Love Songs

Close My Eyes Forever

By: Snapes_Goddess





Song: Close My Eyes Forever

Artist: Ozzy Osbourne and Lita Ford

Year: 1988







Baby, I get so scared inside and I don\'t really understand

Is it love that\'s on my mind or is it fantasy









“What am I doing here?” She asked herself for the hundredth time as she stood inside the small cottage. She knew it was wrong, she shouldn’t be meeting him alone. She was terrified and elated all at the same time as she waited for him to arrive. It was like that every time they arranged one of their little rendezvous.







If anyone knew they would call her naïve, a foolish young girl taken in by a much older man. That he couldn’t possibly love her, he was using her for his own gain. Through her was a direct route to Harry and he was exploiting that. Using her to find a way to bring Potter to his master and thus establish himself as Voldemort’s favorite.





He was her dirty little secret, an obsession that began with a young girl’s crush. Oh he had easily seen through her attempts to shield her feelings. She may have been the brightest witch of the age but she was still a woman, a woman with needs, with fantasies that he alone could fulfill.





“You came.” A rich, cultured voice purred from the doorway. She hadn’t heard him open the door.





“I shouldn’t have.” She countered, backing up so that she was pressed against the wall.







“No, you shouldn’t have.” He said as he closed the door behind him and came towards her. “Yet you always do. Why is that?”





He ran cool fingers down the side of her face, the corner of his mouth lifting when her lips parted on a shaky breath.







“I d-don’t know.” She said, her eyes half closing as just the barest brush of his fingers against her lips had heat pooling low in her belly.







“I do, it’s because you love me.” He said softly, brushing his lips against her cheek. “Say it, say that you love me.”







“I love you.” Her eyes slid shut as his fingers began working the buttons on the front of her dress free.





“Are you ready to leave with me?” He asked softly, “Are you ready to turn your back on everything and come with me?”









Heaven, is in the palm of my hand, and it\'s waiting here for you

What am I supposed to do with a childhood tragedy?









“You know I can’t.” She moaned as his hands parted the fabric of her dress, sliding inside to caress her bare skin.







“You will continue to let them use you? You will sacrifice what you have found in my arms to be a martyr for their cause?” His voice was harsh while his hands remained gentle as he touched her.







“You don’t love me. You don’t even like me. I’m just a vessel for your lust so why does it matter if I let them use me?” She asked, her words making her seem braver than she felt. He brought the head of his cane between her breasts, the sharp fangs of the serpents head slicing through the lace and satin of her bra.







“What do you know of my feelings, eh little mudblood?” He pushed the ruined garment off of her, along with the dress. His hands were smooth as silk as they slid over her heated skin. He loved touching her, such sweet, supple young flesh. “Do you think that I take the risk of coming to see you lightly?”





“You come here to try and get closer to Harry.” She said. He tucked his fingers into the sides of her lacy underwear and yanked, the material biting into her skin painfully before it finally snapped and fluttered to the floor.







“Is that what you think?” He breathed against her breastbone, his tongue licking between the plump globes of her breasts. “You think I risk torture and possible death just to get closer to that whiny little martyr?” The tip of his tongue traced the circumference of one puckered areola, flicking lightly at the tight nipple before moving to the other side and doing the same.





“Isn’t it the truth?” She cried out sharply when he sucked her hard between his lips, his teeth raking lightly over the sensitive tip.







“Maybe for you. My truth is something else altogether.” He whispered, torturing her other breast in the same manner. She arched her head back, an agonized groan spilling from her lips as she clutched the back of his head, holding him to her.







If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain unchanged

If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain the same







“What is your truth, Lucius?” She asked him softly as he rained light, wet kisses over her rib cage, slowly going to his knees before her.







“You are my truth.” His words were slightly muffled against her stomach, his lips and tongue leaving no inch of her unmarked. “You are an addiction, my obsession. I defy my master to come here, to be with a woman who embodies everything I stand against because I can’t help myself. That is my truth.”





He laid his hands on the insides of her thighs and pushed them open. She held on to his shoulders, bracing herself as his tongue began to dance along the closed slit of her sex, slithering between the folds to find the seat of her pleasure, that tiny little pearl that would send her soaring while screaming his name to the rafters.







“If I am so important to you, walk away, come to the light.” She cried out, his lips fastened around her clit, sucking tenderly while he entered her with his fingers. She writhed beneath the assault, unable to think clearly as her orgasm rushed over her. He continued to tongue her clit gently until she stopped pulsing around his fingers then turned his head to her inner thigh and kissed it gently before pulling her down astride his thighs.







“I can’t. I’ve come too far to turn back now, even for you.” He whispered, taking her lips with his, thrusting his tongue into her mouth so that she could taste her own arousal.







“How can you fight for him? If he wins he will destroy me and everyone like me.” She asked breathlessly. She pulled his shirt free of his trousers, undoing the buttons quickly and helping him shed the barrier between them.







“I do what I have to.” He unbuckled his belt and opened his trousers, withdrawing his cock and immediately pushing into her with a hard, sure thrust. “I do what must be done to protect the traditions of my world.”







“Our world, Lucius.” She moaned, her arms locked tightly around him, her breasts mashed against the heat of his naked torso.







Sometimes it\'s hard to hold on

So hard to hold on to my dreams

It isn\'t always what it seems

When you\'re face to face with me







“Muggles bring change, disease and the risk of exposure, it has to be stopped.” He growled, pressing her into the wall and pulling her legs up around his hips.







“Then why me? Why do we do this again and again?” She asked brokenly as he moved within her, piercing her tight, wet flesh over and over.







“Because I can’t help myself. You are like a disease in my blood that I can’t seem to purge.” He groaned, thrusting so hard that it bordered on being painful.







“Maybe you never will, then what?”







“Then I will lock you up within the walls of my home until the sickness that drives me to love you kills us both.” He placed his hand on the wall and used it for leverage as he pushed to his feet, still locked tight within her. He staggered to the bed, falling atop the tattered quilt and rolling her beneath him.





You\'re like a dagger

And you stick me in the heart

And taste the blood from my blade

And when we sleep would you shelter me

In your warm and dark embrace.







“You already kill me a little every time we leave this cottage.” She cried, holding him tight as he pumped his cock into her with near brutality.







“I don’t want to want you.” He rasped against her lips. “I hate myself for loving you, for needing you.”







“Then stop coming, Lucius, stop torturing us both!” She nipped his bottom lip a bit roughly and he slammed his hips hard against hers.







“Damn you I would if I could!” He growled, pushing up onto his hands as he slammed into her fiercely, needing to punish her for making him love her. “You’ve bewitched me, there is no other excuse!”







“No…it is you who have done the ensorceling! I should hate you.” She cried, her nails raking down his back, biting into his arse as he pumped violently into her.







“Say it! Say the words you little bitch!” He panted, staring down at her flushed and sweaty face as he pounded his frustrations into her.







“I love you.” She whispered, watching in amazement as he closed his eyes, let his head fall back and he shouted his release. The thrusting motion of his hips turned into a slow grind as he lodged his cock as deep into her as he could while he came. The pressure of his pelvic bone against her clit combined with the feel of him spilling into her womb was enough to take her over. Her back bowed beneath him as she pulsed around his cock, her nails biting painfully into his arse cheeks as she came.





If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain unchanged

If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain the same







“This is sick, Lucius, we have to stop this.” She said, running her hands gently over his sweaty back, soothing the deep red furrows she had left in her passion.







“I want to. I try to. But then I find myself coming back again with no control over myself.” He kissed the purple bruise of passion he had left on her shoulder softly, running his tongue over the abused spot.







Will you ever take me?





“Come with me.” He whispered. “Let me take you somewhere safe until the war is over.”







“No…you come with me, come fight for the light, so that we can be together.” She said.





No, I just can\'t take the pain.







“I can’t.” He moaned against her skin.





“You can’t abide muggleborns yet you are in love with one. You say you love me but you won’t fight for me?” She turned her face away to hide the tears.





But would you ever trust me?







“I do love you. But in this, loving you isn’t enough.” He said, clasping her chin and turning her face to his. He licked the tears from her cheeks then kissed her again, his tongue digging deep into her mouth to battle with hers.







No, I\'ll never feel the same...Ohh







“I hate you.” She cried.





“No you don’t, and that is the real problem, because try as I might I can not hate you either.” He said, moving off of her when she rolled over to present her back to him. He sighed wearily and left the bed, dressing slowly as he watched her lie in the bed, naked, sobbing and broken.







I know I\'ve been so hard on you.

I know Ive told you lies.

If i could have just one more wish.

I\'d wipe the cobwebs from my eyes







“I have to go.” He said, bending over her to kiss her temple.







“Then go. This is the last time, Lucius, I’m not coming back. This twisted relationship has to end.” She sobbed.







“You’ll be back and so will I, Hermione.” He said, pushing her hair back from her face. “Sick and twisted as it is, we can’t help ourselves. It’s dark, it’s angry and it’s deadly, but it’s still love, and you cant fight it any more than I can.”







She heard the soft click of the door closing and she buried her face into the pillow to cry even harder, because she knew he was right. She would keep coming back and so would he until their love finally destroyed them both.







If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain unchanged

If I close my eyes forever

Will it all remain the same





Close your eyes

Close your eyes

you gotta close your eyes..... for me.



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I know, this is rather dark for me isn’t it?