Surpressed Moments

Harry woke up hard. He had been dreaming again. Ever since Sirius died… It was a good job the Dursleys were out, he could go and wank in the bathroom without being disturbed.
He knew it was wrong, but that fact just turned him on more. He shouldn’t be fantasising about his dead Godfather. It was painful too, he missed Sirius so much. He wished he’s done more when he had the chance.
He watched himself in the bathroom mirror as he splashed water on his face. People told him that he’d grown so handsome, but he could see something missing in his eyes, ever since Sirius died… he wasn’t attracted to anybody, boy nor girls. He wondered whether anything had ever happened between Sirius and his dad, and he felt slightly jealous. He told himself not to be so stupid; Sirius was probably always straight anyway.
He sighed and let his fingers travel down his body…

***

He lay in his dog form, barely breathing on the pavement next to the perfectly trimmed flowers, looking distinctly out of place. Only one thought remained in his head: Harry. He could see one light on, (the bathroom?) it was so close, yet so far away. He hadn’t the energy to turn back into his human form, so he dragged himself up and very slowly padded towards the house that had not escaped his thoughts since he had been trapped in the hellish limbo.

***

Harry heard something scraping outside, then, scraping at the door, he jumped to grab his wand and made his way noiselessly downstairs. He could see nothing through the spy hole, and furrowed his brow, thinking he must have been mistaken. He opened the door cautiously anyway and saw a black matted heap of fur lying on the doorstep. Hi heart convulsed painfully: “Sirius?”

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There was no doubt about it, he knew from the first two seconds of looking at him. It was his Sirius. It felt like a dream (and it had been, many times.) Harry lifted him up with both arms, he was a large dog, but Harry found that he had an amazing surge of strength. It was only 10pm, the Dursleys probably wouldn’t be back until 12, but that still only gave Harry 2 hours.
Sirius was in a sorry state; Harry laid him on his bed. Harry felt like crying, it was Sirius, he was back, he was alive, but he knew he must stay calm, Sirius’s breathing was shallow and it scared Harry to death. He sat down next to his Godfather, stroking the lungs out his long black fur, wondering what to do next. He’d have to contact The Order. The only way was owl, and Hedwig was out hunting, probably wouldn’t be back until morning. Harry could keep Sirius hidden for a while, the Dursleys didn’t ever come in his room, and he could lock the door. The idea excited him, nursing Sirius, his love, back to health from whatever hell he had been through, in secret. He wrote a letter to Dumbledore explaining everything whilst still trying to sound sane.
The form of Sirius stirred slightly, so Harry went over, gently opened his mouth, and trickled some of the water into it. He was glad to see Sirius was well enough to swallow, and his Godfather’s breathing got steady and more regular. He looked at his watch: 11:30, the Dursleys would be home soon. He locked his door, and lay next to Sirius, trying not to get aroused.

***

Sirus heard his Godson’s monstrous ‘family’ come in. They didn’t even consider being quiet in case Harry was asleep, which he now was. He looked so peaceful - and the tender way he had carried him in and stroked him! Sirius may have pretended to be slightly more helpless than he actually was, but Harry’s touch was so loving! In truth, just seeing Harry’s face had given him strength, after all those month of being weak. It suddenly hit him - he was home, he was safe, he had done it. He promptly fell into a deep slumber.

***

Harry suddenly woke up. It was daybreak; he lay staring at the ceiling, feeling vaguely happy. He turned to one side, saw the great black mass, and remembered why. He saw that Sirius’s eyes were open - blinking peacefully at him. Harry felt overwhelmed “Sirius!” He put his arms around the black dog, and tried to hide his tears by wiping them on his fur. “You’re back - it’s really you” he whispered. “What happened to you?” Harry saw the pained look on Sirius’s face and understood - he wasn’t strong enough to turn back into his human form yet. He remembered Sirius telling him that he would turn into a dog in Azkaban to conserve strength. “Don’t worry; I’ll look after you… I’ll send a letter to Dumbledore when Hedwig gets back” Sirius licked Harry’s hand thankfully and Harry wondered whether it was wrong to be attracted to an animal. But he isn’t an animal, Harry thought, he’s Sirius. Harry started fantasising what it would be like waking up together like this when Sirius was back in his human form. He coughed, “I’ll erm… go get ready” and rushed out.

***
The day passed, with Sirius mainly snoozing, and Harry reading Quidditch books whilst keeping watch over him. In the evening Harry got called down for dinner by the Dursleys who had ignored him all day. Probably forgot about him. After making sure Sirius was comfortable, Harry went down “I’ll bring you something up” he promised. Sirius lay there perfectly content, but he knew what he had to do. He wanted to be able to tell Harry everything. He gathered up his conserved strength and forced himself back into human form.

***
The first thing Harry saw as he walked through his bedroom door was Sirius lying on his bed naked. Harry felt instantly hard at the sight of his Godfather’s gently muscular contours and his… Harry told himself to snap out of it. He knew how much strength that must have taken Sirius. He walked over to him and trickled some water down his throat again. He tried Sirius with a bit of Aunt Petunia’s grapefruit - Sirius’s eyes flicked open “What the hell is that?!” he said in a surprisingly clear voice, that familiar cheerful bark. Harry grinned broadly.
“It’s so good to see you” Harry said, surprised at how much it hurt him. “How are you feeling?”
“Really great. Better than I have in months, anyway” Sirius noticed his lack of clothes, quickly covered himself up and blushed. He laughed but Harry became serious.
“What happened to you, I thought you were dead… I’ve missed you so much…” Harry said fearfully. Sirius gulped.
“I’ve missed you too. It’s all I’ve thought about - getting back to you.” Sirius paused “The veil... it was, I don’t know what it was - but it lead to a sort of limbo. A nowhere. There was nothing there at all - forever. It would have been difficult - but possible - to apparate out. Bu the killing curse had made me so weak. I don’t know why it didn’t kill me, something about that place I think. So I spent all those months resting and gathering strength. Doing very few and very simple spells to get food and water. When I thought I was ready, I put everything into apparating out - but it was too hard to distinguish exactly where I was going to land. I ended up somewhere very remote. I still don’t know where it was, somewhere in the mountains I think. Of course then I had lost all my strength again. I had to stay in dog form. And then I travelled here…” Sirius finished lamely. Harry felt breathless, but he had made his mind up. He couldn’t keep it from Sirius any more.
“There’s something I have to tell you Sirius, I’ve felt it for a long time and I don’t think I should keep it from you now…”
“HARRY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU, GET DOWN HERE AND CLEAR THE DISHES AWAY - NOW!” Harry’s uncle roared. Sirius looked livid
“Let me go down there - I’ll bite his head off!” he said angrily. Harry just laughed
“It’s alright, you need to save your strength. I should have done it when I was down there. Harry got up and quickly strode out. Half pleased and half angry that he had been interrupted in almost confessing his love.

***
He came back upstairs when he had finished the dishes and the various other chores his uncle made him do. He paused outside his bedroom door… What if he had given too much away? Would Sirius ever trust him again, treat him like a son? He gulped and strode though the door. He found Sirius standing, stroking Hedwig. “Oh good, you’re feeling well enough to stand” said Harry awkwardly
“Yeah” Sirius smiled
“And Hedwig’s back with Dumbledore’s letter…”
Sirius smiled again “She’s beautiful” he said, but he looked at Harry when he said it.
“Look I wanted…” Harry began, but Sirius interrupted him
“I love you, Harry”
“Yes but… You what??” Harry’s heart did a flip again. Sirius looked worried
“I’m really sorry if that’s come as a shock to you Harry. But I couldn’t hide it from you any longer… I know you probably feel nothing like that… I just…” Harry grabbed his babbling Godfather, and brought him down into a long passionate kiss he gently pushed Sirius back down onto the bed. “God where did you learn to kiss like that?” said Sirius “Does this mean you…”
“I’m madly in love with you too? Yeah, it does, and I can’t believe you feel the same way…” Harry whispered. Sirius groaned sexily and kissed his Godson fiercely. Harry could feel Sirius’ erection firmly against his leg. He couldn’t stand it anymore - he’d waited so long for this. Harry kissed back strongly, ran his hand along the top of Sirius’s jeans and undid his belt. He slipped his hands down into Sirius’s boxers, he cupped and stoked Sirius’s balls. “I want you so much Sirius” Harry whispered. Sirius turned to face him
“Are you sure you’re ready for that? Not that I don’t want to, god knows… It’s just you’re young. I love you, I don’t mind waiting until you’re ready” Sirius said trying to concentrate when Harry was still stroking his balls in that delicious way.
“I’m old enough to know what I want. I love you too - and I want you, right now.”
“Now? Here? Won’t the Dursleys hear?” Sirius’s breath quickened at the exciting thought of doing it here.
“Cast a silencing spell, underage spellcasting checks have been taking off this house now, thanks to Dumbledore.” Harry’s green eyes glittered in the twilight. “Now I want you… inside me” he demanded again in a seductive way. Sirius grinned at his Godson’s nerve, grabbed his wand and cast a silencing spell.
“Do you have lube?” asked Sirius. Harry pointed to his bedside table drawer. He felt powerless under the touch of Sirius. He never thought he’d be submissive in a relationship - he enjoyed it though. With a flick of the wrist Sirius removed all Harry’s clothes magically. Sirius admired his Godson
“You’re so beautiful; I want you forever, your beautiful mind, your beautiful body” Sirius said intensely. Harry was speechless, how long ago was he a boy imagining this scene - a day? Sirius spread the lube all over Harry’s chest.
“What are you doing?” Harry asked, puzzled
“Giving you a massage” Sirius replied
“Oh Sirius, please don’t tease me… I’m so hard for you”
“Ssh, you’ll enjoy this” Sirius said mischievously. He placed his fingertips on Harry’s smooth muscular skin. Harry thought he’d never felt anything so good when Sirius began to massage him. He squirmed in pleasure. It was relaxing and stimulating at the same time - but it was also torture. All Harry wanted was Sirius deep inside him. Sirius moved down to Harry’s crotch area, massaging the tops of his legs
“Oh Sirius” Harry breathed. Sirius smiled again and licked the precum off the top of Harry’s cock. Harry groaned loudly “Please” he begged.
“Alright” said Sirius “I can’t stand it anymore either, you’re just too sexy” he unclothed and began to put the lube on himself.
“Let me.” Harry said. Sirius passed him the lube; Harry slowly moved his fingertips and hand along Sirius’s beautiful shaft. Sirius threw his head back and groaned. He was so gorgeous mused Harry. He didn’t care what anyone said, Sirius may look a little rougher after his stay in Azkaban, but that just added to his looks and appeal. Harry pushed his naked body against Sirius’ “Fuck me” said Harry simply.
“You still sure about this?” asked Sirius. Harry nodded definitely. “It may hurt a bit first time - I’m gonna be gentle though.”
“It’s okay” said Harry, referring to the pain. Sirius remembered that Harry had suffered the Cruciatus curse and his heart twisted. He loved this boy so much. He wasn’t even a boy anymore. Sirius coated his fingers in lube and slowly slid one up Harry’s ass, he checked for any signed of pain in his love’s face and slid another one in. He moved them in and out “Mmm…” Harry groaned and started moving his hand up and down Sirius’s cock. Sirius scissored his fingers and Harry gasped slightly
“You alright?” Sirius said, worrying.
“Yeah it’s fine” said Harry kissing Sirius deeply “fuck me” he said again.
Sirius moved into position and slowly slid his fingers out and his dick in. Harry groaned “Is that okay?” asked Sirius
“Further” was all Harry said. Sirius pushed all of himself inside his love. Harry breathed out “I love you”
“I love you too Harry, tell me if I hurt you at all.” Harry didn’t care, he just wanted all of Sirius. Sirius began to rock himself, in and out. It didn’t hurt all that much now Harry thought. Sirius began to move faster, groaning into Harry’s hair. He also began pulling on Harry’s cock in rhythm. Harry had never felt such pleasure, he pushed his body back, against Sirius, getting very close. He began to thrust harder. Harry called Sirius’ name and finally came all over his hand. He felt Sirius’s hot seed spurt into him. He felt like he was whole. They collapsed onto each other in a heap, breathing deeply.
“Can we stay like this forever?” asked Harry
“Yes please” Sirius breathlessly.