That\'s My Suicide Wish

Title: That\'s My Suicide Wish...
Chapter: 1/1-One Shot
Author: Maria Li (Bloody Crypt)
Rating: R to NC-17
Pairing: Draco/Harry
Warnings: Suicide, Graphic Blood detail, M/M relationship, Dark Fic, and of course strong sexual content.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the charcters mentioned in this fic.

A/N: This fic was writen for the Slave Fest FQF challenge: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/roughside
70. Harry, Draco, handcuffs, a sharp metal object, blood and snakes. Make o wha what you will. (Selene la Luna)
92. Consider the line: \"I want to die in your arms, that\'s my suicide wish.\" - Billie Myers, \'You Send Me Flying\' (Selene la Luna)


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There he was, sitting in the middle of the floor. His hands cuffed, hooked to a chain dangling from the ceiling. The room was dark, very little lighting, but still enough to see. It was a very sexual position for the Gryffindor, espeacially with his pet snake wrapped around that luscious naked body of his.

The snake was coiled around his waist, with it\'s upper body twisted around his back, and the head proped up in the crook of his neck.

The snake hissed at the sound of a door opening, looking at the man who had just entered.

\"Harry, I wasn\'t expecting you to be here this early.\" Said the tall blonde boy. But then he looked at his lover with a slight smirk on his face. \"But my, what a lovely position you\'ve put yourself in. And for me?\"

Harry looked up, a seductive smile formed on his mouth. \"Always for you.\"

Draco walked closer to harry, and began to undress himself very slowly. He unbuttoned his robe, and with a slight shrug of his shoulders his robes fell to the floor with a light thud.

Harry met Draco\'s silver eyes. His eye\'s were practically begging for Draco to come and claim his lips.

The next thing Draco did was slide his tight green shirt over his head skillfully, showing the muscle on his upper body. Looking at his chest, Harry could imagine his hands rubbing that soft pale skin, and clenching his nipples tightly with his teeth.

Draco ran his hands through is beautiful blonde hair, then slowly running them down his chest all the way to the tip of his pants. He unzipped his trouser\'s, making them fall to the ground.

Harry had noticed Draco wasn\'t wearing any underwear, but then again, when did he ever? He licked his lips, he wanted so badly to taste his lovers flesh in his mouth. To taste the seed that would soon shoot out after a nice loooong suck.

Draco noticed his lover\'s hungry face. How could he deny the boy what he wanted so badly? Espeacially if it showed so badly on his face.

Walking over to his lover, he knelt down, coming face to face with Harry. Draco leaned in for a kiss, but quickly pulled back as the snake angrily hissed at him.

\"Your pet seems to not like me. You mind telling it to go away?\" Draco asked, looking at the snake and then back at Harry.

\"No.\"

\"No? Why not, love?\"

\"I don\'t want to.\"

\"Well then, will you tell it to play nice? Or do I have to hex it?\"

Harry smirked at his lover and then hissed at the snake. \"No need to worry my pet, he won\'t hurt me.\" The snake hissed at Draco one last time as it moved to wrap itself around Harry\'s arms that were still hanging above his head.

\"Thanks love.\" Draco said, plunging in for a very deep and hungry kiss. Draco pulled away from the kiss, causing Harry to slightly moan from the loss. Draco then started to place kisses down Harry\'s neck, and then moved down to his chest.

The blonde boys\' teeth grazed over his lovers caramel colored nipples, flicking his tongue to make them hard.

He moved his head down further stopping at his stomach. He kissed the soft skin, and then licked it. He bit down on the white flesh, hearing a soft whimper escape from Harry\'s throat. He blew on the spot he bit Harry at, making the raven haired boy shiver.

Draco pulled his head back up, meeting green eyes.

\"This just won\'t do. I want to feel your hands all over my body as we make love. I want to feel your fingernails rip into my flesh as I\'m pounding into you, over and over.\"

These words excited Harry even more. He pushed his body forward, grabbing Draco\'s lips with his teeth and then pulled him in a few inches, plunging his tongue into his mouth.

The two teens engaged in another battle between their tongues. Draco\'s hands slid up the black haired boys arms, causing the snake to stir. Draco stopped moving his hands as he allowed the snake to crawl down his arms, and slither to the floor. Draco continued, reaching for the cuffs and unhooking them from the chain. Bringing the boy down on his back.

Harry sighed in relief as his arms were now freed from the chains, but the cuffs were still baring into his skin.

\"How long have you been hooked on the chain?\"

\"Is that of any importance Drake?\"

\"No, I guess not. But your wrists are bleeding, it seems the cuffs have cut into your skin.\"

\"It\'s not like we haven\'t done more damage than that to my body, or yours.\"

\"No, I guess not.\"

Draco smiled into the kiss that the two of them engaged into once again. He reached for his robe which was close by and grabbed his wand. He muttered an unlocking charm on the cuffs and released Harry\'s wrist from the tight constricting restraints.

\"Why\'d you do that?\"

\"Like I said, I wanted to feel you hands all over my body.\"

Draco got up off the floor, pulling Harry up too. He lead the black haired boy to the bed, roughly pushing him onto his back.

Draco crawled ontop of Harry, pinning him down to the bed. He went in for a small kiss, biting Harry\'s lip making it bleed. Harry licked his lip, the taste of crimson on his tongue.

Harry reached his hand up, craddling the left side of Draco\'s face. His lover\'s silver sparkiling eye\'s looking down into his green sullen one\'s. \"I have a wish.\" Harry said, getting his lovers attention.

\"Yes, and what is that?\"

\"I want to die in your arms.\"

\"That\'s your wish?\"

\"Yes. I want to die in your arms, that\'s my suicide wish.\"

Draco was amazed at how much Harry fancied death, at how much he really wanted it. The look in Harry\'s eyes told it all. But this wasn\'t the first time Harry mentioned death, and it wasn\'t the first time he heard his lover talk about killing himslef. He was reminded all to well by looking at the scars on his wrists, of those nights when he had tried to stop him. The thought of losing the only person who ever truely loved him, scared him more than anyone could ever know.

Harry was never like this when they were in Hogwarts. But it\'s been a little over a year. Hogwarts was destoryed on their seventh year, only a few months before they could graduate.

Voldemort gained power, more power than anyone would have suspected. This was the cause of death for many witches and wizards. Not even half the population of half-breeds was left. Even the muggles were being destroyed or sold as slaves to the higher wizards. The pure bloods.

Draco too, had a warm feeling of welcoming death to his doorstep with a loving embrace.

He was tired of it. He was tired of it all! He was sick of being Voldemorts puppet in this sick war. He hated killing innocent people that didn\'t deserve to die. He too wanted to die as much as Harry. So why did he stop him all those nights ago?

Harry was sick of being the one and only hope for the wizarding world. He didn\'t want to see people suffer any longer, but most of all he didn\'t want to suffer any longer.

He wanted a life he knew he couldn\'t have. Which is why he turned to Draco. Draco was the only loved one he had left. But still, he couldn\'t continue carrying the weight of the wizarding world that was bearing down on his shoulders. He couldn\'t stand to see all those that he loved die. Sirius, Remus, Ron, Hermione, Dumbledore...the list continued.

All of them, dead. They cease to exist anymore, except for the images brandished in his mind. It was Harry\'s turn. It was his turn to die. It was now time for him to leave this horrid world. He wanted a place where he could be free, and not worry about the impending doom that was already there.

And death, that was the only escape.

\"Together.\" Said Draco, breaking the both of them from their thoughts.

\"You mean...\"

\"Yes love, lets die in each others arms together.\"

\"One last time then. We can die making love.\"

\"It\'ll be beautiful.\"

\"Our souls will be together, forever.\"

Draco reached over to his night stand, pulling out the dagger his father gave to him on his eighteenth birthday. It\'s a speacial dagger. It\'s been in the Malfoy family for generations and generations. Though, it seemed the Malfoy name would end here. After this, there would be no Malfoy to hand this down to.

The dagger was very beautiful, the handle was carved to resemble that of a snake. It\'s eye\'s were filled with emerald stones. The mouth and head was poised, as if it would come to life and attack. The scales were well defined and black, with very little red added to the coloring.

The blade itself was a work of art. The very tip of it was sharp, that with just one soft touch it would peirce through the skin. It was even made of pure silver, and the curves on the blade was well shaped. It even had the name of his eldest Grandfather carved on to it. Edgar Malfoy, the first Malfoy to reach the wizarding world.

It was hard to believe something this beautiful could be so old. It didn\'t show the slightest hint of age.

\"Harry\" Draco said, looking down into his lovers eyes.

\"Yes Drake?\"

\"Are you sure you want to do this?\" He asked, trying to let it sink in to Harry\'s mind of what they were about to do.

\"Draco,\" Harry said, lifting his finger and placing it on Draco\'s lips. \"You know I am. You know just as well as I do that we can\'t go on like this. It\'s something that I\'ve been begging for for quite some time now.\"

Draco leaned down and kissed Harry full on the lips.

Setting the dagger aside for a few minutes, Draco was about to apply lubricant to his fingers, to prepare his lover. But he was stopped when Harry grabbed his hands.

\"No, don\'t worry about preperations this time. I want to feel you shove yourself inside of me. I want to feel my insides being ripped apart.\" Harry pulled the pale hands to his mouth and started sucking on Draco\'s index finger.

Draco lowered his mouth to Harry\'s ear and whispered, \"You\'re such a masochist.\" and then he nipped at the lobe before pulling back up.

Draco spread Harry\'s legs apart, and placed the tip of his member at his lovers entrance.

\"This is going to hurt more than anything we\'ve ever done.\" Draco said, trying reassure himself that this is what Harry really wanted.

\"I don\'t care.\"

Without another minute to waste Draco slammed his member into Harry\'s entrance. His lovers screams filled the room. With each thrust the screams soon changed to loud moans, but still showed the sign of pain.

Draco fell overtop of his lover, still pounding the insides of the teen beneath him.

Harry\'s arms reached around Draco\'s back, his fingernails digging deep into the soft pale flesh. The blood trickling its way down Draco\'s soft pale skin.

Soft screams could be heard from Draco has Harry kept clawing into his back, but his screams were mixed with moans of great pleasure.

\"Aghh....harder Drake....make it harder....\" Harry pleaded in between cries.

Draco decided to satisfy Harry\'s pleas, and thrust in him harder.

Harry reached over and grabbed the dagger and cut a small incision on his index finger. Draco was still pounding his lover as hard as he could, and then Harry held his finger to Draco\'s mouth pushing it in, letting the crimson taste of his blood spread over Draco\'s taste buds.

They slowly came to a stop, as Draco\'s hips bucked forward, releasing his seed into Harry\'s entrance. Harry pulled his finger out of Draco\'s mouth as he collapsed on top of him.

He pulled the blonde teen into a kiss, as he held his hands over top of his lovers back, slashing his wrists with the silver blade.

The blood quickly dripped down Harry\'s arms for a few seconds before they fell to the bed.

Draco had noticed the blood and then looked at Harry\'s wrists. He looked back into the raven haired boy\'s hazey eyes. The ch had had finally presented itself to Draco. The only chance he\'d ever get at leaving this place and to be with his lover for all eternity.

With one last kiss, Draco took the old dagger and slashed his wrists, entangling his fingers with Harry\'s as their blood mixed with eachothers, creating a pool of blood around them, soaking the satin white sheets.

Pretty soon a hazey daze graced both of them, causing them to enter an endless, but peaceful sleep.

~End~