Mine

Got a pocket, got a pocketful of sunshine.
I got a love, and I know that it's all mine.
Oh.
Do what you want, but you're never gonna break me.
Sticks and stones are never gonna shake me.
No.
-Natasha bedingfield-Pocketful of sunshine

“I am really going to miss it, being pregnant”, I mentioned as I sat in Draco’s room in Malfoy Manor, I know it seems strange, approximately 29 weeks pregnant and im sitting with Malfoy of all people.
But I had been friends with Draco since we talked by the lake at Hogwarts, he was actually pretty nice when he wasn’t in death eater mode and a much better person than his father. I still wasn’t on speaking terms with Lucius, he annoyed me and he was just a cruel death eater in the end. Draco was more laid back and quite interesting, he was the cleverest in our year at school, after me, though he didn’t brag about it…much.

“Every time I see you your bigger!”, he looked down at my seemingly never ending-expanding bump, “but even with that thing in front of you your quite fit”

“Hey!”, I pouted while whacking him round the head with a pillow from his massive bed, “But from you, I guess that is a compliment, thank you”,

“Nothing wrong with telling a girl she’s good looking, I see enough good lookers as a death eater, on my travels when im not in school, but most are either thick or just not pureblood”

“There’s nothing wrong with not being pureblood!”

“I know that, its my family who are pressuring me to marry a pureblood girl, im only eighteen for fuck sake im not interested in marriage-sorry about you”

“I don’t need sympathy for being forced into marriage at a young age, but im sorry you are basically being forced to marry a girl you don’t actually love”

“I don’t need sympathy either”

“Good. So you finish school soon, any plans other than becoming a full time murderer?”

“very funny, actually I have no idea, I believe the dark lord will decide which is the best thing for me to do”
“sounds a bit like him with me but I’ve decided…once I give birth and the twins are out of the baby stge, im going to work”

“huh? Aren’t you supposed to serve the dark lord, even if your are in love and married and stuff, your technically still his slave. I don’t think he will be happy about you leaving to get a job”

“you’re right, but…well I cant be stuck in this place the rest of my immortal life! I need to use my brains for more than looking up stuff in books, I don’t care what the dark lord says, im going to work, whether he likes it or not”, I finished with a nod.

“you’re the only person who could talk to him like that you know. How’s weasel-bee?”

“don’t call him that! He’s fine actually, he’s as happy as he can be oh and he got married last week”, I remembered as Draco raised his eyebrows, “you know he was engaged so don’t be so surprised. that’s why I didn’t come round here last week and left it till today, was invited to the wedding, a small one but beautiful none the less”

“im surprised he could afford it”

“he’s not poor Draco, he’s just unlucky with a lot of things…his wife is lovely and I was so happy he invited me along, it was only her family and the twins were there, that’s all really”

“yeah, whatever…I think im gonna miss you being pregnant as well, you don’t lose your temper so easily these days”

“im glad we finally get along, fighting with you makes me feel like im slapping you in our third year”, I reminded him making him go red at the memory. “I haven’t seen your father for a while, what’s he-”

“-I’ve been doing just fine slut-slave”, Lucius suddenly appeared

“Don’t call her that father-”

“-No, he can call me whatever he likes, the dark lord told me his inner circle wouldn’t be punished for it, so it doesn’t bother me”

“See son, finally the whore is making sense, what are you still doing here by the way? The dark lord requested for your presence”, Lucius smirked knowingly

“Shit”, and Draco was gone without another word, leaving the two of us alone.

“So, still knocked up, a shame, I would have like to of seen our lovely body again but im not really into baby bumps, though you have a pretty face”

“Fuck off Lucius”, I spat as I pushed myself up off of Draco’s bed, but before I could stand properly I was being forced into the wall with my arms held tight by Lucius, “ow! What the hell Malfoy!”

“If only I could take you right here, right now”, he breathed in a day dream

“There was a time when I considered you a friend, now would you please remove your hands from me, I have places to be”

“Like where? A mud blood slave such as yourself cant have many places to go”, he sneered but releasing me anyway

“I am having the twins checked weekly, today is one of those days”

“I don’t believe you, I think you just want to be away from me”

“When you grow up, maybe ill think about considering getting along with you, now if you don’t believe me come with me if you must”

He did, just to make sure I wasn’t lying, he was truly pathetic sometimes.

..

“Milord, you wished to see me?”, I bowed my head later that night out of respect in front is his inner circle, I only called him milord in front of others and I wasn’t exactly able to give a full bow or curtsey. I was reading in the library when I felt the familiar burn on my thigh, I didn’t realise his inner circle were even there until I arrived in the room in just a thin black robe.

“I am pleased you arrived so soon”, he spoke silkily, he only ever spoke informal when it was just the two of us, “Hermione, there is much to discuss, it has just come to my attention that a secret organisation are at large”, I stepped back suddenly and filled with shock, “They name themselves The DA-”

“What?”, I gasped, “I mean, im sorry milord but I must know!”, I quickly realised I was being disrespectful in front of his followers but I just had to know what was going on.

“I admit I was unprepared for this to happen, Draco tells me that the DA were a secret society in Hogwarts, that you yourself was a part of”

“I-I…yes I was part of the DA, there’s no point lying about it, you will find out some other way”

“correct. Now, this is the reason I have called you here, you will tell me everything little thing and assist my followers in making sure…no funny business goes on”


“What? No! Im heavily pregnant, I cant deal with your problems, even if I wasn’t pregnant I wouldn’t do it anyway, I don’t want anything to do with your sadistic ways”, I argued making his eyes burn red-well redder than usual.

“You may be pregnant but you are safe and healthy and fully capable of completing a task I set you. As for telling me you will not follow my orders, I can promise you, you will do as I say or feel my wrath”, he threatened in a deadly voice, “now step out the circle with my followers”. I complied without another word, furious at him telling me I am to assist in the capture and probably punishment of the DA, my old friends. But who could be left in the DA?

“Crucio!”, I suddenly heard shouted into the circle at a young man I hadn’t noticed brought in, he must have been a muggle as his clothes were rags and Lucius was torturing him, I was too surprised to do anything but before I could say anything it was over. “Milord, I hope you are now satisfied with how I curse with my wand”

“Very well Lucius, I was beginning to think you were losing your touch when I heard you hadn’t even touched a muggle in nearly a month. Dispose of the muggle”, before Lucius had time to raise his wand, he was pinned to the floor by me on top of him.

“Don’t ever kill for. No. Fucking. Reason!”, I growled before I was pulled of by Voldemort’s magic.

“Enlighten me about your little outburst Hermione”

“it’s a sign of a coward, to fight a defenceless person, especially when its out of cold blood”, I said through gritted teeth angrily, the muggle clearly shaken up by the ordeal.

“I will not torture such a heavily pregnant lady such as yourself-even if the babies cant be harmed, but I believe you should be punished, kill the muggle or watch me torture him for hours on end and then kill him”

“I-I cant, you can do that!”

“oh I can, so what’s it going to be? Crucio!”, he cursed at the muggle

“No stop, please, please don’t make me do this!”, I cried but I knew I had to do it to stop the suffering, I was weak, “Avada kedavra!”, I whimpered as he fell down to the floor, as did my knees.

“Good girl, now get some rest”

“I hate what you do to me”, I said bitterly before standing myself up and walking past the death eaters to the door, “But you know milord, you may make me murder muggles but you will never make me even inflict a minor curse on the DA”, I finished before flicking a crucio curse to the circle, not waiting to hear someone’s screams as I left.

*

“Hermione!”, I shouted to the empty room as I apparated back into my chambers.

“What! You could have just done the easier thing, and just went straight to the library”, she sneered while walking out of the bathroom door and down on the sofa.

“You will not try to humiliate me in future”

“I haven’t in the past either, I just acted how anyone would. Why did you have to act like a complete bastard to me in there? We have been so good together lately and you just want to humiliate me! I don’t know what your going on about, saying im humiliating you! And also you didn’t even tell me about the DA until now!”

“I wasn’t trying to humiliate you, I only made you kill someone-it shouldn’t be a big deal anymore. I didn’t say anything about the DA because Draco told me this morning you were a member, even at the time you were brought here”

“you mean kidnapped”, I heard her say quietly, “I have no interest in assisting you in this task, I just want to concentrate on giving birth and then leading a normal life, I want to get a job-and one what doesn’t involve harming others!”

“you will do as I say! But I have no problem with this DA, from my knowledge they are just students, but if I have my followers on task to make sure nothing happens. Im surprised you have so much energy in you, especially after using the killing curse”

“im not weak if that’s what you are thinking”

“and that’s why I love you”, I smirked, “but even so, I do not want you using energy when its unneeded, so stop arguing with me and relax”

“I cant relax now I know my old friends may be in danger, please promise me you wont hurt them”

“im sorry I cant-”

“well the don’t kill them! Please, if you need to hurt them can you just do it when necessary? Please”, she pleaded

“fine”, her eyes lightened up, “now stop being moody, though I did like your cruciatus curse when you left, it stayed on Avery even after you went, it only stopped after a minute or so. That is excellent magic”

“Wow, I can hurt people without having to be there!”, she said happily but in a very sarcastic way, “give me a break, since the day I came here you’ve wanted me to fall in love with the dark arts, cant you see if it hasn’t happened yet then it will never happen ever!”

“we shall see, remember you were only here because I wanted you to work for me, using your skills in this so called dark magic you always talk about, now I want you for just you, it would just be nicer if you were interested in what I was interested in”

“Oh stop annoying me! Im enjoying being pregnant, but I hate you keep ruining it!”, I decided not to say anything more, she had a lot of mood swings and I had gotten used to it, I couldn’t punish her for doing something she cant help.

“I apologise then, look I have left my followers to be here, they are having some sort of party , I don’t particularly care about”

“a party? how random”

“yes, I think the excuse is someone got married on the weekend”

“oh right…”

“So hw was this morning with Draco? He told me he left you with his father, he wasn’t too happy today”

“Erm it was nice, he made me some breakfast and I helped him do some work for school, then we just talked for a while”

“Good, but I don’t want you two getting too close-”

“Oh stop thinking im going to fall in love with every man who gets close to me! I don’t lust for others, unlike some people…”

“what do you mean by that?”

“It doesn’t matter”

“Hermione, I can promise you I haven’t slept with another woman since last year when Draco and Narcissa were here, I couldn’t do that to you”, I sympathised truthfully, I really didn’t want to hurt her in that way.

“I know you’re telling the truth, im sorry for accusing you of anything”

“Don’t apologise. You know I was thinking of giving you the dark mark-”

“you what! Im no death eater and I already have one scarred around my thigh!”, she said furiously

“I know you’re not a death eater and you have a mark around your thigh, but that mark shows you belong to me and that you are a servant to the ‘dark arts’”

“excuse me? Shows who I belong to? I belong to no one!”

“Actually you do, even though we are married and I love you-a feeling I never knew existed really until I met you, you are still owned by me”

“oh fantastic, im still nothing more that property-I might as well be a plant pot”, she lowered her eyelids, blood red with anger

“you know you’re more than that. I was thinking of giving you the dark mark because, well it would be something you wanted if you did, your thigh mark was forced onto you as well as your wedding ring”

“I love my wedding ring and im proud to be your wife”, she smiled finally, “and I suppose…well im not as ashamed of my mark as I say”, she admitted making me raise an eyebrow, “im telling the truth!”

“I know you are, it just surprised me, thank you. You don’t have to get the dark mark, I just thought you night be interested in getting one-I wont give it to you like my other death eaters because it wont have the same properties such as burning when I need you, your thigh already does that. It will be more like a normal tattoo”

“so if my ring symbolises who I love, my thigh symbolises who I belong to, then my arm will represent who is my lord”, she announced, surprising me even further, “ok, ill do it”

“Seriously?”

“Im going to regret it later, but yes, seriously”, she came over and kissed me deeply,

“After I was horrible to you downstairs and made you murder someone, you really wish to do something like that for me?”

“well…I will only do it on two conditions: one, you keep to your word that you will not kill or harm any of the DA unless its completely and 100% necessary and two, you don’t pressurise me to do anything I don’t want to do, im not a possession-no matter what you, your followers or anyone else says! Is that a deal?”, she raised her hand, waiting for me to shake it.

“You drive a hard bargain darling-”

“-and stop calling me them sort of names! It really doesn’t suit you”

“The agreement mentioned nothing about calling you anything o im sorry, but”, I shook her hand with a smirk, “we’ve already made our deal pet”

“Fine, you play a fair game milord-oh!”, she stopped suddenly and sat down with her hand on her ever-growing bump

“what is it?”, she didn’t reply but took my hand and placed it on her bump with her own and I could feel it

“can you feel them? I love it when I feel them kicking or doing whatever they do, I know they are there!”, she beamed, “If they are fighting inside, I dread to think what they will be like when they are older”

“There not fighting, just playing, and even if they are fighting-we know they aren’t going to be wimpy”, I muttered making her laugh,

“They will be neither vicious nor wimpy”, she corrected me in her own way, “so how comes I get two marks and you have none?”

“You are choosing to have the second and I don’t have any because I don’t need any”

“how about you get a tattoo thing for me?”, she joked with a laugh before laying down to fall asleep with her head on my lap.

Maybe that’s how I can prove I really do care for her and not myself, she hasn’t mention it but I know she thinks it. I’ve taught her a lot lately, especially involving legilmency and occlumency but she couldn’t resist against me, she is brilliant though at what she does. I love everything about her, her smile, her eyes when they are angry, her fierceness as well as her peacefulness, her intelligence and power, just her. Pregnancy just makes her more beautiful than she is.

Why am I such a bastard to her? I regretted mentioning the dark mark as soon as I said it but when she agreed and surprised me, I was happy.

After about an hour of just sitting, going over my thoughts and stroking her hair I made a decision. I lifted my left arm and placed the tip of my wand on the inner side, with one last look down at Hermione I said the charm in my head, bringing excruciating pain but I wouldn’t budge.
I watched as my blood rose to the surface and began to form a shape similar to the dark mark, I never realised how it hurt, but pain didn’t effect me and it didn’t actually hurt me but because I rarely felt pain-the cruciatus being one which didn’t effect me, it was quite a surprise I could feel a slight burn.

A black rose burned up my arm to my elbow, entwined with a snake very similar to the one on my followers, I marvelled at my work and in disbelief that I had actually marked myself for a woman, she was more than a woman and if scarring myself will prove to her she means more to me than she thinks…well im glad I did it.

“Hermione…”, I whispered in her ear making her stir, “wake up love”

“I thought I told you not to give me pet names”

“I thought I told you we had already made a deal, im joking, im only doing it to annoy you”

“I can tell”, she pouted and sat up with a yawn, “oh, how long was asleep? You haven’t moved since I lay my head on your lap!”

“only about an hour”

“oh sorry”, she apologised

“don’t apologise, I like to just be with you. Well, onto important matters, I wanted to show you something”

“what is it-oh”, she stopped as I showed her my new ‘tattoo’ under my robe, “you did this? Why?”

“Because you told me the meanings for all the symbols on you, now im going to tell you that the mark here on my arm shows my love for the most beautiful, intelligent and caring woman I have ever known, and how much…-im not really the romantic type”

“oh you ruined it”, she giggled, “I wouldn’t have thought the darkest wizard in history could be romantic but you can, thank you. So lets get on with my arm”, she said boldly and suddenly.

I don’t deserve this do I. she forgives me so easily and accepts my beliefs.

Life is just how it should be, i think.

_

Lucius isnt that happy, Voldemort is and Draco-well im unsure.
So the DA are back!-They never actually left but sort of replaced teh order of the phoenix when they fell, lets see how it goes then :)