Snape's Obsession

Snape’s Obsession
chapter 9

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Three weeks. Valora had been in her new rooms for three weeks and it wasn’t as wonderful as Severus thought it would be. To have her so close and not be able to possess her was torture. Rubbing his forehead, Severus was trying to ignore the unwelcome swelling in his trousers, yet again. Valora came by his office every evening before going to bed to say good night, but they hadn’t been ……’intimate’ in all that time. The night she had stayed in his quarters was the last intimate contact they’d had. A stolen kiss or hug here and there was not enough. Severus sighed deeply and leaned back in his chair covering his eyes. Merlin help him, he felt more like a hormonal teenager, instead of the man approaching thirty he was. He was about to retrieve and take another dose of libido dampener, when he heard a soft knock on his door.

“Come in.” Severus said, adjusting his robes on his lap. Looking up he saw Valora come in and close the door behind her. She smiled, then walked over to stand in front of him.

“Good evening, Professor. I was just turning in.” Valora bent to sit in his lap. He made to stop her, but too late. She wriggled her hips, stimulating him and causing a moan to surface. “I take it you’re happy to see me.” She said in a breathy, but amused voice. Capturing his lips, she whimpered softly and deepened the kiss. Severus felt he might spend just from this small amount of long denied contact. Finally he had to break the kiss, then gently, but firmly he pushed Valora off his lap and stood.

“We have to stop.” The words coming out much sharper than he intended. He was surprised to see anger flash in Valora’s violet eyes.

“Why do we have to stop ? You obviously miss me. “ She said indicating the bulge still clearly visible in his pants. “Unless it isn’t me you were thinking about.” She spat out angrily, crossing her arms tightly under her breasts.

“Of course it was you I was thinking of, don’t be ridiculous.” He said as he was trying to adjust his length into a more comfortable position.

“Am I ridiculous ? “ She demanded. Obviously the wrong thing to say, thought Ses bes belatedly. “It has been weeks, Severus. I thought when you moved me down here we would see more of each other, not less. Have you changed your mind about us ?”

“No, I have not changed towards you.”

“Yes, you have !”

Severus let out a long slow breath and faced his bookcase, looking away from her. A veil of silky black hair hid his face from her.

“I no longer trust myself to be alone with you.” He said quietly. When he was met with silence, he braved a ge ine in her direction. He saw she was still angry, but her eyes had softened some.

“And what does that mean exactly ? You are no longer satisfied with me ?” She said, her voice cracking, giving away the pain she felt. Severus went to her and took her in his arms.

“Valora.” He said in a husky voice. “I love you more than ever.” She sighed against his chest, hugging him tightly.

“Then I don’t understand, Severus.”

“You are the first woman I have ever loved. I want to be with you …… completely,” She looked up into his eyes. “but I will not break my promise. We must wait.” Severus said hugging her close and sighing. “Perhaps we could plan to spend the day together. Saturday maybe. Doing anything you like reading, playing chess, talking. Just nothing ….. sexual. I want to learn more about you.” Valora searched his eyes briefly.

“I would like that. You could tell me about this other life you lead.” She said, her face full of innocent curiosity. Severus stiffened, a frown coming to his face, fear gripping his heart. “Severus?”

“I am not certain I am prepared to talk about that yet.” He said. He couldn’t lie to her and tell her ‘oh it was nothing really’. Not when he had been a Death Eater. Not when he had willingly taken the dark mark, sought it out in fact. Not after all the atrocities he had not only been witness to, but participated in.

Severus released her and walked away, his hands now shaking. He ran his hand through his hair facing away from her. He didn’t want her to see just how rattled he felt. He felt hands on his back, rubbing him lovingly. Valora stood before him and made him look at her. Stroking his cheek, she searched his eyes again.

“You don’t have to be afraid to tell me anything. I love you, Severus. Nothing will change that.” She put her arms around him, hugging him tightly. “But if you don’t want to talk about it, that’s fine with me. I just want to be with you.” He breathed a sigh of relief.

“Saturday, then ? Come to my chambers after breakfast.” He said. Valora nodded, then pulled his head down and kissed him again before she left.

Severus sat down behind his desk again, still feeling a bit shaky. She has a right to know, his conscious told him. If you are to be her first man, does she not have a right to know who that man was, what he has done ? He closed his eyes as he rested his face in his hands. Telling her would be the right thing to do, but could he risk losing Valora. She could not possibly understand how the wizarding world was under the Dark Lord’s reign of terror.

There was nothing else to do. He would have to talk to someone. The one person who knew him for what he was and who still called him friend anyway. Severus would ask to speak with Dumbledore after lunch.

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Severus sat in the Headmaster’s office watching to old wizard pull on his beard thoughtfully. He was beginning to think it wasn’t such a good idea coming here after all. He had spilled out all his anxieties to Dumbledore and now the man merely studied him. Severus lost his patience and stood abruptly to go.

“Do you deserve to be loved ?” Dumbledore said to Severus’ back as he turned to leave. Severus whirled around indignant.

“WHAT ?”

“It is a simple question, my boy. Do you feel you deserve to be loved ?” The old wizard waved him to the chair he had just abandoned. Severus sat again, his scowl growing deeper. He stared at the Headmaster waiting for the question to be clarified. The old man had given up tugging on his beard and now had his hands steepled under his nose watching the younger man carefully.

Severus let out a long slow breath considering the question. He wanted love, he knew that much, wanted Valora’s love. But did he deserve it ? She was so young, her whole life ahead of her. She hadn’t made the kind of mistakes he had and never would. His Death Eater days still plagued his nightmares. He was only grateful his status as a spy had never been discovered. His life, however unworthy, had been spared. How can an unworthy life deserve love ?

“The point I am trying to make, Severus, is that you fear losing Valora’s love. But have you ever accepted that you deserve to be loved by her. I believe you are well suited to one another. She is not typical of young women her age. Valora has lived through much and you have been there to help her.” Dumbledore leaned forward and uncharacteristically grasped Severus’ hand, squeezing it firmly. “Have faith that she will be there for you.”

“She can’t understand.” Severus said shaking his head.

“Then make her understand. But first you need togivegive yourself, my boy. Then you will be able to accept the forgiveness of others. I am not glossing over any crimes you may have committed, but you have more than made for them when you helped the Order.”

“Too little, too late.” Severus said scoffing. “A baby brought about the Dark Lord’s demise.”

“I do not believe Voldemort is dead, not completely.” The younger man studied the older wiz Th This was not the first time the Headmaster had said such a thing. The thought of the Dark Lord coming back was terrifying. Would he have to play spy again ? Putting his life on the line with every meeting and revel ? Severus shuttered, sweet Merlin let Dumbledore be wrong for once.


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Valora sat in the Great Hall at the Gryffindor table with Marry Ann and Charlie, picking at her breakfast. Charlie continued to be kind to her, but their relationship had obviously changed. She assumed Charlie needed to distance himself from her somewhat and she didn’t challenge him on it. Mary Ann, however, was as sweet as ever. Sitting with them was far more agreeable than sitting at her own house table. Most of the Slytherins had stopped talking about her, at least in relation to Professor Snape, but it was still hostile territory.

Valora had just begun to munch on a piece of toast, when Harmony’s shriek pierced the din of the hall. She looked up and saw the owl fly low over the Slytherin table looking for her. Standing she let out a trill. Harmony flew to her immediately and landed on her thickly robed arm. Before sitting Valora caught Severus’ worried gaze, she gave him a weak smile and sat back down. Offering Harmony some bacon, she took the letter from the tired owl and opened it. As she read the letter from her mum, a frown began to appear on her face.

“Everything alright, Val ?” Charlie asked concerned.

“Mmm. Oh, yes, everything’s fine. I just have to go home this weekend.” Valora said distractedly. Bugger !! She had been looking forward to spending the day with Severus and possibly convincing him to indulge in some more interesting activities than chess.

Valora gave Harmony another slice of bacon, then sent her to the Owlery. Staring at her goblet, Valora pushed her food around her plate with her fork.

“Alright, what’s his name ?” Mary Ann asked, giving Valora a nudge. Valora looked up sharply.

“What ?”

“Come on, Valora. You’ve been moping around for the last couple of weeks. Has to be over some guy, who is it ?” Mary Ann prodded. Valora looked across the table at Charlie. He looked into her eyes for a moment, then looked back down at his empty plate.

“It’s not ……. The last few months have just been kind of hard. I’m sorry, I don’t mean to be such poor company.” Valora said gathering her things to leave.

“Valora, I don’t mean it like that.” Mary Ann said placing a hand on Valora’s arm. “I want you to know we’re here for you, if you want to talk. Right Charlie ?” Mary Ann said looking to her fellow Gryffindor for support.

“Right. Anytime, Val.” Charlie said, though his eyes still held a certain sadness.

“Thank you, both. I’ll see you in class.” Valora said, then walked out of the hall.

Valora felt, more than saw Severus watching her. She knew he had gotten up to leave at the same time. By the time she made it to the Entry hall, a tall figure in black was waiting for her.

“Professor Snape, may I speak with yo you your office ?” He nodded his consent and lead the way down to the dungeons. Once inside his office he put up silencing and locking charms.

“Is there ……. Is Veronique quite well ?” Severus asked quickly. Valora couldn’t help smiling at his concern.

“Yes, mum is fine. But I’m afraid I have to cancel on you for Saturday.” She said.

“Why ? What is it ?” Severus said as he sat in his chair and pulled her down onto his lap.

“One of dad’s clients has a special event this weekend and she needs an interpreter. Her parents called mum wondering if I might be able to help. She’s 15 and this will be her first formal dance, I can’t say no.” Valora said looking into his eyes hoping he would understand. He looked back at her and sighed.

“If you must go, you must go. When will you return ?”

“Sunday afternoon, most likely.”

“You could come see me when you return, if you wish.” Severus said lightly. Valora grinned at his thinly veiled request.

“I would love to come see you when I get back.” She said just before kissing him. He wrapped his arms around her drawing her closer. The kiss was soft, but searing. Regretfully, Valora pulled back.

“I had better get to class. See you in potions later.” She said before leaving. Valora walked to class wondering how long Severus would have to hide in his office to let the bulge in his pants recede. She allowed herself a wicked giggle, enjoying the power she had over his body.


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Friday evening Severus found himself outside the door to Valora’s room. He had felt compelled to go there. He could think of no good reason why he should be here, if someone asked. Thoughts of Valora had filled his mind the entire day. Knowing she would not be in the castle tomorrow, where he could readily see her, bothered him more than he wanted to admit. Well, no harm in spending some time together now, he thought, and knocked on the door. From inside he heard Valora say ‘come in’. So he opened the door and walked through, only to stop dead in his tracks as he saw Weasley sitting on the floor before the hearth. Valora was sitting at her desk watching Severus, smiling at him. She stood, then walked over and closed the door.

“Charlie and I are just finishing an Astronomy project, since I won’t be here this weekend. Was anything wrong ?” Valora said placing her hand on his arm. Severus still scowled at the red head, but let it go.

“I came by to make sure you talked to the Headmaster and have madl thl the arrangements for tomorrow.” He said.

“Yes, I have. I will meet Professor Dumbledore in his office around 10:00 tomorrow morning.” She said. Severus looked about uncomfortably. Damn that boy for being here anyway !

“I will leave you to your work, then.” Severus said stiffly.

“Valora, I have to go to the library to check some of the facts for my part of the project. Can you meet me there about 8:30 ?” Charlie said heading to the door. Valora turned a broad smile to her friend.

“8:30 would be fine. Tha Cha Charlie.” She said seeing him out. Turning back towards Severus she had an odd grin on her face.

“Should I reprimand you favinaving a boy in your room ?” Severus asked with an arched eyebrow. Valora walked over and put her arms around his neck.

“Mmmm, I’d much rather have a man in my room.” She said seductively, then pulled him down to kiss her. Severus was a bit taken aback by the raw passion in her kiss, but nisplispleased. He kissed her back with all the longing he had been repressing for weeks. It was only when he felt her rub his growing shaft through his clothes that he pulled back.

“And just what do you think you are doing, Miss Whinn ?” He asked, trying not to groan at the pleasure of being caressed in such a way.

“You don’t really think Charlie had any work to do, do you ? He was giving us some time alone.” She said with that odd smile again. Severus could feel himself beginning to blush. He didn’t like the boy knowing his business, but he was grateful to the lad for leaving. Looking back into her eyes, he allowed her to remove his teaching robes and greatcoat before sitting him down on the couch. Valora straddled his lap and began kissing and nipping his neck.

“You really like this dominate position over me, don’t you ?” A hint of amusement coming out in his voice. Instead of answering, Valora put a hand on either side of his head and captured his lips again, drawing a contented sigh from him. His arms went around her waist and rested on her bottom. With his encouragement, she rubbed her warm center over his groin, the friction eliciting a moan from each of them.

“We shouldn’t be doing this.” Severus whispered some minutes later, as she nibbled on his earlobe. “I am not to be trusted.”

“Why ?” Came the breathy response in his ear, causing a shiver to run down his spine. He pushed his hips upprespress into her.

“Gods Valora, you do not know what you do to me.”

“Let’s find out.” She said slipping from his lap. Her hands quickly undid his trousers and pulled them and his boxers down his hips to his ankles. Valora pushed up his white shirt to examine his throbbing length.

“I think I like what I do to you.” She said with a hungry look in her eye. Severus had seen that look before and knew there would be no escaping her desires, even if he wanted to.

Leaning back he held his shirt up with one hand, as the other found it’s way into Valora’s hair. She leaned forward and licked a broad swipe up the underside of his shaft from base to tip, then enveloped the head in her mouth, sucking on him greedily. The fingers in her hair tightened and urged her to take more of him in. She obliged by taking in as much as she could, while gripping the rest of his length with her hand, squeezing him firmly. Her other hand massaged his sac thoroughly,singsing his breathing to become uneven. She pulled him out of her mouth and began licking the gleaming shaft with light teasing strokes. A groan of frustration escaped him. He bucked his hips up for firmer contact. Valora let out a breathy laugh before taking him in her mouth again. She swirled her tongue around the head, while Severus blessed Merlin and all the Fates in harsh whispers. He eventually had to take his hand out of her hair because he felt too tempted to push her head down on him.

Sitting back watching Valora, the thought came to him that she really did seem to be enjoying herself. This act Severus had always thought of as something a woman would do to please her man, not please herself. But as he listened to the small whimpers coming from her, he could tell how excited she was. The thought of Valora being aroused by pleasuring him was what sent him over the edge. He threw his head back against the couch, but the climax was so intense he barely uttered a sound. When Severus was aware of himself, he realized Valora was sitting on his lap again and nibbling on his neck. He put a hand on each of her thighs, rubbing her gently.

“Did you like that ?” She whispered in his ear. Letting out a satisfied groan, he found her lips and drew her into a languid kiss. As the kiss lengthened and deepened, Severus could feel Valora’s body tremble under his touch. Hands moving up her inner thighs, he pulled back to look in her eyes. His thumbs grazed over the warm moist fabric covering her center, while keeping eye contact with her. As his touch became firmer, she closed her eyes and purred with pleasure.

“Open your eyes, Aquila puellae. I want to see your passion.” Severus whispered. Her violet eyes opened and locked on his. Slipping his fingers under the fabric, he stroked her wet lips, watching the hunger build in her eyes. He noticed every time his knuckle grazed over her pleasure bud, her nostrils flared with a quick intake of breath. Pressing into her folds with a knuckle of his other hand, he ran it teasingly against her entrance, eliciting a deep moan of longing from her. Valora’s responses to his touch were gratifying. Severus never believed a woman would react this way to him. That a mere touch of his hands could bring her to this state of arousal.

“I want to taste you.” Severus said. Valora looked at him for a moment, opened her mouth to say something, but closed it again. He laughed gently. “I will not kiss you after, if you do not wish it.”

Pulling her towards him, he licked her lips suggestively and felt her shiver. Helping her to stand he removed her knickers, then had her sit on the couch with her bottom on the edge and a pillow behind to support her back. After refastening his clothes, Severus kneeled down between her legs. Looking up, he saw a blush rising to Valora’s cheeks. He smiled at this, caressed her thighs reassuringly and lifted her skirt to expose her pink folds to him.

Severus lapped at her with light teasing strokes. Only when she whimpered in frustration, did he delve deeper, massaging her nether lips with his tongue. He spread her open to his view and looked up at her face. Valora’s eyes were closed and her breathing rapid.

“Look at me, Aquila puellae. I want you to see it is me who is pleasuring you.” She opened her eyes and smiled at him. She brought a hand to his head and watched him as he moved in to capture her bud, making her gasp at the sensation. Whispering his name she pulled him closer into her folds. He rolled his tongue over her from side to side, feeling her buck up under him. When he moved lower, he felt her stiffen up suddenly. He looked at her questioningly.

“Do you really like ………. doing this ?” Valora asked. Her innocence is so endearing at times, Severus thought.

“Did you not enjoy what you did for me ?” He asked in all sincerity. She nodded her head saying she did. “Then why is it so hard to believe I enjoy pleasuring you ?”

“It’s just so ………. different.” He smirked at this comment.

“I must say the difference is what I like.” He said, taking another swipe at her nether lips. This time her body seemed to relax under him, opening herself to him further. Taking full advantage, Severus plunged his tongue into her, hearing her gasp. He withdrew and did it again, getting the same reaction and feeling her clamp down on him. Finding a slow rhythm, he stimulated her hard nub with his thumb, rubbing light circles overtop of it. He heard her panting out his name and felt her pressing her hips towards him as his pace increased.

“Oh God……..…… oh Severus…..…… Severus.” Valora said nearly screaming out his name. He continued to wriggle his tongue in her, extending her release as long as he could. Hearing his name coming from Valora in her throes of release had made him painfully hard again. But he knew if she touched him again, he would take her, promise or no.

After going into the bathroom and washing his face, Severus came back to the couch kissed Valora and took her in his arms, pressing her back to his chest.

“You think I’m silly, don’t you ? Because I don’t like to kiss after …….” Valora said quietly. Severus chuckled.

“I do not think you are silly. I, myself, don’t mind it, but if you do, then I respect your wishes.” He said kissing her neck. She sighed.

“I can’t wait until we can make love for real.”

“You are no longer satisfied with me ?” Severus asked, slightly amused to be using her own phrase against her. She laughed and snuggled against him. ur bur birthday will come soon enough. As much as I would like to sit here, you have a project to finish and I have a stack of papers to grade.”

At the door, Severus hugged Valora again and kissed her.

“I hope you have a nice visit at home. Come see me, when you return.” He said, then left. Walking back to his chambers, his mood sobered greatly. Sunday he would do it. He would tell Valora about his past. She had a right to know. They would never have a true relationship with this secret hanging over them. He only hoped she would somehow understand.

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