In love there are no enemies

*I do not own any of this just the story line the rest I borrowed*


He drowns in his dreams
An exquisite extreme I know
He’s as damned as he seems
And more heaven than a heart could hold
And if I try to save him
My whole world would cave in
Lord, it just ain\'t right
Lord, it just ain\'t right


He was looking at her again, those cold eyes in a face that angels would weep over. Lucius Malfoy, enemy number one when it concerned Hermione and her friends. Lucius Malfoy deatheater turn spy after Voldemort had killed his wife and son. Lucius had been sent on a raid only to come home and find his beautiful wife dead her body still being used by deatheaters as Draco was forced to watch. Then once he thought it was over he was forced to watch his son raped over and over again as he called for his fathers help. It was this final taboo that had sent him to Dumbledore for help and he had become like Severus a spy for the order.

Oh and I don\'t know
I don\'t know what he\'s after
But he\'s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

The first time Hermione had seen him, she was shocked and yet desire flushed through her when he held her hand placing a kiss lightly on it. His nose did not turn up at her heritage and she found that they spent nights staying awake debating on different facts in the wizarding world. After a few weeks of getting to know each other, Hermione knew she had fallen head over heels for the proud pureblood.

He\'s magic and myth
As strong as what I believe
A tragedy with
More damage than a soul should see
And do I try to change him
So hard not to blame him
Hold me tight
Baby, hold me tight


The first time they kissed was late on Halloween night after the ball at Hogwarts. He was a guest of the Ministry, Hermione had worn a long emerald green gown. Lucius had seen the proud Gryffindore wearing Slytherin green and like her he fell. Head over heels for the girl his son had hated and who he to should of hated. She was smart, beautiful and funny. Taking Hemione into his arms he had spun her around on the dance floor both loosing themselves in each others eyes. The lowering his mouth to hers, they had melted into each other, oblivious to the stares of shock from the students and teachers alike.

Oh \'cause I don\'t know
I don\'t know what he\'s after
But he’s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

Hermione knew it wrong, she knew it would never last. But as he led her to his room in the manor and laid her on his satin sheet, all rational thoughts swept out the window and were replaced by his lips on hers. Tongues met, hands searched as passion took over. Slipping her clothes off, Hermione stared shyly at the man watching her. Once his robes joined hers, she took in his body, If there were such things as Angels then they lost one the day Lucius was born. He had the body of a god. Mouths meeting in a frenzy, he took her to oblivion and back again. Time stopped, worries ceased to exist. It was only two bodies meeting in the age old dance of passion and love.

I\'m longing for love and the logical
But he\'s only happy hysterical
I\'m searching for some kind of miracle
Waited so long
So long

Harry objected, Ron seethed. Nobody would help them be together yet most of all one objected the most, Voldemort was not impressed to hear his best deatheater was sleeping with a muggle-born, not just any muggle-born but his enemies best friend and the brains of the operation. He told Lucius to kill her, or be killed. Crying Lucius held Hermione, how could he kill the woman he had grown to love. The girl who filled the gash in his heart that had been torn at the murder of his family. The conclusion came they would have to end it all, till after the war should they both survive.

He’s soft to the touch
But frayed at the end he breaks
He’s never enough
And still he\'s more than I can take
Oh \'cause I don\'t know
I don\'t know what he\'s after
But he\'s so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster

Their last night together was spent not sleeping, words uttered, moans slipped then the three fatal words fell from her mouth. \"I love you\" Lucius cried as he held his lover close whispering over and over again, \"I love you\"

He’s beautiful
He\'s such a beautiful disaster


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I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I\'m in today
And now dying
Doesn\'t seem so cruel
And oh, I don\'t know what to say
And I don\'t know anyway
Anymore

Hermione had heard the rumours, it was all over the order how Lucius was forced by Voldemort to take on a lover. A deatheater lover. Bellatrix was the Lord Malfoy\'s new consort. Every time in head quarters that Hermione saw him her heart broke a little more. He was hers, not the sister of his late wife\'s, not the psycho woman who had lost her mind in Azkaban.

I hate myself for losing you
I\'m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he\'s not here?

It was only because of what she was, Being Muggle-born had never brought her down this much, it was because of her blood that she could not have him. Blood that was as res as his yet somehow dirty. Everyone in the order knew it was killing Hermione to be near him, to be near and yet so far away. Every thought was of him, watching his hands his mouth her heart ripped thinking of them touching a woman who was not her.

You got what you deserved
Hope you\'re happy now
\'Cause every time I think of her with you
It\'s killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can\'t be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don\'t know what to do
Not sure that I\'ll pull through
I wish you knew

He should of fought for her, should of finally came clean about being on the good side. No she could not be selfish, he did this for them all, so that the next generation could live freely, that there would be no shadow of death and hate hanging over their heads, Finally having enough she stood fleeing from the room, out into the garden where Hermione fell to a bench tears flowing down her face.

I hate myself for losing you
I\'m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he\'s not here?

I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don\'t know what to do
Not sure that I\'ll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don\'t know what to say
And I don\'t know anyway
Anymore
No, no


\"Hermione, please don\'t cry, you knew it had to be this way. We cannot be together while the dark lord is alive and I have to do as he says. I do not want Bella, but I have to. All I think about when I am with her is you, your eyes, hair and face.\" Hermione Stiffened at his voice. Turning she looked up at him with tears running. \"I thought I could handle this, I thought I could do it but I cannot. I love you!\" Lucius held his love close as this was all they could do, their hearts breaking, arms being full even if it was only for a little while then he would be gone again and Hermione would be alone.

hate myself for losing you
(I\'m seeing it all so clear)
I\'m seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he\'s not here?
What do you say when every thing\'s said?
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won\'t ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you

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