Hidden Love

So....I decided to update after all, while I would still LOVE reviews as they appease my review bunny and help thee must bunny I just felt like updating. So I have a feeling this is going to turn into a longer fiction then I had orginally thought and im ok with that, just hope some peeps enjoy it. There could be some typos and mis spellings along the way please do forgive.


She'd almost had him, the jet of light had been aimed at the middle of his back and he was so focused on what was going on before his eyes he never would have saw it coming, and then suddenly her plan had been knocked to hell as the blonde girl had shoved Harry out of the way taking the hex herself and crumpled at his feet. The only good thing was that she'd been able to watch Longbottom break down and hold the now lifeless girl to his chest. She didn't give herself anymore time then that to laugh before she turned on her heel and sprinted farther into the woods. She would have simply apparted back to safety but since the war had kicked into high gear it was impossible to apparte to and from the grounds of Hogwarts. Hiking her skirt up she picked up her pace.

"BELLATRIX"

A quick look over her shoulder showed Remus following her threw the woods, and he looked angry as hell. She'd never heard him yell like he just had, He was always so quite.The fact that she had made him loose control so easily appealed to her But then she should have known that he wouldn't stand for the killing of a child. Oh well for him. With a smirk she slipped into the same baby voice she used to taunt Harry about Sirius.

"Aww come to avenge your friend finally Werewolf." This had been the first time he went after her since the death of her cousin, it was amussing to think about, and she knew why he always sent Tonks after her. He was afraid. Not of her of course, but of himself. He didn't trust himself not to lose control and act like the animal he was. "Catch me if you can" She sing songed over her shoulder before breaking into a run. As she dodged in and out of the trees she could hear him moving behind her all she needed to do was get off the grounds and she could leave him defeated behind her. She wasactually almost in the clear when suddenly she dodged around a tree and slamed forcefully into a solid body, it rocked her back but just as she was about to stumble and fall long slender fingers curled around her wrist painfully and the warm body shoved her back against a tree her arms pinned above her head and her skin digging into the bark. It had taken only seconds but she'd gone from almost free to...trapped. She tried her best to wiggle free but that was hautled when when a knee pressed in between her legs making it impossible to kick free.

"Let me go you ass" She looked up and locked eyes with Remus and blinked in confusion how had he gone from behind her to infront of her that quickly? It made no sense but that train of thought was lost when he suddenly did something that curled her toes.

"Shut your fucking mouth Bellatrix"

Oh Merlin, when had Remus John Lupin started to speak like that? She wasn't even aware that he knew the words let alone spoke them and for the single fact that it was stuffy Remus who'd done it...she wanted to hear it again. Leaning her head forward she smirked at him "What did you say Lupin?"

He didn't respond with words and instead pressed her arms back against the tree harder the bark digging into her pale skin. It hurt and she bit her lip to stop not from pain but to cut off the moan that almost slipped out, she couldn't help herself. She liked being taken control of and the fact that normaly this was quite, smart, respectful Remus Lupin was having a very big effect on her even if he was a werewolf but while she was trying not to moan and enjoying herself he looked ready to kill. His eyes had narrowed and when he spoke his voice had developed a cold edge she wasn't used to hearing.. "Stop fucking talking"

Oh god, she was going to lose it. She could only imagine the blush that would replace his anger when he realised what was happening to her. But after that he didn't say anything else or even so much as move. She wondered if he was trying to calm himself down or if he was just..well she had no idea what else he could be doing so she finally looked back into his face and noticed that that his eyes were closed. He looked troubled.He had to be thinking, but of what? Meh most likely he was trying to decide if he should kill her now or drag her back to the castle so they could have a big old party. She tried to jerk her hands free but his fingers just coiled around them tighter biting into her skin. She was going to have very delicious brusies after all this, even so she was growing bored with the silence. She was a talker so to make sure he snapped out of whatever he was thinking about she slipped back into the baby voice "Upset because the wittle blonde is dead. Fail to save another one werewolf?"

His eyes snapped open and his fingers clentched in anger. She could feel his barely supressed rage,such an odd emotion for him. Even when they had been in school he'd been soft spoken, very horridly slow to anger, and she was pretty sure this was the first time he'd ever physically assulted a woman death eater or not, what that must be doing to his insides but she wasn't able to taunt him about it because he was already not paying attention to her again and it annoyed her. Almost as much as the fact that she was so turned on it was appaling, turned on by a werewolf they'd laugh her out of the fucking death eaters.

It was in that moment however that she finally understood he wasn't ignoring her but trying to keep his temper under control. He didn't want to lose it with her. He didn't want to be like her silly man did he really she was going to let that happen? He'd showed her weakness and she was going to exploit it till her last breath. "She fell, just like my cousin did. The sad part was I wasn't even aiming for her."

"Enough.."

"I wanted Potter, but I did get Longbottom to break down just like his parents. How you going to help him Wolf? Does it hurt to know you're helpless to do any-" Her words were cut offf when He yanked her forward slamming her back against the tree as hard as he could, her head smacked into the tree and bounced back with a thump and before she could stop herself she moaned.. It had been on its own and she couldn't have stopped it if she'd tried.

He'd gone very very still at the sound and she wan't sure what to expect, was infact about to crack another joke, when suddenly she saw his nostrils flair and her mouth went dry.

He...no, there was no way he could smell it...was there? Biting her lip to stop a smirk she did was she was best at, being bad and with an inoccent smile suddenly plasterd on her face she decided to test it and ever so slowly arched her hips foward, Ugly old robes had made it impossible to make out anything under them but the moment her hips touched his there was no hiding the fact that he was a sporting one hell of an erection it turned out the werewolf was as turned on on by this as she was. Her eye's went even wider then they had been before while his body went deathly still.

"Well...this sure is a fun turn of events."

He didn't move, he didn't speak he just stood there frozen not even looking at her. He may be the enemy but Bellatrix wasn't one to turn down a gift like this... besides the abuse he would give himself afterwards would be far better then anything she could ever do to him.

She was going to press against him again but he was quicker then she or maybe he just acted on instinct but he shifted his weight so that his knee blocked her movements and she pouted up at him. What had been so promising now seemed to want to be a giant prude. Bloody Griffs they had to be so thickheaded and proper she wanted to play not make a connection.

"Now come on Remus, we both know you wan't to play too"

"No, I do not." He looked detached but she didn't but it for a second, she was going to have to push his buttons make him act without thinking about what could happen afterwards, keeping the inoccent look on her face she tested her wrists but his iron grip hadn't reletned any.

"What's pressed against my stomach says diffrently Remus I wont tell anyone I promise. Just a little fun then we can go back to how things were" She grinned up at him and tried to shift a little but all she managed to do was brush up against his knee, not that it didn't feel good however she wanted something more then a dry hump in the woods. She may have killed the blonde and her cousin but the Wolf had done his share as well taking out her husband and a few others. He owed her, even if he didn't know it.. Pouting she rocked against his knee again gasping a little. Her tounge slid along her lips and kept a close eye on his face, she could feel herself getting wetter, she kept her movements slow being nothing more then a tease and watched him take a shallow breath as if trying not to smell her. "Like that Werewolf?"

His eyes flew open once again and she smirked at him, she could see it in his eyes he was fighting with himself, the animal wanted to play and the man wanted to remain in control.

She liked the animal more.

"Come on Remus no one has to know, besides an angry fuck would do you some good."

"You're comming off as desperate Bella." Her eyes flashed as the use of that name He knew better they all did no one called her Bella but
the Dark Lord."Didn't like that did you?"

He wanted to play like that did he? She can do it too. "No Mo-" She didn't even get to finish the name before he slammed her back against the tree he looked like he was rapidly losing out to his inner animal

"You don't get to say that name you..."

"Say it" He looked he would but instead snapped his mouth shut, this was driving her insane. She wanted him in her, ached for it. The abuse, even if it was a small amount, had wound her up but in her current positon all she could was rock against him and he'd haulted even that small advantage. The only posotive was that he hadn't dragged her back to the Castle yet. Small victories.

"Come on, I'm taking you back to the Castle" So much for small victories...

"Do you plan to walk bent over the entire time?"

"What?" He seemed perplexed and she couldn't help but smirk at him.

"I said to you plan to walk bent over, I don't really think walking in with that thing standing proud is going to look good for you. One would have to wonder how you got it." In response he looked down at his lap and just seemed to blink at it, he acted as if he'd forgotten he was pressing his rock solid hardon against her, she sure as hell hadn't. "Stop doing that Remus"

He blinked up at her not understanding but then shook his head clearly choosing not to care and started to pull her away from the tree. That was all she needed she may be able to move her hands but she could move her legs and since he had been to busy pressing her into the tree he didn't have his want to stop her. Quick as she could she'd wrapped her legs around his waist. The motion yanked him against her and he ended up shoving her back up against the tree as he stumbled forward.

She moaned, loudly.

What else was she supposed to do? Her legs were shackled around his waist and she wiggled her hips to get closer to what she wanted. For his part Remus stood unmoving but the look on his face was priceless he looked confused, angry, and turned on all at the same time. Slowly one of his hands released one of her wrists and seemed to slide down to her hip on its own. His long slender fingers curved around her hip and gripped it tightly.

She shivered, wicked thoughts had danced threw her mind. She'd never noticed his hands before but now that she had she wouldn't soon forget. "What the hell is wrong with you..."

The man seemed so confused, clearly Remus didn't partake in random fucking hell she doubted if he'd had sex in years unless that cunt Tonks had been able to drag him to bed. For some reason that thought angered her and not for the reasons it should and in her anger she lashed out. "If this is how you act everytime a woman tries to fuck you Wolf it's not suprising they don't. I wonder if Longbottom even got to shag his whore before I killed her"

She watched his eyes narrow and before she could say anything else he'd untangled her legs from around his waist and flung her to the ground. She let out a grunt as her body slammed into the earth and stared up at him her wild hair falling around her shoulders and across her face. He looked livid.

"When I get away from you, I'm going after Longbottom and I'll do worse to him then I did his parents. You're going to watch everyone you care about die around you Werewolf and everytime I kill one I'll make sure you're there to watch."

Whatever small amount of control he'd been holding onto seem to shatter and his hand snaked out and tangled into her hair before yanking her towards him, however she was still on her knees and she ended up slamming into his legs. He jerked painfully on her head and she looked up at him, he seemed at a loss as of what to do. Remus wasn't a fighter, he didn't hurt people, he sure as hell didn't beat woman and while he still looked able to kill his morals wouldn't allow him to do it, no matter how much he wanted to. So she took advantage of it and before he could stop her she pressed her mouth against the outline of his dick, trailing her mouth over it. His hips bucked hard and it knocked her back but his face was blank clearly when he'd dragged her to sit infront of him the last thing he had expected was her to try that. But she was done with this nonsense and she was going to get relief. She was ready to lose it, she wanted her fuck and she was going to have it one way or another. She would take him against her will but once she sucked him into her mouth she doubted she would have to.

"Wha..what th-"

"Shut up Remus" The words were clipped and he seemed unable to move as moved her hand to the tops of his pants. She had then undone and was shoving them down around his ankles before he finally found his voice again.

"Don't..." Pathetic. Ignoring his pleas she leaned forward and slowly ran her tounge over him, his cock gave a twitch and he mumbled something under his breath. He sounded like he was trying to convince himself this was ok. Stupid man, his desire was at war with those fuckin morals. She knew how to fix the problem. Not bothering to tease she scooted closer and sucked him into her mouth

"FUCK"

Ah, she really did enjoy it when he cursed, she slowly pulled back and ran her tounge along the tip of him before sliding him in even deeper. She looked up at him threw her lashes and took great pleasure in seeing his eyes were dark with lust. He wasn't touching her but she didn't need him to. Wrapping each of her hands around his legs she pumped her face up and down on him she could feel the tension in him, every little shudder and then felt him jerk his hips against pushing him farther into her mouth. He was mumbling to himself again but all she could make out was Fuck and a few other choice curse words.

She pulled on of her hands away and slid it down her body had almost gotten it under her skits when it alot with the other was yanked into the air. She flicked her gaze back up to him and saw that he'd trapped her hands in his iron grip again and glared down at her. How naughty.

"You can do that, when I say you can." Her body trembled with pure desire, but she couldn't let him get away with that so she stopped moving her mouth and glared up at him, however that didn't seem to matter because it looked like she'd gotten what he'd wanted. He'd let the animal win and his loss on control ended up with her back against the tree while he pumped in and out of her mouth.

She moaned around him and sucked hard as he thrust back into her mouth, blowing him to drive him crazy was on thing to have him fucking her face was another. She was bruning and needed release herself but he'd made it both clear that she couldn't and impossible for her to even try. As he shoved back into her mouth she slid her tounge up the underside of his shaft and with a vicious buck of his hips he came without warning and she swallowed, she really had no other choice. The moment she did so however he jerked back as if she'd bruned him. He was going to close up on her and she hadn't...fuck no, not happening.

"Go..get out of here Bella." He wasn't paying attention he was trying to pull his pants back up, his world had been kicked on its side and he didn't like it. "I..I'm so sorry I shouldn't...not even you deserve to be taken like that...I'm so sorry..." He looked so pained, so absolutely hardbroken that he'd used her. She couldn't help but laugh at him the eyes that shot to her face were filled with pain and regreat and she wasn't stupid enough to not understand that it was for so much more then just the blow job. In one moment, he betrayed everyone he cared about both alive and dead. Her sucking him off and him doing nothing was one thing, him pressing her into a tree and fucking the shit out of her mouth was active participation that couldn't be undone and it was eating away at him.

She slowly stood to her feet and looked him over, his hands had still so his pants were still open just hanging on his waist, she'd always thought he was slender but he was far from frail. She started to walk towards him and he took a jerky step back and then another when she continued to advance. He clearly didn't know what to do.

"I wouldn't apologize yet we're not done."

"Yes we are...go just go"

"No, You had your fun now I wan't mine you wouldn't let me remember?"

"Stop talking about it. This..." He didn't seem to know waht to say, she took the advantage it gave her and pressed her body against his. Every part of him stiffened, but she only cared about one part. His body still wanted to play and she wanted it dirty. Placing her hands against his chest she shoved hard and he stumbled back. Normally she woulnd't have been able to move him but he was busy thinking of the betrayl he'd commited against Potter and Co and just like that he was lying on his back in the middle of the haunted woods. Before he could right himself she dropped down on top of him grinding down against him, his hips responded with a buck of their own. Leaning forward she put her face just above his their lips almost touching and very slowly she slid her tounge of her mouth and ran it along his lips. "It's just fucking Remus it doesn't have to mean anything. So stop fretting and do it already"

When he didn't move she took matters into her own hands and reached betweem then sliding her hand into his pants and around him, he grunted in reponse but didn't move to stop her as soon as she had him free from his pants again she hiked her skirts up around her waist and raised up above him "You're not wearing.."

"No I'm not."

"Do you always?"

"Not that it matters, but yes always."

Fuck he was odd, when he didn't say anything else she rolled her eyes and started to lower herself onto him she had been seconds from what she wanted when she found herself on her back glaring up at him. She was about to yell whe she felt his hand on her thigh, he shoved her skirt up her around her hips and his hand slid higher and higher but he simply teased around it never touching and she whimpered in protest. His lips quirked but he said nothing before pulling his hand back out. He leaned down his mouth by her ear and spoke sofly "Dress like a whore, act like a whore, get treated like a whore."

She shivered, whimpered, and wrapped her legs around his waist again. She was starting to like when his bad side got out. She lifted her hips against his and it finally happened. Without another word he slid home. Her moan was loud, his movements almost painful. He was trying to punish her. He pulled out and slammed back in her body moved to meet his. This was exactly what she'd wanted. The dirty fuck and she was getting it. He pounded away harder and haredr his pelvic bone digging into her with each thrust. Her fingers slid through his hair and then down his back clawing at him. Her breathy moans were loud and evertime he slid in deep she whimpered it was in all honestly, the best fuck of her life. Her husband and been good enough, hell those times when he'd walked in bent her over whatever was handy and fucked her till she couldnt walk were fond memories, but this wild abandon, the brutal pounding it was.. she couldnt't even think of a word. She watched his face as she rocked against him. He looked angry he didnt want to be taking her but he couldn't stop himself. Removing her hands from his back she pulled at her robes expsoing her chest his thrust falterd and she giggled at him, his head snapped back up to her and he sneered, this was supposed to be her punishment.

He leaned down and sucked one pale nipped into his mouth, drawing a cry from her lips as he bit down on it, not even close to gently he sucked away the pain and she went wild. Between his mouth sucking and licking and his hips pounding against her pressing her down into the ground she couldnt help it and she climaxed with a scream. He didn't stop, he slowly pulled all the way out and paused still her unfocused gaze settled on his face and then he slammed in hard. Her body arched under his "Good whore"

Oh Merlin, if this was how he fucked Bella would gladly be his whore. She smirked at him and he sped up his thrusts "You seem to like whores Remus" He was slamming away simply using her body at his point. She slid her hands down his back against and he pinned them above her head again, his movements had become frantic and it was only moment's before his body went rigid above her and he reached his relase.

In the silence that followed she looked down at her their bodys, she bite marks on her chest she knew for a fact she would have bruises on her lower half and she was willing to bet her wrists would be bad as well. He seemed to be slowly pulling himself back together because the next time he spoke he sounded horrifed. "What have I done..." He finally looked at her face but his gaze darted to her chest and then to her wrists and he paled "Are you..Merlin are you OK?I shouldn't not even..please forgive me"

He acted as if he'd taken her against his will, She wondered if it was hard for him, watching your friends die around you changed people it had clearly changed him everyime she saw him you could see something learking behind his eyes he was darker but he hid it from others tried to pretend himself. He could still be nice, could still feel regret, could even feel bad when he acted harshly against a death eather but he'd proved as well that he could lose his temper and act out of character but he looked so...troubled right now.Since he'd given her such a fantastic shag she decided to take pity on him, trying to frogive yourself for betraying your friends and family and also feeling guilty for how he'd treated a woman seemed to be ripping him apart. As he pulled away from her she fixed her robes before finding her fallen wand and reparing anything that needed fixing. As he blinked up at her she stared at his lap and with a flush he fixed himself as he stood on shakey legs he seemed unsure what to say and another feeble apology fell from his lips. "Sorry..."

Finally she laughed and he jerked back and looked at her as if she'd killed another child. She shook her head before kissing his cheek. "We'll have fun again soon Werewolf."

"Fun?! That wasn't fun I..I could have hurt you you're insane" She blew him a kiss in responde and disappeared, The man didn't get it she liked stuff like that. Him being forceful had been what turned on her on in the first place if he'd just been...plain old dumb Remus she would have been dead by now but he'd proved he was complex and a loose cannon these days and she wanted to play with it as she slipped away into the darkness she could hear the others sucha pity that would have been a good moment one could only imagine the face of harry potter if he'd stumbled upon Lupin slamming to her Bellatrix

Bellatrix's eyes were unfocused as she stared at the door infront of her, she knew he was asleep the rise and fall of his chest told her that. She knew their..whatever it was with her was tearing him apart from the inside but the only options were to end it, which she refused to do or turn on everyything she knew, which again she refused to do. Did she love Remus? She had no clue she hadn't loved her late husband, she couldn't even call what she had for the Dark Lord love, whatever it was she felt for Remus the relationship sure had changed since the first time. That had been about punishment and pain and it no longer was she reached out a hand and laced her fingers threw his, his hand clentched hers in his sleep.

One day they would get caught she only hoped it was his friends who caught them, if it was hers...Remus wouldn't make it out of the bed before they killed him or worse at least here they'd most likely never forgive him but he would be alive. SHe sighed, it was all his fault she never had thoughts like this before that day in the woods he was making her emotinal and she didn't really like it, she didn't hate it but she could do without it. Tired of her thoughts she moved closer to him and closed her eyes ready to finally sleep when she heard a knock at the door.

"Lupin?" When she recived silence she tried again "Remus? Are you awake"

Bellatrix forced herself to be silent and elbowed Lupin in the ribs, he blinked awake slowly and rubbed the spot gently frowning at her, without a word she nodded towards the door a glare plastered on her face.

"Remus?"

"Tonks." He said her name wihout meaning to and winced as he did so. Now she knew he was awake

"Oh good you're awake can I come in?"

"Er, give me just a moment." Bella was already to her feet snatching up her things he almost fell out of the bed in his rush to grab her but she side stepped his hand in a hushed voiced tired to do damage control."Bella.."

"I did what I said I would, you're awake I'm still her and now it is time for me to leave Remus" He winced and she ignored it.

"Would you just calm down"

She didn't bother to repsond and before he could say anything else she was gone with a quiet pop. He wanted to curse, he wanted to throw things, and he wanted to go after her. None of those were options he could do so he jerked on pajama bottoms and an old grey t-shirt and shuffled over to the door, opening it he came face to face with a bright eye'd and smiling Tonks

"I didn't want you to miss breakfast like you normally do Molly said their is something important to talk about today"

With that she leaned up on her toes and kissed his cheek before flouncing away. All he could do was stare at her, it wasn't the kiss she always did that it was her hair. It wasn't pink, purple,or even that unglody red she'd made it once.

Her hair was black.

And it was long.

"Fuck."