Home again
Home again
HOME AGAIN
Disclaimer: I don’t own Harry Potter. The song is Home again sung by Josh Groban. I make no profit from writing and/or posting this story.
Summary: Harry and Draco parted ways not long after the war was over. Harry left everything behind and went to find himself. He never forgot his love for Draco… but what will become of it… After all… distance makes the heart grow colder… or does it?
Warnings: Shounen-ai, OOC and slight angst. ENJOY!!
- - - - (Harry’s POV) - - - -
So it goes history shows…
Deserts must expand…
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It’s been two years. Two years since I packed my bags and left. Two years since I told you I couldn’t go on the way I was. Two years since I last saw you.
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And camels sail like wooden ships,
Like women on the strand…
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You sent me letters at least once a month; telling me how things were going, how everyone was… But I had no courage to respond. When everything comes down on it…
I’m just a coward…
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There’s send on Second avenue
And the wind blows like train…
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I’m afraid of coming back. Afraid to face you. Afraid of what would happen.
I want to see you so much… I want to hold you… I want to kiss you…
I want you…
And yet something’s holding me back.
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Taxies lined up like a string of pearls…
Around the block again…
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I changed… I’m not the man you once knew. The man you fell in love with…
And I’m afraid… Would you love me the way I am now?
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And I remembered everything,
Every window pane.
Every word came back to me…
The way it used to be…
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In your letters…
You’re asking me to come back. You say you miss me. You say you still love me… And it hurts so much.
I wonder if I could be the man you deserve. I wonder if I could be everything you need me to be… I wonder…
Would you want me the way I am now…
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Then I saw your face, across the street…
And my heart was home again…
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Not long after your last letter I found myself at the airport. The last flight of the day for London… Should I go? Should I come back? Should I take that chance?
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There’s a bus that leaves at 08:15,
And another one at 10:00.
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My heart was beating in my ears. I wanted to go back… I wanted to see you…
And that was all it took. A few hours later I was on the plane… And on my way back…
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Should I climb aboard risk everything,
And ride it to the end…
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- - - - (Draco’s POV) - - - -
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I looked at the latest letter I started to write. It was getting harder to find the words to say. I missed him. I missed him so much. I wanted him back.
I wanted him beside me.
I wanted him to hold me, touch me… kiss me…
I wanted him to love me the way he did.
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Watch the hills like roller coasters,
Up against the sky…
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I love him so much… But I’m afraid. Blaise and Pansy kept telling me to write to him. None of the letters ever came back so he must have been getting them…
I knew why he didn’t write back.
Or at least I thought I knew why.
Harry will always be Harry…
Always insecure, always aiming to please everyone…
Always putting others before himself.
I know he’s afraid of me on some level…
And it hurts…
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And wish that you were here by me
So close that I could die…
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It hurts because it feels like he doesn’t trust me. He doesn’t trust me to keep loving him. He believes I will leave him…
But I would never be able to.
I love him too much to do so…
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You said love wrecks everything
And none of us survive…
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I don’t know how to prove that to him without having him here with me. I just hope that the letters I sent to him will bring him back to me one day…
I hope…
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So I got over you last night
And I am still alive…
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- - - - (Third POV) - - - -
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Draco sighed as he walked down the street. The unfinished letter was still on his mind. He was still wondering on what to write. His heart was heavy and his mind was unsettled… He wanted to be with Harry so much that it actually hurt…
He stopped when he passed beside a small Jewelry. Two wedding bands caught his eye. A heavy sigh escaped his lips and he looked up. What he saw… made his heart stop.
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And then I saw your face
Across the street…
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On the other side of the street, dressed in a ragged coat, his hair wild and untamed as ever, if only a little longer, with his eyes shinning like two emerald jewels… was Harry…
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And my heart was home again…
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Time seemed to have stopped as Draco tried to make his heart beat and to keep on breathing. When a small, hesitant smile crossed Harry’s lips, Draco’s legs moved on their own.
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And I remembered everything
Every window pane…
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He ran over, his hear beating in his ears.
‘Harry, Harry, Harry….’ Was echoing in his mind, and everything burst in a flash of light when he jumped into Harry’s awaiting arms.
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Every word came back to me
The way it used to be…
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“You’re back, you’re back, you’re really back…” He felt Harry tense and pull him closer.
“I’m sorry… I’m so sorry, love…”
“It doesn’t matter!” Draco pulled back and looked up in Harry’s clouded eyes. “I don’t care what happened, I don’t care what you’re afraid of… I have been waiting for you to come back and I… I love you so much…” He gasped out. Tears just wouldn’t stop running down his cheeks and Harry whipped them away with all the gentleness of the world.
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Then I saw your face,
Across the street…
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“Even though I changed? I’m not the man I used to be, Draco… I’m not…”
“Do you still love me?”
“Yes! Gods, yes…” Harry said, leaning his forehead against Draco’s, his hands cupping Draco’s tear-stained cheeks. Draco let go of a relieved sigh.
“Then stay…” He croaked out. “Stay and love me…” Harry swallowed and looked down at Draco.
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And my heart was home again…
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“For as long as you’ll have me…” Draco smiled through his tears and cupped Harry’s cheeks pulling him down into a scorching kiss.
“Can I have you forever?” He asked and Harry chuckled through tears of his own.
“Yes… you can have me forever…” Draco smiled and pulled Harry into a hug. The taller man held him close and for the first time in two years… Their hearts were at peace.
“Good… That’s good…”
And whatever happened from that point on… At least they had each other to lean on…
For all eternity…
THE END