Cry

Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or this song.

Hey Guys! Okay so I was listening to this song the other day, and this sort of popped into my head. This is my first song fic, so if it isn't all that good, don't be to upset. Anyways, on with this sadness!


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They stare at me with pity in their eyes. They know how much I loved you. Still love you. How hard it is for me to see you two together. But they'll never really know what it's like. To see the one person they can't live without move on to someone new. Their best friend for that matter. They talk about it a lot. How hard I took it. How happy you look. Maybe it was a good think he moved on, they say. Maybe I did something wrong. I just try to stop hearing it all.


If anyone asks
I'll tell them we both just moved on
When people all stare
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk


I watch you, you know. I watch you with him, wishing it was me you were holding. Wishing it was me you would smile for, laugh for. You used to. Do you remember that? Your arms were warm and strong. I would have always been happy if you would have just held me that way for the rest of my life. But I don't say that. I just smile at youand say it's okay. I just want you happy.


Whenever I see you
I'll swallow my pride and bite my tongue
Pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong


Acting like I'm okay with this is painful. I want to run over to you and beg you to take me back, to say you still love me. But then I wouldn't really love you, would I? Your happiness should always come first, shouldn't it? But when do I get mine? My happiness? Will this ever end? The pain I feel every day knowing I have to live without you? Every morning I wake up, I don't want to open my eyes. Because when I do, I have to face another day, watching you with him. Do you have any idea how hard it is? Does it get harder? I hope not. Already, I cry myself to sleep at night, hugging my pillow wishing it was you.


Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry? cry?


We just drifted apart, I finally say. We wanted different things. They except the answer, but who knows if they really believe me? I can't honestly say I care. I have said all I'll say, they just have to get over it. Just like I do.


If anyone asks
I'll tell them we just grew apart
Yeah, what do I care
If they believe me or not (if they believe me or not)


I spend most of my time alone thinking about the days we would spend just talking. You would whisper into my ear how happy I made you, and I would tell you I loved you. You know, I hadn't even realized until now that you never said you loved me too. Not once. It breaks my heart to think about it now. I really should stop spending time alone.


Whenever I feel
Your memory is breakin' my heart
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all
Act like there's nothing wrong


Will it ever be over? This pain? Is it possible to die from a broken heart? I don't think so, but why does it feel that way? I just want to close my eyes and will it all away. But when I open them, the pain is there. I feel like it's killing me, slowly but surely. Dying with tears streaking down my face. I've never heard of that happening before.


Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry? cry?


Every time I tell them I'm fine, I'm lying. They know it. I say it enough, sometimes I feel like all I can do is talk in circles, never straying form saying I'm fine, I'm fine, I'm fine... Why won't this just stop for a while? Let me get some sleep for once? I haven't had much since you left.


I'm talkin' in circles
I'm lyin', they know it
Why won't this just stop for a while


Have I really cried over you? I couldn't say. I cry to much to know. My eyes swell shut, puffy and red. I can still hear your voice, as well as if you were standing there saying to me how horrible I look and it makes me smile. The only thing that makes me smile anymore; ironic, I know. And if it's a bit bitter, who can blame me?


Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry? Cry?


Goodbye, my love. Goodbye, my Dragon. I'll love you always.


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Kelly Clarkson-Cry

So? What do you think? I'll except flames, cause I know it isn't as good as a few other I've read. But I am proud of my first song fic, so :P Anyways, click on that little review button
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Love,

Kitkat