The Lost Potter

Chapter 10: This Can\'t Ever Be

Isabelle had another detention with Snape tonight and couldn\'t handle not telling him how she felt. For the last few months Isabelle had kept Hermione\'s promise even though she said that she hadn\'t, but now she had to break it. She just wanted to get everything off of her chest.

Isabelle decided to go to her detention a little bit early and maybe have a little word with Snape. She walked through the hallways fiddling with her hands nervously.

What if he hates me? Oh I know he is. How could anyone fancy a student? He wouldn\'t want to risk his job. How stupid would that be I mean? Come on. Oh Isabelle why did you have to fall for him? Ron would have been better. There wouldn\'t be any problems with dating him. But I have to do something. I can\'t feel like this and just say nothing. Maybe he won\'t do anything. Just say don\'t be stupid Miss Levine, you have to be a total bone head to love me.

She didn\'t know whether she would be able to tell him what she really wants to say. She stopped at the front of his office and knocked on the door.

\"You are early,\" Snape\'s voice sounded as the door swung open.

\"Yeah I know.\" Isabelle walked up to the desk.

\"I will take you to the potions class room. We had an accident in class and you can clean it up.\" Snape stood up ready to leave.

\"Wait.\" Isabelle stepped around the desk and walked towards Snape. \"I want to talk to you first.\"

\"I\'m sorry Miss Levine, I do not have the time to talk,\" Snape said, feeling a little awkward.

\"Please.\"

\"No, I can not talk at this time!\" Snape tried to push past her.

\"SIT DOWN AND LET ME TALK!\" Isabelle shouted. \"Please.\" Snape looked at the girl for a while. He sat down in his chair silently. \"Thank you.\" Isabelle took in a deep breath. \"Now I know that what I\'m about to say is wrong and, and you can expel me or do what ever but I just can\'t help it.\"

\"Out with it child!\" Snape spat impatiently, knowing what the girl was trying to say.

\"I- I think I love you.\" Isabelle dropped her head. Snape almost felt that he would burst out into laughter. He knew it he knew it he knew it! But of course this couldn\'t be happening. Something inside of him began to churn and turn.

\"This matter is not a joke Isabelle!\" Snape shouted. Isabelle flashed a smile at him calling her by her first name.

\"I know that and I assure you that I am not joking.\" Isabelle looked dead serious. Snape held a long pause thinking of what to do. Whether he should take her and ravish her right here right now, what he really really wanted to do or just tell her that it\'s nice to know and she can bugger off. \"I\'m sorry.\"

\"No.\" Snape slowly shook his head. Out of urge he took Isabelle\'s hand into his and pulled her on to his lap. Isabelle fell on his lap and their lips locked. Snape slowly slipped his tongue in to Isabelle\'s mouth. Isabelle began to kiss back, playing with Snape\'s tongue. This was what Isabelle wanted and she was getting it.

They both let the time go by not really realizing what they were really doing. At the moment they were both showing that they liked each other and that was all that mattered. Snape moved his hands around to Isabelle\'s back and slid his hands under her shirt. Isabelle shivered at feeling Snape\'s cold hands on her warm back.

Snape pulled his hands away from her and grabbed her shoulders. He slowly pushed her away from him and looked at her. Isabelle looked at him a little confused. Snape let her shoulders go and frowned. \"I\'m sorry Isabelle.\"

\"What for?\" Isabelle asked.

\"I had just crossed a line that a professor should never cross.\"

\"No it\'s ok,\" Isabelle assured.

\"No it is not!\" Snape slowly pushed Isabelle off of his lap. Isabelle stood up and looked at him. She felt stupid and upset. \"Just get out!\" Snape shouted as he stood up and turned away from Isabelle. Isabelle watched him feeling as though her heart had been smashed into a million pieces. \"I\'m sorry, but this can\'t ever be.\"

Isabelle walked over to the office door feeling let down, angrily slamming the door behind her. The tears she wanted to cry built up but never fell. She left the office and headed back to the common room. She didn\'t quite know what had just happened. They were kissing and then it was all over. She knew that he didn\'t like her. He didn\'t want her and it was so stupid of her to tell him that she liked him. But, but he kissed me! I didn\'t kiss him! But he stopped it, too. What\'s going on with him?

Snape looked at the brick wall in front of him. Why did he do it? Why why why? He had started something and now he felt as though he didn’t want it to stop, but it had to. He raised his fists at slammed them against the stone wall hard. He pulled his fists back and looked at both of them, he felt no pain but they both bled from being cut by the jagged stone. He sat down at his desk and rested his head in his hands, the blood from his fists staining his forehead.

Isabelle walked in to the common room with a sad face to see Harry, Ron and Hermione sitting by the fire. She walked over to them and sat down next to Ron.

\"Why are you back so early? Your detention started about 20 minutes ago,\" Harry looked at a clock.

\"Yeah well he cancelled it. I\'ve just been walking around,\" Isabelle lied feeling a lot like crap, she had just been rejected by the man that she had fallen in love with. She didn\'t know why she bothered sitting down with them. She just wanted to be alone.

\"Oh well. It\'s better than having a detention, right?\" Hermione said, eyeing Isabelle curiously. Isabelle never ever looked as sad as she did after a detention.

\"Yeah… I\'m just going to go up to my room.\" Isabelle stood up again. She didn\'t feel like being around people at the moment, especially not Hermione who soon enough would ask questions.

\"Ok see you later Isa,\" Harry waved.

\"See ya.\" Isabelle walked up the staircase and in to her dorm room. She fell on to her bed and rested her head on her pillow. Her tears then began to fall. She felt so stupid for doing what she did. Hermione was right. Isabelle pulled her bed sheets over her head. The dorm room door opened and someone walked in.

\"Isabelle?\" Hermione\'s voice whispered.

\"What is it Mione?\" Isabelle mumbled, not wanting to hear Hermione ask questions about what was going on in the detention. \"Just leave me alone ok?\"

\"No. What\'s wrong?\" Hermione sat down on the edge of Isabelle\'s bed.

\"Hermione, you don\'t want to hear it,\" Isabelle sniffled. Hermione put her hand on Isabelle\'s back and rubbed it. Hermione knew that Isabelle was really in love. She talked about Snape 24/7, but only to her. Of course Hermione would always stop her from the idea of even thinking about being with Snape.

\"Yes I do,\" Hermione frowned. Her friend seemed as though she was in pain and wanted to help her.

\"Mione I love him. I do. It\'s not funny anymore,\" Isabelle sobbed.

\"Oh Isa.\" Hermione bent over her best friend and hugged her. Isabelle let a few more tears fall.

\"It\'s so bad Mione. I don\'t know what to do.\"

\"Isa, I told you that you can\'t do anything. Both of you will get in to trouble no matter what you do.\" Hermione kept hugging Isabelle.

\"I know and that\'s what makes it so hard,\" Isabelle sighed through her tears.

\"If he wasn\'t your professor you could feel free to do anything. It would just be wrong.\" Hermione pulled down Isabelle\'s blanket and looked at her red eyes.

\"Mione.\" Isabelle broke out in to sobs again. Right now being here, her heart hurt the most. It felt like it was being ripped out of her chest and thrown to the floor like a piece of rubbish. Hermione lay down beside her best friend. \"Don\'t go ok?\" Isabelle asked.

\"I won\'t. I\'ll stay here with you.\" Hermione assured.

\"Thanks.\" Isabelle closed her eyes and fell asleep feeling tired from crying.

(Sorry about this chapter! It’s a bit OOC when it comes to Snape so if you don’t like it then don’t read it ok??)