Mine

It's so unbelievable,
And I don't want to let it go,
Something so beautiful,
Flowing down like a waterfall.
I feel like you've always been,
Forever a part of me.
And it's so unbelievable to finally be in love,
Somewhere I'd never thought I'd be.
Craig David-Unbelievable


Sorry if my Lucius explanation is a bit pathetic in the chapter but I had it planned and I didn’t know how to write it down so I opted for a simpler one-even if it is a bit stupid lol. He’s back, that’s all that matters really.

*

I watched her from afar as she entered the hall, she looked so lost and confused yet stunning at the same time, I marvelled at her beauty yet didn’t approach her, I thought it would be interesting to see how she copes without knowing who and where I am. I chose the colours she should wear so she would stand out, her tiara just made her look like a dainty princess but I knew how tough and rough she can be when she wants to.
I stood in a black and silver trimmed robes and a black eye mask studded with diamonds. I can look good if I want to and I knew I had a number of admirers, maybe because of my magic, maybe because of my looks or maybe just out of fright, it didn’t bother me at all though. Such trivial things…

I kept my eye on Lucius making sure he stayed well away from Hermione, or at least didn’t unveil himself, he wore a blue mask which covered his face completely but his hair was obvious. I hoped that because Hermione thought him dead she wouldn’t reckon it to be him, its impossible to bring back the dead. I didn’t want Hermione to know I didn’t kill him, it would just anger her and it was bad enough at the time of his supposed death that she was scared to death of him and believes it was him who raped her, at the time I thought she wouldn’t understand though there wasn’t much to not understand.

Everyone was masked, I thought it a good idea because it was so different than the usual celebrations I hold, everyone danced with everyone and it felt more relaxed. I made sure Hermione was well protected though, I had a number of people on watch because I wasn’t having another kidnapping. I was glad I wore a mask, Bellatrix was definitely after me and although I could order her to leave me alone or torture her, I thought better to just avoid her, I didn’t want to spoil things for Hermione. Bellatrix many would say as my near equal in thirst for torture, the thing was that she was nowhere near my equal in power nor intelligence though, that’s where Hermione makes perfection.

Everyone knows Lucius is still alive, his wife and he separated but he still lives in his manor yet they never speak, stupid I believe but that’s their decision. I invited Narcissa along though as she has been loyal to me, though not a deatheater she was a follower through and through, she was good in the bedroom department as well…

I only had eyes for Hermione tonight though, she was just so beautiful, always.

*

I knew he wouldn’t show himself! So obvious but it was annoying, I didn’t bother to waste my time searching for him, this was supposed to be my night and I was going to enjoy it. It was mainly ball room songs playing, calming and beautiful but I knew I had to get some more upbeat stuff later. A tallish man took my hand with a bow and asked for a dance which I happily accepted, and there began many hours on my feet with random people I had no idea of their identities. They seemed to know me though as I got a lot of bows and curtseys followed by ‘milady’, like I was a queen or something, im only his friggin wife for Merlin’s sake!

After applauding the end of a song someone caught my eye, blonde long hair reminding me of someone…but that was impossible, his face was covered up but I could tell by how he held himself he was good looking, his body looked good from what I could tell by his robes as well. Its not wrong for me to have a little talk is there? I knew Voldemort was watching me, I could just feel his gaze though I had no idea where he was, this could be interesting…

I walked behind him as he finished a conversation with an old looking man and tapped him on the back,
“I don’t think we’ve been introduced”, I curtseyed with a smile, he looked down at me and kissed my hand with a bow.

“We haven’t, but what a fine lady you are”

“thank you, you are a gentleman, I must say I feel like I recognise that voice but I cant place it…”

“we haven’t met, I’ve been working undercover for a while, this is the first time I’ve been to one of the dark lords celebrations for a year or so”

“shame, you seem nice but im curious who are you?”

“im on strict orders not to give away my identity from the dark lord but I can tell you, you will know of me when you know my name…”, he lowered his voice to my ear, I defiantly recognised that voice, one I hadn’t heard in a while but I just couldn’t place it. I was growing more curious by the second and had an urge to just rip off his mask, “you love the dark lord don’t you”

“that’s personal but you could say so, but he’s still an evil bastard even if I do love him”

“you haven’t changed much but I see you’ve finally learnt to respect your supreme’s…”, now that sounded too familiar. I backed away and studied him more carefully, that voice, those eyes…

“You!”, I gasped, stepping back further, visibly worried and nervous as I realised it was Lucius. He’d dead though! I saw Voldemort kill him, I saw his body! “no, no…this isn't real”, I whispered and turned then moved as fast as I could out of the hall. Im dreaming…that man is dead! He is!

When I got back to the bedroom I fell to the floor with my back up against the bed with my head in my hands, what is happening here? I heard a pop but didn’t bother to look up, I did when I heard another though out of curiousity. Voldemort stood in front of me with his mask and wand in one hand and Lucius stood behind him with his arms behind his back casually.

“This isn’t real, he’s dead!”, I shook my head and assured myself

“Im sorry I didn’t tell you sooner…this is Lucius and no I didn’t kill him, I happened to kill a man using a polyjuice potion”

“What do you mean?”, I sniffed confused

“It turned out someone took a liking to you back then and took the advantage of using Severus’s polyjuice potion stock…I didn’t find out until later that day when Lucius came to me confused that he had been out cold for a few hours, no idea how and why he was there”, he explained and crouched down to me to stroke the hair out of my face. “I kept Lucius’s wellbeing a secret from you because I thought you wouldn’t understand, but he has been working undercover in a lot of places lately but the whole world has no idea that he supposedly died, you’re the only one who believed that. Everyone was on strict orders not to tell you though, I didn’t want you even more scared while you were here and I knew he scared you”

“I cant believe this, that’s not a reason! Cant you at least tell me who actually raped me then? Even if he is dead I want to know, seeing as people are now popping up I don’t know what to believe anymore!”

“The person is insignificant and unimportant, a minor follower, you saw me kill him even if you didnt know it was him”

“You kept this from me though, even if he didn’t rape me I still have a right to know who did, and I want to know why i wasn’t allowed to know that he was alive! It wouldnt have been a big deal back then but now...”, I shouted and stood up furiously, “All this time I thought he was dead, but I hate him even if he wasn’t the one who did all that to me, he threatened to do it enough and it would have happened anyway! and now im told he’s still alive”

“Hermione, I kept it from you because at the time you were already confused and hateful to me, I wasn’t going to make that worse. You could cope now I knew but I thought it would be to much of a shock to find out I kept it from you”

“I don’t care! It isn’t so much about him being alive, it’s the fact you’ve kept something involving me away from me! I trusted you”

“Are you saying you don’t anymore? Because here’s a newsflash dear, it doesn’t matter if you trust me or not, your still mine whatever you think or do!”, he sneered and I punched him, actually punched him right on the nose. I looked back down at my fist in shock at how much force I used effortlessly, and then back at his very angry face, he held his nose which was visibly bleeding.

“I, I…”, I didn’t know what to say but muttered a healing charm on it, he looked up and wiped away the blood

“You know I didn’t mean that and I know you didn’t mean that either”, he said in a low tone, “But I would have preferred to not have been punched in the face, I would normally curse you but seeing as its your late birthday I wont be that cruel. I don’t want any magical, or muggle way of attempting or actually hurting me in future, I think a few simple charms will stop that”.
I looked down out of guilt, anger and just feeling a bit sad, “Lucius seeing as she knows that you are alive and well, all restrictions I gave you are now lifted, you have done well over the past year and I offer you the same agreements as I’ve had with Severus, you know what they are.”

“Thank you milord”, he said cheerfully with a nod, I looked to him to see he looked the same as he always did but with a look of happiness in his face.

“I am surprisingly not angered by you revealing yourself, it will be for the better when she gets over it now i look at it”, she?, eurgh!

“I cant believe you kept this from me, you don’t realise how angry I am”, I sneered as I looked away

“I do but im not having you moping about until I apologise because i can promise you that i wont, I will be awaiting yours though”, I turned back around quickly, desperately want to give him a fat lip or a black eye.

“you will be waiting for a very long time then”

“we’ll see, now tell me why you hate Lucius so much as you are angry at him as well as me, I am in no mood for sarcasm”

“I don’t trust him, I know he has a problem with me just as much as I do with him!”, I sneered, “I don’t care what you say, he had it in for me anyway and I doubt he has changed that”, I saw Lucius smirk behind Voldemort angering me even more, “Listen here Malfoy, if you lay even one finger on me I will hurt you so bad-”

“no you wont”, Voldemort interrupted, I turned back to him to show how pissed off I was.

“what do you mean?”

“You cant use your magic without my permission for anything other than simple everyday tasks, if its not a curse or jinx its ok”

“why would you do that!”, I cried furiously, attempting to crucio Lucius but it didn’t work, “Fuck”

“you still haven’t learnt to control your magic, im not risking deaths of anymore followers by your hand”, he said referring to the Lestrange brothers, “you have just proved you’re hardly capable of controlling your muggle actions, you have Basilisk venom in you, because you’re not dead you gained a few strengths here and there also making you to take actions without thinking about it, learn to control it or else. Seeing as you are likely to attempt to kill Lucius as well I would prefer you powerless to even attempt anything, i dont think you should be able to defend yourself either, because i know you'll will somehow turn taht into an attack”

“So what do I do if anyone attacks me?”, I asked annoyed

“Don’t worry about that, I know when your in pain and I have more protection on you than you think, so if you suffer when I know your not supposed to be you will be helped or rescued, you will never be in danger of any sort”

“so your basically saying, Im not allowed to defend myself as long as its ‘organised’ torture?”, I questioned angrily,

“Not exactly but on the right lines, when you learn to get rid of all this anger and take it out on people who deserve death and torture then I may rethink, for now I cant see you able to control it”

“I cant believe this, you know I can! Just excusesand your trying to make me want to hurt innocent people again, so much for fucking caring for me!”, I stormed out and banged a few doors on the way out, I hate Lucius malfoy and now he’s back, just great.

*

“its all for the best milord”, Lucius stated

“she will come round, im glad now she knows I never killed you, she is mature but she cant handle people who practise the dark arts excellently, you are one of those people”

“as are you milord, better than Salazar himself if I may say so”

“you are too kind Lucius but she is used to me now, she fears my magic not me, she doesn’t fear your magic, she fears you. You think im easy on her”

“of course not milord-”

“do not lie, I would torture anyone who even attempted to harm me any way, yet I let her off. Why do you think that”

“er, erm…she’s your wife and you want her to trust you”

“she already trusts me, but there are too many obstacles to gain her full self, she has been involved in so many…incidents that I think may change what she feels and thinks, she has been through a lot of danger and pain, I worry that she is getting distant. Ironic that when she first came here she was screaming to be freed now she would scream to leave, I wanted her to want to be here and now she does, but there is a risk that will change I feel”

“She loves you milord, she has admitted it a million times, she told me even just before she ran off to here!”

“The thing I have learned with love is that it may be hard to be loved, its even harder to keep it, surely you know all about that now”, I mentioned his wife’s break up, it made me think how love doesn’t last if its not worked on, “If you fall in love you can still climb back out, you need to weigh her down with trust, love and commitment. She’s pissed off but she has to remember who I am, Severus’s cruciatus curse will come in useful…”, I smirked. I was willing to hurt her to train her in obedience or punish but I began to realise how much I needed her to remember how I feel.

“you are correct of course milord, I loved my wife very much, though I was a bastard I admit, I know she loved me as well, its not what I did what hurt her it was how I never spent time with her”

“I always see Hermione”

“I know milord, but I’ve learnt a woman wants more than that, a word of advise if I may, don’t just show or tell her how you feel, make her know, that’s where I went wrong, gifts and magic were never enough”, Lucius said seriously then laughed, “but of course I was bound to screw up”, and he had.

“thank you Lucius, maybe I should talk to her then, I don’t normally talk about such personal things so I expect nothing that I have said will leave this room”, I raised an eyebrow and he nodded, “you may leave then”, a bow and a pop then he was gone. I turned to look at the door Hermione had stormed out through, I wasn’t going to let her fall out of love, when I think now how much I have hurt her…

*

That bastard, lying to me about him, I hate Lucius even if he didn’t do all that stuff to me and now I find out he’s not fucking dead! Voldemort just had to make things worse by then saying he cant risk me torturing or killing anyone, I do have some control…just when im angry I cant help it, im not exactly going to kill people for the fun of it and he knows it.

I wish I was mortal, not that I wanted to kill myself it was just the fact I wanted to be normal. It doesn’t matter if I could die anyway, heaven wont want me and hell will be afraid to take me, id be in a limbo like place knowing my luck…

I know Voldemort wont tell me everything, he is the dark lord after all but to keep something which directly involved me away from me? I just know Lucius will do something to me…eventually, im not exactly number one of his favourite people. Before I thought he was dead he threatened to do so many things to me so much I know I cant trust him, he may have Voldemort fooled but not me. I could see the twinkle in his eye when Voldemort announced that he wouldn’t give me magic to defend myself. Evil git.
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I have had it planned for Lucius to return for ages now and had a few ideas but the simplest was what I used, a mistake of some kind. Voldemort didn’t want to scare Hermione when it actually happened by telling her he was still alive, but once he knew she would be alright with it, it would be too late because she’d be angry that he didn’t tell her.
Confusing lol but now he has realised people don’t just stay in love for no reason, they can just as easily fall out of love as fell in.
Hope it wasn’t too disappointing but I just wanted to get Lucius back x