The Sins Of A Father

Chapter Twenty-One: I Hate You







My head felt like shit, my mouth felt like shit, my eyes felt like shit, my muscles felt like shit and my cock had a pleasant ach to it.



And I had opened my eyes in panic.



I looked around to discover that I was in my bedroom in the hotel. I had noticed my bed was empty besides me and I sighed in relief. I was alone and I had heard nothing out of the usual. No footsteps, no showers running…nothing. And I sighed again, deeply.



I tried my hardest what I had done that night but I could not remember much after drinking the tea that Leiwong had presented to me. So I had dismissed it since my head was pounding like a hammer and went to the bathroom to a cold shower to wake my self up.



When I had gotten out of my bed I had noticed I was completely naked, and that worried me a little. I dismissed a few seconds later since I became very hot that night and I most probably decided to discard my clothing, which I had noticed it was scattered every different direction. I went to the bathroom and went to take my shower, after halfway through with the cold welcomed droplets was soothing away my hangover I went to scrubbing myself with soap - only to notice the dried up clear substance on my torso and chest…



The panic was rising up in my chest. Then I tried my hardest on what had actually had happened that night. But no, nothing else had come up. Nothing I could remember came up that could have caused this. After I became increasingly cold from the shower I dismissed my thoughts once again to rationally think that I could of caused it by my own hand.



Of course I was wrong.



Once fully dressed in just lose fitted jeans and a un-tucked fitted shirt I came out of my bedroom. Only to be greeted by Lucius on the dinning table eating breakfast with a opened up laptop to his side.



“Good morning Severus, breakfast?” He gestured to the lidded tray. “Still fresh, just arrived a few moments ago”



I grunted in reply, the grogginess had not quit left my system, but it was much better when I had fist wakened up. Soon I started to eat slowly, completely ignoring the man opposite me.



After halfway through my breakfast I stopped when I heard laughter from the platinum blond man. I raised my head to look at him to see what was so funny.



He looked at me once his laughter had finally settled, though a few chuckles had escaped through when he did look at me.



“Is something amusing Malfoy?”



He laughed again, this time gripping the chair for support. I was getting rather annoyed since my hangover had not quite left me and once again, I started to feel cold panic rising. I growled in slight frustration. “Well? Do enlighten me Malfoy?”



He had finally stopped, and went to look at me, though his smug awful grin was on his face, and I knew I was going to regret it.



“Tell me Severus, did you enjoy your time last night?”



I was now confused, though a little frustrated since he was not getting straight to the point. “As much as I can be with you and Leiwong as company! Now how is that so amusing?”



He snorted. “Severus….really, do you not remember?”



Now I felt my hangover completely gone since panic had taken up permanent residence. “What are you talking about Malfoy?”



“Tut tut Severus…really, have you no manners in the morning? You should be more careful at what you might say with me from now on my love…” He purred.



Before I could give him a piece of my mind he turned up the volume on the laptop, which I could hear distinctive loud deep moans.



I sneered. “Malfoy are you watching porn? If so, do it in your bedroom!” I had a sick feeling that there was more to those sounds coming from the laptop, but of course I refused to believe what was truly happing. Of course Malfoy soon put things to right.



Lucius just chuckled once again, and once again I was getting annoyed by it, so he stood up and strode to the living room television with his laptop. He started to connect the wirings from the laptop to the plasma. I was about to give another snide remark until he spoke up.



“Severus do come over and sit down…I think you need to see this properly”



I placed my hand onto my temples, feeling a headache coming over whenever I’m in Malfoy‘s presence.



I growled in frustration. “Malfoy I do not need this right now”



I heard him turn on the T.V on. “Severus, I think it is truly best for you to sit down comfortably and watch this”



I growled again as a reply and squeezed my temples briefly before I stood up and went to sit on the sofa. “Fine” I mumbled.



When I sat down he just looked at me smugly. “Oh Severus, I am truly sorry it had to come to this but there was no other way…”



I looked up confused and what was to ask why was that until he pushed a button on his laptop.



And I felt all the blood drain from my veins and pooling onto the floor from my feet. I was so speechless, so gob smacked so…dead while I stared at the screen, Malfoy next to it looking as if Christmas was coming early.



And there I sat on the sofa, dumbly watching myself on screen fucking the Japanese boy into the mattress. I felt so numb; I could not say anything since nothing came to my mind to say! I felt nothing but the dread filling my entire body as a swimming pool being filled with water. I was too shocked to start cursing at Malfoy but I was again too shocked to even feel anger. All I could do at that time was to watch the screen in a daze. I wanted this to be all a terrible nightmare and I was about to wake up and be in the same bed as with my Lily. But no, it was all too real and Malfoy loved every bit of it.



“The boy does moan so prettily does he not my dear Severus?”



Now we had changed positions. I was lying down on my back with the boy ridding my cock.



I gritted my teeth. I felt ashamed with myself, first Harry now this. I was not fit to be a husband, nor a Father. I was not fit to be anything but the man I was before I had a family, a family that I had a reason to live for. I clenched my eyes tightly, I wanted to breakdown, but I did not want to give any more sadistic pleasure for Malfoy to feed on.



And you’ll see why I would do anything to keep my family. To make them happy and to not give them any grief that could be avoided.



“Having your fun you sick bastard! You want some popcorn with that show?” I hissed through my teeth.



He sighed dramatically. “Severus…I told you, I really did not want to do this but…I had no choice. You would not of come to me any other way”



I opened up eyes, glaring at him with all my might. Still I did not shout. I refuse to give him anything else to make him gloat. “I would not come to you full stop Malfoy. I’m fucking married. I have two sons. Why are you doing this? What was the convocation we had before we got here? I thought you said you were a changed man? Expecting a baby aren’t you?”



He raised an eyebrow arrogantly. “Yes I am. On both accounts-”



“Then why the fuck have you done this? Why the fuck have you drugged me and made me fuck a whore?” I had nothing against the boy, he had no choice but I could not stop my words. Since this was no dream, this was reality.



Now it was he who glared at me, his pale complexion finally showing a hint of red. “Because I love you!”



I sneered. “Oh, it shows. I should of known! How stupid of me!” I said sarcastically.



He growled. While he started to walk towards me slowly he began to talk. “You don’t get it do you Snape? Whatever I had said to you in that office was the truth! Every fucking bit of it, and I was going to keep that promise. But I could not! I just fucking couldn’t. Having spending time with you alone, being civil. Talking, laughing…we even tried to fucking cook in that little Kitchen! It was to fucking much!” He finally had stop to stand above me. Though I still did not back down with my glare. Him breathing heavily, though he took a deep breath to calm himself down. I just sneered even more. “You see Severus? I done this for you, for us-”



“There are no ‘us’ Malfoy. Get that through your thick skull! You drugged me to make me sleep with someone else that was probably the same age as your son and filmed us! Oh I see how this is helping! I’m surprised you haven’t made me fuck you instead-”



Now he grinned. “Oh but my dear Severus…”He purred and I just wanted to vomit the breakfast I had just eaten. “You will. How many times I like…”



I wanted to spit at him. “And why is that Malfoy?”



“Because if you will not comply Severus…I’ll just show this little clip of ours to your dear little wife”



I felt my eyes widen. He sighed and started to straddle my lap. I was once again, to shock to do anything. I wanted to push him off, but the blackmail was finally sinking in.



“Severus love…” He cupped my chin to make me face him. “Its for your own good. Stop being in denial, we belong together you and I” He began to stroke my hair. “I’m so sorry I had to do this to you, but I had no choice. I love you to much to let you go again-”



I came back to my senses. “Again? You never had me in the first place!” I began to push him away from me but he sat there firmly. “Get off Malfoy!”



“No. Don’t do anything you might regret Severus. I meant what I had said. If you displease me, I’ll send this clip to her. And don’t think this is the only copy. I have many more and I have sent it to some e-mail addresses of mine for safe keeping” And all through that he looked at me like he actually cared.



I clench my fists at my side, sitting there stiffly while the blond man continually stroking my hair. “Why are you doing this? If you…cared you would not do anything to harm me”



He started to kiss my jaw line for a moment then looked back into my eyes. “I do care for you Severus, or I won’t be doing this at all. If any one is doing the harm its you doing it to me love…You know how many times it hurt when you ignored me and acting as if I was a no one?” He cupped my cheek and slowly clenched, his fingernails digging in slightly. “Acting as if I was not good enough for you” He began to whisper softly. “You don’t know how many times I could have gotten rid of your family Severus. How I could have gotten rid of them one…by one” Now he smiled sardonically. “But I didn’t love, it would of hurt you too much…I don’t want you to suffer. But neither do I want to let you go” He kissed my lips; no force just a touch of lips. Though on my part I felt even sicker. “I felt so jealous with that Japanese whore…I wanted you to fuck me, not him but alas, I had to stop my urges for this propose. I could not very well have you get any evidence of me cheating on my Wife. Though I don’t really love her like the way I do with you, I don’t want any bad reputation on my name and my fortune split into two” He kissed again. “I know you’ll protest at first, being difficult as usual but…You won’t be the Severus I fell in love with. But in time love, you finally realise that what I have done was for the best. Maybe you’ll let me even top when you’ll be willing enough”



I screwed up my features when someone was looking at something foul at the bottom of their shoes. “First off I would never love you in any way. And I will never be willing to anything you ask of me” I kept my stare into his grey mixed with blue psychotic eyes. “You can make me do this, but I will never do it out of my own free will!”



He sighed. And traced my lips with his fingertips. “You think about your family to much Severus…But then again, I don’t mind you being dominant in the bed” He brought his lips to my ear, feeling his hot breath wash over my skin. “I rather like it in fact. It would make it all that much sweeter, when you have to pleasure me instead of me doing it to you. If you were lying down, spreading your legs for me it would make it too easy for you to comply so I’m glad you’ll top. But remember this Severus…That’s the only place you’ll have any slight of a fragment of control. And even then that’s only when I tell you to” He licked the inside of the shell of my ear. He went to face me again and he grinned. “From now on Severus I’m in control. You’re mine and will always be mine…” He placed his lips onto mine and began to kiss me.



You see I had no choice. I know I should of come clean to Lily but I could not. I did not want to see the reject, the sorrow, and the pain in her eyes. I love her too much. I had no choice when it came to Lucius, but if it was to protect my Wife and let her be blissfully unaware of my dirty little secrets…



Then so be it. After all, I was doing it for her.



“Kiss me Sev‘rus, show me the love you show your wife…” He mumbled through the soft kisses. I began to comply. “I love you Sev’rus…”



I hate you Lucius.