What He Does To Me

A/N: Welcome to my first post on this wonderful site. I have been reading fanfiction here fora while...hard to do when the computer is in the family room...where people are.
Anyway I will get more stories up here as I write them. Most my stories don't ahve sex till like...much later.
Summery: Sirirus and Snape...sex...thoughts...more sex.
Dismlcaimer: No own.

Snape’s POV-

You kiss my forehead gently as you undo my shirt buttons. I don’t even want to fight anymore as you push me down on my mattress. I fall back willingly and close my eyes. You must know that I want this as much as you do even if I never say it. You are the one that I dream of every night after you leave. However, I can never tell you that, I can never tell you how much I really want you.

Your long fingers are running over my pale skin and your dark eyes are taking in every inch of my flesh. Do you have any idea what you do to me? Do you even know the half of my feelings for you?

You are always so gentle to me. You never hurt me when you enter my body. Right now, you are kissing my chest with your warm beautiful mouth as you stretch my opening for entrance. You know all the right ways to prepare me. You are the best lover I have ever had. However, you don’t know that. I never make a sound when you make love to me. If I did, then you would know. I can’t let you know.

One day I know I will falter and moan out your name as I reach my peak. Then you will know that I enjoy this as much as you do, you will know that my heart is only for you. When that day comes, I will die. I will die because you will know that true me, the me that I have spent my whole life hiding from the world.

I can’t let that happen. I can’t let you of all people be the one that truly knows me. I have spent every day since the first year of Hogwarts hating you with all my heart. How can I let you know that somewhere along the way that hate vanished when I realized I loved you? How could I live with myself knowing that you know my feelings?

At some point, I fell for you. I don’t know when it happened, but one day I looked at you and I just wanted to tare off your clothes and fuck you savagely.

Nevertheless, you made the first move. Yhat hat took me aside one day and kissed the side of my neck. You that whispered sweet dirty words in my ear. Then I was yours. That was only a few months ago. Every night since then you have come to my room and done the same. You whisper in my ear, kiss my neck, rub me, and fuck me.

Then you leave. You pull out of me and slip back into your robes and leave me alone and naked on my bed. Every night is it is the same thing. We never talk; never acknowledge what we do each night. It’s just become part of my routine.

You don’t know that every night after you leave I hold my pillow and imagine it’s you. Imagine that I am holding you in my arms. TI crI cry because I know it will never happen. I can never tell you that I think of you that way. Nevertheless, I still want you to come to me every night forever. At least I can have you in someway. If you always come to me, then I will always have you Sirius Black.


Sirius’s POV-

You have to most beautiful skin in the world. It’s pale, smooth, and perfect in everyway. I run my hands over your body and feel your prefect skin under my fingers. I look into your eyes and I can see that you want to moan and call out my name. I know you love the things I do to you.

Please Severus, moan my name. I want to hear my name pass those lips in a way it hasn’t before. Why do you hold back love? Why do you keep your feelings locked up inside of you?

I stroke your hard member. See, I know you enjoy this. You are the best thing I have ever tasted. God I wish I was able to let you know how beautiful you are, how delectable you are. (A/N: I just had to put that there. Sorry. Raven! You are delectable!!!!!!!! Ahaha. Remember that?)

Severus please, give me a sign that you wont run if I tell you that, I love you so. So far, nothing you have done tells me you will not freak and bolt, or worse, kill me. No, that would be better. Severus, I would rather be dead then with out you.

Scream for me love. Call out me name as I pound into you. One day, one day you will, and then youl trl truly be mine forever. Let that day be soon.

I pull out of your slim body and turn away from you. If I look at you lying across your bed with your seed splayed over your chest, I will not be able to leave you, ever. I bolt from your room as soon as I am dressed. God, no wonder you have never told me how you feel I treat you like shit.

Severus, I want you to know everything about me. I have not felt that way about anyone, ever. Not even James. I have never wanted to hold some one close every night and tell them my secrets. But I want to do that with you Sev. I know I cannot, but that is what I dream of, holding you, talking to you, loving you.

As I fall on my bed and curl up your face fills my mind. I imagine kissing those red lips of yours, something I have never done before. Kissing is not something we do. Sure, I kiss you neck and chest, and other more privet parts of your body, but never your lips, your beautiful lips.

Sev, I know it is hard for you, what I do each night. You love it, but you resent it, I know you do. I am sorry that I hurt you, and I am glad I bring you some joy. I do not know what I do to you I know I do not. There is so much going on inside your head that I do not know. But I want to. I need to know you.


TBC!!!