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CHAPTER TWO. Back to the old times

Disclaimer: The sentences written between * * are quoted literally from the third book of Harry Potter “The Prisoner of Azkaban”. I quoted it because it matches perfectly with the plot of my story, I hope you don’t mind!

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“But that’s not possible Albus, Azkaban is the best prison in the world“ Remus said hopefully

“I know that Remus but…”

Remus breathed a few times and asked “How did they do it?”

” They don’t know it yet, they are investigating”

“Does Harry know?”

“No, I preferred you all to know it first but tomorrow I’ll have to tell him”

With an incredible calm Remus said “We should send someone to the Shrieking Sack. If Sirius… if Sirius wants to kill Harry maybe he will try to hide there. It’s been years since someone goes there… I can take a look at it tomorrow and…”

“Remus you don’t have to do it, I can send someone else”

“No, I’ll do it” he concluded with resolution

“All right Remus. The others please stay alert and inform me of any change. We will meet again this Sunday here in my office, now go and rest, tomorrow will be a really tiring day”

Slowly, the head down, everyone came back to their rooms. Severus and Remus made their way to the dungeons in silence, both focused on their own thoughts and feelings. Severus was utterly surprised and also a little bit proud of his lover ( but this was a thing he will never recognize in public).Remus had remained calm when Dumbledore gave them the news, he immediately had taken control of the situation.

He smiled briefly but soon his smile faded away of his face when they entered their rooms and saw his face. Pain. It was hardly recognizable, but his wolfish eyes never lied. It had been so long since the last time he saw this emotion shake his lover’s body.


“Are you ok?”

“ mmm fine” the wolf said trying to smile

“Don’t lie to me Remus” the potions master said severely

And in that moment Remus knew he would never be able to lie to him. ‘Severus knew, he called him Remus, he never did it, he was worried for him’. Severus walked closer and took his waist, looking at him intently.

“You are not alone Remus”

“I know”

“Speak to me, we can’t go back to the old times, I … I can’t”

“ No Severus … I don’t want to speak now, I’m tired, don’t insist”

“But Remus”

“I said no Severus” Remus said loudly and went away from him.

Severus sighed sadly ‘there it is again, the coldness, the hatred were back again, just like nine years before”

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That year passed quite fast, Sirius Black managed to enter the school and the students were quite stressed out but regardless the efforts of the Order and also the Ministry of magic, anyone was able to catch him, and Remus was worried about Harry Potter. The werewolf learnt to love the boy so easily that scared him.

‘He had Lily’s eyes and the kindness and the courage of his father but with a bright expression in his eyes he couldn’t recognize’.

The DADA professor smiled briefly and tried to focus again on the exams he was correcting, but a knock on the door distracted him again.

“Enter”

The door was opened and the dark silhouette of the Potions Master entered the room with a closed expression in his face.

“Albus has convoked a meeting, he wants us to be there immediately, we have to discuss the safety of Mr.Potter during the summer Holidays” he said sharply

“Thank you Severus, you can go firstll bll be there in a minute”

Severus turned around and walked away, closing the door silently behind him. Sighing the Potions Master made his way to the Headmaster office, trying not to think about their last year together. ‘It has been awful, it was just as if they had come back nine years ago, at the beginning of his relationship.

After Sirius Black was sent to Azkaban, the werewolf had been visiting Albus quite often. The first three years they didn’t exchange a word, they acted politely, and respected each other lives. That was it.

But after three years something changed. In the present time Severus suspected that the Headmaster had been involved in a way or another but he couldn’t certainly tell. The thing was that he started to feel something for that skinny blondish werewolf, his sad eyes and low voice. Albus asked him to create a potion to eradicate the effects of the wolf transformation and that gave him the opportunity to spend more time with Remus.

One day the wolf had entered his dungeons and without uttering a single word he had pushed him against the table and fucked him senseless, rough and hard. No gentle caresses, no kind touching, just animal lust.

But that day, that day Severus could see something in those beautiful wild eyes, something beyond the wolf and beyond all the suffering, that day ‘The cold and celibate Potions Master, pure blood and big nose, had fallen in love’. But that day something changed, the next morning the werewolf started to avoid him and the following months were a hell; bitter words, coldness and hate was all he could take from him.

But Severus knew how to be patient. He held him during all his transformations, when the physical pained mixed with the sadness made him moan and scream. He held him when he asked for his lost lover, Sirius Black. he stayed by his side when he was wounded and depressed.

Slowly the werewolf got used to his company, he forgot about the hate and the pain and he rediscovered the lost taste of happiness. Finally, after four years, they moved into an apartment in Hogsmeade, so that Severus could go to Hogwarts every day and started a life together.

And now … ‘now that damned son of a bitch named Sirius Black had come back from the darkness to destroy Remus’ life again’

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Still at his office, Remus sighed and rested his head on his hands. That last year had been awful and he knew it was only his fault. Severus tried to help him, tried to understand him and he had thanked him with bitter words. He didn’t deserved him but he couldn’t stop his feelings.

‘He love Severus but it was all so confusing. Sirius had come back like a ghost to made him remember, remember his missing friends, remember the love words they once shared, remember all the promises, remember his love for the long-haired man. his beautiful grey eyes, his soft skin and childish smile’

“NO!” he said out loud and hit the table. ‘He couldn’t remember, all his words have been a lie, the man he loved was a murdered, he killed three of his best friends and left a child without the love of his parents. He just couldn’t remember.

Tiredly he stood up and his eyes were attracted by a photograph on a shelf. It was Severus and himself, smiling brightly in front of a beautiful lake. With a trembling finger he caressed Severus sillouhette, almost feeling his presence and shivered.

He had been living nine years with him, he was the only person who had really understood him, even more than Albus, the only person who had been able to make him smile, the only person who had touched him without repulsion, the only person who had really loved him’

‘the only person besides Sirius Black’ he said a little voice in his head.

Frowning he left the room, trying to empty his mind and concentrate on the meeting he had tonight.

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He was walkinrougrough a dark forest, stumbling with every step until he fell on the floor. He remained lying for a few minutes and he looked at the sky. The full moon. He tensed, ready to the transformation, but nothing happened. Suddenly a dark figure came from the darkness and walked closer, his arms opened.

“You won’t be alone Moony, never again… trust me …, I love you” He instantly recognize his voice

“Sirius” he managed to say and walked towards that warm embrace.

When he reached Sirius arms, they transformed into long and sharp swords that cut his warm skin, the smell of blood all over his body, and the smiling face turned into the paled skin and red eyes of Voldemort, who was laughing insupportably loud.


Remus woke up sweating and panting trying to understand what had just happened. “ A nightmare, just a nightmare” he whispered trembling. He couldn’t go back to sleep so he decided to take a walk when he saw Harry arguing with Severus, The Potinon’s Master had found the boy walking around with a papyrus in his hand. He convinced Severus to came back to sleep and sent harry back to the Gryffindor Tower.

The next morning after classes, Remus asked Harry to stay for a moment. Her had discovered that Harry was in possession of the Marauders’ Map, the one they used with Peter, James and Sirius when they were young. He was angry with the boy.

‘Everyone was risking his life to protect him and they spent the night walking around the castle without protection’, Harry looked at him sadly and apologized before walking away.

‘Severus worked really hard to protect the boy despite his feelings and that was the way Harry thanked him?’ But then he thought about how he treated the Potions Master and froze, ‘he needed to fix that, and he was going to do it that night before dinner’.


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That night he finished correcting the final exams and he was ready to fix the things with Severus when he saw the Map. He took and opened it, curious to know if it still worked. He said the magic words and the map was visible again. He started looking at it when he froze. Harry, Ron and Hermione were entering the Whomping Willow . Walking next to him was…


“Peter?” he said astonished

But what he saw next almost made him fall down the floor

“Sirius” he whisper

He ran as fast as he could and burst into Severus rooms but he couldn’t find him. He thought the three boys were in danger so he crossed the corridors running to the Whimping Willow. Worried he crawled into the hole and arrived on time to see Sirius Black bleeding on the floor with Crookshanks on his chest and Harry pointing Sirius with his wand, with Ron and Hermione at his side.


*“Expelliarmus” Lupin shouted

Harry’s wand flew once more out of his hand; so did the two Hermione was holding. Lupin caught them all deftly, then moved into the room, staring at Black, who still had Crookshanks lying protectively across his chest

Harry stood there, feeling suddenly empty. He hadn’t done it. His nerve had failed him. Black was going to be handed back to the dementors.

“Where is he Sirius?” Harry looked quickly at Lupin. He didn’t understand what Lupin meant. Who was Lupin talking about? He turned to look at Black again

Blacks face was quite expressionless. For a few seconds he didn’t move at all. Then, very slowly, he raised his empty hand and pointed straight at Ron. Mystified, Harry glances around at Ron, who looked bewildered.

“But then….why hasn’t he shown himself before now… Unless” *

‘Oh Merlin please, let it be true, let it be true. No it can’t be possible. Lupin got dizzy and needed all of his strength to hold on’

*“ Unless he was the one… unless you switched… without telling me?”

Very slowly, his sunken gaze never leaving Lupin’s face, Black nodded.*

All around him blurred as he lost himself in Sirius eyes, in an instant he saw all his pain, all the suffering in those years in prison, knowing that everyone thought he was a murderer, even him…’


Then he moved closer and bent down to embraced Sirius, and everything was perfect again, like the old times.

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§Stasha Malfoy§: Here you have the second chapter. I hope you like it and thanks for your review!

TO BE CONTINUED