My Immortal

Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter or any of the characters in the books although I wish that I could fall in love with Sevvie.

My Immortal

“I’m so tired of being here,
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won’t leave me alone”

Severus Snape, Potions Professor at Hogwarts, was deep in thought. He was tired of life and his normally blank mask on his face was gone. In it’s place were lines of exhaustion and sadness.
“Harry,” he whispers anguish in his voice. “Where are you?”
It’s been five years since anyone had seen The Boy Who Lived alive. The last battle between Voldemort happened a few months after Harry and his class mates had taken their NEWTs and graduated. Harry, who had been closely watched since graduating had disappeared one afternoon after picking up his broom. Luckily they had thought to put every tracking spell known to the wizarding world on him and immediately started tracking him. When they finally arrived to the point where Harry was they found that a gruesome battle had occurred. Bodies of Deatheaters littered the ground in a circle, and in the center of it all was the body of Lord Voldemort. Upon closer inspection they found that the only body that was really dead was that of Voldemort. Everyone else was only knocked unconscious. There was no sign of Harry Potter and none of the Deatheaters knew what had occurred. They only knew that Harry had shown up clutching his broom when Voldemort attacked. They dueled for a moment until a bright light engulfed them. When they came to they were in the custody of the Ministry. Harry Potter, the Savior and the Boy Who Lived, had disappeared without a trace.
Nobody could located him. Every single locator spell that had been placed upon him had dissolved. All of the wizarding world started looking for their Savior. Squibs that lived in the muggle world looked there to see if he had just hidden himself away from the world. The one person that everybody thought wouldn’t look for Harry had led most of the searches in the wizarding world. Snape, who had realized he had fallen deeply in love with Harry before he had disappeared, had led the searches slowly depleting his fortune in a desperate attempt of finding Harry. You see he never told Harry that he loved him. In fact the relationship that he had with Harry was that Harry was his toy and Snape was the master. Nobody knew of this relationship until it was to late for either of them. The wizarding world scorned Severus because of his love but he would not stop looking for his beloved.
After a year passed by slowly the wizarding world stopped looking for Harry, then another until finally five years later the only one searching for Harry was Snape. Deep down in his heart in a way that only a soul mate could feel he knew that Harry was alive. He kept searching even when Dumbledore told him that it was useless to search any further. He wanted to make up for all that he had done to Harry, he wanted to show Harry his love and ask for his forgiveness. He remembered their last moments together like they were yesterday and not five years ago.

Flashback

“Harry, where the hell do you think you are going?” Severus yelled showing his anger. Harry was standing by the closet pulling on his old flying gear.
“Out. I need to get out of here. I’ve been cooped up and I am tired of it and I’m tired of you telling me what I can and can’t do. I haven’t been on my broom since 6th year. Look we haven’t heard anything from the Deatheaters in months and I need space so go away.” Harry replied calmly.
“You know that they could find you at any moment. It isn’t safe for you to go out,” said Snape reverting back to his cold mask of indifference. “If you want to go out and tell the whole damn world ‘Hey here I am Harry Potter, The Boy Who Lived and is now a Bloody Target.”
“It’s not like you care,” Harry muttered.
“Your right I don’t care so just go,” Snape replied turning his back. What Harry didn’t see is the concerned look and the look of love in Severus’s eyes.
“I’ll see you later then,” and with that Harry knelt on the floor to reach under their bed for his broom that he had stashed there. Severus turned around just in time to see Harry disappear as soon as he touched the broom.
“Shit,” exclaimed Severus. Fumbling in his robes he found the mirror that would contact Dumbledore. “Albus, Harry just disappeared out of our bedroom.” He said as soon as the Headmasters face came into view on the mirror. He did not think until much later that he had said ‘our’ instead of ‘Harry’s’ bedroom. He ran to the fire place in the living room and threw some floo powder into the fire and arrived at Grimuald’s Place.
“Severus, I am already tracking him. He is at Godric’s Hollow lets go.”
End Flashback
“But he wasn’t there. He just disappeared before we could get to him.” Severus said to the flames. Disgusted by all the memories he got up and grabbed his cloak. ‘A walk in the Forest should clear my thoughts, it’s going to be a long day tomorrow.’ he thought. He was going to Snape manor for the summer to continue the search. He was meeting with some of his old contacts in the Deatheaters that had turned over to the side of the Light to see if they had heard anything on Harry. He was not looking forward to more disappointment but he had to know something. He was not giving up hope.