Past is Past

Past Is Past


It was a late autumn night;already after Hogwarts School Of Witchcraft And Wizardry\'s curfew. Harry was outside

on the quidditch field. If he was caught serious action would be placed,but he didn\'t care,he needed the practice.

As he landed on the ground, someone grabbed him from behind. He tried to scream but a silencing charm had already

been placed. Suddenly the stranger had forced Harry to the ground. Ripping his bottoms and pants off, the mystery

man,because Harry could now tell that this was obviously a male, pushed his cock,because there was no romance to this,

into Harry. With the pain and fear this horrendous act caused.Harry was laying barely conscious on the ground.

Hours later when he awoke in a dazed state. Opening his eyes, he saw Profs. Dumbledore, McGonagall, and to his

horror, although he should be use to it by now, Snape.

\"Where am I?\" was all he could ask.

\"You are, my boy, in the infirmary.\" Prof. Dumbledore said, all the twinkle from his blue eyes gone.

\"Why? What happened?\"

\"Well, Harry, I\'ll be blunt. It appears you were raped. It is also believed to have been someone in this school.\"

Dumbledore said scornfully.

All Harry could do was hang his head down low, refusing to meet eyes with anyone. Then remembering that Prof.Snape

was there he jerked his head up and asked angrily,\"What is he doing here?\"

\"Well this next part has to do with him. Since it was someone in this building, we feel it safer if you have some

protection.Now, if you don\'t understand, Prof. Snape will be your protector. You will dorm with him at night and

except to and from classes, since there will be a large crowd be with him in the day.\"

\"What?\" Harry fumed.

\"Harry, you\'re in a delicate state right now.\"

\"What the hell do you mean?\"

\"Well... Harry... you\'re pregnant!\"

\"Wait a minute, you did not just say I\'m pregnant!\" When no one said anything, Harry said \"Please tell me I\'m not

pregnant.\"

\"I\'m sorry.\" Prof. Dumbledore said.

\"How the hell can I be pregnant!\" When Snape opened his mouth to retort, Harry stated, \"Never mind, I don\'t think

I even want to know.\"

\"Well Harry I need to explain this to you. It has been told that every lifetime there is one male that can conceive

and birth children. This male will be the strongest wizard of his time period. It will be unknown to all until he

reveals this ability. Until now most believed this to be a myth.\"

\"I\'m going to murder Hermione, yeah \'Men should feel the pain women have to\' she will pay for those words.\"

\"Well since your feeling better Prof. Snape will escort you to your new sleeping quarters.\" With those words everyone

except Snape left the room.

\"Damn,nine months of fuckin bliss.\"

\"Here put your clothes on.\" Snape growled. Harry tried but was still exhausted and could barely lift his head.

Finally after watching him struggle for a few minutes. Snape walked back to the bed. Quickly taking Harry\'s clothes

from him. Throwing the blankets off, Harry lay there trying to cover his body. Snape stared in disbelief,unable to

take his eyes off Harry\'s naked form. But soon he wasable to snap out of his glare and dressed the younger man.

All the way to the dormatory Snape carried him. By the time they arrived at the older man\'s rooms, Harry had fallen

asleep in his arms. In an unthought out decision Snape lay him down on the only bed in the room. He turned around

and changed out of his day clothes and slipped into the bed with him. Both were soon asleep peacefully.

The next day, Harry awoke in disbelief. As he turned around he saw Snape laying, obviously, naked beside him.

The thought that came next awoke his muscle with a small twitch. Then his memories came flooding back in the form of

tears. Unable to stop them, Harry decided to just allow them to flow. Between gasps he muttered, \"Why? Why does it have to be me?\"

\"What\'s wrong?\"

\"Last night... why?\"

\"I\'m sorry\" Snape whispered as though he\'d done it. As he said this, he pulled Harry close to him. Harry gasped as Snape\'s hardness

touched his leg. Snape turned away in embarrassment. Harry looked down in shame, but felt Snape\'s eyes on him. Looking up he

saw a fire in his teacher\'s eyes, he felt the same in his.

\"How... how am I going to get through this?\"

\"You will, Harry, you will.\"

\"What are the symptoms, how is this going to feel?\"

\"There are a lot of symptoms: one of the first is morning sickness, this usually begins in the first few weeks; you will probably get

odd likes and dislikes of food, pickles and ice cream are well known; your breasts will get sore, or well your nipples; by your third

month your pregnancy will have begun to show.\" Harry moaned lowly.

\"The second trimester: you will grow considerably larger, you will begin to get extremly tired much easier and the soreness in

your body will grow and be more intense. Your morning sickness will start ebbing away.\"

Harry muttered uncomprehensibly, Severus kindly ignored what he figured to be vulgar.

\"The third trimester,\" Severus again spoke in his teacher mode. \"You\'ll obviously be extremely tired, your whole body will be sore

although it will be the worst in your back and neck, your feet will probably be swollen and of course you\'ll have mild to moderate cramps.\"

\"What about when I... give birth ?\" Harry asked craving information on what his life will be like for almost the next year.

\"From what I understand it will start with cramps. At first it will be mild then escalate. When you are ready, or when your body\'s ready

is more like it, you will be forced to push the child out. As it usually happens with women the child would come out of the vagina as with you

the child will come from the anal cavity.\" Severus watched as Harry flinched. The older man had keep in check to stop himself from smirking

that trademark smirk. \'I really have to keep myself from getting angry with him, he\'s in a delicate state.\'

Harry snuggled against him, allowing tears to drop down his face, \"Harry I don\'t think\"

\"Please just hold me Sir.\" Harry pleaded. Instincts surrounded Severusand he drapped his arms around Harry. \'I think I\'m falling for him.\' the

gaurdian thought.

\"Don\'t call me that or Snape or anything like that, at least in here. Just call me Severus.\"

\"Thank you... Severus.\"

Within a few weeks Severus awoke to Harry\'s dry-heaves in the bathroom.

\'Right on time.\' thought Severus.

As Harry re-entered the bedroom, his face flushed and his expression was down and his entire body was shacking.

\"Maybe you should stay here today.\"

\"I\'ll be fine. Although I\'m not going anywhere near breakfast today, even the thought makes me sick.\"

\"I\'ll stay here with you, if I went up there Dumbledore would have my head.\" he said with a slight smile.

Harry couldn\'t help but smile at that comment and the truth to it.

For the next few months the symptoms flared up more. Snape was very protetive and seemed to follow him everywhere. But Harry didn\'t

mind, they were becoming very close to one another. They knew each others past and wants for the future. Ron and Hermione still had

no idea what had actually happened the story Harry had told them was that someone had attacked him one night and the

Headmaster wanted Snape to watch him closley. All Ron said was, \"Better you then me but tough break\" and Hermione had said, \"Well if

Dumbledore thought of it, it must be a good idea.\" But Harry was nearing on three months and some were becoming suspicious.

\"Severus\"

\"Mhh....\"

\"People are asking questions.\"

\"Like what?\"

\"Why I\'m sick in the morning, why I\'m never in the common room, what actually happened that night, and why I\'ve gained so much weight.\"

\"And....\"

\"What should I say to them?\"

\"Well it depends on how much you want them to know. If your talking about Mr. Weasley and Miss Granger you could tell them anything and

everything; if it\'s Mr. Malfoy you should tell him to go to hell.\" Snape said as if the question were as simple as should I turn the light on.

\"Thanks\" Harry said in a jokingly sarcastic voice.

\"Anytime\" Severus retorted equally rude.

During lunch one day Ron blurted out, \"Why are you only around during meals and classes?\"

\"Hushh...\" Hermione hissed. \"Harry we are beginning to worry about you.You\'re not eating too good, you\'re never around, and well you

gaining a lot of weight.

\"Okay I\'m going to tell you giys something but you can\'t tell anyone. Understand?\" Both just nodded. \"Well I\'ve been staying with Snape for a

long time now. It was Dumbledore\'s idea but Snape is actually pretty funny and nice, usually. We can relate in history when we try.\" Hermione

looked surprised and Ron just looked disquisted.

\"Why I haven\'t eaten is well to be blunted the thought makes me sick. I usually eat at night, the only time my stomach let\'s me keep it down.

And with the weight gain... I\'m pregnant.\"

\"What?\" Ron and Hermione asked quietly and in unison.

As Harry explained what the Headmastor had told him, his friends eyes grew to the size of flying saucers. When he finished they just continued

to stare at him until Ron broke the silence with, \"Bloody hell.\"

\"But how-who-when?\"

\"I was raped, we don\'t know who it is yet, that\'s why Sev-snape is keeping an eye on me. All we know is it was someone in this school and no

it was not Snape Ron!\"

\"We\'ll always be there.\" Hermione whispered.

\"Thanks\" Harry said to both his friends, he could tell Ron was thinking the same thing when he looked into his friend\'s eyes.

Over another long three months, Harry grew largeenough for most to notice. Now whenever someone asked all he told them was, \" He was

pregnant and the myth that says only the strongest of wizard\'s could bear a child. Then he told them not to push his buttons because

being the strongest male and having hormones and emotions flying high didn\'t equal very well.\"

Late one night Harry sat alone crying. Severus walked into the room and sat beside him.

\"What\'s wrong?\"

\"Just thinking.\"

\"Looks more like your crying to me, but about what?\"

\"How it felt when he raped me.\"

\"How did it feel?\"

\"I was so scared, but my body kept reacting no matter how much i didn\'t want it to.\" Harry sobbed.

\"It was a natural reaction, it happens to everyone no matter how much you want it to or not to react.\"

\"No it was more than that, it was a feeling in me like that is what I truely want.\" Harry whispered. \"It was like it was telling me that this was

better than any women would be every.\"

\"I understand.\"

\"No you don\'t I think I\'m gay.\"

\"Harry I understand... I understand because I am also closer toward that preference.\"

\"You\'re gay?\" Severus only nodded. \"How did you learn you were gay?\"

\"I always knew inside, I\'m sorry you were forced to learn the hard way. But it will get easier on you I\'m not saying the wizarding world never

looks down on those with more exotic interests, but there seem to be less prejudice people then in the muggle community.\"

\"Severus\" the older man could only look in his eyes. \"Kiss me.\"

\"Harry we shouldn\'t, I can\'t.\"

Suddenly his voice was gone as Harry pressed his lips against Severus\'. Severus could only groanand jerk his hips forward. Then finding

a window of clarity in his mind of fog. He pushed Harry away. \"no\" he sputtered. \"This is wrong, it shouldn\'t happen. You\'re a kid, a student

and my charge no less.\"

\"I may be a student but I\'m not a child. I\'m going to give birth to a baby no less.

\"Harry it\'s wrong\"

\"Nothing is wrong not if it feels so right.\" Harry had tears streaming down his cheeks. \"And I want this don\'t you? Or is just because I\'m THE-BOY-

WHO-BLOODY-JUST-WON\'T-DIE.

\"It has nothing to do with you or me, it has everything to do with soiety.\"

\"The public isn\'t for gays but does that change you no, it doesn\'t change me.\"

\"Harry I\'m sorry.\" Severus whispered as he walked into his bedroom and went to sleep. Harry sat down on the couch again and cried himself

to sleep.

Early on Sunday, Severus walked into the common room in nothing but a pair of old boxers.\"Harry\" he whispered softly.

Harry jumped startled. \"Yes\" he asked looking up at Severus and a deep moan escaped his lips at seeing the older man in nothing but those thin

boxers.

\"Last night was all I could think of... you\'re right what\'s right is right no matter what society thinks of it. I lov-v-, I can\'t say it just yet, I\'ve been

hurt by many. Including your father.\"

\"My dad, I don\'t care what has past has past, the past doesn\'t matter, the future is to long to worry, and now is where we live.

\"You\'re much smarter then I\'ve ever given you redit for. Harry I want you.\"

\"Take me\" was all Harry said before their lips connected. As they lay on the couch, Harry pulled Severus on top of him. Seveus strattled Harry\'s

waist and continued to attack his lips, and devour the young man\'s body. A long groan seeped through Severus\' lips when Harry bucked forward.

Severus continued to move down Harry\'s body, he lightly sweeped across his chest, sunctioning a nipple and lightly chewing and nibbling and

licking. He took the other nipple in his hand, kneading it softly. Harry wanted to please his lover but could do nothing but scratch the man\'s

back.

Severus reached Harry\'s face again, kissing him deeply, their tongues battling for control, Quickly Severus ended the kiss and began to move

down the body again. Teasing every inch as he moved down.When he arrived at the theigh, he kissed the inner section passionatly. Harry\'s

body twitched in the heat of passion. Suddenly his manhood was engulfed in wetness and heat. As Severus suckled, the other man released

a loud, shaky moan. Unable to control himself, Harry expelled his juices hard and into Severus\' mouth.

Kissing his lips, caused Harry to stiffen quickly, once he caught his breath. Severus looked into Harry\'s eyes, \"This is going to hurt a little.\"

Then Harry felt unspeakable pressure as the other man pressed a finger into his opening. Once his face became relaxed, a second finger was inserted

this time Severus had to tell him to relax a few times before he could. When the third finger was pushed in Harry was relaxed enough to allow

entry easily.

Once Severus felt that Harry was ready, he positioned himself and pushed in slowly. When he was in as far as he could go, he began pumping in

and out, until he couldn\'t hold it in any longer and he emptyied his seed into Harry.

As they lay there together, Harry whispered, \"I love you, Severus.\"

\"And I, you Harry.\"

Although the pregnancy was, in and of itself, torture; Harry was able to deal with it easier then before. The main reason was because he knew

there would be someone else to help him. It was in his eighth month that he decided to tell his friends that he was in love with Severus.

\"Hey we need to talk.\" the pregnant boy said to his friends.

\"What is it?\" Ron asked worriedly.

\"Well I\'ve fallen in love.\"

\"With who?\"

\"Well... with Severus.\"

\"Snape blooy hell.\" Ron practically yelled. \"How?\"

He\'s been there for me and it just kind of happened.

\"Harry we\'ll accept you no matter what but it is a big thing to try and digest at once.\"

\"It\'s okay. I know, believe me.\"

By the end of that month, Severus had refused to allow Harry out of the dungeons, and he refused to leave his side. Severus stated it was

because Albus would murder him, or at least that\'s what he told the rest of the school. Harry knew it was a lie, Ron and Hermione thought it was a

lie but they couldn\'t be positive. Then the big day finally arrived.

When Harry looked at Severus that morning all he said was \"I think it\'s time.\"

Only minutes getting to the hospital wing, Harry had his first major contraction.

\"God damnit,\" he yelled. \"Make it stop,\'\'

\"It hurts doesn\'t it, it\'ll be okay. Just ride it through.\"

\"Ride it through, ride it through. I\'d take a battle for my life over this right now. Mother-\"

\"Harry!\" Poppey exclaimed.

Almost an hour later, \"Well one more push should do it.\"

Soon after Madam Pomfrey brought in a clean and healthy baby girl, Severus and Harry just stared at the baby with grins splashed across their

faces. As they looked into their daughter\'s face, they saw bright emerald eyes and a headful of flat silky-looking jet black hair. While the new

mother looked into the father\'s eye\'s he saw deep, empty, black eyes. All the man could do was look down at the ground.

Grabbing Severus\' arm, Harry, looking into his eyes, whispered \"The past is past.\" Severus stepped closer, viewing their new baby girl and truly

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