it will never happen...it can\'t

..........the last year at hogwarts was a torture.....the war was over,and potthead was even greater hero than before.he defeated Voldemort.....they all came back for the final year of school,and entered some changes. McGonagall took Dumbledore\'s place....
And even though it was obvious that all students were happier and reliefed with voldemort gone,he could still see shadows of sadness in everyone\'s eyes.Dumbledore was dead,....and although he was not the one who killed him,he knew that they all blamed him.They all blamed Draco Malfoy. Not Severus,but him.

It was all an arangement between Dumbledore and Snape.
The pupruse of the act was for Snape to gain the last piece of Voldemort\'s trust,and then use it in a crucial moment to suprise him by helping Potter.Not that he needed much help though. It was all Dumbledore\'s idea.Severus did not agree to it easy. That\'s what those last words of Dumbledore\'s ment....“Severus,please“

Draco,however, did not have such an excuse for helping Death Eathers.He actually had no choice.Voldemort was furious with his father,and in order to keep himself and mother alive,he had to do it.It was an explanation Narcissa gave to all.that, and the fact that Draco fought against the dark side in the final batlle...he even....no,he didn\'t want to think about it again.

It was their last year...and he knew that no matter how polite people were to him,they didn\'t trust him.Being on potter\'s side didn\'t help much..... he was still MALFOY. Didn\'t care really....one thing he wanted was to gain HER trust. They were both Heads,and because of it,they had to be civil to each other. That , she was. But nothing more.... Trough the year he learned so much about her...so many things he never knew before... He heard her cry at nights sometimes...over her parents,of course...they were both killed...he rememberd the moment she heard the news....she was crushed....and he?well, he felt guilty...his father was killed,too.but he didn\'t feel sad....he was reliefed, actually.

He didn\'t now when was it that she started to look soo ...good...sixth year,maybe?seventh? Was it even important? She was the most beautifull girl in school. And the sadness in her eyes made her look so distant,so far away....


...so, he was now addicted to a mudblood he wanted to hate so much. Calling her a mudblood all this time was a lie....a big lie. Because he knew that she is the purest thing in his life.

***

„Mother?“

....silence....

„Where in the Merlin\'s name could that woman be? It\'s not like she has things to do...“ he mumbled taking his robe off. It\'s been two years that he left the Manor, and graduated at hogwarts. He took a long trip,a bussines trip,to clear their name and change the firm\'s policy,and start from the begining.He wanted to erase Lucius Malfoy from their lives.

„I heard that,you know...I would have thought that i have managed to teach you to respect your mother,young man...“
She smiled to him,and he felt so warm. „i\' m so happy you\'re back home honey.“ Narcissa said and let him take her in his embrace and kiss her on her forhead. „Oh,mother,that was about as much sentiment as I could expect...And it\'s not like I lied“ he smiled to her „i\'m happy to be home,too“.

„and you are about to become happier“ she said pushing him to the stairs saying“ go and take a shower.dinner is almost ready“

He could have sworn that there was a wicked shadow in her eyes,but it was gone in a blink...and she was smiling smugly now.


***
He was coming down the stairs wearing muggle jeans,a bit baggy and worn off,and a black shirt.He found muggle clothes much more comfortable. His hair was not quite dry and was falling over his eyes.it was still platinum blonde. A strange sound made him stop. He heard giggling. \'Mother does not giggle\' ....\'but then......... who?....“

He entered the dining room,to find two women talking. One was mother, of course....and the other one?he could only see her back,and hair....brown, curly hair....\'no,it can\'t be....Merlin,have mercy....\' „Granger?“

She turned around and he was sure that his heart stopped beating.

„Malfoy..“

„ was there nothig more apropriate for you to wear darling?I\'m so sorry Hermione honey,it looks like Draco has lost all of his good manners in America“ Narcissa said smirking

„oh,no Narcissa, it\'s quite an event to see Draco Malfoy wearing muggle clothes“ Hermione \'smiled?\' to him.

„you haven\'t told me we have guests,mother“....“though ,even if you had,I\'m not sure I would have worn anything different.It\'s only Granger...She would be schocked if i came all dressed up.You do realise that she usually dines with Potthead and Weasel?“ he smiled back

„Draco!“ his mother started,but was calmed by Hermione\'s hand „ Don\'t worry Narcissa,I\'m quite used to it.If he talked to me in a polite way I would be sure It is not the ferret I know.“

„See,mother?“ he nodded his head with his eyebrow arched,and a slight smile on his lips.

„ So,Granger, would you be so kind to tell me what is it that you are actually doing here?“

„you see it\'s all about a duty.... Is it posssible that you are not familliar to the newest law, Malfoy?“

„Well, i did talk to mother dearest here,quite often,actually,...but it looks that she didn\'t find it important to inform me..“ he said turning his head from hermione to narcissa with a question in his eyes.

„oh,I must have forgotten,then....you see,Draco, darling...Hermione has been living here for a month now,and...she is about to stay a bit longer....it\'s a part of the Ministry\'s new program. I do believe you are inteligent enough to conclude what the theme of the program is.“

„Purebloods/muggleborns forgeting differences?“......“ex death eater\'s famillies welcoming a halfbloods and muggleborns to their houses?“....“maybe?“

Narcissa smiled.

„you can not be serious,mother?......Granger?“a trace of schock in his eyes.

„always anoying,but quite sharp,....Malfoy“Hermione smiled to herself

„i decide to take that as a compliment,Granger.“

„oh,please do...but don\'t get too used to it,though.“

Narcissa grined...it was so long since she saw him smiling.a genuine smile on his lips was something she\'s been missing so much.Draco was the greatest love of her life....and for the last four years he was so dark,so sad,angry,worried....he had a thing for this girl,she could tell.she could tell at the beginning of his sixth year.even before...she knew that he was scared for their lives,and had to help voldemort,but there was something in his eyes,something new....a real pain...and then all that happened...NO.she will not think about it now.

„mother?“

„oh,excuse me,please...I\'m so tired.I\'m sleeping already....“
She stood up with the last piece of advice to her son..“Draco,please move that hair from your eyes,you look so messy...“, kissed them both and wished them good night.
Hermione was such a comfort to her lately....she was a briliant young woman...and turned into a breathtaking beauty.She could see why was Draco falling for her...he would never admit it though...that was her son.Proud and stubborn.And yet,so charming if he decided to be.seeing him with hermione tonight made her realize that her boy was alive again.

***

„I\'m suprised,Granger...no Potter to look after you...?“

„oh,come on Malfoy....you know i can take care of myself...besides,he has other things to worry about.“

„like?“

„he has a wife,actually“

„weaselette?“

„ginny,yes“

„and the weasel?“His heart stopped beating.again.

„it\'s ron,you ferret...and yes,he\'s married,too.“

\'breath in,out,in...\' „ i\'d ask who is the lucky lady,but i honestly don\'t care.“

„you will never change,will you? You don\'t know her anyway“

„and what about you miss perfect?“ \'merlin,...be gracious\'..“is there a prince around somwhere?“ \'swallow\'

„actually,no“...“but it\'s not like i think of it much anyway...“ he saw a sad shadow cover her eyes. \'great,you idiot...she lost her parents two years ago,and you think she\'ll be shaging around?\'

\'i should stop this before i fuck up totally\' „Look,I\'m tired Granger,and if i may say you\'ve been known to look better,too....soo,up to bed,ha?“

She smiled....“i decide to take that as a compliment,malfoy.“

„Oh,please do...but don\'t get used to it though.“ He smiled back.

***
Hermione entered her room and pressed her back to the closed door.... she took a deep breath...\'he is the most beautifull man i have ever seen....sure,he was georgeus back in hogwarts,too...but not like this...then he was somehow,well,cold...now,he was a human...and a stunding one...those jeans...merlin...and when he rolled the sleeves of that black shirt up to his elbows....god,i forgot how to breath...he had beautifull arms...and lips...and could that hair be any whiter?....he was piercing through me with those perfect eyes....Merlin help me...this can never happen...not after...NO.NO. i will not think about it anymore...\'and a tear rolled down her cheek.

***
He couldn\'t sleep...he will never be able to sleep again..\'She is in my house.In my bed.....well,ok,not in THIS one...but close enough...in her nightgound,on the satin sheets....her hair on the pillow....her lips slightly parted...ans so sensual. Merlin help me...i will not be able to survive living with her,and not touching her...she is so damn perfect...her hair longer,her eyes darker,her skin...so flawless...those breasts,and a tiny waist,hipps,her ass.....he watched her eating an orange after the dinner....those little fingers pealing it and dividing into slices,to finally put them to her mouth one by one...first sucking gently then bitting off the half of it,which caused the juice to stay on her lips, only for a moment, till she licked it off....he got hard...and lord did he need her.....and the pain in his chest was loud and clear about it....he will never have her.this can never happen.