Blinding Discoveries

Blinding Discoveries

The day went by slowly for Harry, and he felt the all too familiar tug of depression and he really didn’t want to go any farther down that road. He was over reacting again and he knew it, just because Remus didn’t write him back instantly didn’t mean he wasn’t going to write back at all. Finally after telling himself that at least 30 times he started to feel better, knowing that it was true, and that Remus was eventually write him back…

Halfway through Care of Magical Creatures a boy came running down and gave a letter to Hagrid. “You have a visitor in the great hall Harry, you’re excused from class.” Harry was shocked to say the least, who could be visiting him? He walked into the great hall and pushed back the surge of emotion that swept over him when he saw Remus Lupin sitting at the Gryffindor table eating what looked like a late breakfast.

“Professor Lupin!” Harry said and ran down to him and sat down next to him. Remus smiled at him, “I’m not a Professor anymore Harry, you can call me Remus, now what is it that you needed to talk to me about?” Harry sat down next to him and smiled, “I wasn’t expecting you to come so soon, I haven’t prepared my speech yet.” Harry laughed and Remus chuckled.

“Well….you see…I guess I have figured out something, that I wanted to talk to you about, you see…um….I’m gay…and I heard that you and Sirius were together in school and that my father didn’t seem to mind, I just wanted to know….if my parents would be disappointed that I would never marry or something.” Harry blushed and looked down hoping that Remus had caught everything he had just mumbled out.

Remus didn’t say anything and Harry was jut about to get up and run out the great hall when Remus finally started to talk. “Harry, your parents would never be disappointed in you, it is true that Sirius and I were together, and James didn’t mind one bit, he was happy that we were happy, and he would be happy as long as you were happy. And why wouldn’t you be able to marry? It’s not illegal or anything, so it you would be able to marry whomever you wished.”

Harry felt relieved, until he remembered who exactly he was fancying at the moment. “How was your relationship with Lucius Malfoy in school? Did you guys get along? Fight? Did my father and mum like him?” Harry would’ve laughed at the look that sprung up on Remus’ face by the mention of Lucius Malfoy, if it were a less serious time. “We didn’t really talk a lot to him, he was in Slytherin and from a very strict pure blood background, when we did talk he was usually coming to Severus’ rescue, so no…I don’t think we ever shared civil words with him. But Harry…I do think that Lucius is a little old for you, and surely he can’t return your…”

Remus stopped talking when Harry started to laugh and Remus couldn’t help but sigh in relief. Harry took a few deep breaths and looked at Remus. “I don’t like Lucius, Remus…I like his son…”

Remus smiled at Harry, “Your parents wouldn’t mind that you liked Draco, and plus Lucius has changed his ways a lot since school. I think that you would have your parent’s blessings Harry.”

Harry smiled, “Thank you for coming down here Remus, you are the only family I have left…”

Remus smiled at Harry, “Anytime Harry, don’t forget that I am just an owl away, and I will come no matter what I am doing.” Harry nodded and stood up, not knowing what to do now. Remus stood up and gave Harry a gentle hug, “I will be here until after dinner Harry, if you wish to speak to me I will be in Dumbledore’s office.” Harry nodded and walked out of the great hall, heading to his next class, feeling much better than he head in days…possibly years.

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Harry sat down by the lake, cursing himself for feeling so disappointed that Draco wasn’t there yet. He had grown use to their late night visits, even though they haven’t been going of for long. He liked Draco’s company, a lot. When Harry heard the footsteps behind him he couldn’t help but smile. Draco sat down next to him and sighed, “I want to ask you something Harry, but I don’t know if you will appreciate it or not.”

Harry’s heart beat quickened and he couldn’t help but hope that Draco was going to tell him that he liked Harry and wanted to go out with him. “I want to know if you would like to come home with me over the Christmas holidays, I already asked my father and he said it would be fine.”

Harry winced when he felt his heart all but drop, it wasn’t what he was hoping, but it was something to be happy about. “You do realize that the last time I saw your dad he tried to kill me right?”

Draco laughed at that and smiled at Harry, “Yea, I know, but he’s changed, and you know it, he wants you to come over for Christmas…I want you to come over for Christmas.”

Harry turned to look at Draco and couldn’t help but remember yesterday night…he had called Draco beautiful and Draco told him that he wasn’t that bad. Harry gave him a crooked smile and nodded, “Yea…I think I will….it’ll be fun.” Harry was pleased to see Draco’s eyes light up in excitement. “I will owl him when I go back tonight, he will have to work something out with Dumbledore.”

Harry nodded and forced his gaze back on the lake, he didn’t want Draco to notice that he was staring at him. They sat there for a while, finally Harry looked at Draco and took a breath, “I’m gay.” He said and Draco looked at him with surprise. “Really? I figured that you and Granger would hook up.”

Harry scoffed, “Ron and Hermione are made for each other, even if they can’t see that right now. And plus….female parts make me sick.”

Draco laughed at that and winked at Harry, “Don’t worry…it’s the same for me, I never could understand why people found them so attractive.”

Harry kept his excitement down when he heard that and smiled at Draco, “You are only the third person I’ve told…and the first person I told that was my age...I told Se….” Harry stopped and winced, he almost gave away the relationship he had with Severus and he knew he couldn’t. “I told Sirius…Professor Lupin….and now you.”

Draco looked at him for a minute, it sounded like Harry almost said Severus, he shrugged his shoulders and smiled, “You’ll find the right time to tell everyone, don’t pressure yourself about it.” Harry nodded and once again tore his gaze from Draco’s and turned it back toward the water. Draco stood up, “I have to go now Harry…I will see you tomorrow…and I will tell you what father says in his letter.” Harry nodded and listened to Draco walk away. Harry laid down in the grass again and looked up at the stars and smiled at them.

“I’m happy that you guys don’t hate me.” He said softly and then he frowned. He found himself desperately wanting his godfather to come back…Harry took a deep breath, he wasn’t going to think about that now, Sirius was dead….trapped behind the veil….Harry wanted to know what was behind there….how could they all be so sure Sirius was dead…maybe…maybe he could get him. He shook his head again, the last thing people needed was for him to go rushing off to the ministry and jumping down a veil.

Harry lost his mind in the stars again and new that he should get up and go back, or at least put the invisibility cloak over him so he wouldn’t get cold, and so no one would see him sitting out there. Harry draped the cloak around him and continued to look up at the stars until he finally fell asleep.

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Author’s Note: Read and Review! Thanks for all the reviews! I am so tired right now, I should start going to bed earlier. But there are just so many better things I could be doing besides sleeping. Eternus.Caries@gmail.com