Seduced By Darkness

Notes : Once again, sorry for the looooong wait. However, I did let you all know that due to Hurricane Wilma I had no cable, phone or internet. Yep, for 13 LOOOOONG Days, believe me, it was more painful for me. This website is restricted at my work, Kinko\'s, & the library, go figure ... Sigh ... But here I am with one new chapter. I should post chapter 12 tomorrow night, I got my internet back today & had to work so only time to Edit and post one chapter. Happy Reading, Thanks for all who are reading and specially to all who are reviewing *hugs* ... Chapter is Rated NC17

Inside my heart there\'s an empty room
It\'s waiting for lightning
It\'s waiting for you
And I am wanting
And I am needing you here
Inside the absence of fear
-- Lyrics \"The Absense of Fear\" By Jewel


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Chapter 11 : Confusion

Harry thought that if had he said that he was getting a sex change they would have been less shocked than they appeared to be at the moment. Sirius felt his forehead, no doubt thinking that he was running a fever or something. Harry swatted his hand away with a loud sigh and more than a little impatience, “It must have been a dream then,” McGonnagall said. She looked over at Dumbledore for his agreement but he stayed staring at Harry thoughtfully. “The Dark Lord isn’t capable of such an emotion Mr. Potter.” Snape said, sounding thoroughly exasperated. Sirius frowned, “Well neither are you Snape but that’s beside the point.” Turning towards Harry and ignoring Snape‘s cold glare, Sirius asked, “Are you sure that it was a vision and not a dream Harry? I mean, Voldermort, falling in love?” Harry knew how it sounded, completely ludicrous, but he was certain that it had been real.

“I know that it sounds crazy.” Harry said empathetically. “Indeed boy! That thing wouldn’t know love if it sneaked up and bit him in the arse!” Growled Moody, Lupin was regarding Harry quietly, much like Dumbledore. “Explain to us what you saw Harry, and this ... feeling.” He said softly. Harry was grateful to him, and as he recounted the entire ceremony, including the vows that were said everyone looked stunned. “I know it was real, and I know it was him and that what he was feeling was true. I told you that something has changed inside him. I still feel Voldermort, the hate, cruelty, and evil but ...” He let his voice trail off as he tried to find words to describe what he felt. “It’s like he isn’t Voldermort, at least not Voldermort as we, I, knew him to be. There’s something sophisticated about him now. There’s a self control that wasn’t there before. I always used to feel this obsession deep within Voldermort. He had a reckless need to kill me, to kill muggles and muggleborns, to have power through fear and pain no matter what the cost. It’s the reason he’s made so many mistakes. It’s almost like he didn’t think of all the possible consequences before doing something.”

Harry stopped for a moment and looked around, “Now though, everything he does it’s very meticulous and deliberate. I feel that now he will not do something unless he knows what the end results will be. He doesn’t seem obsessed with killing me anymore, oh it’s still high on his list, but when I was in him tonight he didn’t think of me once.” He stopped then as he tried to remember. Sirius put a hand on his shoulder to encourage him to go on, “So you see, he’s changed and I still do not know in which way he’s changed exactly.” Moody growled at him again, “All understandable boy but you said that he was falling in love. That is impossible for someone like him! Isn’t that so Albus?”

Everyone now turned to Dumbledore as if needing him to reassure them that they were right in their conclusions. “I would say that Lord Voldermort cannot love. He detests the emotion and the people who are able to feel it. Why? Because he cannot feel it himself, as he has no understanding of it. I always thought that in his younger years, had I been able to reach him then, he might not have turned into Voldermort. No matter, as there is no sense in going into that since he is Voldermort already and we cannot go back in time.” Adjusting his half-moon spectacles, he paused before turning to look at Snape. “Severus, you must try to set up a meeting with Lucius Malfoy, try to find out if Voldermort married Miss Olmo and whatever else might help us piece together this puzzle.” Snape nodded and left the Headmaster’s office. “If Severus is at least able to find out that he indeed married her then we must wonder why he chose those vows to be performed. While they bind her completely to him, they do the same to him. It is most peculiar that he would choose to do this.” He then looked at Harry and Ron, “Off to bed with you two, we will not be getting any answers tonight.”


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As Claudia and Tom arrived back at the castle the snow had really started to fall heavily. What kept Claudia from freezing was her coat which had a warming spell on it and Tom’s arms wrapped securely around her. As they arrived he dismounted and reached up for her. As he brought her to the grown his eyes held hers for a moment before he set her down. Once inside he removed his robes, her coat and handed them to Nagi then led Claudia to the staircase. Before going up he turned and wrapped his right arm around her waist, bringing her up to meet his mouth in a dizzying kiss. When she again opened her eyes she noted that he had apparated them in front of his bedroom. Grabbing her hand he led her inside his room and closed the door. “You will sleep here now. You may keep your clothes in your room and use the room for whatever you wish, but I want you in my bed every night.”

Claudia really hated that no matter what he said to her, and no matter in what way, it never failed to make her feel lightheaded. She walked to the balcony windows and just stared out into the snow-filled sky. “I don’t understand you.” She finally said and turned to face him. “I don’t know who you are. I don’t understand what it is that I am supposed to feel towards you anymore. Everything about tonight was a lie. Those vows we said to each other?” Shaking her head at the fresh memory and laughing sadly she continued, “They were all lies, you didn’t mean any of it. Love? Respect? What are those things to you but empty words. You don’t understand what it is to love someone. To have that person love you back as you love them.” He was about to say something but she ignored him and kept on, “It’s all about control with you and power, over others. Am I not right? You wanted to possess me and so now you do, and supposedly I have the same hold over you. Except that I do not and I never will. I hated everything about today, but most of all I hate everything you stand for since now I must bear it because I’m your wife.”

She hadn’t realized that she had begun crying. Silent tears were falling down her cheeks, staining her dress. He walked up to her, taking her face in his hands, he wiped the tears away and began kissing her. “You are wrong Claudia. Not about everything, but you are still wrong.” She didn’t have a clue what he meant, what was she wrong about? Thinking, however, was not an option anymore. He turned her around and began unzipping her dress, his lips trailing kisses all over the back of her neck and shoulders. “For tonight, stop thinking about it Love.” He said as he let the dress fall away from her. She turned in his arms and wrapped her arms around his neck. Staring at him for a few seconds she whispered, “Thomas...” Before kissing him with all the passion she had. His arms held her in an almost painful grip. Tom wanted to get closer to her, so he picked her up and took her to the bed. He undid the garter belt and removed her panties, as he had already removed his clothes.

When he got on the bed he covered her with his body. She wrapped her legs around his waist and made him turn onto his back. Her hands caressed his face as her tongue explored his lips, jaw and neck. She continued to slip further down his body, stopping only when she reached his erection. “Claudia...” He breathed her name in a half-groan. Grabbing his hard erection while rubbing her thumb across his head in a circular motion she said, “I want to taste you.” Tom closed his eyes and let his head fall back on the pillow then opened them again as he looked at her. He watched as her small mouth took his erect cock into her mouth. Her tongue was circling his engorged head while her hand moved up and down the length of his cock. She sucked like she was desperate to taste him, which made him get harder. Her head moved forward as she took more of him deeper into her mouth, he groaned loudly thinking that he’d never felt anything so amazing before. “Fuck, oh Love don’t...” He wanted to tell her to stop, that he was about to come but this seemed to make her more aggressive which excited him to a fever pitch.

Unable to hold back any more he spilled himself into her mouth and she greedily licked and swallowed it all. That she did that with such abandon and enthusiasm made him get instantly hard again. He grabbed Claudia by her shoulders and flipped her onto her back. Tom settled himself between her legs, spreading her thighs open he inserted a finger into her already wet opening, “You’re so fucking wet and hot.” He dipped his head and took her clit into his mouth, sucking it and making sure that his fingers brought her to the edge. “Tom, I want ...” He looked up, “What do you want Love?” Came his husky voice, he watched as she arched her back and gasped when he licked her clit. “I want you, inside me... God Tom, please…” He raised himself up and tilted her hips before swiftly entering her. She shuddered and felt that she was slowly coming undone.

Her arms went up to hug him to her, as he did the same with her. Without breaking his rhythmic thrusts his tongue dipped in and out of her mouth like he was doing to her with his cock. Arching against him, she gasped and screamed his name as her orgasm claimed her. He continued his thrusts as he felt her tremors shake her which made her walls clench around his length. The sensation made him come and yell her name. Instead of collapsing on top of her he moved slightly to the side and rested his head on her flat stomach; his arms still wrapped around her waist. With one hand Claudia gently stroked his back and with the other she ran her fingers through his hair lovingly. Her heart swelled with happiness and despair, she loved him, yet she never wanted to tell him that. However it was the truth, she loved him and it made her miserable. As if sensing her inner turmoil he lifted his head and kissed her navel, “We are bound to each other now Love, there is no undoing that, stop fighting this, us.” Then he laid his head back down on her stomach and went to sleep. His slow, even breathing eventually made her drowsy enough to also fall asleep.