What a Beautiful Curse *COMPLETE*

‘Look at him sleeping there’ The evil little voice in Hermione’s brain sneered ‘Look at that smile on his face, you don’t think that you put that there, do you?’

‘Shut up’ Hermione said desperately ‘Please, shut up...I can’t take this anymore’

‘Nor should you’ The voice said ‘You should put an end to this. Just listen to me one more time and once you do it’ll all stop, you’ll never have to listen to my voice ever again, never have to see this lonely house again, never have to look at yourself again and never have to wonder if he truly loves you or not’

‘But what you want me to do...’ Hermione shuddered, her whole body felt cold and no matter how many hot baths or showers she took she never felt warm. Tears fell from her eyes as she thought about everything that had been happening in the last month.

‘You haven’t truly been happy since December’ The voice said ‘Why further your torture?’

‘But Severus...’ Hermione led as she looked back over the man that was lying in the bed near her ‘He loved me once’

‘Maybe’ The voice whispered almost soothingly ‘But he doesn’t love you anymore. I am in your head, I am part of you and he doesn’t love me, now does he?’

‘I guess not’ Hermione thought sadly as she turned and put her bare feet on the cold ground ‘What do I do?’

‘You know what to do’ The voice hissed at her almost greedily ‘I’ve told you what to do before’

“Hermione?” Severus whispered as his fingers searched her out “Cuddle with me”

“Alright” Hermione laid back down and he turned to look at her pulling her against him and kissing the back of her neck. The action caused her to smile and cuddle back in to him, she closed her eyes and allowed herself to fall back in to the embrace that offered so much love.

“I love you” He whispered to her and she heard him slowly fall back to sleep. It would be nice if she could fall asleep too and fall in to dreamless sleep or in to a sleep that would offer up the most pleasant dreams but it never worked like that.

‘If he truly loved you he would know what you were considering’ Her mind started again ‘He would talk to you and put your fears to rest with a few simple words...but he doesn’t’

‘I know’ She said with a sigh.

‘Get up’ The voice said ‘Come on, let’s go and take care of what needs to be taken care of’

Hermione stood and followed the directions that the voice in her mind was telling her. She walked up the stairs to the third floor and to the bedroom that Severus had locked her in once. She was in a trance as she pointed her wand out the door and in a few minutes a rope appeared, Hermione walked over to the middle of the room and directed the rope to secure to the roof and made a noose for herself. She looked around the room again and wiped away some stray tears that escaped. She didn’t want to do this and somewhere in her mind Hermione knew that but she couldn’t stop herself from what her body was doing.

“Wingardium Leviosa” She whispered with her wand pointed at her feet she felt herself being lifted off of the ground. While she was floating in the air Hermione used her free hand to pull her head through the noose and then looked at the still open door.

In the moments that passed Hermione could hear her heart pounding in her ears, she could feel the blood pumping through her veins and the magic in her core was pulsing. Hermione saw her memories flowing in front of her eyes, she saw her mother singing to her, reading to her and laughing with her. Her parents teaching her to ride a bike, helping her do her homework and getting her ready for each new year of school. Then she could see her parents growing smaller and smaller as the Hogwarts Express took off towards the school for the first time. She saw Harry and Ronald avoiding her, saving her, laughing with her and their many adventures throughout the years. Her minds eye played out every fight whether it be a little fight over something stupid then to the second wizarding world war. Finally, she saw Severus, the curse lifting off of him, his aunt, his happiness and then she saw the strain she’d put on him over the last few months. Hermione watched as if she’d been a third person in the room and watched him moving a desk in to the room so as to be close to her. She saw him sitting by her as she thrashed around and screamed her head off, he deserved a better life than the one he had watching after her like she was a child. Hermione looked at the floor, she was floating several feet up thanks to the spell she’d placed on herself. With one last silent apology Hermione raised her wand and pointed it at her homemade noose and then took a deep breath.

“Finite Incantatem” She whispered and the levitating charm she’d placed upon herself ended and Hermione Granger dropped down.    

A/N: I hope you’ll read and REVIEW this chapter, I REALLY need them.

I want to take a moment to apologize if the talk about suicide was personal for anyone. It is extremely personal for me. Now, like all those Lifetime movies I will say that if you are having thoughts about harming yourself please get help. If you are worried about someone close to you then please, please, please tell someone and get them help because take it from me, you don’t get another chance.