She Is My Sin

She is My Sin

She is my sin
Desire Within, Desire Within
A perfect veil for the bride to dear for him

Lyrics by Tuomas Holopainnen

I had defeated Lord Voldemort. You would have thought that my troubles were over, but they had barely begun. You see my girlfriend, and the one that I was prepared to give my heart to forever jumped in front of Lord Voldemort’s wand and got the curse that was meant for me; thus giving me another type of love to protect myself against him. Ginny had sacrificed her life for me. I was stunned and shocked. She was the one thing that kept me going; I wanted to destroy him sure. But life is never that simple is it. When I started dating her I realised that there was something powerful between us, so powerful that it gave me much more determination to see this through to the bitter end; using whatever means necessary to me at the time. Unfortunately that meant using Snape, and much to my chagrin HE turned out to be a bloody hero all along! He and Hermione struck a friendship during the last stages of the war that seemed a little more than a friendship.

The night before the final battle I was proved right when I saw them groping and kissing each other in a little niche in the hallway at Grimmauld Place. I was angry but I had to keep my temper, the plan was to kill Voldemort. Besides, that night I had other fish to fry. Snape told me that the last owner of the Horcrux was in actual fact Bellatrix Lestrange. I had to make a visit to her and be nice.

Snape had taught me, among other things, how to drug someone. He gave a bottle of his precious Veritaserum and told me where she lived. He added a ‘good luck’ to the end of his sentence. I was shocked. Why did he think I needed good luck? The most Bellatrix could do to me was crucio me to insanity. She knew, as did the rest of the world, that one man could only kill me.

I wrapped myself in my fathers invisibility cloak and made my way to the front door and turned back to glance at Hermione raising her leg to go over his waist. I shook my head; how she could let him touch her was beyond me! But she could. I made my way to the nearest apparition point and smiled. I clasped the bottle of Veritaserum tightly to my chest and left.
I ended up outside a dreary Mansion that looked like it had no cheer for centuries. Even the landscape was barren and coarse. The trees branches swayed slowly in the drifting wind in a mournful way as they swept up some dried leaves. I saw the flowers drooping in sorrow as they wished for life and love. I had come to respect plants and the fact that these people just let things die around them made me shudder with hatred.

I rounded my shoulders and strode up to the front door. I opened it very slowly and quietly and walked in the Mansion. This place was so solemn and dark that I finally began to realise why Sirius was so anxious to steer away from this branch of the family. Grimmauld Place was a happy haven compared to this miserable sanctum of depression.

I tiptoed to the nearest door to seek my prey. She was in there. I heard guttural noises coming from the room.

“Master!” she huffed. “More! MORE!”

I had to hold in my stomach contents. It seemed she was having sex with Lord Voldemort. I was almost relieved when I heard the next voice, although, I thought it was wrong.

“Bella, you know I would have preferred you to Narcissa!”

Lucius Malfoy, you’re next on my list. I grimaced. Narcissa had come to us begging for mercy and to my surprise I found I actually liked her. Draco had been brutally murdered by Lord Voldemort, and Narcissa wanted us to take her in. It was she that also begged me to spare Snape his life.

“And I would most certainly have preferred you to that wimp I got!” Bella exclaimed harshly. I heard the rustle of clothes and even with my inexperience I could tell that they were finished.

“Shall we take this to the bedroom?” Lucius asked.

“Certainly,” Bella said.

I shrunk against the wall and tried to hide as well as I could. I might have been wearing an invisibility cloak but it still didn’t protect me against people with piercing eyes.

“I suppose you have your pet already chosen?” Bellatrix asked Lucius.

“Of course,” Lucius smirked. “Granger would make a fine pet for me. I can’t wait to break her spirit.”

“Really, well I have decided to pick Lupin as my pet.”

“As surprised as I am by that revelation I am somewhat stung by your choice.”

“Well, my other choice would have been Potter, but he’s going to die.”

I was mortified at the thought that if I were not going to die I would have been her reward. I peered in the room they had just left and walked into it.

“Damn, Bella, Masters calling me,” Lucius said screwing his face in pain. I decided that I had to slip in the Veritaserum soon before I lost my nerve. I looked at the Whiskey, hmm far to cliché but with the hurry I was in I had to. Lucius left the Mansion and Bellatrix strode back in the room.

I put the Whiskey back on the tray and walked away from it. She walked up to the Whiskey tray and sighed; she picked up the decanter I had just laced and sniffed it.

“Who’s here?” she asked. “Show yourself, stranger!”

I gulped. I was about to make a run for it but I tripped up on the edge of the rug and landed on my face with an oomph. She walked up to me and prodded me with her toe before she knelt down and picked the robe off with her fingers.

“Ah!” she gasped. “Well, well, if it isn’t my favourite half-blood.”

“I thought that Lord Voldemort was!” I exclaimed gruffly. I got up and she watched. I turned around and saw that she was wearing next to nothing. I averted my eyes away from her body.

“Does Pweety Potter want to pway?” she asked in her mock baby voice that I detested with a passion.

“Not with you, I don’t!” I muttered.

She walked around me stalking me. I grew hot under her hooded gaze; this was the woman that had made my life a living hell, as well others. This was the woman that had taken the life of so many people ruining other lives. I HATED HER!

She circled around me once more and then she stepped right up close to me. “How are you my darling little pet?”

I blushed. Her breath fell on my neck making my body react in a way that I had not thought possible. She ran the point of her fingernail down my spine making me shiver.

“I hate you, Bitch!” I exclaimed with fierceness. She laughed. It was cold and high pitched.

“Oh, come now, Potter, you’re not going to let that stop you, are you?” she put an arm around my waist and drew me closer to her body.

“Leave me alone,” I said trying to struggle out of her arms. “Besides I heard you have Malfoy. You think I’d touch anything he has?”

“I think you won’t have any choice,” she whispered in my ear. I was shivering. She wrapped another arm around my waist pinning my back against her chest. She ran her lips along my neck. “So young,” she whispered. “So simple. So, what’s the word I’m looking for? Oh yes, untainted.”

I was struggling to free myself from her tenacious grip. I could not believe that she could actually tempt me. She could make me want to do things that I had never in my life wished to do. Her perfume was strong, and sensual. I wished I could hold in my nose but I couldn’t. Her hands reached down to my groin and she cupped my – er, tackle – in her hand and weighed it.

“Stop it!” I exclaimed grinding my teeth together.

“Well, well, so it seems that the Boy Who Lived isn’t compensating is he?” Bellatrix said huskily.

“Get off you mad bitch!”

“Oh, are you going make me fight for you?” she asked. I turned around and looked into her dark eyes. “I actually like it when your green eyes sparkle with pure hatred at me, Potter. You have no idea what it does to me.”

“I am not entirely an innocent,” I said. “I have lost my virginity.”

She chuckled again. “Really, to whom? The Weaslette; no doubt? That’s hardly losing it, Potter.” Her hands had roved under my jumper and felt my body. “Hmm, it seems all those years snitch seeking has given you a wonderful body.”

I stood my ground. “I won’t let you have me!”

She bit on my lobe. I fought the urge to turn around and slap her in the face. She smirked. I could feel her lips smirking against my cheek.

“Like I said, Potter, you don’t have much of a choice. I know what it is you came for, and I am not going to give it to you unless you give it to me, got that?”

I fought to keep myself from kicking her. I fumed a little more before she turned me around and pressed me against her body.

“I think that you’re sick,” I growled.

She shrugged her shoulders. “I don’t care what you think, Potter.”

I raised my hands to her chest to push her away but her robe loosened and my eyes fell on her naked breast. She was certainly well endowed. I could imagine that were she a muggle my cousin would try and sneak a picture of her getting undressed.

I shook my head. I wasn’t going to let her tempt me. I wasn’t!

She picked up my hand and placed it on her breast. I was shocked but she continued rubbing my hand on it.

“You like the feel of my womanly flesh in your hand,” she murmured.

“I hate it,” I said. Ginny, just think of it as Ginny.

“Oh, Potter, if only you were doing this willingly,” she moaned.
Was she daft? For a start even if she was my own age or I hers; I still wouldn’t go near her with a barge pole and for a second she was a slut. I was not going to give myself easily to a slut.

I ground my teeth trying hard not to let her affect me. She ran her hands up my sides and they rested on my shoulders. She tilted her head and smiled; I didn’t like the smile. She leant forward and placed her lips on mine. I wanted to shove her away but her lips gripped harder on my mouth. I opened my mouth. It was a big mistake. She slipped her tongue inside my mouth and played around with my tongue.

I was surprised at how sweet she did taste. I would have thought the bitterness, hatred and malice might have altered the taste of the person but it didn’t. Her hands went down my back and they grabbed my bum. She pushed me closer to her and growled inside my mouth. I was undone by that growl.

“You like me really, Potter, just like your godfather did.”

“WHAT?” I roared.

“Oh yes,” she sighed. “Sirius was easy to seduce. He may have hated me but I was his first; he spurned me, however, and that resulted in my complete hatred of him! Pity he was nothing more than a ragamuffin dog. But you’re not, are you?”

I was stunned. Sirius let himself go to this whore? I could not believe it. She just laughed and the sleeves of her robe were halfway down her arms. I gulped. I heard her feral growl as I stared at her top naked body.

“I don’t like you,” I said.

“But that won’t get in the way will it?” she asked.

I looked at her and she picked up my hand. “Come with me, Potter.”

She led me up the stairs to an opulent bedroom. She flung me inside the room and closed the door. She ran to the bed and took her robe off completely. I was not going to give in that easily. She threw her head back and laughed. She picked up a wand and waved it at me.

“That’s cheating!” I exclaimed.
“What did you expect?” she asked. “I am not into fair play. Come to think of it; I’m not really into foreplay either.”

I blushed. She lay on her back and spread her legs apart. “Potter, it’s rude to keep a wanting woman waiting.”

I chewed my lip and realised that there was no way out. She was prepared to betray her Master for a night with me then let her suffer his wrath. I closed my eyes and sighed. I walked up to the foot of the bed and roved my eyes up and down her body.

“Bitch!” I growled before I clambered on the bed. She moaned with pleasure as she saw my eyes. I must have looked a little fierce as she shrank a little from me.

She reached down and grabbed my penis. She guided it to her entrance and then smirked a little. I was going to make this as perfunctory as possible. I was not going to be desirous and romantic with her. No, it was going to be plain sex.

She ran her hands through my hair and sighed. “I like messy hair on a boy; it’s so cute!”

I took her hands away from me; this was going to involve as little touch as possible. I stared down into her dark hooded eyes; her sensuous mouth was parted and she was at my mercy. I never really had anyone at my mercy before and the feeling overwhelmed me.

I placed my hands palm flat on both sides of her head and thrust into her. She screamed.

“Like that?” I growled. I slammed harder into her. She whimpered. “Hmm, you know Bellatrix you’re right. Power is good.” I slammed harder into her again. She bit her lip. “I may not be able to hurt with an Unforgivable, but there are other ways of hurting a human being.”

I gripped onto her breasts and as I thrust into her I squeezed tightly and my nails dug into her flesh and I noticed that I had caused her breasts to bleed. She looked at me contemptuously.

I leant down and nuzzled her neck with my nose before biting furiously on that piece of flesh. I didn’t even bother to suck it better like I would with Ginny. I slammed harder into her. She groaned. I grabbed her wand and waved the rope charm and bound her to the bed. She was not going to touch me. I continued my pounding and scratching. She continued groaning and moaning. I thrust further into her and I felt her vagina muscles clamp around my penis. I expelled my seed as she shouted out my name in joy!

When I finished she puffed and panted and looked at me with different eyes. “Well, Potter, if you win you can make me your pet!”

“What?” I blinked waving her wand to charm my clothes back on.

“I like it rough,” she said. “The hatred you shown me proved to me you might have a chance after all. Untie me, and let me get what it is you came for!”

I did untie her. I was almost stupefied. I had got the respect of Bellatrix Lestrange? She got up off the bed and tied her robe around her and walked up to me ruffling my hair.

“Let go,” I said dodging her. She chuckled and walked to the door. She beckoned me to follow her and I did. She walked up to a portrait of one of her husbands Ancestors and moved it aside. She fiddled with the combination lock and it opened to reveal something.

“This is Ravenclaws Scrolls of Wisdom,” she said. “They are the final piece of the puzzle. You have it now, Potter.”

She pressed the book to my chest and wrapped my arms around it.

“Thank you,” I said.

“Oh no, Potter, thank you. I must say that for a relative beginner you’re really quite good!”

I walked down the stairs in a bit of a daze. I opened the door I peered up the stairs and she was gone. Something happened that moment, and it was something that would ruin the rest of my life.

I apparated back to Grimmauld Place; Snape and Hermione had stopped rutting and were sitting in the library acting as if nothing had happened.

“I got it,” I said. Placing Ravenclaws scrolls on the table.

Snape walked up to me and tilted my chin up. “I’d have thought you would have controlled yourself around her Potter.”

“Hmm, well, she didn’t even take the drugged liquor. She picked it up; sniffed it, and knew someone was there. I tried to make a run for it, but I tripped. She effectively told me that she doesn’t get it, I won’t!”

“Well,” Hermione said. “It doesn’t matter how you got it; we have Voldemort’s final piece of soul.”

I was shocked; Hermione ought have been terrified but she wasn’t. She coolly sat there and sighed. “My only pity is that we have to destroy these fantastic scrolls.”

Destroy them they did.

~*~*~

Now, oh now I am head of not only Grimmauld Place by Lestrange Court as well. I have Bellatrix as my ‘pet’ in one, and Narcissa as my ‘pet’ in the other. Although, I have to say I am more affectionate with Narcissa.

But I will always forever mourn the true love of my life. Ginny Molly Weasley will always have a permanent place in my heart, and no one can replace her. Narcissa completely understands, but Bellatrix is still trying hard to make me like her.

Although, I can’t help but feel that sometimes when I lie awake at night after I have stroked my pet Bellatrix, that she has somewhat invaded my heart to a degree. I turn around and look into the sleeping face of she who is my sin.

AN - I know, a little dark for me perhaps. But for some reason I really like Harry and Bellatrix... I think the relationship could be quite complex!