Mine

There's something sweet
And almost kind
But he was mean and he was coarse and unrefined
And now he's dear
And so I'm sure
I wonder why I didn't see it there before
-Something there-Beauty and the Beast

“Oh Hermione, I cant believe it!”, Narcissa gasped as I showed her my new mark along my arm-identical to Voldemort’s, for the last couple of months she had been helping with my pregnancy and we had become quite good friends-or as close as.
It burned like hell as Voldemort created the beautiful mark up the lower part of my arm, and it was special because I wasn’t forced to have it and also Voldemort gave himself the same one, we were connected once again.

“I love it! At first I was a bit mad that he was even thinking of giving me the dark mark but this is such a wonderful piece of art!”

“The dark lord is quite the artiste then-oh don’t tell him I said that, he‘d probably kill me”

“I wont and I guess your right, he is quite artistic, I never thought I would have such a mark on me though! Im surprised it isn’t annoying me already”

“Lucius’s dark mark annoyed me, it always reminded me he was a death eater when we were in the bedroom, then Draco got one and I was heartbroken to think my son would become a murderer like his father…”

“The dark lord offered for you to have one as well though, but when you rejected it he was ok with it, the dark lord has always liked you Narcissa, your not weak”

“Well im still here aren’t I”, she smiled but said it bitterly, stroking her long blonde hair away from her face, “it doesn’t bother me about the past now though, im happy with Severus-Lucius hates it seeing as they are quite good friends, but they’ve put there differences aside”

“That’s good then, and Draco is growing up and I know he will make the right decisions”

“Thank you Hermione, this time a few years ago I would never have taken advice from someone who was my sons age or-sorry for using the word, a mud blood. I know you hate the word as do I really but its what I thought back then”

“Its ok, we all have our own demons. Its strange, last night he was horrible to me in front of his followers and then I agreed to get this mark”

“Maybe just subconsciously you know you want to make him happy as does he for you, you are married to a very dark wizard-he doesn’t mean to hurt you when he does im sure, but just remember he is the dark lord-he has to be harsh and cruel at times”

“I know that, I hope I made him happy by getting this, I was shocked that he gave himself one-I still am!”

“he loves you so much”, she smiled, “so how’s the twins doing? Only about two months to go!”

“I know! Its gone so quick, im thinking soon im going to be a mother of two and im still a bloody teenager!”

“Its ok, I had Draco when I was 25, his father was very keen to have a pureblood son-sometimes I believes that’s the only reason he married me…it doesn’t bother me, everything’s turned out fine”

“Good for you, you deserve it. Im so bored being stuck inside though, the dark lord has made me stay inside for the last month as too avoid ‘any potential dangers’ as he puts it, I mean what dangers our there in the fresh air! But I know he’s going to make me do that work to bring down the DA, im not doing anything that will harm anyone!”

“Don’t worry about it-”

“Exactly Hermione, why don’t you listen to Narcissa? she’s speaking sense”, Voldemort surprised the life out of me by appearing from nowhere caressing my bump

“I should be leaving-”

“Don’t leave on my account”

“No, I have to be going anyway milord, you’ve just reminded me, if you hadn’t of came I probably would have ended up missing my appointment with one of Draco’s teachers”

“Very well, make sure he doesn’t get into too much trivial trouble, he must keep his mind on important things”

“of course milord, goodbye Hermione”, she bowed and apparate away

“You scared her off!”, I stuttered

“I tend to do that without meaning to…anyway, why im here, I was wondering if you had changed your mind about finding out the babies sexes?”

“No! I don’t want to know until I give birth! If you want to know you can check me out and just not tell me”

“No, I want to know at the same time as you”

“Thanks, that’s nice of you”

“but its annoying because I cant know something I know I am able to know!”, he groaned

“I like being the one who frustrates you for a change instead of you frustrating me”, I joked, “You want to have sex don’t you?”

“how the hell did you know that!”, he asked surprised moving his hand away from where it was heading

“I promise I will give you the night of your life after ive given birth, to make up for the last few weeks…”, I promised, we hadn’t been that lively in the bedroom department because I wasn’t in the mood really and when we did the baby bump was just in the way so it was awkward

“I’ll hold you to that promise, but thank you”, he declared while combing my hair with his fingers, it was waist length so he just stayed at the top of my head which felt nice, “as long as I have two healthy children I will be happy, I want boys though”

“why?”

“so they can assist me in my work, girls are more likely to be like you…but either way they will be beautiful as well as powerful”

“No plans for an heir then?”

“I will never need an heir, I cant die-”

“You can die of old age”

“No I cant, an neither can you, we are immortal through very dark and complicated magic, so you better not annoy me too much or I might just have to kill you off”

“What if I want to die someday? I don’t wish to live like this for eternity!”, I moaned angrily, “Thanks for this curse”

“Maybe someday, I may change my mind…its unlikely seeing as I will most likely go to hell in death, I would rather be here with you”

“Stop trying to make bad things sweet!”, I couldn’t help but smile, he was a smooth talker, “im changing the subject now, its depressing talking about death…what is happening with the DA? Please tell me”

“Nothing important, they aren’t a big concern of mine but they are higher in importance because some were friends of yours, I don’t know if they wish to involve you in whatever plans they may have”

“The DA was just a group of us who wanted to learn defence against the dark arts, we never conspired or made any plans how to defeat you in anyway, it was purely defence”

“Well they have developed since then, the members are not just students, there are some ex-order members and a few others”

“So many people against you, but you have to realise not everyone agrees with what you do-me being one of them”

“I would torture you for that, but I wont because I don’t agree with torturing someone so heavily pregnant”

“Thanks, I appreciate it”, I murmured sarcastically, “You’ve only got another 2 months to control yourself”

“I think ill manage it fine, im joking! I wouldn’t hurt you-only in the extreme case or if its accidental”

“Well I manage to not hurt you by accident, I think you could do that too. Now, were going off the point, I don’t believe you, something has happened, your all shifty”

“I am not! Ok, I cant be bothered to pretend…its nothing major I have just found out that the Weasley boy who just got married is joint leader with the Longbottom Gryffindor, that’s all I know but its not a big deal”

“How is that possible? I only saw Ron last week!…Your right though, it doesn’t matter, until a crime is committed you cant do anything to them! Please? You promised”

“I didn’t say anything about hurting them-you over react before you know what’s going on. They are the leaders from what I know and Weasley left a tracker in your robe pocket-”

“what?”, I cut in confused as he pulled out a black, button-sized object with a red luminous dot on it, “that is a tracker?”

“yes, they are not often used in the wizard world and are usually only used by the ministry if needed to find places…he must have slipped it into your pocket without you noticing, now they know our location, from about an hour ago we are no longer hidden from the world, the building is no visible to anyone and everyone who may pass-there is no point hiding if they know where we are, roughly, and I am the dark lord so I have no reason to hide anymore”

“if you say so, so Ron probably doesn’t really like me that much, he just wanted to use me to find out things…no, he isn’t like that, it was just this one thing he has done and that is it!”, I assured myself aloud.

“You have to much belief in people, just believe in yourself and trust me-that is all you need”

“yeah whatever! So why aren’t you angry with me? Seeing as you wanted me to assist you against the DA and according to you I have accidentally assisted them-”

“It doesn’t matter, the place is guarded in more ways than you could imagine, you are safe I just originally thought it better for this place to be hidden”

“I feel like a fool”, I sighed

“You’re not, just don’t trust those who don’t deserve it. The Weasley boy was clever in placing this tracking dot on you, but it didn’t make much of a difference, he didn’t gain anything and neither did the DA out of it”

“Still! I cant believe he would put a tracker on me!”

“Forget about it, I want you to enjoy the sun while its out and be happy while you’re pregnant”

*

I sat against the trunk of the willow tree by the river with Hermione reading as she lay with her head on my lap, I have her a potion from Snape so that the bump wouldn’t make her uncomfortable and so she could do normal things-but she would still feel pregnant because she wanted to feel it. The sun was out, but the leaves of the tree gave scattered shade across us, it was nice just to be here with Hermione, relaxing and away from being the dark lord for just a moment.

“What does this mean? ‘The Chamber Of Secrets will only open for those worthy to serve Salazar himself’?”, she read aloud from her volume on the history of Slytherin-I beamed as she chose the book form the library to read, I felt proud she wanted to know about my heritage.

“Basically be able to speak parseltongue as only those of his blood line can speak it-unless of course evidently some abnormal magic happens as with the case of Potter and yourself”

“abnormal? Such a nice word”

“you know what I mean, I haven’t been down to that chamber in a while…properly I mean, I ‘popped’ down there a few months ago to see if anyone had found it”

“you do know Tom Riddle-well you, opened it when I was in my second year?”

“Yes, Lucius paid dearly for it as well…maybe me and you can adventure down there some day, it is when I first used dark magic properly”

“what sweet childhood stories you tell”, she muttered sarcastically.

“I wasn’t that bad-”

“-compared to now”, she raised an eyebrow as laid down her book and look up at me

“you are correct but I wasn’t going to say that. I wasn’t as bad as you think I was, I was a prefect and head boy, I even won an award for special services to the school!”

“don’t give me all that, you set it all up so your crime would appear as Hagrids and then you even worked out how to make it look like you were the good guy stopping the crime!”

“ah, you have me sussed, I didn’t know you knew”

“There is a lot you don’t know about me, but I suppose you earned becoming a head boy yourself”

“of course I did! I excelled at everything…why don’t you tell me about yourself? I don’t hear much of your past yet you are so keen to hear of mine”

“Yours is more interesting. Well, I am muggle born to dentists, Ive always been clever you could say and I found out I was a witch when I was just leaving primary school”

“is that it? You are quite boring”, I joked which made her roll here eyes

“well your not that interesting, you just found big magic at a young age”

“if you say so. Well ill tell you more about me then if you don’t want to share”

“what is this circle time or something?”

“I haven’t done ‘circle time’ since I was about 10...well I realised I was a wizard long before Dumbledore told me, I could do some remarkable things…I just knew I was special and im not being big headed like you are thinking”, I added while hearing her scowl as she tried to close her mind, but she gave up with a sigh. “Good. Now where was I? oh yes…you know a lot already, ive seen you ‘research’ me, I graduated school in 1945-”

“woah…that was quite some time ago, over 60 years…you must be…what 81?”, (AN:This story is set in 2007 if you were wondering not in the years JK set, sorry but its just easier for me and lets just pretend Hermione didn’t graduate in 1998 or whenever the book says…still with me? Good J )

“You make me sound ancient when you say that!”

“sorry...its just weird”, she got up and walked over to put her feet in the stream, “are age gap…I guess I never realised or noticed before…”

“what’s the problem? Im technically in my early eighties I think…well I don’t celebrate birthdays…anyway, it only means ive had eighty years of experience but im only in my late twenties, early thirties”

“Even that is an age gap really! Oh, I feel weird now, not being horrible-but how the hell did I fall for you! You are the dark lord, you kill people, your are 60 years older than me, you look over 10 years older than me, you used to look…look so evil…you are evil-”

“thanks for the criticism”

“Sorry, I didn’t mean it like that”

“I know, but I think you feel for me because im intelligent, powerful, I care for you, ive kept you safe and given you everything you need and almost everything you want. I know you”

“You think you know me, but you are right, im attracted to all those things about you, could we just change the subject now?”

“Fine, what do you wish to do before I go to the ministry?”

“I don’t know, ive been bored for ages! There is nothing to do here, its all dark art this, dark magic that, torture someone over there, murder someone over here…”, she moaned, “And I know I shouldn’t be ‘ungrateful’ but im dead in my head, I need something to do! I know everything about babies, Ive looked at everything and Narcissa has told me everything she knows, so yeah, everything”

“Take a break from babies then, lets go out”

“Out?”

“Anywhere you wish to go, come on, as soon as you tell me we can go, ive got my own tracker on you so you cant go missing”

“Eurgh why do people keep tracking me! But-thank you, you want to go out with me somewhere?”

“I wouldn’t have asked if I didn’t want to, so where are we going?”, I asked nicely, brushing the hair out of her eyes, waiting for a reply as she thought.

“Hogsmeade?”, I didn’t even bother to reply but took her arm and apparate us there.

“Bloody hell, could have warned me!”, she gasped as she almost lost her balance, she turned round and smiled, “wow”

“The Hogwarts students can come here today, its their day off…”
It was nearly summer so no snow was visible in the usually snow covered village, I landed us in an alley next to The Three Broomsticks, it was quite a bad view of the place from where we were but Hermione just seemed happy to be ‘back’.
I noticed her see a couple of Hogwarts students chat as they walked past the alley, not even noticing us.

“Im scared”

“what? Your with me!”

“No, its not that…everyone knows of me, especially you-but for me its more personal, those people actually know me, some of the students ive been friends with or spoken to, or sat next to in a lesson-”

“calm down or I will have to silence you! Sorry, im not being horrible but you’re stressing yourself out”

“Ok”, she replied simply and didn’t wait for me to continue, she walked (how a pregnant woman walks) boldly with her head held high out into the quite busy street-mainly because it was the students chance to visit. “Aren’t you coming then? I haven’t got all day”, she asked with her hand on her hip when I didn’t follow, I smirked at this side of her and walked to her side.

“You know you are just drawing attention to yourself”

“Its not my problem if they want to stare”

“Good. Now come for a drink, you look like you need it”, I took her hand and pulled her along to The Three Broomsticks-not my first choice but I knew she liked it, she did her best to ignore people looking at her and kept switching between trying to show she didn’t care to looking worried people thought bad of her.
The pub went silent when I entered with my pregnant wife, there were mainly students but a few other creatures were lurking about as well, “Madam Roserta, have you got a table for me and my lady?”

“O-of course milord, right over here”, she led us over to the only free table in the place, distant from everyone but in full view as well, “Im s-sorry milord, it’s the only table-”

“Never mind, this will do. I would like a butterbeer and a fire whiskey for the two of us, I trust that is available?”

“Oh of course! Its are biggest selling-never mind”, she cut off when she realised she was babbling and hurried off to get our drinks.

“You can be so nasty sometimes”

“I can be, but I don’t believe I have been today”, I said truthfully but she still rolled her eyes. “You’re acting differently, like you don’t care what’s going on around you, like you don’t give a fuck what people are thinking-but the thing is, I know what you are thinking and its completely the opposite”

“Whatever you say…can we just be peaceful while we are here?”, she sighed as she took a sip from her drink which had just arrived.

“Only if I am given no reason to not be peaceful…them students in the corner over there keep looking at you-”

“Everyone’s bloody looking at me! Im a freak! And it’s the first time ive been publicly seen so pregnant! Eurgh I wish I didn’t come now”

“You want to be here, now don’t tell me otherwise. Those students who keep watching you, I believe they are your age, I recognise a few of them-Longbottom I believe is there”, that got her attention, she spun round, froze and turned back to look at me with wide eyes.

“Them lot are my friends!”

“Were”

“No, are”, she said stubbornly, and as if to annoy me on purpose she stood up with a smirk on her face as she saw me look on in surprise as she walked over to them. The girl was confusing sometimes, luckily for me I could see full view of where she was and who she would speak to as well as the fact I could finally get on and talk with Snape who I called through his dark mark to meet me here.

*

“Erm, hi”, I said simply with a smile, glad to be able to ignore the rest of the pub and be able to focus on the DA in front of me, “you learnt then, you are less likely to be over hear in a busy place”, I recalled the day I organised the first ever DA meeting.

“Hermione, we haven’t seen you in so long!”, Lavender clapped in happiness-it seemed as if they were ok with me, or it was probably just the illusion, “and look at that belly of yours!”

“Yeah, well ive got two months before I don’t have to toddle anymore, being pregnant makes me walk funny”, I joked, “the DA is in full swing then”

“what do you mean?”, Neville spoke up finally, he wasn’t the shy and accidental boy he was when I was at school-not so much I guess, “we gave up on the DA ages ago”

“Id prefer if you didn’t lie to me, I know if you are”

“Legilmency”

“I suggest you practise occlumency-it will defend you against some people…but it wouldn’t make a difference if your mind is attacked by the dark lord, trust me”, I said seriously, “look I want to get along with you all, be friends even like we acted when I was at Hogwarts…I know about the DA and I have convince the dark lord not to harm any of you, though I cant stop him doing anything if he wants to seriously, please just don’t do anything stupid. Ive been through a lot of pain and I don’t ant you to all feel the same”

“You expect us to quit the DA!”

“No, of course not! Im merely suggesting don’t piss off the dark lord unless you know how to really defend yourself, that tracker in my pocket is just an example of what can piss him off…lucky for Ron, I stood up for him”

“You are so different Hermione, I think being pregnant with the dark lords child has affected you”, Neville said boldly to me as I stood in front of the group of students with my hands on my bump. “If you just want to start trouble I think its best you go back to your lord”

“You’re wrong, im not different, im just not stupid! Bloody hell you lot, I just came over to say hi as I haven’t been outside for months properly! I thought it would be nice to see some old friends, obviously I will be going-”

“-Back to your master”

“he is not my master, he might have been in the past but that is over now”, my temper was starting to raise-I didn’t like being referred to as a slave, basically what he was calling me, “fuck this, I was actually worried about being here-I was scared everyone would look at me and think ‘hey look, it’s the girl who betrayed everyone’, im not that girl. Now are you al going to be just ok with me or am I just wasting my time coming over?”, I watched carefully as I aw him think for a moment and turn to the rest of the DA’s blank faces.

“We haven’t got a problem with you Hermione, come on just sit down with us, is the dark lord ok with that?”, Lavender asked brightly but worriedly at the same time, I saw her eyes flicker behind me in his direction. No wonder, everyone in the room I was in was scared of him, it must seem odd for them to see the dark lord just wonder into such a casual place.

“Yes, you guys I just want to warn you to be careful, you don’t realise how dark things can get-”, I cut off as I turned to see Snape sitting where I was before, talking to Voldemort over drinks-as if they were mates in a pub. If it wasn’t for the dark looks on the face, it would be very strange.

“Hermione?”

“Er-sorry, yes, what was we talking about?”

“It doesn’t matter, are you ok anyway?”, Lavender asked

“Yes of course I am, im so close to being a mother! Nothing can dampen my spirits-well not much”

“They are twins aren’t they? I read it in the Prophet, you was originally going to keep that secret but the dark lord announced it in the end…so you know if they are girls or boys yet?”

“Nope, I want it to be a surprise for the day I gave birth”

“Good thinking, I guess its more fun that way”, she smiled, “take your robe off Hermione, Its baking in here!”, she said as I realised how hot it actually was inside, especially being surrounded my so many students made the room more stuffy. “Let me help you with that, and you can even check all your pockets, im not slipping anything in any”

“Thanks”

“No prob-”, she cut off abruptly

“What’s wrong?”

“Erm…I-er”

“what?”

“What the hell!”, Neville cried in surprise

“What!”

“You have a new dark mark!”, suddenly the whole pub went quiet as Neville spoke louder than he meant to, next thing dozens of eyes were on me. “How, what, why…”

“Its not a big deal, I am not and will never be a death eater, this is just something personal of mine”, I tried to explain with my hand over it, I didn’t want to be ashamed of it though.

“Well its clear your a loyal follower!”

“No its not…oh fuck it, im not explaining myself anymore to you lot! I keep trying to prove im not dark or evil but no one ever believes me! I don’t see why I bother anymore!”, I shouted as I stood angrily, they knew how to piss me off.
“I just wanted to make sure you were all ok and to warn you not to do anything stupid, I want you to be sage but all I get is grief!”, I snatched my robe from Lavender and stormed out of the pub.

I was alone.
A tear fell down my cheek as I realised how alone I really was.

“Hermione!”, Neville called behind me, “Hermione, look im sorry, we all are, its just hard to trust you”

“I know, I learnt that ages ago”

“Im really sorry, it just made me angry seeing such a dark mark burned into your skin, you were a good friend to me at school when others didn’t want to be. Since I took over control of the DA I have gained so much confidence and people are liking me now! But I will always remember you as one of the few who liked me or helped me before”

“At least I know I had some good impact on your life”

“You have, thank you”, he gave me a hug while I wiped away my tears, “the DA wont do anything stupid, we know there is no way of defeating the dark lord, but our aim is to keep every member safe from being attacked, abused or killed. Some of the DA are at a high risk of being slaves when they come of age and some are more than likely going to be targeted for an attack…I just want everyone safe”

“you are brilliant Neville-”

“-im not, but thank you. To make it up to you, im going to buy you some stuff from Honeydukes and then maybe you could tell me about your dark mark-only if you want to”

Possibly three or four hours later I was sitting under the willow tree in the grounds and couldn’t wipe the smile off my face.

“what are you so happy about?”, Voldemort asked grumpily

“Im just happy, everything seems to be ok…what’s wrong with you? I haven’t seen you properly since we were in the pub”

“Just Snape…hes just brought me some unfortunate news…”

“what is it?”

“nah, ill tell you some over time”, he didn’t even wait for me to argue before he disaparated away.
The moody bastard.

*

“Are you sure Severus?”

“Positive milord..."

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Omg i uploaded chapter onto wrong story! So sorry if i confused you all :( its fixed now, i didnt realise ah!
My computer keeps dying on me, so sorry for low quality of chapter