For the Last Time

\"He\'s not James!\"

The hurtful words echoed in Sirus\' ears as he laid on his bed. Reaching under his pillow, he produced a smiling photo of James. Sirus smiled back at him, tears shining in his eyes. Laying back on his bed, he closed his eyes and thought back to the last time he and James were together.

\"I\'m going to ask her tomorrow.\" Beamed James as he sat across from Sirus. They were in the Potter family kitchen. On the table, an open ring box sat, its contents glittering.

Sirus looked at the box heavily as if a poisonous snake sat in front of him. He had been expecting this for a while now. Lily had been all James talked about for a long time, and after she finally became his girlfriend around year 7, Sirus had seen less and less of James. He always knew he\'d loose James someday, he just wished it was to something other than a girl.

\"Well?\" James was standing in front of him, looking slightly puzzled. His voice snapping Sirus back into reality. \"Well what?\" came Sirus\' icy reply. He didn\'t know what James wanted him to say. Did he want some sort of permission? Or maybe he just wanted the truth. Sirus just continued to gaze at the ring coldly. \"Well what do you think?\" James said in a worried tone. Had he angered Sirus?

Sirus reached out and closed the box. He then stood and walked, silently, to his room upstairs. James followed after, taking the box and putting it in his coat pocket.

\"Sirus..I\'m sorry...I-I didn\'t mean to upset you...I-\"

\"I\'m not upset...\" Sirus said blankly as he laid on his bed looking at the ceiling. \"I\'m happy for you...\" His answer was not convincing. James laid down next to him, and stared at the ceiling as well, partly afraid to catch Sirus\' eye. \"I just wonder...what will become of us? All the years we\'ve spent together...Do we just throw that away now?\" Sirus said quietly. James\' hand touched Sirus\' gently, and they laid there silently, holding hands.

\"There will always be an us.\" said James, breaking the silence a few minutes later. \"I promise you that. I will always be here for you.\" Sirus sighed and James rolled on his side, wrapping his arm around him. Sirus in turn also rolled over and the two held each other closely.

Sirus ran his hand along James\' arm, and closed his eyes. He rested his head on James\' chest, and breathed in his smell. James stroked his back soothingly and pulled him to him, as close as he could. Sirus kept his eyes closed, wanting nothing more than to freeze time and never let go of this moment. James kissed him softly on the lips, and coaxed him out of his shirt.

Sirus layed on his back, eyes still closed, enjoying the soft touch of his lover. James kisses Sirus from neck to the waist of his trousers, then tugs at them gently, as if to silently asked \"May I?\" Sirus smiled gently, and nodded. And with that, he was disrobed. He listened to the soft rustle of clothing hitting the floor, and then felt the warmth of James\' skin against his.

A hand grazed lightly over Sirus\' thigh and he felt it move upward to his member and the warm sensation of James\' mouth as it enveloped the head and shaft. He sighed slightly as his member throbbed lightly in James\' mouth and he felt him trail his tounge along it\'s head. James listened to the sound of Sirus\' breathing. As it started to become more rapid, he slowed down, drawing out the moment, not wanting him to finish so soon. Sirus moved his hips softly, thrusting himself into James\' mouth until James stopped him.

Sirus opened his eyes and pouted, and James smiled at him before leaning down and gently kd hid him again. His lips warm and soft against Sirus\'.

\"If only this could last forever..\" Breathed Sirus as he felt James\' warm body press down upon his own. James neither nodded nor disagreed with his statement, only slid his arms around him, embracing him softly as he manuvered Sirus into him. James\' eyes fluttered at the sensation below, and Sirus waited for permission to move, enjoying the tightness around his sex. It was a few moments before James moved again, allowing Sirus to hold his hips and thrust into him slowly. His mouth clamping down on Sirus\', kissing him softly at first, but with more hunger as the pace quickened. Sirus broke the kiss, allowing a low moan to excape his lips. James bit his neck lightly. They were both already close and they knew it.

James clutched the bed sheets, wimpering slightly from the speed of Sirus\' thrust. Sirus dug his nails into James\' hips and they both came together. James\' wimpers became a moan and his body shuddered as he came across Sirus\' stomach and chest. Sirus continued thrusting as he came inside James. Their pace slowed, then stopped. Sirus withdrew and James laid down next to him, breathing heavily. They cuddled in each other\'s arms, Sirus running a hand though James\' sweaty hair. James looked into his lover\'s dark eyes and kissed him on the forehead. \"There will always be an us...\"

Sirus awoke with a start, the photo of James laying on his chest. still smiling, still waving. He touched the face of the photo James. A tear streaming down his cheek as he did. \"We\'ll see each other again...someday..\" He said, kissing the photo lightly before tucking it back under his pillow.