My Story

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Gone With Her Heart

By: Megumi

 

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Chapter
Four

 

 

 

Misao arrived late at night that day. She had
to wait a while because Kaoru had utterly forgotten that she was on her way to
England. When she finally did arrived, Misao was wearing and expression saying
I-want-to-throttle-you, so as soon as
Kaoru could talk to her without shouting, she began to throw excuses of her
tardiness. At the end, Misao just hugged her friend and asked if she was
feeling fine, remembering of Kaoru's state of pregnancy. Kaoru took her to the
motel room and left her bags there, then went with her to the nearby fast food
restaurant, which happens to be a McDonald.

They chattered about everything they could find
to try to delay the moment of truth and let Kaoru's guts gather together. Misao
knew she didn't want to tell her about that truth, but she knew Kaoru would
tell her. She had liked Kaoru since the first moment she came to be tested for
the restaurant, and since the very beginning, Misao had longed to know what was
behind that facade she wore every time she came into the Akabeko. Tae, had also
said that Kaoru was someone very different. She had talked about Kaoru with
Misao one day before closing. Kaoru had just left, but they came to the
conclusion that she had a troubled life.

Both women find her utterly attractive, and she
definitely had a way with the male customers, indirectly making them want her.
Tae never objected to that since she had expected that. Actually, the why of
why she had hired Kaoru was because of her attractive features. The Akabeko was
undergoing a hard moment and an attractive waitress will mean that men will
inform other males of the beauty and will go to the Akabeko to be treated by
her. Kaoru always favored the men first, than the women. There might be five
tables full of girls, but if a man just came in, she would attend him first
than the other girls. When there was a couple, Tae had said, Kaoru will try to
flirt with the guy, sometimes making the girl jealous, but since she was being
very utteutterly discreet, the girls let it pass.

However, now she was finally going to know the
why of that special talent attracting males. She hoped to learn something from
her so that she could try luring Aoshi. Oh, by the way, Aoshi was here. She
immediately made an excuse to the chattering Kaoru and told her that she needed
to call Aoshi. That she was pregnant and that she needed to be in a respectable
place.

Kaoru dreaded the world when she made that
comment. She had hoped Misao will try to talk about it tomorrow but now she
realized that Misao was just trying to delay the moment until she could feel
comfortable.

"I think we should go to the motel and
then from there you call Aoshi, I don't think you would like to tell him the
reason in public." Not really, she wouldn't want Misao to tell Aoshi
anything, but she knew Aoshi was just going to know. If he did help then, he
surely needed to know everything.

Misao agreed. They walked back to the motel
still eating their burgers and French fries with the coke too. They had to
struggle to get the door open for their hands were full of food. Once in they
dropped the food in the nearest table and sat down to eat.

"Will you tell me now? Or do you want me
to call Aoshi first and tell us both?"

Misao knew they needed to tell Aoshi. God, she
didn't want everyone to know about this. She didn't feel ashamed, she wanted
that baby, it was the only thing possible she could ever have from her beloved
Kenshin. Oh god, she loved him, but he'll never go so low as to marry a whore.

"Call Aoshi, if he helps then let's wait
until we get there to talk."

Misao didn't hesitate. She went to the phone
and immediately pulled out a paper where she had written the number of Aoshi's
apartment in England. She grabbed the phone and dialed carefully each number so
she wouldn't make a mistake.

Kaoru could here the conversation Misao was
having with Aoshi. She actually took almost half an hour speaking with him, but
she had said that Kaoru needed a place to stay and that she would explain
everything when they got there. She notice her wary tone, she knew there was
something between them both, but now she knew that Misao was in love with
Aoshi. Apparently he had made a joke for Misao broke into a loud laughter, but
then just as fast as she had laughed it all went serious and then she hung up.

Misao flashed the paper on Kaoru's face making
her come back to earth for she had been very thoughtful. She gave the paper to
her and then they decided to pack. Aoshi, Misao said, had told her to go now
over there, that he would be expecting them.

Kaoru had just to take out her bag to be ready.
They had to log out and then they waited some ten minutes until a cab was seen
in the distance and they called to him. The cab sped down and stopped just in
front of them. He noticed both girls had bags with them so he went out of the
car and opened the truck for them. He helped them mount the bags into it and
then opened the door for them. Both girls were surprised. Never had a taxi man
opened the door for them, but they didn't complain. Once he asked her where
they were going, he drove fast toward their destination. The whole trip was in
silence, only the sound of Robbie William's "angel" song was played,
and was the only thing heard. Both girls looked the whole way out the window,
taking in each detail of the new city in which they were...London.

It was almost eleven when they arrived at
Aoshi's. He was waiting in the front door to help them with their bags. How
gentlemanly. He led them to the apartment. Once they were in they noticed it
looked just like a guy's apartment. Big, spacious, and scarcely furnished, only
the important. When they saw the bed of Aoshi's bedroom they just k THI THIS
was a bachelor's apartment. A huge king sized bed with black covering. There
was a sort of a book shelf right in front of the bed, with a big hole in the
middle where the TV was located, and what a big TV. Right underneath it, there was the DVD from the home theatre and
the play station. The surroundings where full of books and under the play
station were three drawers that, must contain all the video games.

Aoshi led them to their respective rooms, he
said he hadn't organized the beds, and that he needed to clean the rooms for
there had been a long time since someone stayed in them, but he offered his
room to both girls so that they wouldn't sleep in the dust. Kaoru was about to
deny that but Misao had answered faster, and then Kaoru knew, that was because
of her stated of pregnancy, so she let it pass.

They stood there expectantly, just after Aoshi
had shown them around. Aoshi and Misao where waiting for Kaoru to start. When
she finally noticed what was that they wanted she told them to sit in Aoshi's
bed and listen.

"Okay, I guess this is the moment of
truth. You all know that I'm a smart girl." They nodded, she continued,
"Well, I am, for that reason I quitted school. I've always enjoyed reading
and I'm very good at mostly everything. My mother died when I was very young,
and I lived with my older brother and my father until I was sixteen, I guess.
Ever since I was ten, or a little bit younger, my father had ab me. me. Every
night he would snick into my room and screw me. I couldn't do anything. It
hurt, but I didn't know about anything. One day, my uncle came to visit but we
didn't know. He entered my room when my father was fucking me and got aroused
by the image. He and my father fucked me that night. Then My brother got in the
game, bu, but I was very young, and although it hurt like shit, I couldn't cry
or else my father will hit me. I didn't know this was sex, I didn't know
anything. One day I went to school and there went a woman to talk about sexual
relationships when I was around twelve. Since that day, I knew that there ere
abusing me. But that woman said you should take pleasure by doing that, so I
tried to take some pleasure, but when my father noticed what I was trying to
do, he hit me and then he fucked me so unmerciful and even more unmerciful than
the other times. I cried, and by every time he spanked me."

Aoshi and Misao looked at her with a face of
astonishment. They never expected this. Misao was starting to think, Kaoru was
pregnant from her father, so she asked, "you never got pregnant?"

"Once I did, but only once and I aborted.
I wasn't going to abort, I was a child, and I was careless, and I was playing.
I fell down and I lost the baby. When I went to the bathroom my water broke and
I had the small fetus in the toilet when I stood up. I was bleeding, but I
never told my dad. I took care of everything. I think I was fifteen by then.
But at that age I was having fun about that. I was poor. The bat mat my school
talked about sex all day, and by the time the girls were thirteen, the great
majority had lost their virginity. However, they always said it was fun, so I
fucked all the guys at my school."

"It's weird to come to such conclusion
after such harsh treatment." Aoshi
said. He was trying to digest all this. He couldn't believe such a beautiful
girl had suffered over so much.

"I know, but I was traumatized, in a very
weird way. I came to my senses after I- well let me go in order." They
nodded. "I got the reputation of the best girl in school, although the
girls treated me like shit. The boys of course where delighted with me. I
flirted with them, I was beautiful"

"You s are are" Aoshi said. Kaoru
blushed.

"But then I had the best grades in my
school, I was the top of the class, and I hardly did any effort. That's when I
knew I could go away. Everyday I dreaded to go home fearing that my brother or
my father where there or even my uncle for he made exclusive visits for the
only purpose to fuck me. I started to hate men, and I wanted to treat them bad,
so that they'd all pay for my suffered life. I went to a bar, and I started to
dance. The owner there always tried to fuck me, and one day, I made a plan. I
was tired of only making their eyes pop out with just the sight of me. I wanted
to be the untouchable, the only one that could fuck but so hard they couldn't
touch me. I never permitted them to. I was seventeen by then, and it wasn't
until now, a month ago, that my eyes where open. I fell in love."

Both looked at her in bewilderment. They hardly
knew what to say. A girl that had helped them so much, so beautiful, so
loveable, so friendly, she was a temptress, a harlot, a feminist, but what made
her change, love?

"That night, this man came into the bar. I
found him utterly attractive, and somehow I sensed that he was different. I
found myself desiring a man for the first time. I followed all my rules of
seduction, and he took me to bed. He started rough, he wanted me to open my
eyes. Then, he finally could, and he made love to me. That's when I knew that
not always was sex for only pleasure but for the satisfaction of being loved.
He was the only one that loved me, and only for one night."

"But, I got pregnant by it. Now I'm
pregnant. I'm going to have his baby. I didn't know that 'till the night I
dreamt about it, and I suddenly knew that my dream was telling me that I was
pregnant. I spent one whole month looking for him."

"To tell him?"

"No, I didn't know during that whole
month."

"Ah" both exclaimed

"I decided to find a more honorable job,
but I still kept my nights occupied with the bar. I couldn't leave the bar. He
could come back one night, so I continued working in it. Then one day he was
there. I went out of a room after fulfilling my job with a customer, and I saw
him march out of the bar. I ran after him, but people got in my way, by the
time I got to the door he was gone, and I had lost him, again. I went towards
the guy he was talking to when I first spotted him. I asked him his name, but
he wouldn't tell me. I think he thought I was going to hurt him, so I had to
make a brief explanation of why I needed He He told me that he had seen his
friend very distraught after his encounter with me. That's when I thought he
was affected by it, just the same way I was, but when I went to visit him, I
don't know. I couldn't bring myself to telm. Am. All I ever wanted was to give
up my life, give up everything and be with him, but once I saw him, I knew it
wasn't possible. He would never take a whore for a wife. I ran away."

"YOU RAN AWAY? But why? The guy had given
you the clue, he WAS affected by you."


"I know, but he also told me that he
didn't frequented whores, that he did only when he couldn't stand his state of
celibacy. He also told me he hadn't slept with a whore since he was sixteen,
and it was clear to me he must be at least thirty. Then some days later I had
the dream and when I took tregnregnancy test, it was positive, I could only
think of running away, and never tell him he has a child."

"You should tell him."

"I can't, I love him, he can't and he
won't be with me. This child...this child is the only thing I'll ever have of
him." Tears wheunniunning down her cheek. "I'm afraid he would try to
take it away, or make me abort him, or give him away..."

"You said you know his name, perhaps I
know who he is, tell me what's his name." Aoshi asked

"I-I don't think it's wise..."

"If I know him, I will tell him but-"
he was cut.

"NO, If you know him don't ever tell
him...I...I would like to be the to to tell him....I wouldn't want anybody to
tell him"

"But you said you wouldn't."

"If you know him...then I guess I'll have
to tell him..."

"Then you're going to tell me?"

"Kenshin, Kenshin Himura."

Aoshi and Misao where both shocked at that
name.

"You said Himura Kenshin?" They both
asked.

"Yes" although it was almost unheard.
Kaoru had lost all her hopes of never telling him. Both of them knew who he
was.

"How in this world did you managed to fall
in love, get pregnant and make him affected all at the same time with this man!
You don't know who he IS, do you?"

"No..." she whispered.

"Kenshin, god, I WORK with him. In fact,
he'll be arriving here tomorrow!"

"WHAT!?" both girls exclaimed at the
same time.

"It can't be, I didn't thought it would be
this fast...Oh no, I can't do it, I can't face him..." she sat down, she
was dizzy, she had her head in a mess, her whole world was upside down!

"I'm sorry Kaoru, But I already promised
himcoulcould stay here, I never thought anything like this could ever
happened."

"He's going to stay here?"

"Yes, but I think I can call him and tell
him that there's a problem and he can't. Would you like me to do that?"

"OH Y--" Misao said but Kaoru cut her
off.

"No, let him come, let him stay, I--I need
to talk to him, we need time, we--we need to get all this organized
somehow..." she said, albeit in a whisper.

Aoshi understood. He knew Kenshin, and he knew
that Kenshin had been weird when he left, he had told him that he'll explain
everything when he came here, but now he knew why. Kenshin, he must have fallen
for her too, and that must've crushed him hard. Sanosuke, had told him a girl
talked to a friend of his and said she was looking for him and he knew by then
that there was trouble with his heart. Poor Kenshin, he doesn't know he'll be a
father soon.

 

Kaoru and Misao slept in Aoshi's bed, while
Aoshi slept in the living room's sofa. He couldn't sleep, and although this
wasn't his problem, he just couldn't believe all he had heard tonight. Misao
was also up. He had pretended to be asleep, but she had settled besides Aoshi
and had started to caress his face.

He loved her touch. She was so soft and gentle,
he wanted to open his eyes and look into her own, then ravish her. He'd been
wanting to do that since a long time ago. But he'd been afraid. This, is the
only thing he has been afraid of...love.

Kaoru had sensed when Misao had stood up, she
had felt her footsteps and her tiptoeing out. She had heard her laying in the
floor, she imagined next to Aoshi, and when she turned around and opened her
eyes, the image she saw brought tears to her eyes. At least they can be in love. At least they can be happy. But she
had been deprived of happiness. How she wished she could be doing tha Ken Kenshin
just now, how she wished she could tell him everything...how she wished...

But she'll never have anything that love can
bring. Love has been cruel to her, love has been evil, love...love...Kenshin...

Tears streamed down her cheeks. She sobbed.
Misao heard her sobbing and was tempted to go to her, but she knew it would be
best if she left Kaoru alone, so that she could cry. Poor Kaoru.

The next day. Aoshi woke up to find Misao
resting besides him, although in the floor. He knew she loved him, but he
couldn't do anything because of fear. Stupid fear, she loved him, and he loved
her, Kiss her, her said to himself, kiss her.

He kissed her brow, she just stirred, but
didn't wake up. He kissed her lips softy. She opened to him. Temptation. She
was letting him have his way with her. But he couldn't anymore, he kissed her
again, tasted her. She opened her eyes, she was startled. But he silenced any
objection before he kissed her again. She put her arms around his neck and
kissed him back with all the passion she had for him. He made her come on top
of him to kiss her more profoundly.

The main door opened, a voice said
"hello" and the bags fell to the floor. Standing up in front of him
was a woman just waking up from her sleep, and she was her.
"Kaoru..." he whispered.

Aoshi and Misao sprang apart. Kaoru was in her
doorway frozen to hell, Kenshin was startled, his gaze never left her eyes.
Aoshi and Misao, although they had each other they felt as if they where
intruding. Tension filled the air, along with lust, passion, and...love.

"Kenshin" she whispered...