Mine

It's so clear now that you are all that I have
I have no fear 'cause you are all that I have

There is a darkness deep in you
A frightening magic I cling to

Give me a chance to hold on
All I have-Snow patrol

*

“I haven’t got a problem with him, its you, Lucius isn’t my problem anymore and I don’t really care, he and anyone can do what they want it just doesn’t matter”, I said simply to Voldemort in the library about an hour later. He didn’t even say a thing when he entered but I just wanted to get it across, im sick of them so why bother?

“I see”

“you don’t believe me, I can tell, I have learned a bit of legilimency and you haven’t bothered to use occlumency in my presence, don’t just assume things”, I stated with a smirk, he knew I could practise occlumency but he never knew about the other. I quickly noticed he hurriedly bordered up his mind making me smirk even more, “what is it that you want then?”

“I came to talk but seeing as you don’t seem to care”

“I do just not about him or any other deatheaters, why does everything have to involve others? It was you who brought that bastard back into my life but I’ve just told myself not to worry about it, I’ve had bigger problems than him”

“then why are you so angry?”

“because you keep changing! Sometimes your nice, sometimes you treat me like shit…im used to it now, but…”

“that is me, I may change them things but I wont change myself for you, you haven’t changed yourself for me”

“I have! I’ve killed people, I’ve hurt people, I’ve been sleeping in the dark lords bed! I feel I’ve betrayed everyone”

“you said you didn’t care about the order anymore-”

“not them! I mean everyone! All my friends at Hogwarts, people I just knew, everyone relied on me to not succumb to you but I failed”

“you haven’t as you still seem to refuse anything involving the dark arts, just remember there is no such thing as good and evil…only power”

“I don’t want to believe that but my mind seems too, when Dumbledore gave me veritaserum I said them exact words”

“Because its real, when I was a teenager I never intestinally dwell in the dark arts just to be good at dark magic, I wanted power and that was the best way to do that, people are scared of me so they tend to do things better and quicker. Surely you understand that, I have offered you so much, you are already referred to as ‘milady’, how would you like to truly be the dark lady?”

“im not interested, I want to be here but I don’t want anything to do with that, if you have a problem with that you are going to have to throw me in a dungeon or something because I am not changing that”

“Its your choice, now why are you still angry?”

“well for one I don’t exactly appreciate the fact I cant even defend myself, cant you at least give me that!”, I rolled my eyes with my arms crossed

“ok”

“what?”, shocked at how simply he agreed, he’s got to be joking

“you heard me, you can do what you like but im still not letting you use anything to harm others, if I do that will you stop getting pissed off at every little thing?”, he raised an eyebrow which slightly annoyed me but I wasn’t going to be like that anymore. I couldn’t be the girl who got upset or angry all the time, I guess deep inside I really thought someday all this would be over, I was in love but I had to get over it. I nodded slowly.
“good, because I still haven’t given you your birthday present”, he brought out a black longish, thin box out of his robe and held it out.

“you’re kidding right?”, I said surprised with my eyebrows raised,

“I don’t kid, I was going to give it to you anyway but because of the incident with Lucius I thought not to, but seeing as you haven’t got a problem with him I can give you it cant I?”

“well I guess, but why would you get me a present?”

“Because that’s what most people receive on a birthday if im not mistaken, I have never received a gift but you liked your necklace last time so I hope you will enjoy this even more, I’ve already said I prefer you happy than sad”, he replied smoothly and passed the box into my hands.

Carefully and slowly I prised it open with my fingertips and looked in curiously, I couldn’t believe my eyes. My old wand, vine wood and dragon heartstring, I hadn’t seen it in so long I had almost forgotten what it was like to use a wand, “why would you give it back?”, I asked still unbelieving that it was real.

“because I thought you’d prefer it, it was yours anyway after all I just kept it safe, I believe you have earned the right to use a wand. I know you don’t need it but it can give you more control and if used correctly much more power. So do you like it?”

“yes! Yes, thank you”, I smiled and held the wand tightly in my hands, savouring the feel in my fingertips for a moment before casting a simple levitating charm on a nearby book. Nothing was more satisfying than using your own wand, I just couldn’t stop beaming, I completely forgot about my mood with Voldemort.

“I am glad that you will find it of use to you, just don’t attempt anything dangerous, you know you cant so don’t bother”

“I know and I wont, im not stupid. Erm Tom…I know this is a bit random but, well, how do you think we’re going to end up?”, the thought just popped into my head

“what do you mean?”

“well, though we cant die, eventually something’s going to keep us on a steady line instead of going up and down, were already married so what do you think?”

“I see you happy, loved and cared for and maybe one day it wont just be the two of us”, he murmured with a smile, I rolled my eyes with a grin.

“don’t count on it any time soon!”, I laughed and muttered a few random charms just to try out my wand, “I guess I should forgive you for Lucius”

“I thought you already had”

“yeah well I was lying, now im telling the truth, even check out my mind if you want, I don’t exactly have much to hide”, he knew I wasn’t lying, I meant it. Just no point in always having something to be angry with him for, I need to get over the fact that I want to be happy even if it is wrong, but what is wrong anymore?
“but I still hate Lucius and I don’t trust Snape either, but I promise I wont take it out on you ok?”

“Yes it would be preferable if you hated them instead of me”, he smirked and admired my wand work at juggling books, “most people read books instead of doing that you know”

“I’ve already read them so its ok, im not one to turn down a book reading though, surely you know that by now”

“I knew that before I even met you”

“what do you mean?”, I asked confused and settled down the books neatly in a pile, “you only ever knew about Harry didn’t you?”

“no, I spent quite a few months tracking, planning and finding out things about you, after I found out the magic you possessed and the potential you had. You were at Hogwarts so it was near impossible to even get a glimpse of you, I didn’t even know what you looked like until I got a few photos from my spies, that’s when I made the plan to get Potter to the ministry knowing full well you would go also”

“well I didn’t expect that, I suppose I just forget that if I didn’t possess such magic I wouldn’t be here, I wouldn’t even exist in your head, well never mind im over that…what did you know about me?”

“you are the brightest witch of your age, but from personal experience I can say you are the most intelligent, powerful witch I have ever known to have ever lived”

“that is quite a compliment, thank you”

“you’re welcome, I also knew the subjects you took, who your friends and family were and other details. I know you were petrified by the basilisk from the chamber of secrets, I apologise I think because it was me who sent it out even if it wasn’t the current me, but you worked out what it was so you didn’t die. I know you solved part of the way to the philosophers stone, you travelled through time with a time-turner and rescued the fool Sirius Black, you had a fling with that Krum boy in your fourth year and you came up with the idea of the DA or whatever it was called…”

“wow, you know a lot”, I said astounded

“you were a prefect, you had a cat named Crookshanks, you were almost killed by a troll, your patronus is an otter, you-”

“I get it, you know an unusually lot about me”, I laughed, “you sound like a stalker but I suppose you were, well you had others to do the stalking for you”

“I wanted to know everything, I always intended to use then dispose of you, but I think you must have tripped me because I fell”, I grinned even more, “in love unexpectedly”

“you sound like a teenager”

“well I was one once and you still are, even after all you have experienced but you are not a child anymore, in any way”

“I know that, I’ve gone through things most people don’t do I a lifetime yet im still here, alive…unable to die…will you ever release me from that?”

“no”, he simply stated, “I worked so hard to get you, to keep you here, to have you safe and now I care for you more than anything I have ever known”

“ok just maybe someday I will want to move on from this life, I haven’t got a horcrux but im kept alive because half my soul is inside of you, basically a horcrux without the death”, I sighed, I didn’t want to die anytime soon but it would be nice to think I wont always be here. He looked a big angered by my remark but didn’t say anything, “come on Tom, seriously, we aren’t alike, im not interested in living eternity or whatever”

“when I die then you will die, im not going so neither are you and that’s a promise, I can give you more freedoms in time but never death”, he growled, I nodded slightly knowing into to argue, knowing its never going to happen, knowing there is no point getting upset about it.

“Thank you for all what you have done for me though, you are the dark lord yet you treat me so well”

“I didn’t think I would, but once I started to get to know you I wanted you to like being here, I thought I was being stupid, acting like a fool-”, I silenced him with a kiss on the lips

“thank you”, I smiled and sat down, “if you wasn’t how you are I wouldn’t feel for you, I hate the things you do yet you still managed to seduce me a few times before I even liked you let alone love you”

“I have always had a gift with the ladies”, he smirked

“have you always had a gift for being a bighead also?”, I laughed sarcastically

“the girls always tried to flirt and seduce me back in school, everyone was scared of me so they just hoped that because I slept with them they could be treated differently, of course they weren’t but I was good looking as well anyway”

“you are a bighead, but you cant say you were good looking because you’re pretty damn hot now”, I giggled, “even if that does make me sound like a little kid”

“I could say the same for you. But I must say I am impressed with Draco, he has almost triumphed me with the amount slept with…being head boy gives him the advantage with his own room as well as being a deatheater”

“he is going get what’s coming to him, well ill probably end up punching him for some reason again, nearly every times we’ve spoken I’ve slapped or hit him…but when I punched you just earlier I didn’t even realise I was doing it”

“its in you, the urge to have power, punching me made you feel powerful did it not?”

“well…I don’t know, sort of I guess but I felt so guilty afterwards even though you had pissed me off”

“Finally, you seem to be understanding that to get power others must feel scared or small to you, you may argue against that all you like but that’s how it is in this day and age”

“im still not doing anything like that, I don’t want to do all that, we’ve had this discussion so many times!”

“I know and im not asking you to, I brought you here to use you for all your magic, but now I have won the war with the world as my prize I don’t need your magic in that way, it would be very useful but I am giving you the choice. I want you to trust me”

“I do, just…please don’t keep things from me, Lucius was too big a shock, it was like bringing him back from the dead”, I murmured

“he wont hurt you for no reason, he wont touch you…well he might take a chance to fondle your breasts every now and again but that’s the furthest it will go, no one rapes my wife”

“that’s comforting. Im growing tired so I think ill go to bed, thank you again for my wand, it’s the best gift you have given me”

“better than the pendant?”

“the pendant is wonderful but to have my own wand back…well I appreciate it”, I thanked, “I still owe you a present from what I remember earlier, tomorrow” I finished to a slightly disappointed dark lord, I kissed his forehead before going back to the bedroom. A long conversation but it was good to have more things in the open, I went to sleep that night much happier than I thought I would be after finding out about Lucius. I couldn’t hold a grudge, I had no time for anger these days, not anymore.

*

“did I miss something milord? You seem in a different mood than usual”, Severus’s voice I could hear from the doorway coming towards me,

“You always seem to turn up…but I am in a different mood, Hermione was happy, then angry, then confusing, then normal, Im starting to believe she enjoys confusing me”

“woman, all they are good for is to serve their master in my head, but of course yours is worth so much more than that milord. I still cant get over the fact when she first came here she was a terrified innocent school girl, and then you look at her now…”

“yes I know she has changed emotionally and well physically in certain places but her mind is still the same, she has the same personality and same spirit, no matter how much I tried to break it”

“I know, and yes she doesn’t like me but she is quite irresistible milord”

“I will tell you what you what I told Lucius then, the nearest inside her knickers you will get is a touch of her breasts”, if he was disappointed he didn’t show it, he had mastered the art of secrets and keeping things to himself. “You can find something in that brothel of yours, I haven’t visited in a while but I remember there were a few good ones”

“yes milord, is Hermione settled now about Lucius if you don’t mind me asking?”

“I believe so, she was very angry at first but seemed to clam down a bit, she says he doesn’t bother her but I know he does”

“if he wasn’t a deatheater he would be a sexual predator of some sort, he likes to satisfy his erm, needs. He’s just as powerful as me, the same goals but she’s just a bit frightened by what he’s capable of. I know she doesn’t trust me either and is uncomfortable around me, but she likes my intelligence as I was her professor once milord”

“I see, she has never liked either of you but she had more respect for you…im thinking of letting her out for the day, closely guarded and heavily protected of course because I get the feeling from her she needs to be somewhere else, im escorting her myself as I want to personally protect her. You know I gave her wand back…”

A while later I was back in the bedroom, watching Hermione asleep in her dream world before I entered the bed carefully, not wanting to disturb her, when I was finally in she turned round to face me but her eyes still shut.

“Goodnight Tom, sir, milord or whatever you are supposed to be to me”, she said smugly with a cute smile on her face, I didn’t reply but stroked it lightly, she kissed my chin as she couldn’t quite reach my lips and fell asleep.
She isn’t angry, im happy and she is the most intelligent, powerful and beautiful witch to ever live in my arms peacefully. Perfection.

This is the life I never thought I would want and thank Merlin I allowed it to happen.

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Pretty boring chapter just a conversation, so don’t kill me when you review lol!
I think Hermione has just learned she cant always find little things to be angry at him with, no point.
Once again another short chapter, in time they will get longer its just I have lots going on personally lately.