Lilyflower

As she shakily brought out the condom, I asked her if she was sure she wanted to do it. It was more out of the manly ideals, feeling as though I was protecting her by asking her permission. We had already been through it twice, it was going to hurt her whether she liked it or not. She agreed, then asked me the same thing, out of fear I guess, as I had nothing to lose in this situation. I looked her in the eye and I saw the nervousness and fear before I told her the truth, “I’d do anything in the world as long as you were there with me.”

I remember feeling blissful happiness as I saw the smile on her face, the fear melt away from her eyes as she accepted my words, and I’ll always remember the way she kissed me; gentle, warm, passionate, as though I was her oxygen and she needed me. I knew that it was love that I saw in her eyes, felt on her kiss… and I felt as though I would melt right there and then. I kissed her like I had never kissed anyone before, in my attempt to make her understand I felt the same way, and I held her tight in my arms as I rolled on top of her.

My heart felt close to breaking as I slowly pushed into her and saw the pain in her gorgeous eyes. There was a trickle of tears as I continued slowly to the hilt, and I leaned down to kiss them away. I held still in her warmth until I felt her slowly relax. She met my eyes and bit her lip, nodding slightly to me. I kissed her as gently as I could as I slowly moved out of her, and felt her gasp as I pushed back in. It felt fantastic, and my hand moved down to clasp hers as a slowly built a rhythm, resisting the urge to thrust as hard and fast as I could.

I kissed her slender neck to distract her from the pain I knew she was in, aiming for the sensitive spot behind her ear that made her come apart in my hands. My resolve almost shattered to pieces as I heard her moan, and I almost came on the spot when she dig her nails into my back and whimpered out my name. I looked her in the eye to check that I hadn’t misheard pain for pleasure, but she kissed me hard and wound a hand into my hair.
“Fa-faster…” she struggled out between her gasps and I happily obliged, increasing my pace slowly, not as fast as I liked but fast enough for her to feel a difference. She let out a long moan into my mouth, and I couldn’t help but groan my answer back. I had had sex before, with quite a few notches in my bedpost, but I had never felt this good.
“Oh God…” I groaned into her neck as I felt her legs wrap around my waist, pulling me in deeper. “Fuck… harder, please harder!” she gasped out, her hand travelling down to grasp the inside of my leg. She bit down on my shoulder as I began to pound in to her, answering her moans and cries with my own.
I was close.. very close in fact, when I began to feel her shudder and tighten around me, so I reached my hand between us and stroked her bundle of nerves. She came like a steam train, screaming my name into my neck, and the feeling of her tight and hot around me sent me into an oblivion. I came harder than I could ever remember, gasping into her hair and nearly choking on my own gutteral moans.

I tumbled next to her as we both came down from our own separate highs, leaving us both breathing heavily, chests heaving and sweat covering our foreheads.
“That was… wow…” was all I could say, and she smiled happily, snuggling down into my shoulder. I chucked the used condom into the bin next to my bed, and wrapped my arms around her. She was still shaking slightly, and I kissed her hair, stroking her back in the way I knew soothed her.

“Thank you Remus.” She said into my neck, and I kissed her gently once more.
“You don’t have to thank me Lily.” I replied. “Thank you for asking me to do this, even though we’re not together.”
“I love you Remus.” She said simply. “I asked you because I trust you more than anyone in the world. I’d never want my first time to be with anyone else.”
“I love you too Lilyflower.”