Hidden desires

Hidden Desires

Author: Kitten
Pairing: Harry/Draco
Genre: futurefic, Au
Warning: angst (!), implied non-con but not really ?-?, OOC
Rating: NC-17
Notes: I just love badHarry stories, and this one was a spur of the moment fic
I like the idea that Harry would finally get his revenge and heart’s desire
this is also one of the shortest things I’ve ever published
you know me and my novels, I just can’t let my stories go, maybe I’ll
write a sequel, if the feedback is positive ^-^ (hint hint)
Disclaimer: They don’t belong to me, they belong to JKR, she would never allow me
to do the things I do to them *gg*




\"Let us all thank our hero and savior of the wizarding world now. Mr.Potter would you please come up to the front.\" Dumbledore\'s ´Sonorus´ enhanced voice rang out through the hall and everybody broke out in applause as Harry Potter stood up from his place at the Gryffindor table. Even most of the remaining Slytherins clapped their hands. Only one youth remained expressionless. Silver eyes fixed firmly on the smiling boy who made his way up to the teacher\'s table, with a few encouraging words from his two best friends.

As he stood next to the headmaster, the students lost it completely shouts of joy, feet trampling and tears of happiness were the evidence of how good it felt to have the shadow of Voldemort not longer hanging over their heads. This End of the Year celebration was also the ending of an era. Only a week ago had Harry Potter killed the Dark Lord in a small battle outside of Hogwarts. A simple Avada Kedavra had done it. The fact that the Golden Boy used an Unforgivable and very competently at that was cast aside in the face of victory.

Slowly the hall calmed down as they watched Dumbledore shake Harry\'s hand, saying his personal thanks it seemed. Then the old wizard said \"Please Harry a few words for your fellow students.\" Blue eyes twinkling madly and instead of refusing as all that knew Potter thought he would do, he just smiled serenely and nodded. The green eyed boy turned towards the masses and let his gaze glide over the four tables. His grin widened as he laid eyes on his house table, slowly advancing over the Hufflepuffs and Ravenclaws to the Slytherin table which had lost half of it\'s occupants; lingering shortly over Draco\'s prone form. An unexplainable shudder ran through the blonde’s body.

Something was not right here. The Slytherin and head boy\'s left hand jerked towards his wand. The green eyed boy pulled his own wand out and cast Sonorus on himself. \"Yeah, a few words are really needed.\" He looked around and then continued \"But first I want to ensure that I have your complete attention...Petrificus Totalus Maximus\" The curse was like a whip lashing through the hall, freezing everybody in it. Too late Draco tried to get to his wand. All the students sat unmoving, stunned and confused gazes at Harry Potter. Desperately the young Malfoy looked at Dumbledore, but the powerful wizard was just as petrified and shocked as the rest of the staff.

A satisfied smile on his face the Golden Boy went on \"Ah yes, this is better. This time you will LISTEN to what I say.\" He turned to the headmaster \"You never did, you know. If you had you\'d have probably known that I really did not like being used as a tool.\" He looked at the man disapprovingly. \"Listening is a skill few people have.\" With that he cast a glance at his friends. Then let his attention come back to the old wizard \"Well what is done is done now, fortunately I had some use for Voldemort\'s death too; or I would have to punish you harder for using me, as it is I will just kill you.\" He said it with such a kind smile as if he\'d granted the wizard a really nice favor.

He lifted his wand \"Let me just get this done now. You know how it is when the bad guys stop to gloat, usually the adversary somehow miraculously gets away, so Good Bye professor, thank you for forcing me to live with the god damned Dursleys for 11 years and manipulating and using me for another 7, burn in hell! Avada Kedavra!\" Hundreds of shocked gazes lay terrified on the figure from whose wand a green light shot out and enveloped the headmaster. It took nearly a minute till it stopped. Draco noted this absentmindedly as he\'d done during the last battle against Voldemort.

The boy\'s eyes were closed, then he visibly shook himself and turned back to his horrified audience. And laughed. A warm sound filled with real amusement. It was so strange. Nothing about him seemed to have changed for Draco. He was totally himself, not under any spell or possessed, he was totally Harry Potter, maybe even a little bit more so than the Slytherin was used to. \"Ugh, excuse me but you look ridiculous, like a bunch of sheep in front of the slaughterer.\"

The young Malfoy snorted inwardly. Looking around he admitted that they really did. And with right. \"Don\'t be afraid I won\'t kill you all. Only the ones who are and want to be a danger to me.\" He thought for a moment \"Hm what to tell you, you know I\'m not really a fan of speeches. But I\'m sure you have some questions for me, therefore..\" He turned to his old housetable again and pointed his wand at Granger and the Weasel saying \"Finite Incantantum acus\"

That freed both of their heads of the body bind and the redhead found his speech first, the tears in the girl\'s eyes hindering her to start her usual babble, Draco thought as he watched passively. \"What the fuck\'s going on. You can\'t be Harry, our Harry would have never ki...done that, please tell me this was just a trick, what...\" The dark haired wizard rolled his eyes and then shook his head in exasperation. \"Really Ron, you never were the brightest light. I mean how can you pretend to be my friend for 7 years and not get that I hate you? And I even told you that I talked the Sorting Hat out of putting me into Slytherin, even that couldn\'t get you off my back, You really are a whore for the spotlight aren\'t you.\" He said that with so much disgust that he Weasel\'s head jerked back as if slapped.

Draco just listened, astonished only a bit at the idea of somebody talking the hat out of his sorting, though if a wizard could do it then Harry Potter. \"But Harry I don\'t understand; Voldemort is dead it\'s finally over how can you do this, why?\" The head girl had found her voice, \"What happened? Does it have something to do with him? I knew that there was something strange in your killing curse.\" So the blond Slytherin wasn\'t the only one to notice this. Potter grinned \"Such a clever girl Hermione, I really hope you will continue to use your head for me, it would be a shame if I had to severe it. But this time you are only partially right. Yes there is something different with my killing curse. You know when my mother, god bless her resting soul, protected me she created a shield that absorbed the killing curses power.\"

He paused for a moment his green eyes flashing in the Avada\'s colour \"But a little side effect of my original wizarding power was to bind it so deep into me that I absorbed Voldi\'s energy. As I grew up and stronger this changed even more. The first time I killed a spider I felt a little electrical current, when I killed a dog I felt as if I\'ve had a strong coffee. When I killed the first human I was quite energized for a day, the first witch lasted for 2 days. And I still haven\'t come down from Voldemort\'s power, now there is also Dumbledore\'s energy running through my veins.\" He looked blissful for a moment and then added in a playfully rueful tone \"I\'m afraid I\'m going to be quite a hyperactive nuisance for the next weeks, if I don\'t find a suitable outlet for my energy.\"

Green eyes met quicksilver with a sparkling intensity for a second that made something in Draco stir worriedly before the young man went on \"But that is not the reasons for my actions today. As I just told you I have killed before. Funny how you all believed me that the dead Deatheaters in the house had done them in before I came. That was the first time in my life that I had done what I really desired.\" Hid eyes grew hard, emerald orbs boring into his two shocked friends \"As I already told the passed away headmaster I do not like to be used. The Dursley\'s did it for years and the old cot continued. Everybody I met in this damn world only wanted something from me. All of you, just out for using me for your purposes. I\'ve had it with that. Now that the Dark Lord is gone, I can finally take my place in this world.\"

His eyes held a smoldering fire now. Again the young Malfoy shuddered, but this time in forbidden delight. Yes, no wonder he wasn\'t surprised to see this Harry Potter. It was the only one he knew. This was the look he had during their fights and encounters. This was Slytherian blood cursing through the boy\'s veins, screaming for power, respect and fear. This was one of the reasons why he could never leave him alone.

\"And my place is on top of it. Where nobody can use me ever again. And it is my rightful place. Not by inheritance or any other thing but by my power. Even without Voldemort and Dumbledore I was always the strongest, their death just showed that to everybody.\" Then he turned towards the teacher\'s table obviously done with his friends. \" You know this now. Tomorrow I will notify the rest of the world of the changes that are going to occur.\" He stared at all of them. Only 5 teachers had survived the final battle. MacGonogal\'s eyes leaked tears and her eyes still lay on the unmoving headmaster\'s body. Snape glared as if he could kill with his eyes alone but that only seemed to amuse the boy.

Draco really didn\'t want to see his teacher and godfather die, but that was what would probably happen in a moment. Then Harry Potter turned back to the students \"You have the next twelve hours to decide if you want to support me or die. It\'s really simple if you ask me. Either you say no, I kill you, your family and everybody who is dear to you, or you say yes and you will have a place in my world. And don\'t even think about tricking me. I\'m not as stupid as the last guy who wanted to take over the world.\" He turned thoughtful for a second \"Of course there are some of you who won\'t get that choice in reference to old bills that have to be settled.\"



With that he jumped down and started to walk towards the doors. Obviously planning to let them all in their petrified state for the time. Quite a show of his power to let such a massive spell go on for so long. Draco\'s mind quieted, preparing to spend the last night of his life as suddenly the form of the new ruler of the wizarding world plopped down next to him. A wand was placed on his chest and words were murmured softly \"Finite Incantantum, Immobilus corpus acies\" The stiffness left his body but the second spell cut of the link between mind and body, making it impossible for him to move, but enabling others to move him. Just as Harry did now.

A strong hand glided under his right thigh and another ensured his staying upright by holding onto his left arm. His leg was lifted, his body turned so that he was straddling the bench and looking at the young wizard. Sitting very close in front of him, regarding him with fiery eyes. Then a wand was once again placed on his chest and the other boy said \"Finite incantantum acus\"

Draco slightly shook his head which made a few of his long blond strands fall into his face, annoying him. He tried to blow them back but they just wouldn\'t go as suddenly a dark tanned hand pushed them back in a gesture that surprised the hell out of the smaller boy. His quicksilver eyes flew to the face he knew so well and found it filled with amusement. \"Do tell me what amuses you so strongly Potter\" He drawled, inwardly confused by the situation. The former Gryffindor just laughed and shook his head.

\"Draco you are the most amazing person I know. I kill two powerful wizards, declare my world domination then sit down next to you. And you? You get annoyed by your hair and are only surprised as I put it behind your ear. That\'s just crazy.\" The young Malfoy heir looked at him in astonishment, well he was right but hell if he told him so and answered \"You are one to talk Potter\" at the questioning look he rolled his eye \"You kill two wizards, insult your friends, take over the world.. and then have the nerve to call me crazy?!\"

Green eyes blinked and then the other wizard started to laugh. Malfoy couldn\'t quite stop the self satisfied smirk that came over his face as he saw the genuine amusement in front of him. Distractedly he noted how the grip on his right thigh tightened slightly in rhythm to the gasps of breathing the boy did. Before he quieted down slowly and looked back into the Slytherins eyes. \"You\'re, as always.\"

One blond eyebrow rose at this surprising statement. Harry grinned \"But you know I\'m not as smart as you so please tell me why you\'re not the least bit surprised by the turn of events and why you\'re not shaking in fear of what I have planned for you my dearest enemy?\" Draco couldn\'t stop himself from feeling flattered by the open words of his antagonist. He decided to answer in truth as there was no sense in lies anymore.

\"Well, as you so pointedly said earlier, Listening is a skill, and one that I possess. I listened and I watched, through the last 7 years, and you never wore a mask for me.\" He couldn\'t stop his voice from falling into a nearly tender tone at this, but the satisfied glow on the dark haired boy\'s face made him oblivious to this and he just continued \"And concerning my fate, well I had already written off my life as uneventfully wasted as I declined to join my father. I knew that I would either be killed in the battle or by some fanatics afterwards for my traitor ship. Therefore dying at your hands is a vast improvement. At least you will kill me for myself and not some ridiculous other notion.\"

The boy before him looked astonished in a very pleasant way at that. Then he shook his head and moved his hand again towards the pale face. Once more replacing a wayward strand of hair behind Draco\'s ear but then continued to stroke over the flawless skin of the Slytherin\'s jaw. \"Amazing, as I said you\'re truly amazing.\" The little tremor that shook Malfoy\'s body was visible and seemed to bring the taller boy out of his trance, smiling he added: \"Thank you Draco.\" At the questioning look in silvery eyes he elaborated \"For listening, ..for just being you.\" Thinking for a moment he absentmindedly followed the high cheekbones with his fingertips. \"You know, what I said wasn\'t totally right. You never wanted anything from me. You tried to give me your friendship but I was to stupid to acknowledge the preciousness of this gift. I\'m sorry. You\'re the only one who sees me.\" He quieted for a moment \"I feel like I should reward you for this. Therefore I will give you a choice that I had not considered giving you before.\"


The blonde’s eyes sharpened and he looked hard at the green orbs in front of him. Both of his hands were captured in the callused darker hands of the other boy and Potter said calmly \"Stay.\" Would he have been able to the Slytherin would have jerked back in astonishment. As his body was still disabled he could only widen his eyes and ask \"What?\" Harry smiled and repeated \"Stay. With me.\" Malfoy shook his head \"Surely you can\'t mean that. Only because I saw what everybody else was too blind to see you are willing to give me the chance of staying with you? And forget 7 years of hating each other?\" At this the boy seemed to be kind of embarrassed and he confessed \" Uh not really. I give you the choice of death. I had originally planned to keep you. But after what you said I just couldn\'t force you like that and not give you an out.\" Draco looked incredulously at the young man in front of him.

\"You..you wanted to keep me?\" Malfoys did not stutter, but this was too much. \"Why?\" Harry snorted and took both of Draco\'s hand in his left one, so he had his right free to caress the blonde’s face. The gesture so gentle, his look so tender that something in the usually harsh young aristocrat seemed to break. Never had he been touched like this. \"You really have to ask?\" Softly murmured words, while his eyes were hooked onto the emerald orbs in front of him, his mind hung onto every word that left Harry\'s lovely curved mouth. \"Why not? There is nothing that could make me let you go.\"

\"Were it just for the beauty of your body\" At that he stroked his fingers over the rosy elegantly curved lips \"I would keep you for some nights, until my desire for your pale perfection was satisfied.\" Draco gulped at the heat he could nearly feel radiating of Harry \" Were it only for your intelligence and cunning that was useful to me, I could easily read your mind and put your ways of thinking into an artifact. But there is one thing that I can not capture in you and that is your spirit.\"

Again there was this unholy green gleam in his former enemy\'s eyes. It burned. Throughout Draco\'s whole body into his heart. \"You feel it too don\'t you?\" He asked urgently \"You are the elven fire to my dragon glow. You challenge me, you make me feel, you make me be myself. And I can not fully live without you. Already I regret giving you a choice.\" He stared intensely into the stormy quicksilver eyes that had so obviously tormented him for such a long time.

\"I have given it, and I always keep my word. But I hunger for you Draco Malfoy. And I intend to have you, for at least one night, whatever you decide tomorrow. You will not deny me this.\" Shudders wracked through the blonde\'s body and the determination in the last words made him gasp. Apparently something that pleased Harry as he used the opportunity to lean forward and capture the much desired lips in a kiss.

It felt as if the world shuddered into it\'s rightful place. Two halves of a cruelly divided soul falling together. Satisfaction nearly painful in it\'s fulfilling yet desire fuelling way. Draco\'s moan was swallowed by Harry and the green eyed boy\'s groan at the taste of his partner reverberated through them both. Tongues sliding together, apart, claiming, tasting, discovering, after what seemed to be an eternity Harry finally pulled back. One of his hands had found it\'s way into the silken hair of his adversary the other still clasped the unmoving hands.

He didn\'t dare to look into the silver eyes. Afraid of what he would see, or rather what he wouldn\'t. But he shouldn\'t have worried. Draco was completely amazed, he\'d desired the other boy, sure, but he had never expected this. Harry breathed deeply and said \"Finite Incantantum\" The young Slytherin\'s body was freed but he still felt frozen. Only this time by his confused emotions. Harry\'s hand slid slowly out of the blond hair and he pointed his wand at the silencing spell he\'d cast around them, ending it. Then he stood, Draco jerked his hands free at the sudden tug upwards. Both of the young men just tried to regain their breathing for a minute.

Looking down at the slim blond figure the new Lord of the wizarding world held his hand out. “Your wand.” Draco glared darkly and then gave his wand up, Harry pocketed it and held his hand out again, this time to pull his former nemesis up. Quicksilver eyes gazed up at him and the turmoil in them hurt something inside of the Gryffindor\'s cooled heart. Softly he said \"Come. I promise, I don\'t want to hurt you. On the opposite.\" He grinned encouragingly \" I\'d enjoy it much more if you\'d like it too.\" Still the fear remained in the silvery, slightly almond shaped orbs but he took the offered hand and stood gracefully. \"I do not have a choice, do I?\" he snarled trying to regain his composure. Harry shook his head sadly and leaned forward to place a gentle and short kiss on the bruised lips in front of him \"No my little dragon, seven years is a long time for desiring something, I could no longer give this opportunity up than I could stop breathing.\"

Leading the smaller boy out of the hall he continued \"But as I said, I \'d like it if you enjoyed yourself, don\'t think, just feel.\" Draco snorted \"Not thinking may be easy for you Potter, but others have brains which makes it hard to follow this advice.\" He nearly gasped in shock at this words. Couldn\'t he control his big mouth? Here he was about to be fucked by his arch enemy and crazy world dominator and he had no better thing to do than to insult him? But Harry once again surprised him. He laughed. Squeezing Draco\'s hand he answered \"And you ask why I want to keep you.\" Joyful green eyes looked at him \"You make it all real, you stop me from getting a swollen head..\" He looked down at himself and added grinning \"Well at least one of them\"

At this Draco couldn\'t help himself but blush. His pale complexion be damned he thought, as a pink hue fell over his face. Though it seemed to delight Harry even more as he stopped and laid his palm against the blonde\'s glowing cheek, dreamily he murmured \"Lovely, you are such a beautiful creature Draco. Everybody in this school wants you.\" The green fire reappeared and he said \"But you are mine. For at least tonight you\'re only mine.\" He pressed his mouth harshly onto the stunned blonde\'s and then proceeded to lead him through the dark Hogwarts corridors.



tbc in the smutty part

once I have enough courage to do it

sorry!!