Wedding Day Blues

Was it right to Marry someone you didn’t love? I asked myself that as I sat in the dressing room of the church. I was in my slip my dressing hanging in front of me. I rummaged through my bag and pulled out a pack of cigarettes. I took one out and tried to light it as my hands shook. Why did I let myself get into this.

After much begging I had agreed to marry Ron. I loved him dearly but as a brother only. How could I marry someone that I couldn’t even stomach having sex with? Why did I let myself get talked into this? Because I was getting over my relationship with Sirius and Ron had been sweet. He had told me that he knew I was hurting and that he wouldn’t expect me to love him right away. I had been stupid and agreed. Molly had been ecstatic the twins had mumbled congratulations and Sirius had swept out of the room. I hadn’t talked to him since. Three months and not a word.

I turned as I heard the door open and saw Ginny walk in. “Mione we need to talk before you go through with something you’ll regret.” she said sitting down and taking my hand. “You don’t love Ron, Mione why are you doing this to yourself?” She asked. “Because he loves me.” I answered simply. “So does Sirius.” She argued. “Ginny, Sirius doesn’t do commitment. I knew that when I got into it I was the one that broke the rules and fell in love not him.” I explained. “That’s bullshit and you know it!” She said running a hand through her hair.

“So you think it’s right to marry someone you don’t love?” She asked. I bit back a laugh as she asked the question I had been thinking about just minutes before. “Maybe I’ll love him someday I have to try.” I said softly. Ginny sighed and patted my shoulder before walking out. When I was sure she wasn’t coming back I started to cry.

Sirius and I hadn’t been a planned thing. It had all started one night after the both of us had, had too much to drink and were flirting. When he kissed me I came undone. The next morning I found myself in his bed with his arms wrapped around me. We never really talked about it but somehow it became unspoken. We would end up in each others rooms our limbs tangled before a word was even spoken. After a few weeks of this we found ourselves around each other more often. There were stolen kisses and touches here and there and eventually I fell for him I didn’t mention it.

Somehow it all came undone. I’m not even sure what happened. Statements from others started fights between us. Then when it came to a boil I walked out on him. Ron found me and here I was. Standing in the dressing room of a church with my pearl embroidered wedding dress hanging in front of me mockingly. I was stuck. There was no backing out.


Ginny’s P.O.V

“Harry!” I called frantically. I couldn’t let this go on. It was a mistake they wouldn’t last a month together. They were too stubborn to see that. “HARRY!” I yelled again. I saw him talking with Ron. He turned to me and I motioned for him. I walked with him outside. “What’s wrong Gin?” Harry asked me. “We can’t let this wedding happen. Ron may love Mione but she doesn’t love him. She’s in love with Sirius.” I stated. “Thank God someone else saw it.” Harry said relieved. “What you noticed it too?” I asked. He nodded, “Sirius got drunk a few weeks ago and told me everything. I had seen the looks him and Hermione gave each other I’m not blind.” He said. “So what are we going to do?” I asked.

“Ginny, there’s nothing we can do. Until they both realize their feelings they won’t accept anything.” Harry tried to explain. I was far past listening to rational thinking. “Have you talked to Sirius?” I asked. Harry nodded, “He’s decided he’s not coming to the wedding. He say’s it’s for the best and honestly after the way he handled the announcement of their engagement he’s probably right. He and Hermione haven’t talked since.” Harry stated. “Why do these two have to be so damn stubborn?” I asked. Harry smiled at me before kissing me. “Because love not everyone goes after the person they want like you do.” He said making me smile. I kissed his cheek before apparating away. I was going to wake up a very Hungover and Very cranky wizard who would probably try and hex me.

“SIRIUS!” I yelled marching up the stairs towards his room. I blew the door off it’s hinges with a wave of my wand. Sirius bolted into an upright position his wand drawn and eyes narrowed. “What the hell is your problem?” he asked annoyed. “You!” He looked at me confused. “Ok listen, I had a long night last night and indulged in a little…Oh Hell a lot of fire whiskey so forgive me if I don’t remember whatever I said or did and I’m sorry. Bye.” he said laying back down. I was quiet many ideas going through my head until I came to one that was too good to pass up. With a swish of my wand his bed was up in the air and he fell to the floor with a thump. “WHAT THE HELL?” He asked standing up. Wearing only a pair of black silk boxers.

“Your going to sleep in your bed while the woman who loves you and who you love marries someone and completely ruins her life?” I asked raising a perfectly plucked eyebrow. “That was the plan.” He said annoyed. “How can you be so heartless?” I asked. “Heartless implies that I have no heart which I must if I love someone as you so clearly stated minutes ago my dear.” he drawled. I marched up to him and poked him in the chest. “YOU CAN NOT LET HER MARRY RON!” I yelled poking him harder with each word. “Why not?” he growled for the first time the look in his eyes scared me. I refused to back down.

“Because if you do you’ll be letting Hermione marry someone she doesn’t love and never will and like I said before she’ll ruin her life. Can you stand knowing that you never lifted a finger to stop her?” I asked softly. Sirius was quiet. “Ginny it’s too late to do anything anyway. She’s made her bed. Let her lie in it.” He growled. I apparated out of the house in disgust. I hated the fact that I had given up. He wouldn’t change his mind.


SIRIUS’S P.O.V

Damn witch’s coming in here and waking me up. I was nice and comfortable and she has to come in here and bring me back to conciousness when the world I was in was much better. I growled as I paced my room thinking about what Harry’s future wife had said. Yes I loved Hermione and yes she loved me. But it had all happened so fast. Neither one of us saw it coming. How doe’s a drunken night of sex turn into a no strings attached relationship that then turns into love?

I didn’t do love. I was Sirius Black, most witch’s had me pegged back in Hogwarts when they called me a playboy. I was, I didn’t have the material to settle down. The only time I thought I could was when I had been with..her…

I sighed realizing just how royally I had fucked everything up. She wasn’t anything like I had thought she would be. While she was quiet she held nothing back in bed. Her nails would leave scratch marks and she would always beg for me to go harder. I loved it because it was great she knew just how to rock her hips or twist herself to make me damn near explode. We always came together and the sex was always unpredictable. I still remembered the morning I woke up tied to the damn bed. That had been a fun one.

I don’t even remember what the final straw was. It had to have been stupid. Then on the night I was trying to pull her aside to talk her her she announces she’s engaged to RON of all people. How the hell does that happen? Because I have no fucking idea. I mean Ron’s a good guy but he’s not right for her. None of them are not even me. But I would have changed for her in a heartbeat if she asked me to. But she wouldn’t she liked me how I am. She saw something in me that no one else could. Not even Harry.

I was an ass to let her get away. But it was too late she was marrying Ron she was probably already dressed in her gown with her hair styled perfectly. I couldn’t ruin that. I wouldn’t ruin that. I had made my decision I was sticking with it. Consequences be damned. I huffed before putting my bed back on the floor and collapsing on top of it.



Molly’s P.O.V

“Ginny where have you been. The wedding is starting in two hours and we still have things to do!” I said exasperated by my daughters lack of enthusiasm. “Mom how can you be so happy about this wedding. Hermione doesn’t love him!” She said looking at me desperately. I rolled my eyes. “Ginny your brother has told me all this and I agree with him eventually she will learn to love him.” I explained. “She loves Sirius.” She cried. “Sirius is not good for her all he will give her is heartache.” I tried to explain to my strong will daughter. “Mom she was happy with him she loves him. Shouldn’t she be marrying someone she loves.” I looked at her and smiled. “Ginny not all wizards and witchs love each other when their married they don’t have the same kind of relationship that you and Harry do.” I said.

“I don’t understand my own family!” she cried throwing up her hands. “Start getting things ready.” I said before walking away. There were a few charms I had to cast to make sure everything went according to plan. I had to make sure that Sirius Black didn’t try and crash this wedding. I would put up enough blocking charms that if he came within five hundred yards of this wedding he would be impaled. NO one was going to ruin my sons chance at happiness.

I cast the charms before walking back inside. Remus was standing by the doors. “A little much don’t you think Molly?” he asked. “I don’t want to take any chances Remus you of all people should know how unpredictably Sirius can be.” I said. “Would it be such a bad thing if he came to claim the woman he loves?” He asked. I narrowed my eyes. “If you feel that way then why are you here?” I asked. “Because no matter what Hermione is still like a daughter to me and she’s asked me to walk her down the isle since both of her parents are gone.” he snapped back. I was quiet. It was sad that her parents had been murdered the way they were and what was even worse was that she had been the one to find them. Coming back from winning a war against the darkest wizard ever known only to find that a muggle had butchered your parents over a few dollars.

I walked away decided that, that would be the best way to avoid confrontation. My spells would do the rest I was sure of that.

Harry’s P.O.V

This whole thing was crazy a bloody mess actually. Two people marrying each other one who was in love the other who loved someone else. How could a relationship like that last? Divorce would be unavoidable. That was a given. They were both so damn stubborn and Ginny had been right but what could I say. I had begged Sirius to talk to her three weeks ago and before that on the night of they announced everything but he had been hurt. Deeply hurt and he was so tired of being fucked by people he gave up. Something I didn’t know my godfather could do. It hurt me to see them both in pain but neither of them would admit that they needed each other. Both of them hurt too deep to approach the other. I was wondering if Hermione would go through with it. I took a deep breath before knocking on the dressing room door. I heard her soft invitation to come in.

I closed the door and cast a silencing charm. I could tell immediately that she had been crying.


HERMIONE’S P.O.V

“Harry what am I going to do? I can’t do this.” I cried the tears falling again. He hugged me tightly. “Mione what do you want to do?” he asked pulling away and sitting down across from me. “I want to get out of it but Molly would flip.” I said. I wasn’t really worried about Molly it was Ron. I couldn’t bear to see the hurt look in his eyes. Harry was quiet before muttering something I couldn’t catch. A few minutes later there was a soft thud. “Mione take this to cover yourself and go. You have to go now if your going to do this.” he said picking up his invisibility cloak. I looked at him. “Are you sure?” I asked. “Are you?” he asked. I was quiet before nodding. He handed me the cloak. “Then go I can distract everyone long enough for you to get to an apparation point.” He explained. I kissed him on the cheek before throwing the cloak over my head and watching my body disappear.

I watched Harry open the door leaving it open just enough so I could slip out behind him before he closed it. I watched him wave his wand discreatly before a shriek was heard. I saw flames burst out of the floor. He shot me a look and I took out the doors had been opened as people rushed out. I ran as fast as I could without the cloak falling off. I made it to the apparation point before I disappeared with a crack.




THREE YEARS LATER.


Contrary to everyone elses belief that I didn’t love Ron which was why I ran there had been one more reason. I had been afraid I might have been pregnant. I hadn’t been but I had been late. I didn’t take into account all the stress I had been under at the time. I looked around my small loft. Harry and Ginny were getting married today and it would be my reappearence in the wizarding world. I was nervous but I had kept in touch with Ginny, Remus, Tonks, and Harry. They had all urged me to come. And having been dubbed Ginny’s Maid of Honor it wasn’t something I could bail out of. Ron had married Lavender last year and they were expecting their first child in the fall.

Neville and Luna had gotten married shortly after them. Neville had wanted to secure a future before they decided to have children. Tonks and Remus were expecting their second child Teddy had turned three a few months earlier. Remus found out it was a girl while Tonks still thought it would be a boy. Remus had appeared in my fireplace one night to tell me the news. He was still nervous about having children afraid that one would bear his curse. I assured him that after all the research I had done that none of his children would bear it. Also it helped that Severus had managed to find a cure for Lycanthropy. By some miracle he had unknowingly dropped a piece of chocolate in the cualdron and apparently that was all it took. Remus had never been so surprised. I was happy for them both. Tonks and Remus were the most deserving people in the world they deserved to be happy and I knew how Tonks hated him leaving to transform. She would never sleep when he wasn’t beside her.

I sighed before walking into my bedroom and changing into the light blue gown Ginny had picked out for me. With a wave of my wand my hair was pin straight and had little jewels throughout. I rummaged through my jewelry box and froze when I saw the necklace Sirius had given me for Christmas years before. I hadn’t worn it since the breakup. It was beautiful though. It was a beautiful sapphire set in sterling silver with small diamonds around it. I picked it up and examined it before throwing caution to the wind and clasping it around my neck.

A few minutes later I apparated to the burrow. Ginny was waiting for me. Her arms wrapped around me seconds after my arrival. “I’m so glad you came Mione I was afraid you wouldn’t.” She said. I smiled. “What kind of maid of Honor would I be if I was a no show?” I asked laughing. She hugged me tighter. “Harry and everyone else are in the kitchen. Go say hi and then come up to my room and help me get ready.” she said before disappearing up the stairs. I rolled my eyes and made my way into the kitchen.

When I walked in all the talking stopped. Ron was the first to spot me. Lavender was next to him. Her stomach only a slight bump. He smiled and came over and hugged me. “Thank you.” he whispered in my ear. I nodded discreetly before hugging Harry tightly. After a few minutes of greetings I realized one person was missing. Sirius. Harry noticing my questioning gaze pulled me aside. “He’ll be here in a little while he had some things he had to take care of.” I nodded. “How mad do you think he’ll be that I’m here?” I asked. He rolled his eyes. “He won’t be mad Mione, I think he’s missed you more then he’d care to admit. I smiled before excusing myself to go outback. I walked towards the woods. “Where are you going?” Ginny called from the window. “I’ll be there shortly Ginny.” I said she nodded and closed the window disappearing behind the curtain when I was far enough away I pulled out a cigarette a lit it.

I took a long drag and felt my body relax. I blew the smoke out slowly watching it swirl before disappearing. “You know if the bride sees you smoking she’ll kill you.” A deep voice said from behind me making me freeze. I knew that voice. I would never forget that voice. Slowly I turned around and saw Sirius there a cigarette between his own fingers a lazy smirk on his lips.

“Good to see you Mione. I didn’t know what to think when you dropped out of marrying Ron.” he said. I winced knowing I deserved that. “I didn’t see you coming to stop me.” I shot back. “It wasn’t my job.” He said before taking a drag off his cigarette. “I know it wasn’t your job. Speaking of jobs what was your’s again?” I hissed. He smiled. “Something’s don’t change your still witty.” I rolled my eyes. “Intelligence doesn’t disappear Sirius.” I said softly. “Either do feelings.” He whispered our eyes locking. “You could have fooled me.” I answered.

Before I could comprehend what was happening his lips were on mine. His hands on my hips pulling me to him. I didn’t resist. I should have. Eventually I got a hold on myself. “Sirius this isn’t a good idea.” I whispered. “No more thinking Mione, we did that before and it killed us. This time I’m not letting you run away. Your mine Witch you always have been.” he said before I was up against a tree. His hands lifted my dress while his lips attacked my jaw and throat. I worked the buckle of his belt before unzipping his fly and undoing the button. I pushed his pants down as he hiked my dress up higher his hand cupping my cunt. I hissed as he ran his fingers over the lace. “God I’ve missed you.” he whispered before kissing me again. “I’ve missed you too.” I groaned. With one quick motion he had ripped my thong and tossed it to the ground.

I pushed down his boxers and within seconds he was inside of me. Our hips meeting as he slammed in and out of me. “Oh GOD SIRIUS HARDER!” I cried desperately. His teeth grazed my neck before nipping at my collar bone. “SIRIUS MORE!” I cried my voice cracking. “My witch.” he growled in my ear. “Only yours!” I cried back dragging my nails down his back. Finally we came our orgasms overwhelming us we both collapsed against the tree. “Ginny’s going to kill you look at my dress.” I said laughing. He looked at me before kissing me. “I think it gives you a wild look.” He said before kissing me again. I laughed and waved my wand. I repaired my thong and my dress before fixing my hair. When we were both presentable we walked back inside I went to Ginny’s room and helped her get dressed.

An Hour later we were at the church watching them say their I do’s. When the wedding was over and the reception in full swing Sirius grabbed me from behind. “I don’t want to lose you again Mione.” He whispered looking at me pleadingly. “You wont.” I answered. “I want to make sure of that. Marry me?” he said dropping to one knee. I looked at him shocked. “Sirius?” I asked confused. “Marry me Mione. Please, These last three years without you have been hell. I haven’t been with anyone since you. Marry me.” He asked. He pulled out a small velvet box and opened it. Nestled on Black satin was the most beautiful ring I had ever seen. It was a 14k white gold Pink Sapphire surrounded with diamonds just like my necklace the only difference was the necklace had a blue sapphire and was set in sterling silver. I looked at him my eyes stinging with unshed tears. “Yes. I’ll marry you.” I said sinking to my knees and wrapping my arms around his neck.


It would have been unforgivable for me to marry Ron. I didn’t love him and he was in love with the idea of marrying me. He loved Lavender all along. He just couldn’t bear breaking his moms heart which I understand. Sirius and I were married in June. I am pregnant with our first child a little girl. Sirius is still in shock that he’s going to be a father. Tonks had her daughter and named her Avianna. Our daughter, Sirius decided will be named after two very important women in my life, Isabella after my grandmother who I was extremely close to and told him about and Marie after my mom. I sometimes wonder why I waited so long to come back. It did kill me to be away for so long. But being with Sirius made me realized that being in love is true happiness and it makes you feel invincible. Sirius wanting to make his future daughter proud is one of the leading aurours in the field along with Harry. Both of them looking so close in age because of the potion he took when he returned from the veil. The ministries way of apologizing for imprisoning him wrongfully and without a trial.

I love my husband and I’m glad that I didn’t marry Ron. It all turned out for the best in the end. A lot of people aren’t lucky enough to find the other half of their souls. I was, and if it hadn’t been for Harry and his cloak it might not have happened. Harry and Ginny will be the godparents like we will be for their first child.


Ok So yesterday was my birthday and I decided to give you a present. This is just a one shot. But I AM CONSIDERING makinga prequel detailing The relationship and how it all led up to this. So if you want me to do that let me know I hope you like this i was watching a movie last night that was boring and i started typing and this is what came out. I will update all my other stories soon. I promise a lot has been going on with my internet provider and everything. So Just give me some time and I will provide you with more smutty enternainment.

Jen