New Beginning

Chapter 11

When Severus and Hermione got back to the castle, Darien had a new wardrobe, and a few new toys. He kept pointing to the toys, Hermione told him he didn’t need anymore, but Severus gave in. He told her after what he did at the castle, the boy deserved a whole toy store. Darien wasn’t lucky enough to come away with a whole toy store but he did manage to get what he wanted.

Darien was now sitting in the middle of Wizarding action figures in the living room floor of the chamber. He had Merlin going after an ogre. Severus was sitting on the couch in Hermione’s chambers watching his son play. Hermione sat down beside him and handed him the cup of tea.

“What all did he do?” Severus took a drink of the dark brew.

Hermione stirred her tea. “I don’t remember that much.”

Severus looked over at her. “What do you remember?”

“Da tor tore this room up. Everything that could be picked up and thrown was, including some of the smaller pieces of furniture.”

Severus looked at Darien, he now had one of the dragons attacking the ogre, and Merlin going after both of them. He glanced around the room, there was an awful lot of stuff for him to have picked up with his magic, and the furniture was a shock. It was his age that worried him more though, he wondered how much of Harry’s magic that Darien had retained, and the possible combination of Hermione’s and his. If the potion had been performed correctly, Darien shouldn’t have had any of Harry’s magic, now he wasn’t so sure.

“Do you remember him doing this or after?” Severus was watching her stir the tea, she had yet to take a drink of it.

“After.”

Severus kept looking at her, as much as he wanted to understand what Darien had done, he wouldn’t be able to get far if Hermione only saw the destruction of it afterwards. “What were you seeing while this was going on?”

He could always use Occlumency on Darien, it would be worthwhile to actually find out how much of Harry Darien obtained, even that had frightened Severus. He could do the same to Hermione if she really couldn’t reer, er, but it wouldn’t help her, he didn’t want to throw her back to that state.

“Every time Ron says a word or comes in the room with me it throws me into memories.”

Severus stood up and pulled his wand out. “Do you trust me?”

“What do you want to do?” Hermione asked while her voice trembled.

Severus knelt down in front of her, “I want to run a scan, see if Weasley has put any spells on you.”

“But Ron wouldn’t…” Severus raised his eyebrow at her. “He wouldn’t…would he?”

Severus had seen her go from determinedly not to unsure very quickly. “It would be more in our benefit if we checked on this matter.”

Hermione was so unsure about this, Ron hadn’t been the most cleaver wizard in the bunch at school. She couldn’t ever remember a time that Ron had pulled his wand on her. But you won’t remember if the obliviate spell was performed, the little voice said in her head. She shuttered at the thought of not having her all her memories, mind rape. She hated that spell, it raped the mind of your memories, and if it had been performed against her will, and she closed her eyes. Did she want to know? Could she handle knowing this?

Severus watched the emotions play across her face. The Hermione he knew would have been damned furioust tht this unsure creature that was before him. She was vulnerable in this state and he hated this. Hermione was a very strong, smart witch. Stronger than Weasley, he was shocked needless to say when Hermione settled for the red headed dunderhead.

“Okay, do it.” She told him and looked into his eyes.

He could see the fear there, that was something he hated seeing in her eyes, the witch he had known was fearless, rushing headlong with Potter, not worrying about the danger. He stood and started the spell before Hermione could change her mind. The silver scan started at her head, it changed read red over her head, then blue, then green then back to silver. Red was indications of the obliviate spell he ground his teeth together, someone didn’t want her to remember something, he would fix that, blue was indications of suppressed emotions, she could have done this one herself. He would have to be careful of releasing this one, he didn’t want her to fall apart on him. Green indicated jealousy spells, more likely a lover put this one on her.

The scan continued on green over hear heart, oh yes, Severus thought, definitely a lover, and a very jealous one at that. She had one other place the spell was enacted, her female regions glowed vibrantly with green and black. When Severus saw the black he cursed under his breath. Damn her lover for putting her under this.

“What?” She asked.

The scan stopped and Severus looked away from her.

“Severus?”

He could hear the fear in her voice.

“Hermione, have you tried seeing anyone else other than Ron?”

“Yes, but it never worked out. They would always accuse me of seeing someone else, and…” Her voice trailed off.

Severus turned to her. “And, what? Continue it.”

“And anytime I even kissed someone or looked at another guy it felt like I was betraying Ron, like I didn’t love him enough.”

“Do you remember when this started? When that feeling started?”

“Not to long after me and Ron got together, I was talking to Harry about it. Harry had an odd look on his face, I asked him what was wrong with me, and he said nothing was wrong with me. Then he was angry and left to go talk to Ron. After that night, Harry barely said a few words to me. What’s going on, Severus?”

Severus watched her hands twist in her lap, he reached over and placed a hand over her and looked up into her eyes. “You have had some spells cast you.” He watched for her reaction, fear, shock, outrage, curiosity, he continued. “One of them I’m pretty sure you cast on yourself. An emotion-suppressing spell.”

Hermione put her head back on the couch and groaned, “I can’t believe I didn’t take that off.”

“When did you do this? Why did you do this?”

He watched blush creep up her neck and into her cheek, when she looked back down her face was beet red.

Hermione, you idiot, she scolded herself in her head. You cast that spell on yourself during your fifth year because you didn’t want anyone noticing that you had a crush on your potions professor. OWLs were looming and you didn’t want the distraction, not that yea year itself was easy with Umbridge there too. Fifth year hadn’t been easy, she had totally forgot to remove the spell, but she still had feelings creep up even in sixth year also and restored the spell even stronger. What was she going to tell Severus, he was waiting to hear the answer, and his eyebrows where now raised. She could tell him part of the truth, not all of it, but at least part of it. She felt like she was betraying Ron even with these thoughts.

“I performed the spell in my fifth year, then again in my sixth year. I didn’t want to be distracted from the exams, too much was going on at the time.” She said this while looking in her lap.

Severus caught that flash of guilt in her eyes before she looked down. Who did she like before Weasley? She liked someone, or the guilt wouldn’t have shown if she hadn’t, damn Weasley and his jealousy spell, he had stifled this woman’s heart and her feelings evore ore because she had cast that spell on herself. His spell only reinforced it.
ou cou can remove that spell, I’ll leave that one alone. You also had an obliviate spell performed on you.”

He saw her head shoot up and the anger was rising. He didn’t want to tell her about this one, but it was the next less evil spell that had been performed. He didn’t know if he could make himself tell her the last two, those last two spells had to be performed while intercourse was taking place, and the onmy way to remove them was with the same action. She had to trust her partner fully before those last two spells could be taken away.

“I’ve been obliviated? Obliviated. Merlin’s beard! That is miape.ape.”

Severus sat back on his haunches. This was closer to the Hermione he remembered, that angry flare was drawing her out of that cocoon shell she was hiding under.

“I can remove that spell? Do you want me too?” Severus wasn’t sure who even cast that spell on her, or when.

“Yes I want you to remove it.” She was indignant that someone could have taken her memories from her, not of her own free will, she would never ask for an obliviate no matter how hard something was to deal with.

Severus raised his wand and put it on the side of her temple and said the spell. He wasn’t expecting the reaction he got, but Hermione was laughing.

Hermione’s memories came back, she was laughing so hard, because what Headmaster Dumbleodore obliviated from her and Ron’s memories was ludicrous, Harry had ended up telling her and Ron everything anyways. It was rather funny, but she really couldn’t blame the man. He was trying to protect his spy. She thought it was funny, because the Headmaster had obliviated her on more than one occasion and each one had been about Severus, the irony of the situation made her laugh also, because Severus himself was the one giving her these memories back.




A/N: I know Darien-Harry seems confusing at this point. The more Severus finds out about him, the more your chestions will be answered, bare with me. I do have a plot going to this story.