What Does This Feeling Mean

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Eighteen - Love Me Tonight

"You are fast!" I giggled as I continued to remove my jewelry. Draco just smiled proudly and placed his broom in the corner by the window. "Go ahead and make yourself comfortable."

I put my box of diamonds back into my trunk, and locked it. I grabbed a hanger from my closet and neatly hung the clothes Draco had taken off. All he had left on was a white T-shirt and his trousers.

"What do you have on under there?"

"Boxers."

I hid a grin in that I had hoped that he would've gone without. "Then take your trousers off."

He paused before getting up. "Are you sure?"

I put a hand on my hip. "I tell you to take your trousers off and you ask if I'm sure?"

He laughed. "Right."

He unbuttoned, zipped, and slid them down to the floor. His shirt covered most of his undergarment, but I did see green, and I did see silk. "Happy?" he asked, handing them to me.

"Very."

He sat back on my bed, and I reached for my own silk. I had yet to wear it, but I thought now would be the time. It was a deep blue silk robe, that stopped a little above the knee. "I wanted to thank you for being so wonderful at the party. You surprised a lot of people, including me."

"Did I?"

I hung my robe in front of me and let down my hair. "Well yeah, I can see it now. Tomorrow in the Daily Prophet: 'Malfoy smiles in front of Gryffindors' or 'Harry Potter dances with Malfoy's woman, and lives to tell the tale'."

"Oh I had to fight not to hex him into next week. Potter... touching you."

I laughed at the horrid faces he made. I turned my back to him, and pulled my dress up a little to get the top of the halter over my head. He fell eerily silent as I unzipped the back. I glanced over my shoulder, and he shot back to a normal sitting position just a little too fast. Even with my head turned, my long hair still covered everything it needed to. I smiled at his innocent face, and dropped the dress on the floor. I took my robe, and slid it on easily, effectively keeping my cover. I giggled as I pulled my hair out from under the soft silk.

"Temptress," he smirked.

"Ah, so we're even."

At his request, I walked over and laid myself down, putting my legs over his lap. "So smooth," he said as he ran his hands up and down each leg. I closed my eyes and relaxed when he started to massage them. In my state of calm, I unknowingly caught one of Draco's thoughts.

"You felt me tonight? During the toast?"

He didn't seem surprised at my sudden question, but he did continue thinking. "Actually, yes I did. You were standing by Dumbledore, and I could feel your heart pounding. It wasn't like that night I was... um..."

"Kissing that girl in the corridor near the Charms classroom?"

"Yes, I..." he faltered and gave me the surprised look I was waiting for.

"I was there. Well, near there," I confessed. I brought my upper half to a sitting position, and looked down.

"Were you? Where? What happened?" he asked. I glanced at him, afraid he would be mad, but he didn't seem to be.

I sighed a few times. I was embarrassed, which wasn't me at all. "Well... I was working with Professor Trelawney that night on the potion that allowed me be with you. We retired from it pretty late, and I had to pass near the Slytherin tower to get to mine. As I walked through the halls, I saw you with that girl," I said and looked at him again. He seemed to be in his own world remembering the details I was telling him. I swallowed, and continued. "I was afraid that you might have seen me, so I hid behind the wall at the end. I looked back to see if you did, but I found myself not being able to look away."

"You saw me kiss her?"

"Yes," I confirmed as he shook his head. "I just... I just stood there wondering how she must've felt, kissing you like that. When I focused on her to find out, I kind of went too far," I sighed. I had an overwhelming urge to pace the floor, but Draco still had a hold of my legs. "I felt her reveling in your touch, and I yearned for that. So much so, that I put myself there, somehow. Then... it was like you were kissing me," I said and took a deep breath. I wanted to get the rest out quickly. "Then you stopped, and I ran. I hid in the next hall over, where I heard you say that you had felt me."

He laughed a little, and smiled at me. "That certainly explains it," he smirked. I blinked in confusion. "I was kissing her and all of a sudden, it wasn't her anymore," he said as he took a lock of my hair, brought it to his nose, and inhaled. "Her mouth tasted different, and she smelled like you. When I looked at her... I could've ran my fist through the wall. I was so stupid. I didn't want to be with her, I wanted you. I looked away from her, and I thought I saw you standing there, so I started walking without really thinking. I stopped in frustration, thinking I was going crazy, and her questioning me made it worse," he paused, took a breath, and exhaled happily. Then his tone dropped to a seductive purr. "You know, I went back to my bed that night and..."

He turned to face me and brought my legs with him, guiding me until I came to rest sitting on top of his arousal. My teeth buried into my bottom lip as he removed his shirt. He held me so close, and brought our lips within licking range. I felt him grow and pulse underneath me as he stroked my face, and gazed at the places he touched. "And?" I managed to voice in between my sudden shortness of breath. In a swirl of impassioned feelings, he recanted the night in his mind with such power, that he took me with him.

"And... just thinking of your beautiful face..." His lips courted across my cheek, and settled over my ear. "I pleased myself." I dug my nails through my gloves and onto his back as he pressed himself against me. "Over... and over... and over again."

"Gods Draco," I whispered, losing my breath. As my eyes were closed I saw his bed, I saw his hand move under his sheets, and I heard him utter 'Yes Jewel, touch me'. I felt the build, his hand rubbing away as if it called to me. He stroked the length of his shaft, stimulating me to grip his physical form anywhere I could. I fell into his vision, and his thoughts within thoughts warped into me. I gasped along with him, as his fantasy progressed, stimulated, and took him over. His stifled moans rang in my ears, he was close, so close. I can see, oh Gods, feel me. Only me. Love me.

My mind shattered back to present, and I whispered his name repeatedly as I came back to myself. My eyes opened to his beautiful pools of liquid silver, and his heavy breathing matched my own. My heart rumbled, in a blaze of new discovery. The dark shadow that once enclaved it's every beat faded from my essence, and left no trace of it's damage. Overcoming the potion, he pulled me into his mind, and saved me.

"Draco." My breath eluded any more words. I held his face, his... wonderful face. This beautiful creature. Eyes. Lips. I bled for those lips and hungrily perfected them with my own. Our mouths danced in a torridity that was magnified throughout our entire being. I explored it with all it could stand, and as my eyes filled with the water from the deepest region of my soul, I let my happy tears fall. He pulled away from me gently to rub my emotion into our skin. "I finally know," I staggered, gripping his hands as my face glowed from the inside. "You... I finally... I finally know Draco, I was there. It was me in a vision with you!"

"And with me you will forever stay. You have to be. I love you, my beautiful Jewel," he spoke, directly to my heart. Draco Malfoy. The one who was afraid to love. The same shadow of darkness that had consumed me, had now relinquished it's hold upon him. My shadow hurt, confused, and kept me away; his shadow hid, lied, and swallowed him whole. Together we broke free, finally able to believe. The love that we so desperately craved, and those words we were afraid to speak, revealed it's beauty within us.

"Sweet Draco." I kissed the blessing upon his lips. "My heart now beats because of you. You've made me realize the dreams that have all but disappeared throughout my life. My love for you grows with every breath that I take, you must know this." I took his hand and placed it under my robe, upon my heart. "Only for you Draco. Forever for you," I whispered and tightened my grip. "I love you too. Then, now, and hereafter."

He stole my last word with his air, and sang me a love song with his tongue. He ran his hand up my shoulder to my back, and removed the silky cell that held my flesh captive. I released the chains that bound it there and sent it into oblivion. His hands wandered freely across my bare skin, and he released his claim of my lips to savor the sensitive parts of my neck.

My body, wrapped in his arms, learned the sensations I had only imagined. His touch, caressing and loving me. Draco's body told me his desires, but his bubbling thoughts told me the details. "Draco?" I asked. He brought his hungry gaze to me, and I shivered. "Stand for me."

I moved his gorgeous body in front of me as I hovered on the edge of the bed. I watched him as I kissed, licked, and bit the wonders of his smooth chest, down to his stomach, and paused at his waistline. He fought to control the thunderous passion that solidified mere inches away from my face with a deep moan. I tucked my fingers behind the the last of his coverings, and slowly pulled down. His confinement slid to the ground, and his lust was finally revealed. I wrapped the sheerness of my gloves around his breathtaking, rock hard cock and smiled, exactly as I did in his fantasy.

He crooned as he watched his imagination take form in front of his eyes. My lips, my tongue, making love to every inch of him. He had wanted this more than anything. His conquests of old, selfishly pushed for the finale, making his desire sink along with the emotions that were never there. Sexual acts had become a burden of unfulfilled motions that eventually led to a quick fix. I made his body burn again. That thought alone made me wet.

I pleased him slowly, deeply, and felt the pleasure that he became lost in. His breaths became moans as he gradually gave up control. As his voice quickened and he grew even harder, I slowed my pace just enough to prolong the moment. "Yes Jewel," he purred in an exhale. "Gods... just like that. Only you could love me like this."

I moaned at his words and took him over completely. His breath soon became rapid, and as his body tensed, he stepped over the edge with my name on his lips. My body tingled as he released his bliss into my mouth. I drank deeply of his lust until his well ran dry.

Sweat glistened off his brow, and his intense gaze bore into me. He picked me up and moved me to the center of the bed, and wasted no time getting back to my neck. Now fully aroused, I arched my back as he kissed his way down, stopping at my breasts. He ran his fingers around them and pressed the length of his body against me. I gasped when his mouth made connection and his hand massaged it's counterpart. My nipples became hard as he teased each nub with gentle precision. Their sensitivity quickly turned to need as he grazed his teeth, and pinched where I desired. I felt his hand abandon my breast and move slowly over my stomach, down to my inner thigh. He caught my moan in his mouth as his fingers found my wetness, and methodically teased me to distraction. I pressed his head into our kiss, feeling the sensation of his fingers as he slid two, then three inside me. My voice echoed in his mouth from his movement, and when I thought I couldn't take anymore, he left my lips to join in on his means.

"Fuck Draco! I can't... oh gods Draco!" I screamed. His long fingers pounded my inner walls, brushing along an area that made me howl louder with his every pass, while his wicked tongue massaged my swollen clit perfectly. I felt the incredible build and my voice ran wild as every sensual muscle in my body erupted at once. I gripped anything I could get a hold of as he continued relentlessly in his attack with his hands and mouth, sending me further and further into ecstasy.

After settling our sated bodies together, we snuggled in blissful silence, and I stroked his hair while I held him in my arms. We stayed that way for quite a while, and I smiled as he eventually twitched, telling me he had fallen asleep. I felt a quiet calmness around us. Our urges had been satisfied without giving up the innocence of coition, but that fact was overlooked in the realization of something much more important. Neither of us, in our wildest dreams, ever thought we'd be doing the one thing we craved the most: just being held by the person we loved. Surely this is all anybody needs.

"I love you Draco Malfoy," I whispered as I closed my eyes, knowing that he would be gone when they opened again.

TBC...