Mine

Well, did I ask too much, more than a lot?
You gave me nothing, now it's all I got
We're one, but we're not the same
Well we, hurt each other
Then we do it again
-One-Mary J. Blige and U2


*

“may I see Harry today?”, I asked over breakfast in the great hall, he hated the idea of me seeing him but I had to ask at least, I watched him slowly take a sip of some pumpkin juice then settle it down.

“I see no reason why not, an hour maximum. After breakfast”, he said mechanically, I dropped my eyes back to my plate sadly.

“He’s my only friend, hardly even that really but close enough”

“yes but I kept him alive for him to suffer, seeing you isn’t suffering”

“it is when he see’s that his old best friend is now wife of his enemy…please, don’t be angry about it”, he didn’t reply but opened up ‘The Daily Prophet’ and read it casually. Front page was Hogwarts and how its study of the dark arts had surpassed Durmstrang’s, what great news…the mark on my thigh started to burn slightly and I knew it was just because I pissed him off, I carried on eating in silence. I woke him up by sucking lightly on his member, I felt I owed it to him and he seemed to enjoy it, he wouldn’t be pissed off now if I hadn’t of just asked about Harry.
“Thank you for my wand again, I appreciate it a lot. Its nearly Halloween, are you planning anything? Not that im expecting anything”

“Maybe, why do you ask?”

“No reason, Halloweens next week and I just wondered, I feel bit ill this morning so I was just hoping if you were having a celebration it wouldn’t happen too soon”

“what’s wrong? I can have a healer sort you out in no time”

“no I don’t need a healer, id prefer to get over it naturally than have to have potions every time I get a little bit ill”, I smiled

“its your choice, if its not a big deal”, he replied more casually than before

“Im going down to see him now seeing as I’ve eaten and you will obviously be busy during the day”

“well before you go, I would like to see a bit of your wand work, im not sure if you are yet capable of controlling it”

“is that a challenge?”, I raised an eyebrow making him smirk and settle down his paper, I gasped as I felt magic surge through my body, a duel indeed.

“expelliarmus!”, I attempted just to warm up but he lazily flicked it away

“really, is that the best you can do?”, he teased and threw a burning jinx towards me which I only just repelled with a freezing charm. It felt so good to be using a wand though, “come on, show me what you are capable of”

I did my best, but I hardly touched him with a curse when I tried, he had allowed me to cause pain but I wasn’t able to as he was just too quick! So was I, as he hadn’t actually cursed me either.

“you need to improve”, he finished and cast something which made me fall backwards onto the floor unable to get up again but I wasn’t frozen. He kneeled down to my side, “I should crucio you right now, but you are already helpless, I thought by now you would have been able to at least cast one strong spell on me, you seem so pitiful down here”. he really knows how to make me angry…

“you should be more cautious in future then”, I smirked and blasted him across the room, easy as that. I heard him whack against the wall and the fall to the floor as I released myself from the floor binding charm and stood up. He was conscious but in pain as he didn’t expect it, he raised a hand to his to wipe away some blood and then laughed.

“I shall be”, he said as I went over and healed him while he pushed himself up, I hadn’t actually hurt him it was just the force of him hitting the stone wall.

“sorry”, I muttered

“don’t be, its what I wanted to see from you, I was beginning to think you were weak”

“im not weak, its just you are the most powerful wizard in history, its not exactly easy”

“you may go see Potter then, I will be away till this evening at the ministry”

“Ok, erm…before you go, well I was just wondering, have you got anti-apparition charms on me? I don’t intend to use it as I have nowhere to go even if I wanted to”

“no you don’t, don’t make me think about changing my mind”

“I wont”, I smiled and cleaned off the blood on his robes,

“you may go now, as long as you don’t get into trouble, no ones here today but I trust you not to do anything…stupid”, I giggled and happily walked away.

*

She still has her fiery spirit, good, just how I like her. She turns me on so much when she casts spells furiously and very determined, she has a habit of biting her bottom lip which makes her look so innocent when I knew she was not.
She needs a break from me and I need to work, I was going to taker her out for the day but things always seem to pop up at the ministry, I may be the dark lord but I still must work to keep my empire how I want it.

I hate that boy, he just needs to suffer or I would have killed him long ago.

*

“Harry?”, I called into the darkened cell and lit the room up, it seemed to have gotten colder since last time.

“’mione, what you doing here?”, I heard him answer hoarsely, I looked over to see him crouched with blanket around him and he looked extremely ill and weak. In the next cell was a hairy prisoner who was unconscious by the looks of it so I just ignored him and went straight to Harry.

“visiting”, I smiled and made the room warmer

“thanks”

“no problem”, I opened up his cell and settled myself next to him, he didn’t look at me so I put my arm round him, “What’s wrong? I haven’t upset you have I”

“no, im just sick of living here, I want to die or at least have something to be happy about, something to just make my day”, he moaned. I looked into his eyes and he leaned over and kissed me, I didn’t know what to do so I let him because that’s obviously what he wanted. After several minutes I felt his hand wrap tightly round my neck.

“What the-”, I murmured then silenced as I saw he held my wand at my neck, “You did that to get my wand? And I though you were a friend”, I spat

“I stopped being your friend the day you killed Dumbledore”, he sneered

“he had it coming”, I growled making him dig my wand into my neck harder

“don’t ever say that again, I had sympathy and guilt for you when you were taken, the pain you went through, but now…your living it up while the world suffers”

“You have no idea what I have gone through, what I still go through”

“your with the man you love, you love the evil son-of-a-bitch so you aren’t exactly suffering”

“im still not free though, im still a prisoner regardless if I am his wife and I love him back, im still being kept against my will. I would give everything to have things how they were”

“I doubt that”

“Believe what you want but you know I don’t need a wand to use magic-”

“Stupefy!”, was the last thing I heard.
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“Miss! Miss!”, a squeaky voice whined above me, I slowly fluttered open my eyes to see a house-elf looking down at me looking very worried, “Miss was unconscious so Pibby woke miss up, Mr Potter has gone!”, I got up quickly and looked around. It was true, he had gone and with my wand. I groaned in disbelief and anger, How could he do that to me? I am so stupid.

“how long was I unconscious Pibby? I last remember it being around 10am”

“it is 2pm miss”, I stamped my fist against the wall in frustration, he had used my wand and had gone far away probably but I had hunch where he may have gone. I wanted him free but he wouldn’t last, the fact he betrayed me didn’t stop the anger boiling.

“Does the dark lord know?”

“No miss, Pibby just found miss and woke her up”

“good, if he asks where I have gone tell him I will be back by nightfall”

“what does miss mean?”

I looked down at the house elf, “I order you not to punish yourself either, I’m going to find Mr Potter”, I finished and apparated, I didn’t think id be able to do it but I did. I was able to apparate and land in the right place, I knew I had to return as Voldemort would find me, regardless if I wanted to return or not.

It was freezing and snow was lightly dusting the ground, it was nearly Halloween so I could see a few homes nearby decorated nearby, opposite me stood a sign.

Godric’s Hollow

I just had the hunch he would have returned here to go to his parents old home, it was probably the only place he could go seeing as he has one of the most known faces in the world. I knew where the house was in this small village as I had researched the place back in my fifth year. I followed the cobbled path through some houses and knew it was at the end, I took a deep breath as I knew I was about to see the place innocent lives were stolen by the man I just happened to be married to.

And there it was, dark and dull against the light autumn village, the top floor was mostly broken away. Where it happened, I just knew Harry was there.

*

“Pibby is sorry master, Miss left before Pibby could stop-”

“Silence! Where has she gone?”, I roared at the frail elf, I have it come to the ministry to tell me she had gone!

“Miss told Pibby she gone to find Mr Potter master! Mr potter stunned miss with her wand and went, Pibby wont miss up but she left”, it stuttered quickly. I could kill the elf but I had no time, where the hell would she have gone? How could she have left so easily!
“Master, miss told Pibby she will be back by nightfall”, it quickly mentioned just before I apparated down to the dungeons, she’s returning by tonight? I doubt that…

*

“You disappoint me Harry”, I said clearly into a dark room I knew he was in

“expelliarmus!”, I heard him shout which narrowly missed me,

“forget it Harry, I risked a lot to come here for you, look…you have nothing here, the whole world knows you so you wont last long at all, you will either die from hunger or cold or you can come back with me”

“I am not going back you evil bitch!”

“I have done nothing to you, you are the one who stole my wand and threatened me with it”

“I am not returning”

“that’s a mistake. I know you have suffered, but you are going to die here! You have suffered very little compared to me!”

“Crucio!”, he screamed which hit me straight in the chest, I ignored it and walked nearer to him. “you really are his little witch aren’t you”

“I do what must be done to have some peace in my life, I will never die and I will never be free so I must do what I can to at least be happy on some level”

“you are a traitor”

“no im not”

“yes you are, but don’t worry, the light got our small revenge on you”

“what could you have possibly have done”

“your parents are long gone”

“what”, I whispered, I had almost forgotten about them but they were still my parents, I loved them even if they had no memory of me.

“dead, hope you can feel what its like to lose a loved one now then”, he sneered

“I loved you Harry”

“take your revenge on my revenge then, not that you can”, he laughed

“Goodbye Harry, I will miss you but I hope you understand wherever you go”, his eyes filled with confusion but then blank as I recited the curse.

“Avada Kedavra!”, and the boy-who-lived was gone.

I fell to the floor with tears streaming down my face as I hugged his body, “im sorry, I had no choice”, I whispered without letting go. My ex-best friend and hope for the light was now just a still corpse, he looked nothing like our schooldays, his hair was matted and greasy as well as his skin being pasty and his body being skeletal. He wasn’t Harry anymore, he was just a boy whose life was wrecked by misery and death, I guess I gave him freedom. I couldn’t believe I had done it, but it just had to be done.

I didn’t let go as I remembered things, how we met on the train going to Hogwarts, how we battled the troll together with Ron, when we travelled with the time-turner, supporting him during Voldemort’s return and setting up the DA. Having friends, loved ones, now all I have is Voldemort, the person who started all of this.
Why the fuck do I love him.
“please forgive me Harry”, I sobbed and laid his body back onto the rotting floorboards. I didn’t leave or do anything, just watched him, I didn’t want to kill him but I knew he would have a worse than death experience when Voldemort takes him back-which I knew he would. “You’re free now, just how you wanted but im left behind, I hate that I love Voldemort but I cant help it, I just want us all to be back at Hogwarts again”

What do I do now? I need to go back but what do I do with his body…I wasn’t going to bury him as I knew I couldn’t bring myself to so I levitated his body to an old bed in the room and lay him peacefully, he looked like he was just sleeping.
“Goodnight Harry”, I finished and kissed his forehead before leaving his body forever more with my wand. What else could I do? Let him live and die later anyway but probably painfully, or just kill him painlessly and move on…I couldn’t stop the tears as I arrived outside Voldemort’s chambers, they still fell as I slipped into the library and curled up on the sofa, they stayed moist on my cheeks when I heard a swish of a robe.
“leave me alone, torture you me all you like later but I need to be on my own”, I sniffed with my eyes closed tightly

“I have an house-elf come to the ministry to tell me Potter has escaped and so have you, no other word, you just left. Then you return with no explanation and demand I leave you alone?”

“yes”, I replied before he cursed me with the cruciatus Snape had worked on, it killed me and I screamed a lot yet I didn’t care, I didn’t cry just the tears lingered from before. I couldn’t see, hear or feel, when he lifted it I found I was on the floor with him sitting lazily on the sofa.

“where was you?”, he asked severely

“I went to see Harry if you must know”

“what do you mean ‘see’? just popped out for a visit did you?”, he spat sarcastically

“No, I k-killed him”, I stuttered sadly

“Legilimens”, he motioned and he was in my mind, I was too weak to fight him but I cried even more as I had to relive the moment I cast the curse and his body falling to the floor, dead.
“I intended for him to suffer but it’s too late now, I guess I should congratulate you on using the killing curse, and on an old friend as well”

“I hate you”

“no you don’

“I wish I did then, I dislike you even if I do love you, I cant believe you…you are trying to hurt me by sneering at what I have done, cant you just leave me? Please”

“no, because you caused a lot of trouble today when I asked for none to happen, but murdering your so called friend is punishment enough. Are you going to tell me of his bodies whereabouts or must I search your mind?”

“why do you need to know? He’s dead and I’ve left him peacefully, cant it just be left now, the last hope for the light is gone although he was a prisoner he was still the last hope”

“last hope? You don’t seem to understand that everyone has welcomed my ruling now, even if not at first, you think I just murder and torture people. Yes, there is more discipline in the world now but that is how obedience happens, people are used to it and are happy with there new lives”

“what makes you think that”

“they could have killed themselves if they wanted to end it, muggles are now slaves and certain prisoners. The world has moved on, I thought you had also-”

“I have”

“then don’t dwell on the past”

“Im allowed to mourn aren’t I? I killed him so he wouldn’t suffer anymore, not because I wanted to, so don’t hold it against me”

“you don’t get to give the orders, but I wasn’t going to anyway, I despise the boy I just regret the fact I couldn’t have done it myself”

“im so sorry, how must I make it up to you?”, I mocked angrily

“don’t get angry with me, you’re the one who let him escape, you are the one who killed him, you are the one who caused the trouble. I have done nothing, but thanks to you I have to go away for a while because more trouble was caused at the ministry because of my sudden departure”

“how long will you be gone?”, I said as I calmed down a bit

“I am unsure, a week at most, im setting up anti-apparition charms on you as I cant seem to trust you. I foolishly forgot to remove you access to dark magic but I promise you, you cant use it anymore because who knows what you will do next”

“you make me sound like an animal but I forgot, im a slave aren’t I, and in your eyes slaves are just animals”

“you aren’t really a slave anymore, a slave serves there master, you have not”

“in my eyes you see me as a slave even if I don’t serve you, I never wish to but if you want me to, I will”, I stated, “ok then, I am going to do what all the other slaves do from now on, its obviously what you want-”

“no, you are not a common slave, you are my wife, the dark lord doesn’t marry someone who is equal to a muggle. I don’t want to leave with you angry with me when I have done nothing, so you either get over what ever your problem is or im knocking you unconscious till I get back”, he was serious. I was just angry because he didn’t seem to care that I had just killed my best friend, he didn’t seem to care that I had just lived my worst nightmare and that I was so sad I couldn’t think straight.
“well?”

“forget about it, I’ve already promised myself not to have grudges against you, I should be expecting it by now. When you leave do I get the place to myself or do I have your followers around me?”

“Lucius is staying, everyone is busy and he has things to do here, do not disturb him during his stay”

“it doesn’t bother me but I know for a fact he will be allowed to bother me, am I right”

“on some level, he cannot enter my bedroom but he can go anywhere else, he’s not allowed to rape you if that’s what your thinking”

“no, its not. Your deatheaters and followers seem obsessed with sex, maybe im missing something”, I said sarcastically but I couldn’t help but grin, even if I was a bit pissed off.

“maybe you don’t seem to realise a hard day at work should finish with certain pleasure”, he smirked

“before anything happens…can you promise me one thing? Please”, I pleaded, after some thought he nodded carefully. “please leave Harry where I left him and can you not mention him again? I cant stand the thought of him haunting me for the rest of my life in my dreams and nightmares.

“that is two requests, the first I agree to, the second I half shall, lets just say im not promising he wont come up in a conversation in the future”

“that’s fine, thank you Tom and I apologise for being a bit pissed, im just so emotional…I guess I felt I needed to blame someone, tell myself it wasn’t me…”

“I don’t take offence by it, I just prefer you not to be so angry-with me”

“I cant help it, I just feel so lost”

“then let me show you the way”, he finished with a kiss. I had no reason to be angry with him, I was upset about Harry but I just had to tell myself it was for the best, I saved him really, from pain and suffering. Even if it is wrong.

*

He is dead and she is still in my arms, she was the one who did it, although she left without my permission, she returned quickly. Yes she was upset, of course she would be, but now that she has calmed down she finally relaxes next to me on the bed. I have no idea how we got their, everything happened so fast, she was sad but very passionate otherwise. It wasn’t even evening yet, but she lay against me as if she was about to go to bed. Her eyelids close but I knew she was awake, her heart beating gently alongside my previously unknown one. I do have a heart and I can feel.

“I will be gone by nightfall”

“send me a postcard”, she smiled before opening her eyes to gaze into my own, her crimson tinted iris’s matched mine and had seemingly warmed up to being with me.

“I hope you wont miss me too much, I don’t want you getting love sick or whatever they call it”

“I don’t think that shall be a problem, I’ve been feeling a bit ill last few days now, its nothing to worry about! Just feel bit nauseas every now and again”

“id prefer you see a healer”

“ok I make you a deal, if I still feel ill when you return, I shall see a healer”

“your on. Ill be back the day before Halloween latest if I am correct, gives you time to anticipate my return”, I joked making her pout, “you look cute when you do that, should do it more often”

“how about this”, she kissed my lips quickly, “or this”, she kissed my neck and then began to suck lightly on the vein there making me moan.

“you do this to make me feel weak don’t you”

“I thought I should give you a mark to remember me by”, she pulled away as I knew she had left a small bruise, “your not the only one who can mark their lover”, lover…such a word…

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Harry isn’t a Horcrux like in the Deathly Hallows book by the way J
I wanted to kill Harry off and thought it best by Hermione’s hand, she just didn’t want him to suffer so she’s not evil…
Hope its not bad news if you love Harry