Mine

Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened
-Beyonce, Listen

"It feels so weird being back here, its like the place i was at before i was brought to you, brought into my new life...", i whispered as we walked down a crowded hallway towards an office in the minsitry of magic. Everyone we passed avoided eye contact and bowed their heads to Voldemort,
"It seems everyone has a bad neck milord", i muttered sarcastically making him chuckle, it was still strange to hear or see a smile from him, even though i had seen so many.

Finally after entering the warm, rich office, Voldemort sat himself behind a mahogany desk piled with documents and paperwork as well as a small lamp and a few leather bound books, the room was obviously a private one as no one but us was in there and no one entered or got within a few feet of the door, i could see through a window in the wall showing the outside, but not visible from outside. How nosey! He indicated for me to stand in front of him and quickly wrote a note on some parchment.

"If you want to make yourself useful you can go to Severus's office and give him this note, it tells him that it was me who sent you and that you are to assist him if he needs it"

"so basically im just here to do all the shitty stuff no one else can be bothered to do...fine i better get on with it then milord", i quickly added to make sure he knew i wasn't being disrespectful, he wouldnt think twice to torture me.

"Its down by where we apparated to, he works in a private office like my own as he is minister, i dont usually work here but when i do this is where i stay, anyway there is a sign on his door-"

"dont worry milord, i think ill manage", i smiled and took the note, "i feel like im back at school, taking a note from the teacher to give to another and-...nevermind", i finished, knowing full well he wouldn't understand me talking about being at school, his school life would have been so different from my own.

"I dont remember doing that sort of stuff at school, i mainly remember using the chamber of secrets, becoming headboy and fucking quite alot of girls i never knew the names of"

"so your school life wasn't that similair to my own, strange how people who are so different end up together...", i said before leaving without another word.

*

It had been any years since i had remembered my school years properly, those were the days when i became who i am today, ah...i loved even at such a young age being able to control, hurt and even kill others, even then i wanted-no...i already had power.

My genious horcruxes were my first step to being the dark lord, even then my classmates reffered to me as their lord and followed my orders knowing i would torture them easily. I took full advantage of my private room, being headboy and all but in previous years i just used the room of requirement, it was so much easier that way to do things...

I smirked at the memories as i carried on with my work, hoping to hell Hermione doesnt screw anything up or the very least embarass me.

*

"So the dark lords pet is back and in need of a task...", Snape smirked as i passed him the note in his lonely office, everyone i passed did the same as with Voldemort, bowing their heads and avoiding my gaze. I didnt like it but i preferred the change of scenery and people who werent death eaters around, i didnt let it bother me.

"Dark lords pet? Thats a big step down from 'milady' or have i missed something?"

"You never liked the title anyway so dont complain, i ust decided calling you my lady is like saying you are higher than me, from now on i will do it out of respect in front of the dark lord"

"whatever you say, so what's the task? Seeing as you're a busy man i think im supposed to be grateful you've taken the time to give me work, yeah right..."

"dont get snarky with me. Now, seeing as i have to give you something to do, you can organise those documents", he pointed to a very large pile of papers, "in alphabetical order"

"Your joking!"

"I rarely joke and never at work"

"Its going to take me hours!"

"Its a good thing you dont have to be anywhere else then", he smirked offering me a chair on a seperate desk in his office, he levitated the heavy pile in front of me with a thud as a look of amusement spread across his face.

"Bastard", i muttered under my breath

"What was that?"

"I said this is going to be so interesting!", i smiled making him roll his eyes.

It was such boring work, stuff i knew i could have been paid quite alot for if i was being paid, but no, i had to do it because i just did. I thought the ministry would be a bit more fun to be at but maybe the lack of visitors to Snape's office made it seem even more boring, he worked silently with a quill, occasionally getting up to pour himself a drink or receive or attach some mail to an owl. I felt like i was in detention or something, only worse as i had a small bump in front of me so it was harder to get as close to the desk as i would have liked.

"Having fun?", he hadn't spoken in what seemed like hours, and the first ones just had to be sarcastic, "dont pout your lips like that, its as if you didnt want to be here", i looked up, not noticing i had been pouting my lips to stop myself from cursing him, i smiled to annoy him.

"Have you finished your work or something? I wouldnt have thought you would have been distracted by my lips if not"

"Though they are very nice, i was actually going to let you go"

"Its not a punishment or something, im here so the dark lord doesnt have to hear my complaints of being bored alone stuck in his chambers all day, so saying 'im letting you go' doesnt mean much to me. Anyway, where am i supposed to go? the dark lord wont be taking me back for a while yet"

"As long as your in my company, i can go anywhere with you, so seeing as i have to go and talk to Lucius at my home, it seems you are coming too"

"what! Im going nowhere near your place, last time i was there i was tied to a bed"

"would you have prefered to be let loose while high on lust potion, would you have wanted to find out the next day that i had taken full advantage of you?", he raised and eybrow which i slowly nodded to, "good, now take my arm and we can apparate"

So thats how i ended up sitting alone in Snapes living room with only a few million books for company, i didnt wish to touch them-which was surprising but i was in no mood for Snape or Lucius, apparantly Snape had some potions to attend to while Malfoy was just plain late. I was in no mood for Lucius definitley, after i heard he had murdered many muggles in cold blood, i had gone off getting along with him, i didnt want to mix with his type (though being the dark lords wife didnt help that much)

"The dark lady...a pleasant surprise...", Lucius announced himself politely before seating himself oposite myself, "No speaking today? A shame, we have not spoke in quite some time"

"It seems you've used your words instead to cast the unforgivables on innocents...I prefer to not involve myself with people who lie"

"Lie?"

"i am not a good man and never have or will be, surely you knew that by now, well it doesnt bother me if you dont like me-"

"i didnt say that, i still like you but not in the same way anymore", i eyed his hand holding tightly onto his wand, which he had sneakily taken out of his cane, i wasnt stupid.
"You might want to loosen that grip on your wand, it might break", i smirked as he furiously raised it up at me, he knew he couldn't do a thing but i dared him with my eyes to.

"Now, now Lucius, calm down, we dont want any...accidents happening do we?", Snape appeared out of nowhere, i heard Lucius mutter something sounding much like 'Accidents happen' but lowered his wand anyway, he would be punished severely for hurting me,

"The mudbloods not worth it", it was my time to raise my wand from hidden in a deep pocket, they didnt know i was carrying it but i always had it on me.

"Dont ever say that word", i said through clenched teeth.

"Isn't it a bit too much magic for someone who is unworthy to carry a wand?", Lucius taunted but knew how serious i was so didn't repeat that word.

"Then i wonder why you are holding one in your hand"

"Why you-!", he cut off before storming out of the room leaving me wanting to laugh, but Snape was still present looking quite unsure.

"Keep yourself out of trouble, the dark lord will not be happy to learn how you've been acting"

"I havent done anything! Oh forget it, im bored as hell anyway so maybe it will be more interesting for you to take me back to the minsitry just to hear the dark lord having a go at me, anythings better than sitting in here with nothing to do!"

"You are so spoilt. There are thousands of books in here probably and you are complaining"

"Ive seen enough darkness to last a while, i dont need any books to lecture me on the stuff"

"A fair point, then i suggest you read up on pregnancy, i have a rather small selection in the corner"

"why in the world would you have-"

"Pregnancy is a time when a lot of hormones are produced in a woman, i researched how it could affect her magic, in the past when on my travels. They may or may not be of use to you. As long as you do not disturb me, i will be happy to allow you to touch what you like, just dont leave this room", and he was gone once again.

Sod this...i cant sit in a room filled with dark books on my own, alone and bored-and pregnant, well being pregnant didnt affect anything it was just uncomfortable. I glanced over to the door Snape and Lucius had just gone through before making my decision, i wasn't Snape's prisoner, he couldn't make me stay here. I couldnt get into trouble could i? I wasnt exactly leaving, i was going straight back to the ministry. I made my decision with one last look around the room, with a turn and a pop i was back in Snapes's office in the ministry.

"Who is apparting here vithout consent?", a wand poked into the back of my left shoulder as i recognised the males european accent, i turned slowly and gasped in surprise, "Herm-niny?"

"Your getting better at pronouncing my name, and you accent isn't as thick as it was", i smiled as Victor Krum settled his wand by his side, still in deep shock, "What are you doing here!"

"You look different Herm-niny, vit is a pleasure to be in the presence of you again", he took my hand and kissed it like how he did in my fourth year, i blushed as he carried on, "I vork for the minsiter, quidditch vosn't vot i vanted to do...as a career, i still play regulary though-as a hobby now"

"Well, thats good to know, and you're ok!"

"Vhy vouldn't i be? Oh, i apologise, the dark lords victory affected you more than most didn't it, Ive vorked in the ministry vor about two years now, im used to it you could say"

"Oh"

"I vos saddened when i heared you ver taken back then, you alvays have had a special place in my heart and now i see you again, so different"

"Im no different from even when we danced at the yule ball", i assured him, "please tell me you havent changed Victor"

"I detest the dark art of magic, so i have not. I vork as an assistant to the minister, it vos easy to get the job in the first place, being an international quidditch player, Fudge took me on for the publicity...ven Snape took his post, he let me stay, being an old aquaintance and that from the triwizard tournemount, i vink he believed i vould bring out my inner drumstrang though"

"Why would you want to work in the minsitry though?"

"Its more realistic than being a quidditch player for the vest of my days, as i said before, i still play just not as much", he nodded his head then looked at me curiously, "vhy are you here?"

"Im supposed to be with Snape but i got bored so i apparated back to his office"

"The minister has killed for less"

"Maybe, but the only one who can punish me is the dark lord, im used to it now"

"Courage, that is a Gryffindor...er trademark?"

"yes", i laughed, "supposedly it is, but not all are brave, take Wormtail for example..."

"I see vot you mean, the rat 'visits' the ministers office every now and again, pitiful. Herm-ninny, your appearance may have changed but i see you are still the same, those red tinted eyes and dark brown hair does not hide the real you"

"Thank you Victor, i missed you so much, i wrote to you as often as i could and im sorry i never got to visit your country, but of course...i didnt exactly get the chance"

"I moved to Britain the summer you vere taken, i missed you to, i hope i did not surprise you as much as you did to me"

"Well, i was surprised to see you here of all places, i knew you were...well alive, but i guess i just assumed you stayed in your country. I didnt even know quidditch still existed"

"Of course it does, it vould be good for you to come one day, unless you are still prisoner?"

"I-I, im not sure, i would love to come but its not my decision", i lowered my eyes out of sadness, to my surprise he came over and put his hands on my shoulders, pushing my chin up to look in his eyes. For a second i wanted to kiss him, just for a second. I leaned up slightly but within an inch of his lips i pulled away, i just missed him that was all, i didnt like him in that way.

"I see you have gotten cosy with my wife Krum", the icey words from Voldemorts lips sliced across the room, i turned to see him looking, not angry, just very displeased, as if disapointed?

"My apologies milord-"

"Dont apologise", i told Victor before looking back to my husband, "he did nothing, if anything hapened it was me who made the first move"

"I know and i will deal with you in a second. I wont curse you today Krum, this is your first warning, if i see you even in the same room as her without my knowledge, i will see to it that you wont see daylight for a very long time, is that clear?"

"Yes milord, of course, i apolgise", Victor bowed his head before dashing out when Voldemort dismissed him.

"You didnt need to warn him as nothing happened, something may have nearly happened but i think we both knew it wasnt what we wanted, we just missed each other"

"I told you not to leave Snape"

"I was bored and uncomfortable sitting in his house, so i came back here, not a crime is it?"

"You are very ungrateful, i thought id take you out of the room fo the day, so you had a bit more freedom-"

"Freedom? being forced to spend a day doing nothing but organise papers and sit alone in a room, next to a couple of deatheaters! I came back to see you but then i saw Victor, well i missed him and it was nice to see an old friend"

"You only just saw an old friend! That red headed boy, i do not care about his name! That Krum boy isn't just an old friend though is he? Something happened between you two during the year of the triwizard tournameunt"

"What possibly could have happened! He took me to the yule ball, and you make it sound like we were having an affair!"

"My sources told me you were seeing him back then"

"Does it matter? We went on a couple of dates and we might of made out as well a bit, but so what? I was just a regular teenager before you came alone and made my life hell!", i shouted but quickly covered my mouth, "Im sorry, i didn't mean that"

"I know, but you will never ever mention being with another man, i have told you before, and this is your last chance"

"Okay, i know, i dont want to think about being with another person, but i kept in contact with Krum for about a year, just pen pals-friends, nothing more. As long as you know that, but all that is in the past"

"Krum is just an employee here, he wont be bothering you again"

"He wasnt bothering me. So what do you want me to do now? Go back to Snapes 'fun' place or go back home?"

*

Home sweet home, that is the saying isn't it? I love hearing her name my home as her home, its so...nice...Is that even a real word in my head?

"You will apoloise to Snape-"

"What! The only person i apologise to is you, Snape didnt want me there in the first place, im not apologising for something he wanted to happen!"

"Dont i feel special", i smirked to which she rolled her eyes

"I bet you do"

"Well you are apologising, its only out of curtesy, you are a lady and will act like a lady by apologising for your mistake"

"It wasn't a mistake", i heard her mutter under her breathe making me chuckle, she was the only person in the world who could make me do that so much.

"Then you will apologise anyway. I was just about to head off to Hogwarts when i found out you had left Snape, im going now"

"Why?"

"I was supposed to go yesterday but in the end changed my mind. Im going to talk to the students, nothing wrong with that is there?",

"No, but its a bit odd for you to go round to a school and just 'chat' to kids", she eyed me suspicously

"Im not going to torture anyone! Come with me"

"Huh?", before i answered i took her arm and apparated us to the gates outside Hogwarts. "Why did you bring me here!"

"You would probably go running off again, come"

"Dont order me around like a dog", she sneered, stubbornly standing still as i walked forward

"If i remember correctly, you once wore a collar like a dog", i could see the rage in her eyes but she wisely bit her lip to stop herself saying anything. She followed me slowly across the grounds to the main doors of the castle on purpose, just to annoy me, but i wouldnt give her the satisfaction of letting her know that.

"You brought me as a punishment didn't you milord, because i spoke to Krum, im not stupid"

"I know you're not, why would bringing you here be a punishment?", she was right though, i partly brought her because i knew how she felt about this school now, she wanted to remember it as a good place to her.

"You know, your not stupid either. At least do me a favour, dont make me look like im into dark magic"

"Ill do my best", i promised amused as i led her into the castle and towards the great hall

"Where are we...no not the great hall! Everyone is going to be there, it's going to be hard enough with just a few students let alone the whole student body!", she stopped in her tracks

"If you dont come i will have to force you", i threatened. When she didnt move, i sighed and then imperioed her to follow, i could tell she was fighting it but i used the one which controlled the mark on her thigh, much stronger.
I saw her pale as she strided with me into the hall, the room silenced as i strode casually in front of everyone, i was late-but so what? I released Hermione from the imperio knowing she wouldnt just walk out, she nervously looked over at recognisable faces and then back to her feet, bloody woman! She can face death eaters but she gets scared in front of teenagers...
The christmas trees lined the sides of the hall and snow seemed to be falling from the ceiling lightly-i should think about using one of those spells back hom, its good magic.

"I am a day late because of certain circumstances, but, i dont believe that is a problem", i said quietly but i knew they could all hear, it was silent other than my words.
"I...I have changed my mind about what i came here for...Hogwarts is an ancient school, for centuries it has produced some of the greatest wizards in history, thats why im changing things...back"

"what?", Hermione turned to me dumbfounded, as did the rest of the school, none uttered a word as they waited for me to say something along the lines of 'im kidding, your'e all going to die'.

"I made a mistake changing this school, so many intelligent, powerful wizards have been produced from here. I want more in the future, working for me. This is why everything is going back to how it was before i changed the rules, Slytherin, Gryffindor, Hufflepuff and Ravenclaw will once again be seperate houses who battle in quidditch and house points", i announced, i had had it planned since before Hermione left, but her words about being a regular teenager hit me hard. To get the most out of these students they needed to be normal teenagers, "But, dark arts is still compulsory as is defence-it is important", i added

What the fuck is he up to! I heard inside her mind, she had stopped using occlumency so much since she had gotten pregnant, it was like she didnt need to hide anything from me.

All i am up to is what i just said, nothing more. I want good workers in the future

Get out of my head!, she replied furiously in her head, i smirked and then turned back to the students.

"I hope this is a good thing for you all, i know it will be for myself. For a few of you, your futures will be being a death eater-the most important and highest job anyone can have"

"Talk about brainwashing", i heard her mutter before i grabbed her arm

"What are you doing!", she gasped as i held onto her tight,

"I hope it is understood, that discipline will still be a very important aspect in your school lives, i wont allow any unforgivables of course, but...in the extreme case, i should make it clear im not a very merciful wizard, crucio!", Hermione screamed at the top her lungs as i tortured her unexpectadly, she couldnt ignore the pain as i took away her magic just for the moment, this way i could torture her the normal way. The looks on the childrens faces was indescribable, of course the older ones were more disgusted than scared. I dont know why i did it, i just believed everyone would think i was losing my touch after annoucning my plans to change most things in Hogwarts back to how they were. Once i released the curse, Hermione whimpered as she got her breath back, once i restored her magic to her she was able to stand again.

There are nicer ways of getting attention

"Thats just a minor warning of the minor things i am capable of, sleep tight", i added with a sly smirk

"your so good with kids", Hermione said sarcastically so only i could hear as we walked towards the main doors, the students had resumed finishing there dinner and chatting normally-well, doing their best to not be punished for something by going silent as i passed, "I cant wait to see you looking after my children"

"Our children", i corrected her, once we were through the doors i stopped and turned back to her "well im going now, see you in the morning"

"What?"

"Im going home, oh sorry, did i forget to mention you have to stay here tonight?", i laughed at her dumbfounded and annoyed expression,

"What the hell!"

"I thought you were supposed to address me as your lord and be polite?"

"Why are you leaving me behind?", she demanded, ignoring me.

"I have something going on and you cant be in the way-"

"Thanks"

"Id prefer it if you wasn't rude. I cant tell you why, but i trust you can keep yourself out of trouble while you're here, i'll have someone bring you back around lunch", i turned to leave

"You cant just leave me here!"

"Yes i can. Seeing as the houses are back to normal, you can decide which common room you wish to stay in"

*

Before i knew it, he had left, and i was alone. Fuck, is this punishment for chatting to Krum? He knows i never wished to be in this castle again, i never wanted to see how it had changed.
Bet im here so he can go and fuck some whore, and im supposed to be grateful that i can choose which common room i stay in? Bastard.
I was scared, what the hell do i do! I noticed a few familiar faces in the hall, Neville, Luna, Lavande, Seamus, Malfoy and his cronies-who couldnt stop smirking at my distressed appearance and a few other random students.

"So nice to see you again", i heard the silkily sly voice come from behind me to face me,

"You know, i will get round to slapping you one more time by the time i leave this place", Dracos expression turned sour as he narrowed his eyes

"Tut,tut. I was only being nice...well we'll see. Anyway, im here on the dark lords orders to take you to your chosen common room and give you the password"

"Thanks but no thanks", i started to walk towards the stairs, i had decided to go to the room of requirement and sleep there, i knew i wasnt welcome anywhere else.

"Going so fast? Come on, its hours before everyone has to be in their rooms and as im headboy i get to explore the hallways anytime over night, come one, being in my company will get you out and about more"

"This place...there is too many memories here", i murmered as i carried on but he stopped me with his hand on my arm

"Were going outside, you need some fresh air-being stuck inside for so long isnt good for you", he pulled me back down the stairs and outside. Dusk had given the sky a beautiful red and purple tinge, beautiful.

"Since when are you a doctor?"

"Since i say so"

"Having that mark on your arm doesnt make you a big person", i eyed the dark mark being revealed on his left arm as his robe brushed above it as he pulled me along.

"No, its what the person is capable of", he replied coldly, i was surprised, he had matured much more than before. "Lets sit by the lake, then no one will disturb us when we talk"

"What do you want to talk about?"

He didnt answer until we were at the lakes edge, roughly where i woke up when Krum rescued me back in the fourth year, i smiled.
"You dont have to trust me if you dont want to, would be nicer if you did. From day one, when i first knew of your blood, i decided to hate you, and in turn you hated me also, so dont get me wrong, talking to you is wierd for me"

"What is it that you wanted Draco?", sighed, dipping my foot into the icey water after taking my shoes off,

"Im not sure, i feel so disgusted with myself! I hate what ive been turned into, a Malfoy"

"You were always a Malfoy"

"I know, but its only what my parents turned me into and plus being a death eater...there are high expectations"

"What did you do which disgusts you so much?"

"I came within about an inch of raping someone, and i ahte myself for it. My father of course always told me, 'if the girl doesnt want it, tough". Hes such an evil man, i feel cursed to have him as my father"

"What happened?"

"I was with a couple of my fathers friends when some young woman passed, i think she was a muggle because of the clothes...anyway, they taunted me to do it, take what i deserved as they put it. Its disgusting, when she screamed they hit her, i got so far as to taking half her clothes off but when i loked into her eyes...i stunned everyone, the death eaters and her. I took her away and left her somewhere safe, but i feel so terrible. Im not like that", he cried, i could tell how disgusted he really was with his actions-even though he had barely done anything compared to some death eaters.

"I know your not, but they are. You dont have to do anything you dont want to, once you've stuck up for yourself...things will be better. Its how i survived long"

"Is different for you, he's married and impregnanted you-thats not exactly going to happen to me now is it"

"Unless your hiding a big secret", i laughed, "seriously, you didn't do anything, the bastards that do will get whats coming to them. What goes around comes around..."

"Thanks"

"For what?", i asked puzzled

"For understanding, you're the only person i could of spoken to about not wanting to do such...disgusting things. I suppose im used to torturing and killing people now, but i feel remorse, unlike the rest"

"Thats good then, at least...Its getting dark, and i just know that squid's tentacles are getting closer", i grinned as i noticed the giant squids tentacles wondering across the waters surface, making ripples like waves.

Draco left me when we got back in the castle after telling me the passwords to all common rooms, he wasnt that bad really, but i knew we would always have that mutal feud for a while. Not that that was a bad thing. I climbed up the moving stairs to my chosen destination, it had to be Gryffindor. Where else? Even if they all hated me, i had to see the common room, remember what it was like to be in there...

"Password-its you!", the fat lady exclaimed when she looked up at my face, "I haven't seen you in a while but i have heard some things from the other portraits...why are you back?"

"Im not telling you so you have new gossip for your portrait friends", i replied blankly

"Fine. But no password, no entry"

"Its a good job i know it then", i smiled, the fat lady was always rude, "the Gryffindors i expect are celebrating, being one house again instead of being split into pureblood and half-blood etc. Its nice when people are happy...the password is Panthera leo, for the lion, the symbol of Gryffindor. Very fitting". The fat lady grumpily sighed as she swung open, and i was only a footstep from returning to a place i basically lived in for 5 years of my schooling life.

I heard music playing and i smiled, as i entered quiety i saw happy faces, happy people. I sighed as i stood watching, i would have done anything to blend in-to avoid any problems, but the fact i wasn't wearing school uniform and...well me being the dark lords wife and all...

"Its her...", i heard a soft voice i recognised as Lavanders say, and things went quiet as probably every student in the common room turned to look at me. I never imagined how horrible and guilty i would feel as some of my old friends watched me, i lowered my chin to the ground as i was unsure what to do, maybe soming here was a bad idea.

"Hermione, your back?", Neville asked with a confused expression across his face as i looked up to see him, he hadnt changed one but but i could tell he was a more confident person, just from his body language and voice, it wasnt weak anymore. The times had changed alot of people.

"I have been told i have to stay here tonight, i hope that is ok with you all, because if its not i'll just go to the room of requirement and get a bed for the night, i dont want to intrude...", i muttered sadly.

"You can stay as long as you tell us what has happened since you left-"

"-I didnt leave, i was taken. You want to hear my side of the story? Well i shall tell you..."

Maybe i had a chance after all to keep old friends and not be hated by my ex-peers. That would make things perfect if it happened, well knowing my luck...they allowed me to explain and listened, which was a start i guess.

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So sorry for the extreme delay! Ive just been so busy and have had a few important things happening, which i needed to do before this chapter, hope you can forgive me :)