocking everything out. He had ignored the doctors, the nurses, Dumbledore and Snape not reacting to anything they said or did.
He was refusing treatment and had to be sedated so that they could patch up his arm.
He wished with all his heart that he had died, to spare him this, to prevent Snape from throwing his life down the toilet. Because that was what he did, putting everything on hold, his plans, his dreams.
He closed his eyes ignoring the doctor who was talking to Dumbledore and Snape, not hearing what they were saying. It did not mean anything to him, nothing did , he was at the end of his rope.
Tears had dried on his cheeks, he had cried so much that he had no more tears left, and now there was only numbness.
He drifted into blackness hoping that somewhere along the line, he would die and never wake up.
I promise things are starting to look up for poor Harry now... for a while. I guess I have a sadistic streak in me... that from someone who is vegan and does not condone violence! *grins* Tell me what you think.