Unfaithful

Hey everyone!!! This is Nyale again here with my very first story fanfic! I stayed up writing this thing until 2am. I can't believe I actually got it done. It was harder work than I thought and now I'm tired as hell! Warning in this is my very first lemon..(well seeing as its my first fanfic it would be fist lemon..duh) My muse visited me and helped. Now he's busy sleeping while I write this part. I would like to thank the wonderful Silver Fox for my beta-editing if I knew who he was..Early this morning I had finished my story and later this afternoon I come home and it's all edited! With a note from this Silver Fox person..YAY! I have my own personal secret beta! He's like those little elves off of The elves and the shoe maker...of course if he is anything like his name the only thing similar between the two is they work in the middle of the night..and their ears are kinda alike..ish. Foxes have slightly pointy ears don't they? lol Oh well..thanks to him, wherever he is. Enjoy the story! I'm off the find he bloody fox..who knows where he could be..I want to meet him dangit. *goes off the search*




We have been together for ten years. It was amazing really. To this day I still can't believe it. We had gotten together a few weeks before graduation. All those years of
anger, insults and malice turned into lo...no I refuse to call it that, turned into a 'caring relationship' and even that's going a bit too far... It took the weasel and Granger
shoving us into a locked room with a truth spell for three days to get us to even say the other looked mildly attractive, and THAT had happened in 6th year. It took another
full year of being shoved in closets, drunken parties, many awkward rumors, awkward positions, and the rest of the Slytherans and Griffindors ganging up on
us, tying us to two chairs opposite of each other and brutally forcing truth potion (from Snape's personal stores of course) down our throats. They asked personal questions
that had the weasel's hair turning more red which, would have been absolutely hilarious had I not been tied to a chair. After all the annoying questions we were compelled to
answer, everyone started leaving the common room leaving one person to untie us and run so they didn't get their arses kicked, not that we would have noticed. One thing
led to another and needless to say my annoying Griffindor was no longer a virgin.


It was a terrible and beautiful moment the day he defeated Voldemort. The sun did not notice people were dying left and right as it continued to shine right on through the
entire battle. It was frightening, though I will never admit that to anyone else but him. I met my father on that battle. We started a very long tedious duel. Dark curses were
being thrown. Not one hit either of us. Suddenly we were standing less than two feet apart and he tackled me. I was shocked, seeing as Malfloys Do. Not. Tackle.
Anybody. It's in our code book of etiquette. Apparently my father decided to toss that one out the window. I froze as he whispered he was sorry. He then got off of me and
re-entered the battle cursing not the light side but, the deatheaters. I continued to watch him in shock until he turned and winked before throwing himself back into the battle.
I almost grinned before I remembered myself. The battle came to a stop as Potter and Voldemort were facing off. Everyone turned to watch as Voldemort did his whole
"I'm better than you and you are going to die" rant. Potter rolled his eyes and told him to "Shut the bloody hell up before we all die of old age." That started the real battle
between them. I ran as quickly as I could to get close to them. Soon, I was there and instantly had to yank Potter out of the way of a nasty hex coming his way. He was
startled when he realized I was there, then he smirked and said "Fancy seeing you here

Malfloy." I replied with a "Couldn't let your stupidity get us all killed, could I?" He laughed and grabbed my hand. I interlaced our fingers and, as one, we turned to face
Voldemort. The rest of the battle was quick, ending with a flash of green light and a sword going through Voldemorts chest. I have no idea what happened next as both
Potter and I passed out from exhaustion. We woke up just in time to make it to our graduation.

Potter took over for Madame Pomphrey and I took over Snape's job as they both decided it was time for a long awaited wedding and vacation. That wedding shocked

everyone, including Dumbledoor. The look on his face was so hilarious that I will forever treasure it as it will never happen again. Potter is now learning to become the next
Headmaster and I the next Head Deputy. Everyone said and still say we make the perfect pair after they got over the initial shock of it. We have holidays with the Weaselys
and are sickeningly sweet to each other. It's a bad name to my Slytherian reputation but when I look into those green eyes I can't find it in me to care.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

There is only one thing we have never really done. We never ever say the L word. Its been like an unwritten rule for all of our 'caring relationship.' I don't want him to say
it. Ever. I know I don't deserve him caring for me, but I can deal with it. What I cannot deal with is love. It makes me feel guilty. I have done things that would even make
the coldest man cry. I don't know what to do. Last week he broke that unwritten rule. He said he loved me. It was in the afterglow of sex so I just ignored it, but the next
morning he whispered it in my ear again. It froze me to down to my very soul. For one thing Malfloy's don't show their love. For another, It scares the living hell out of me. I
can't get it out of my head. I almost started hyperventilating in front of the students today. That is not a good sign.

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason the sky is blue
But the clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
And to him I just can't be true

Don't get me wrong, I care for him more than anyone else. I've never been with anyone this long. I did something wrong tonight. I went out and...cheated. My parents did
it all the time so why shouldn't I? I actually had a good time when I wasn't thinking about Potter. I'm not ready to settle down for just anybody. But Merlin, I know it will hurt
him. On the outside I'm perfectly calm, Malfloy mask in place. On the inside though, this is brewing a storm. He doesn't deserve love from me. I look down at my watch and
notice it's time to go home. I quickly cast a sobriety charm on me as I leave the bar.


And I know that he knows that I'm, unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying


I'm now lying in bed next to him. He fell asleep after our...activities. He knows. I can feel it. I know my sweet Griffindor better than anyone. As soon as I walked in
through the door, I was ambushed with a hug. That hug was full of many emotions I couldn't understand. When he smelt the other man on me his eyes widened slightly in
shock. I simply raised an eyebrow at him daring him to say something. I watched as his eyes dulled a little. I almost broke then, but then I remembered Malfloys never show
emotion. He simply told me to take a shower and dinner would be ready in a few minutes.

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

I woke up this morning to him crying silently. He was holding his own arm tracing scars he created himself. I almost reached out to him but stopped myself. I had no right.

Maybe, if I continue to do this he will just leave me so I don't hurt him or myself anymore. I see him eying the knife he always keeps near. So help me, if he starts that up
again I will strangle him. I reach out, gently grab his arm and pull him towards me before falling back asleep.

Today when I left after classes were already over. Potter was watching me silently from the couch. I smirked and winked as I told him I would see him after I go out for a
walk. His eyes dimmed a bit more before he smiled and said goodbye. I went to the other man. It helps me get rid of the guilt of touching someone so beautiful by being
defiled by someone dirty.


I feel it in the air
As I'm doing my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm going to be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well


It has been a month since I started this madness. I believe he has figured out who I'm seeing because he gets upset when anyone says the name Blaise Zabini. I'm now

getting ready for our next meeting, or as I tell Potter, a meeting up of the 7th year Slytherians. He comes up and smiles at me sweetly before straightening my robes. He

surrounds me in one of those heartbreaking hugs of his and kisses me on the cheek. He wants to know if I will be home for dinner and I tell him yes, after all this is only a
quick meeting. It is during Blaise's lunch break. I pull back from him and he reluctantly lets go. I turn around before I walk out the door and look at him. He looks straight
back at me and tries not to cry.


Cause he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I'm happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be...
A murderer

Our love, his trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this
Anymore
Uh
Anymore (anymore)


I come home to the scent of not food, but blood. He is laying in the bathroom watching his life force slowly drain out him. My heart fills with dread. I run to him and grab
him arm. "You promised," I shouted.

"As did you..." he replies quietly, "Get off me I wasn't going to kill myself."

"Oh and what do you call this?" I asked Sarcastically.

"Who knows. Why should you care." He says coldly.

I flinch as he walks out the door and slams the bedroom door. It looks as if I will be sleeping on the couch tonight. I feel so guilty. It never used to be a feeling I knew until I
got together with him. Screw it, I am a Malfloy what I want to do is my choice not his. I'm going back to Blaise's. He will not harm himself again tonight. There are sleeping
potions in there. Knowing him, he will take one so as to not deal with it.

I apparate into Blaise's living room. He raises one eyebrow but doesn't ask questions. He simply stands up, wipes my face with a tissues, and leads me to the bedroom. I

wasn't crying, Malfloy's don't cry. It was the rain. I ignore the fact I never stepped outside. I stare as he starts to undress. He is nothing like Harry. Harry is more lean and
has wild hair. His eyes sparkle while Blaise's do not. I should really stop comparing them. I sigh and turn my mind off. Mindlessly I go through the motions of sex. Now
Blaise has fallen asleep it is impossible to turn my mind off.

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't want to be the reason why
And every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna take away his lie
I don't wanna be...
A murderer (a murderer)

No no no no

Yeah yeah yeah



I think about how Harry's eyes are completely dull now. I have taken away his happiness. My plan to get him to leave me didn't work. I know I am tainted but perhaps

there is still a chance. If he is willing to continue even now, then maybe he means the L-word. I don't deserve it though. I talked to Severus about this the other day. He says
to just let my pride and self-hate go and let him love me. That's amazing coming from Severus. He doesn't get along with Harry even now.

I continue to dwell on everything until the sun rises. I have made my decision. I am terrified but I have to do it. To save and keep my Harry. I'm going to apologize and

maybe...just maybe say that dreaded L-word. I flew to Severus's to use his shower and say I'm staying a while. He raises an eyebrow but nods in approval. He can tell what
I've decided just from looking at me. No one else would be able to notice, but he is a fellow Slytherian. I change into the best robes I can find. I walk home three weeks
later in hopes that Harry will consider what I have to say.

I knock on the door. I may live here but as of right now I believe knocking is what I must to to earn Harry's favor. He looks so cute in the morning sleep tousled hair and

in his sleep clothes. He looks surprised to see me but quickly guards his face.

"What Malfloy?" He glares. I look at him sadly. "We need to talk." He suddenly looks afraid. He turns around and sits on the couch. "Well, talk then" he says nervously. I
start at the beginning and tell him everything. From my feelings to the cheating to the last night at Blaise's. He sits the entire time looking at his hands in the lap. I finish. It is
silent for at least ten minutes but it felt like hours.

Harry's lips tremble and there are tears in his eyes but he refuses to let them spill. He looks up at Mafloy and says he knew, he knew since the first time Malfloy ever

cheated. Malfloy drops to his knees, ignoring Harry as his eyes widen in surprise. Malfloy scoots closer and looks up into Harry's eyes and says slowly and clearly "I'm
sorry, there is nothing I can change what I've done to you. I will leave if you want, just promise me one thing." Harry looked at him with a question in his eyes. Malfloy
reached up and gently lifted up the sleeve to Harry's shirt. He traced the lines on the other man's wrist. "Never", he said fiercely, "Do this again. Promise me." Harry smiles
softly and traces Draco's cheek. "I promise," he whispered.

Draco stood to leave but Harry yanked his arm causing Draco to land in his lap. Harry grinned at him impishly. "Where exactly do you think you are going?"

"I'm going to stay at Severus's until Dumbledoor can find me new rooms."

"Oh really now?" Harry smiled. He reached up and brushed the hair out of Draco's eyes. Draco just looked at him slightly confused. "And you call yourself a Slytheran,"
Harry teased. "I plan on keeping you for a long while Draco. Don't you even think about leaving. You have a lot to make up for and I believe its going to take a long time for
you to make it up to me." Draco leaned forward just barely brushing his lips "How long exactly?" Harry whispered "The rest of our lives." before diving in and kissing Draco
for all he was worth. Draco moans and brought his hands up to run them through Harry's hair. "Bedroom?" Draco asked breathlessly. "Yes," Harry moaned.

Draco carried Harry to their bed and gently tossed him down on it. Draco just stood there for a moment slowly running his eyes over Harry. Harry grinned and raised an
eyebrow at him. "Hurry up already it's been three weeks and if you don't, then I will do it myself." Draco growled and pounced him Harry, causing him to giggle. His giggle
turned into a moan and Draco leaned down and started nibbling and sucking on his neck. Harry thrusted up against him as he started unbuttoning Draco's shirt. Draco
moved to accommodate him and returned the favor. Soon both were lying skin to skin against each other. Draco whispered a quiet spell that made Harry squirm as a cool
wet feeling ran through his bottom half. He swore he would never get used to that as Draco laughed. Draco ran a finger down Harry's chest swirling his finger around Harry's
nipples before rolling them in his fingers. He smiled at Harry's gasp. He replaced his fingers with his tongue, enjoying the moans from the smaller man. He stroked Harry's
manhood while using his other hand to gently stretch him. He grinned when he hit that spot in Harry that made him arch his back and let out a wail. "Draco," he
panted, "need you. Now!" Draco smiled and applied the same spell he used on Harry to his manhood. He then gently entered Harry with one single thrust. Harry screamed
out in pain and pleasure. Draco fought to keep himself still as Harry adjusted. Both of their breathing was harsh. Harry eventually looked up him with a smile and a nod.
He wrapped his legs around Draco's waist. Draco pulled out slowly and slammed back in with a cry of pleasure. Harry found a rhythm with him and thrust back against
him. They looked at each other and intertwined their fingers together. In. Out. In. Out. They were beyond intelligible words. All that could be heard was moaning,
whimpering, and keening wails. They were going to new heights of pleasure they had never had before. Draco could feel himself coming closer. He reached down with a pair
of their hands and together they started pulling on Harry's manhood to the rhythm that Draco was thrusting into Harry. Draco leaning forward and in between breaths
whispered into Harry's ear "I...love...you." With a scream Harry arched his back and came bringing Draco with him. Draco fell on top of Harry. When he tried to get up,
Harry wouldn't let him, so he smiled and nuzzled Harry's chest. After a quick cleaning spell they both fell asleep in each others arms.

The next morning, Draco woke up with the wild black hair in his face. He smirked. He has missed this. Somehow in the middle of the night they had rolled over and
Harry was completely wrapped around him. He just laid and watched his Griffindor sleep. He didn't know for how long and he didn't care. When Harry showed signs of
waking Draco finished waking him up with a sweet kiss. Harry smiled and looked up at him. Then his face turned serious. "Did you mean it last night Draco?" Draco looked
at him confusion showing on his face. "Did I mean what?" He knew perfectly well what Harry meant he was just avoiding the answer. "That you love me." Harry said softly.
Draco took a shuddering breath and closed his eyes. He thought about all they had been through in the years and smiled. "Yes my love, I do." Harry smiled the brightest
smile Draco had even seen on him and gently pressed his lips to Draco's. "Say it, please," Harry begged. "I love you you crazy Griffindor." Draco rolled his eyes. Harry
laughed and said "I love you too. Thank you, that is all I have been wanting to hear for years."
"I'm sorry it has taken so long," Draco said, eyes lowered. Harry grabbed his chin and lifted his head. "All that matters now is that you said it. What happened in the past
matters no more. I forgive you. If you ever hurt me again I will tell Fred and George though." Harry smirked at Draco's widened eyes. Draco regained his composure and
smiled. "Okay," he said simply. They took the day off from work the relearn each other. They lived the rest of their lives

together, there were many fights, but making up was worth it.



~End~

I realized something as I left you all to read...I DON'T KNOW WHAT HE LOOKS LIKE!!! How in the hell am I supposed to find him now *sobs uncontrollably* I can't give up though! Even if I haven't the faintest how to catch him...oooh I shall go make a plan! Somehow...Wish me luck!!! And review plleeaasseee I will never know if my fics are at least okay quality if you don't let me know!
*curtseys*
~Nyale~