Remembering

*~ Remembering ~*
By Firestar


\"Professor?\"

\"Yes, Potter?\"

\"Thank you, sir.\"

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Those words. Those three little words of gratitude melted my heart completely. And that was where it all started. It was then, as you flashed me a grateful smile, that I began realizing my feelings for you.

You. Harry Potter, the Boy Who Lived, Savior of the Wizarding World. The boy I hated because you were the son of my nemesis. All that changed with those three words.

I can remember the feeling your sensual lips against mine as if it was yesterday. You, standing in front of me, naked and aroused.


~*~


Severus gasped as he looked up, seeing Harry standing in front of him. The boy\'s body was amazing. The firm chest was beautiful and smooth, golden and well-toned from your time in the sunlight. Arms and legs were muscular, but not overly so. The young man\'s hair was trousled as if he\'d just waken up, tufts of hair just above the groin. The fully erect penis stood, protruding in front of the beautiful body. But it was the look in his eyes that melted the Potions Master completely. He could see the raw desire and longing blazing in those expressive emerald orbs.

The next thing he knew, Harry was pressed up against him. A pair of eager lips crushed his own, tongues battling together. Severus, feeling the arousal pressed against his hips, groaned deeply as the younger man took this chance to explore his mouth even further. The Potions Master\'s hands wrapped themselves around Harry, caressing the smooth, unmarred skin.

As they parted for breath, Harry began unbuttoning Severus\' robes, fingers working nimbly. He closed his mouth around Severus\' nipple, sucking gently, licking and biting. He smiled slightly when he heard Severus gasp in pleasure.

Next, he sank to the ground onto his knees and unzipped Severus\' trousers. The pants came of easily and he turned to the silk black boxers. He began to pull, tugging gently at the waist band.

Severus had already been feeling aroused when Harry had started kissing him, but when the younger man knelt in front of him and began pulling off his boxers with his leaking erection straight in front of him, Severus felt himself harden even more. He had never seen anything so arousing in his whole life.

Harry pulled off the boxers, cock twitching as inch by inch, the delicious body showed itself. His intake of breath could be heard when the underwear came off, revealing Severus\' erection. Unable to resist himself, he wrapped his hands around the smooth and hard shaft, running his finger up and down. Hearing Severus moan, he looked up. \"I-- I want to see you touch yourself, Severus.\" Leaning down, he reached out and took the older wizard\'s hand, heading towards the tip of the purple head.

Severus whimpered as he felt his hand closing around himself, Harry\'s hand guiding him all the time. He felt the pressure inside of him build up, gathering at his groin as he stroke himself, setting a rythme. He found himself rocking back and forth, gasping in pleasure. He felt as if he was about to come at any moment.

However, Harry had other plans. Pulling Severus\' hand away from the man\'s penis, he paused. Balling the man\'s hand into a fist, he straightened out the index finger. Then, guiding Severus, he led the finger towards Severus\' tight opening.

Severus let out a groan as he felt his own finger at his entrance. He bent down until he was squatting, feeling Harry pushing his hand in. He caressed himself, crying out in 11pleasure as he felt his finger embedded deep inside of him. He stroke harder and harder, moving his hand around in circles, rubbing against himself until his hole gaping open. Still, he continued, pushing in a second finger. By then, his legs felt weak with pleasure.

\"Harry, I-- Merlin! Oh God, please!\"

He felt himself tighten as he cried out, sticky white liquid splashing into his hand and stomach. He felt his lover\'s arms around him as he released like he had never done before, almost blacking out from the intensity. Finally, he seen finished, collapsing bonelessly. Harry lifted his hand and smiled. What he did was what Severus thought to be the most arousing thing he had seen in his life. The younger man brought the hand to him mouth and began licking his fingers.

\"Do you have a bedroom?\'

The single voice brought shivers to his back, causing his cock to stirr again. Without a word, Severus turned and guided the younger man towards the bedroom.


~*~

And from that day on, you were mine. After the first time, I felt as if we were meant for each other, that destiny and fate had driven us together. If I close my eyes, I can imagine for a second that you are still alive.

But that dream is dashed as soon as I reopen my eyes. Tears well up in my eyes as I see you lying there, so pale, so still, so lifeless. I can not stand seeing you like this.

Sobs shake my body as I think about you. You were the one who brought me out of my depression, the one who granted me life. You were the one who taught me how to live, to love-- You were the one who convinced me I was deserving of love. You were the one who set me free from my burdens, but I have failed you.


~*~


Water splashed around him as Severus watched Harry. The younger boy dived into the water before swimming over. Without warning, the Potions Master was dunked into the water.

\"HEY!\" Severus gave an indignant shout as he chased after Harry, a rare grin on his face.


~*~


Do you remember when we first went swimming? I can still remember the way you smiled at me as if it had been yesterday. The way you dived, the way your grin lit me up. And to think that was all year ago.

My heart clenches as I remember, my memories running havoc in my mind. Watching you go to sleep as you lay on our bed, eyes closed, chest rising with each breath. Hearing your melodious laughter as you wake me up, your beautiful voice as you hold me. In a way, I could never understand: how you, the one who saw so much horror, so much darkness, can be still so innocent, so pure. Despite all you\'ve seen, all you\'ve had to go through, you can still be so effortlessly good.

You allowed me to get to know you. And I fell in love with the real you, the kind-hearted, beautiful boy who was so full of love. You were the best thing that\'s ever happened to me in my life. You made me happy like no others could, you made my life worthwhile. God, Harry, I miss you so much. How I wish you would wake up, how I long to hear your laughter again.

As I think these thoughts, my heart breaks with regret and sorrow. This is all my fault. If it hadn\'t been for me, you would still have been alive. If I didn\'t exist, you would still be there. I should have tried harder. I should have saved you.


~*~



It was during breakfast when suddenly, the alarm bells went off. Voldemort and his Death Eaters had broken into Hogwarts. Students panicked as teachers tried to console them, praying that they would reach the common rooms in time.

They never made it.

On the way, in the middle of the halll, stood Voldemort, his Death Eaters gathered in a crowd around him. Hexes and spells flew everywhere as chaos insured. Sevenths years fought side by side with the teachers as sixth years tried to bring the younger children to safety.

There was a sudden flash as Harry appeared out of nowhere, right in front of Voldemort. Before the Dark Lord could say a word, he raised his wand and screamed out a spell.

\"Eradico abolesco mentis corporis animus!\"

A silver beam erupted from Harry\'s wand, shooting towards the Dark Lord. Voldemort tried to bring up a shield, but it didn\'t work. Next thing everyone knew, the Dark Lord had fallen.

As the corpse of Voldemort dropped to the ground, Harry too collapsed. Severus, seeing this, immediately rushed forward, catching his love.

\"SEVERUS!\"

At the voice screaming his name, he turned, just in time to see an emerald beam coming out of Bellatrix Lestrange\'s wand, heading straight towards him. He seemed almost frozen as the curse came closer and closer. He closed his eyes, waiting.

The next thing he knew, a heavy weight threw itself onto him. Severus\' eyes snapped open as he saw Harry\'s body shielding him. Mentally screaming, he tried to push the child off of him. The curse came ever nearer.

It was too late. The curse connected with Harry\'s shoulders and the boy fell to the ground, still as stone.

Everything after that fell was a blur. Severus could only remember cradling his lover\'s body to him as screams rang through the air. The hugged the boy close as darkness claimed him.


~*~



Tears fell freely as I recalled the painful memory. When I woke up, I had found myself in the Hospital Wing. And by the grave looks on everyone\'s faces, I knew it was true. Harry was dead.

Why? Why did this have to happen? If I could switch out positions right now, I would do it in a heartbeat. God, Harry, I can\'t do this. I can\'t live without you. You were my life, my joy, my reason of being... What shall I do now that you\'re gone? I loved you more than I loved life itself... I can\'t do this, Harry.

I can almost hear your voice. You would tell me to be strong, to live on, and not to blame myself... But I can\'t do it. You were everything to me, Harry. And because of me, you died. Why did you have to jump in front of me, Harry, why? Why couldn\'t you have just let me die?

You were the only one who understood me. The only one who I could relax around and be myself. You gave me love and acceptance when no one else did, you were the one who comforted me after my nightmares. You were the one who showed me trust. And you were the only one I truly loved.

I lift you up, holding you against my chest. As I look down at you, tears overwhelm me once again. I pull you towards me, planting a final kiss against your lips. A kiss of love, of sorrow. A kiss of goodbye. I look into your beautiful face one last time, capturing you in my mind. My thoughts goes to the day in the future that I could finally rest. The day we could be together again. Until then, I would live. Live and wait, like you would have wanted me to.

Goodbye, Harry. Remember that I love you.

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