You\'re Still My Man

discalimer: not mine, all the characters belong to jkrowling


When they entered the restaurant Harry was more than aware of the fact that his heart was attempting to leave his body by flying out of his throat. Because there he was. The man he loved. The man who maybe just maybe loved him back. The man who was there in his life and in his heart for over a year and the man who left him just before the “final battle”.ius ius Malfoy.
Harry preferred to entertain the idea that Lucius left him in order to protect him because it hurt and hurt a lot to watch him go. But now the war was over and they both made it out alive. It was the first time that Harry met the man since they broke up and he knew that no matter how much time would pass he would never get over Lucius and so there was only one way of actions — bring him back to his life. Because now there could be no more excuses. Maybe just one…and Harry’s heart stopped. What if Lucius didn’t love him after all? But it was impossible…no…possible of course, but it was impossible to handle that thought and Harry’s heart obstinately refused to believe it.
They set down. Harry was now surrounded by the horde of the Weasleys who all came to celebrate Ron and Hermione’s engagement. He looked around. Everyone was happy. Everyone but him. How typical. Harry sighed.


On the other side of the room Lucius Malfoy was attacked by the very same thoughts. Now that the war was over they could be together again. No more excuses. Because Lucius treasured every minute every second of the year Harry and he spent together. As rare as they were they always managed to make it up for the lost time. No more excuses this time. Because Lucius cared too much for Harry and no matter how hard it was for him to leave, no matter how much pain it caused him to look into those beautiful emerald eyes when he said that it was over it was better than to be the cause of even more danger. And so he left. And now Lucius wanted it all back. He wanted his Harry back. Back in his life. Back in his arms. He wanted those arms wrapping themselves around his neck, wanted those lips caressing his lips, wanted to feel Harry snuggling into him, nuzzling him and asking him to never let go. But one unstoppable and persistent question was nagging him in the back of his mind. Does Harry want it all again? What if he doesn’t love him any more? Because there was no outward indication of acknowledgement on Harry’s part when he entered and spotted Lucius. But than again Harry was now very good at mastering his features so that no emotions could be traced and who but Lucius should know it better as long as he was the one who gave him the precious lessons on self control. And boy was Harry a gifted student.
Lucius looked around. He looked at his son who was currently almost occupying the lap of his former Potions professor and now his lover. Everyone was happy. Everyone but him. How typical. Lucius sighed. If he wanted Harry he had to do something about it. Just at that very moment of ultimate truth there was a commotion and the next thing he saw was his Harry in the spotlight on the stage. What the hell was he going to do? The determined look that was thrown his way made Lucius more than just a little nervous because he knew that whatever it was going to be it was going to do with him.


“Whatever Lucius may think he is still my man,” thought Harry. “And I will let him know just how much he is my man right now. And then it will be his turn to decide whether he wants me or not.” With that he stood up and headed towards the stage that was occupied by some music band not sparing a glance at his companions. It was time to claim his own happiness. He needed to know if Lucius loved him and there was only one way to find out. So Harry braced himself and gracefully placed himself in the center of the stage. Come what may and if Lucius didn’t love him…wel was was already planning his early demise.
People were eyeing him curiously waiting for some sort of announcement so no one was prepared to hear him sing. Harry kthatthat he had a very good voice though tender it was it possessed strength and it was just what he needed to convince Lucius of his love. Breath caught in their throats, eyes wide in fascination people all around listened to Harry in rapt silence. But among all the eyes there was only one pair that Harry needed the most. Steel gray ones. He locked his green eyes with them and the declaration began.

On the day that you left me
You said you had no regrets
There’s a bond between us
That hasn’t been broken yet
And the feelings between us
Will never disappear
How can you be far away?
When your spirits here

Harry smiled and Lucius’ heart melted.

You’re still my man
Nothing can change it
We still belong together
You’re still my man
Nothing can change it
Our love will last forever

Lucius sighed in relief. Harry still loved him and wanted to be with him. Now that the worries were over he could give himself into the alluring sounds of his soon-to-be-again-lover’s voice. Harry released his breath. Lucius was his. He knew it. He saw it in his eyes. And so he continued.

And the seasons of our love
Will always change I know
Maybe that’s the reason
You felt you had to go
But soon you’ll be missing me
Darling I know you well (Harry smirked and Lucius knew only too well)
There’s a magic we share together
And no one can break that spell

You’re still my man
Nothing can change it
We still belong together
You’re still my man
Nothing can change it
Our love will last forever

I’ll wait for you
The thought that keeps me going each day
Is I believe you still love me
I love you more than words can say

You’re still my man
Nothing is gonna change it
Don’t you know?
You wanna know we belong together
You’re still my man
Nothing can change it
Oh baby, oh darling
You’re in my heart forever
Cause you’re my man

There was nothing more he needed to know. He stood up and started making his way through the gaping crowd. Now not only Harry’s but also his figure was drawing attention. No one knew what the hell was going on. Why was Harry Potter singing a song addressed to Lucius Malfoy and why was Lucius Malfoy walking towards Harry Potter? Now Lucius was standing a few inches away from Harry his hands slowly finding their way around Harry’s waist. The whole restaurant froze. With the last final note Harry finished the song and leaned forward. Grinning widely he said:
“It took you long.” “Oh, shut up,” said Lucius as he attacked Harry’s mouth. Soon Harry’s legs were placed around Lucius waist and months of separation were pourin ain and out of them to the shocked silence of the audience. The time was lost upon them but the need to breathe eventually caught up with them. Lips swollen and eyes happy Harry snuggled into the warm embrace that Lucius was only too happy to provide and whispered: “Take me home, love.” “Oh, kitten, I will.”
And with that they were gone.


***
The Wizarding World was in uproar while Harry Potter and Lucius Malfoy were lounging on a huge bed of Malfoy Manor. Owls had quite a busy day too. The news exploded like a bomb and no one had any proofs whatsoever because the two of them vanished in a blink of an eye and many eyewitnesses thought that they really imagined it because why would Harry Potter and Lucius Malfoy kiss in front of the whole restaurant? No one really knew that they had quite a very good reason to. Now that Harry was securely ensconced in Lucius\' strong arms there was nothing he needed. He knew that he would be happy just as everybody else. He nuzzled the older wizard\'s neck:

\"Luc, you won\'t leave will you?\"

\"I\'m sorry love I had to do it. But I thought I was protecting you.\"

\"Don\'t leave me. I don\'t want to be alone. And I want to have someone for myself too.\"

\"Deal, love.\"

\"Shall we seal it?\"

\"As strong as ever.\"

\"Stronger, Luc, so much stronger this time. I won\'t let you go. You are mine.\"

And with that they pressed the palms of their right hands together and on the back of their hands small intricate letters appeared. The both of them were sporting each other\'s initials and now that they were together again the letters burst into millions of tiny sparks igniting the passion and love that was always burning inside of their hearts.

***

It all started on a rainy June day when Harry went through the barrier at King\'s Cross Station and was waiting for his relatives to pick him up and to lock him at home for the summer as usual. That is why Harry was in exceptionally bad mood brooding over the unfairness of it all. He sat down on the bench and waited but his reles oes obviously weren\'t in a hurry. Not that it surprised him. Suddenly a shadow appeared in front of him and Harry lifted his head up to see who the intruder was. Lucius Malfoy was standing in front of him smirking. Lucius Malfoy right. Harry wasn\'t one bit surprised when the news that he managed to make his way out of Azcaban reached him. He never really doubted the fact that he wouldn\'t stay there for long. But Harry was still mourning over Sirius\' death to be preoccupied with the Malfoy family. However now Lucius Malfoy was standing in front of him and Harry was getting really annoyed by his supercilious and conceited expression.

\"Is there anything I can help you with Mr. Malfoy?\" he asked in a politely bored voice.

\"Famous Harry Potter sitting alone on the bench waiting for a bunch of muggles to pick him up?\" sneered Malfoy senior.

\"Well as long as your wife\'s sister murdered my godfather there\'s no one left for me to wait for really. You should know it better than anyone else after all you were there too.\" answered Harry with as little emotions as he could wondering at his own self-control and at how simple it was to talk about Sirius now that he dealt with his death.

\"Indeed.\" said Lucius simply and sat beside Harry.

Harry turned to look at him with undisguised astonishment.

\"Is this some kind of plan of your Dark Lord? Are you going to take me to him?\"

Lucius chuckled. The sound that made Harry\'s eyebrows lose in his hair and his eyes pop out.

\"No. I believe there are other places I\'d rather take you to.\"

\"Which are?\"

\"A hotel for one.\"

\"A hotel?\"

\"Yes.\"

\"I\'m a minor you know.\"

\"Not in the wizarding world you are not.\"

\"I\'m a virgin.\"

\"I\'m sure I\'ll be able to change it.\"

\"Ok. But no Voldemort.\"

One more chuckle.

\"I don\'t think I would like to have him there. Give me your hand Mr. Potter.\"

And with that Lucius Malfoy apparated them both as he promised to a hotel. A luxurious hotel. But really Harry wouldn\'t have expected something less perfect from a Malfoy. Though why he was expecting something from Lucius Malfoy or why he was going with him Harry couldn\'t quite understand. He just felt that he needed an outlet for his emotions and he decided that losing virginity to Lucius Malfoyld tld take his mind of other nagging thoughts. He briefly wondered what Sirius would think if he only knew what he agreed to but quickly banished that thought and gave in the pleasure.

It wasn\'t the last time that they met. After the first time the two parties were quite satisfied with the results and decided to meet once a week. So Lucius would always pick up Harry in a limo and they would start their interaction right there and eventually continue it in the hotel.

Neither one of them knew how exactly their desire to just have sex mingled with feelings of affection and later on love but by the end of summer holidays both wizards realized that they were deeply in love with each other and that there was no turning point.

So they continued their encounters with Lucius sneaking inside of Hogwarts. It was the best time for Harry. He couldn\'t believe it when the elder wizard actually confd hid his feelings for him and they made those little tattoos on the back of their hands. Every time they pressed their hands together the tattoos sparkled and it always made them smile.

The war was raging on and soon enough Harry would have to face Voldemort at last. Thanks to Lucius and to his professors Harry was now quite a skilled and powerful wizard and along with the powers Voldemort would never have Harry could hope that he would come out of the battle alive. But when he saw Lucius\' face one night after mind-blowing sex thas fas filled with kind of desperation Harry knew that it was over, Harry knew that those sensations he felt because that was how Lucius was saying good-bye. Harry sprang to his feet and clutched at Lucius\' robes with pleas tearing his throat.

\"Oh no, Luc, don\'t. You can\'t do this to me. Why now? I thought everything was going fine.\"

\"Shh, Harry. You know I have to go. It was good till it lasted but we both knew that we were playing with fire and one day it would have to end.\"

\"No, no, no. You can\'t leave me now. How am I going to do it without your help and support? What am I going to do without you?\" asked Harry in a trembling voice while tears started spilling from his huge pain filled eyes.

\"Harry, calm down. I will be there. You know that. But now I have to go.\"

Lucius untangled himself from Harry. Kissed him on the lips and went away. Harry fell on the floor folding his arms around his knees.

\"You said you loved me.\"saidsaid in a hoarse whisper.

\"I do.\" said Lucius outside the door.

***

\"What\'s wrong love?\"

\"Nothing.\"

Than why are your eyes wet?\"

\"I\'ve just remembered the day you left me.\"

\"Forget it. It won\'t happen ever again.\"

\"Can you repeat it once more?\"

\"I will always be with you. I will never leave you. I am your man. Harry I love you.\"

\"That was nice. Mm… maybe one more time?\"

\"I have a better .\"
.\"

Lucius captured Harry\'s lips and made it his business to never let them go.


A/N: too sappy? please tell me what you think!