TRYING TO REMEMBER

The next three days went by slowly and there was no change. Sirius was starting to leave Remus side for a few hours just to get out. But he was always there through the night. The morning of December 28th there were noises coming from Remus like he was gagging. Sirius ran to the nurse’s desk.

“Katherine get in here, something’s happening.”

“What’s the matter?”

“It sounds like he’s gagging.”

“That’s hardly likely we haven’t woken him up yet.”

Katherine walked into the room and sure enough Remus was making gagging sounds. Katherine called the nurses station to get the doctor in the room immediately to remove the tube.

“Won’t that kill him?”

“If he’s gagging he’s breathing on his own.”

The doctor rushed in. He looked down at the patient took the machine off and Remus was still gagging then his eyes opened.

“He’s awake.”

“Mr. Lupin can you swallow for me?”

As Remus did the tube moved it was painful.

“Swallow again.”

This time the tube came out.

“Welcome back Mr. Lupin. Here have some water.”

Remus drank some water his throat still a little painful.

The doctor turned to Sirius, “Mr. Black you’re going to have to leave.”

Sirius watched as they started taking vitals, drawing blood and asking questions.

“Do you know where you are?”

“No, not really.”

“You’re at St. Francis hospital. Do you know how you got here?”

“No.”

“You were hit by a car. Do you know your name?”

“Mr. Lupin?”

“You’re not sure?”

“You keep calling me that.”

“Do you know your birth date?”

“No.”

Do you know what year it is?”

Remus looked down and said quietly, “No.”

“Do you know who Sirius Black is?”

“Should I?”

“He’s a very good friend of yours. How about your parents?”

“No.”

“Where you went to school?”

“No.”

“Being bitten by animals?”

“No. That’s an odd question.”

“You’re an animal trainer.”

“I am?”

“According to your friends you are.”

“Mr. Lupin I believe you have amnesia. You were in a very bad accident and as a result there was trauma brought to the part of the brain that controls memories. Hopefully in the next few weeks you’ll be able to get some of these memories back. See that man out there? That’s Sirius Black you’re friend I just told you about. I’m going to go talk to him, then he’ll come in for a visit and we’ll be back for more testing. See you in a little while.”

The doctor walked out and started talking to the man outside the window.

“Is he okay?”

“Physically he’s fine. I don’t know how he healed so fast but he did. The problem is he has amnesia.”

“How bad?”

“He can’t remember much.”

“And me?”

“No. I told him you were a friend. It might be too much information to process right now. You can go see him, but let him ask the questions. Remember you’ll be meeting him for the first time.”

“Will he ever recover?”

“I’m not sure each case is different. How the brain works is a very complicated thing. We’ll be taking him for testing soon, okay.”

“Thank you.”

Sirius walked in and swallowed slowly. “Hello Remus.”

“Hello Sirius Black.”

“Do you know me?”

“The doctor told me we were friends. How long?”

“Since we were eleven.”

“Did we go to school together?”

“Yes.”

“Where?”

“A very private school in Scotland.”

“Cool.”

“Do you remember being bit by an animal, maybe a wolf?”

“You’re the second one to ask me that today. I guess in my line of work it’s to be expected.”

“Your line of work?”

“A wild animal trainer. That’s what I am aren’t I?”

“Sure Remus, that’s what you are. But the bite I was talking about happened when you were a little boy.”

“I’m sorry Sirius I can’t remember. Is it important?”

“We’ll talk later.”

“Are we best friends?”

“Yeah.” This was killing Sirius all he wanted to do was take him in his arms and never let go. He just wanted to tell him he loved him and that he was sorry fro being a stupid git.

“Good afternoon Mr. Lupin welcome back.”

“Good afternoon and you are?”

“Katherine, your nurse.” Katherine seeing his eyes for the first time knew they looked familiar. She remembered now it was shortly before Emma died he was over her house and she tried to flirt with him but he was in mourning his best friend had just died. He seemed to be a really nice bloke.

“Sirius we need to take him for some testing he’ll be gone for about ah hour.”

“Fine.” Sirius leaned down and kissed Remus on the forehead. “I’ll see you in a little while.”

Sirius disappeared in to the hall.

“That was I don’t know different.”

“Some people are just more affectionate than others.” ‘Sirius hasn’t told him yet, boy is he in for a surprise’ thought Katherine.

Just then an orderly came up. “Here we go Remus.”

“You’re not coming?”

“Nah I’ve got patients I need to tend to.”

“I was hoping to get to know you better. I don’t have a girlfriend do I?”

“No girlfriend. I’ll see you later Remus.”

Sirius decided to apparate to twelve Grimmauld he really needed to unwind. He went inside grabbed a glass poured some firewhiskey, took a fag from the pack he just bought and lit it. Went to the study sank in a chair and broke down.

Harry, Ron and Hermione walked and heard sobbing from the other room.

“Sirius, is everything okay? Remus isn’t?”

“He’s awake.”

“That’s good.”

“He has no memory. Nothing. He doesn’t know he’s a wizard, and with the full moon approaching, he doesn’t even know he’s a werewolf. I need to get him out of there tonight. I think I’m going to need your help.”

Sirius went back to the hospital and it was surrounded by fire engines. It seemed there was a short circuit in one the MRI machines with a patient still inside. ‘Remus’, thought Sirius.

He walked in and saw Diane, Remus afternoon nurse standing there with bag over her shoulder like she just walked in.

“What’s going on?” he was afraid to ask.

“Oh Sirius, Remus is in the emergency room he was in an MRI machine when it sorta shorted out. They’re treating his burns. I heard he woke up today. He must have a bloody curse around his neck. The day he wakes up this happens. He’s unconscious because of the shock hopefully he’ll wake up soon.”

“Diane, what does this MRI do?”

“Because they were doing a brain scan, his head was in a tunnel and then the machine shakes as its taking pictures. It’s actually pretty loud too.”

So that’s what happened, thought Sirius because of his supersensitive hearing he got angry and destroyed the machine. Thank Merlin they were getting him out tonight.

He waited outside as they treated his injuries they finally allowed him to see Remus. He looked like he was sleeping. Sirius took his wand out discreetly pointed it as Remus so the staff wouldn’t see what he was doing and whispered in his ear.

“Rennervate”

Remus woke up with a start.

“Sirius what happened?”

“You remember me?”

“You were there this morning when I woke up.”

“Right, what was the last thing you remember?”

“I was inside a machine that was shaking and loud. It hurt my ears so much and then gave me a headache. I just wanted it to stop and then there were sparks. It just was I don’t know strange. Why did you kiss my head earlier?”

“For luck. Remus, I need to tell you something. Something about us.”

“Mr. Lupin, you’re awake. Good we’re just going to check you out quickly and send you to your room. You are?”

“Sirius Black,” looking down at Remus, “a friend.”

“Well Mr. Black why don’t you wait fro him upstairs or better yet get yourself some coffee.”

Sirius went outside and had a fag. Going through the plan thoroughly and the back up plan, if Remus refused. Sirius finished his smoke and went to Remus’ room he still wasn’t back yet.”

“Diane, will Remus be back soon?”

“They’re just waiting for an orderly to bring him back up.”

As if on cue Remus was wheeled into his room. The orderly helped him to his bed. Sirius smiled at Remus, “Welcome back.”

“We need to talk about some things.”

“Mr. Lupin because you’ve been stuck in this bed for about week, we think it’s time you went for a walk. We don’t want pneumonia to set in after your lung healed so nicely.”

Sirius looked up and sighed, ‘was he ever going to talk to Remus?’

“You can come with us Mr. Black, we won’t be long just up and down the corridors a few times.”

“Sure.”

Sirius helped Remus to his feet. “What’s that smell?”

“I had a fag while you were downstairs.”

“A fag is?”

Sirius took one out of the pack. “You smoke it. It’s a rather nasty habit. One you really hated.” Sirius remembered all the times Remus wouldn’t kiss him until he freshened his breath.

“What’s that smile for?”

“Just remembering.”

“Care to share, since I don’t have any.”

“You really hated the smell, you wouldn’t even let me…”

“Sirius, Remus.”

“You have impeccable timing Harry.”

“Sorry was I in the middle of something?”

“No, nothing.”

“Remus, this is Harry Potter. He’s the son of James and Lily who we went to school with.”

“Pleased to meet you. How are your parents. Will I be meeting them soon?”

Sirius took a deep breath, this was going to be hard. “They’re dead Remus. They were killed when Harry was a little over a year old.”

“I’m so sorry I didn’t know. Were you close to them Sirius?”

A tear ran down Sirius cheek, “Yeah, so were you.”

“I’d like to hear about them someday. It seems a hard subject for you, Sirius.”

“I promise we’ll talk about it.”

“Are we good friends, Harry?”

“Yes Remus, you’ve helped me a lot. Now Sirius and I want to help you.”

“Thank you.’

“We need to get you out of here and into a special hospital one for people like you.”

“That can’t remember?”

“Something like that.”

“Let’s ask my doctors and we’ll go.”

“You’re doctors won’t think you’re well enough yet.”

“Then we can wait until I am.”

“That might be too late.”

“How can it be too late?”

“Remus you have to believe that Harry and I only have your best interests at heart. I wouldn’t do anything to hurt you. I …”

“Hello Sirius, Remus and you might be?”

“Harry, I’m Sirius’ godson.”

“Nice to meet you Harry,”

“Well since you’ve been up and about let’s see about getting rid of some of this tubing. Will you excuse us Mr. Black, Mr. Potter.”

“Did you ask him yet?”

“In a round about way. He wants to run it by his doctors.”

“Maybe if you just explained he was a wizard.”

“Harry think that through for a minute. That might require demonstrations. I just got my name cleared I don’t need to give the ministry a reason to lock me up.”

“And what we’re planning for tonight wouldn’t.”

With a genuine sparkle in his eye, “Only if we get caught.”

“Well I need to get back to training, see you tonight than?”

“Yeah.”

Just then he heard a whimper come from Remus’ room. The nurse came out with a bag and some tubes.

“You can go back in but he might be a bit tired after the exciting day he’s had.”

Sirius walked in and Remus looked quite different without all those tubes attached.

“Hey there feel better?”

“A little sore where they took stuff out of.”

“Have you thought about what we discussed earlier sign yourself out and we’ll go to a different hospital.”

“Sirius I really don’t think it’s a good idea. Actually I’m kind of tired and want some rest. You’ve been here all day I really appreciate it.”

“I’ll be back I a little while.”

“Thanks.”

Sirius went outside had another fag and then went to the coffee shop. He hoped that Remus was sleeping as he needed to get some hairs from him. Since he was bald on his head the only ones long enough were somewhere else. Sirius went back to the room and Remus was sleeping. Sirius sat next to the bed and slid his hand under the covers and pas the hospital robes, just as he thought no underwear. He took his wand out and pointed it in the general direction and muttered a spell there were a few hairs that fell into his hands. He placed them into a vial. Sirius hated that he was so close to Remus’ cock but didn’t touch it. Would one touch be so bad. Sirius reached under the covers again and under his clothes and just brushed his hand against Remus cock. He could feel himself starting to get hard. He than wrapped his hand around it and started to move his hand up and down. God it felt good to touch him again. He felt Remus get harder and harder with every pump of his hand. He watched to make sure that Remus stayed sleeping. Sirius pointed his wand toward a draw in the table next to Remus bed there was lotion in there. He levitated it towards his and poured some onto his hand he then went back to the task he started it was now a lot easier to stroke Remus. He was at full length and could hear his breathing get heavy. Sirius stroked faster and faster finally he heard a moan from Remus and his hand was wet with cum. Sirius drew his hand out from under the covers and licked the cum off it, he always loved the taste of Remus. He looked over at his lover who was still sleeping. Sirius smiled a little he’s been getting Remus off in his sleep since they were thirteen nice to see he hadn’t lost his touch. Now Sirius just had to take care of his own little problem. Well at nine inches not so little. He took the lotion with him in the bathroom put up some silencing charms lowered his pants. Took out his rock hard dick, no one got him as hard as Remus did. James was a distant second. He remembered the first time he let Remus fuck him. How stupid he was to wait all those years and it hadn’t changed because of his size every thrust hit his prostrate every thrust was ecstasy. And even that last night together every touch was a new sensation. He loved being fucked by Remus even more than he liked fucking him. Sirius was stroking himself furiously at his thoughts of Remus taking him. Sirius screamed his name as he came he hoped he didn‘t break the silencing charm, which he did on several occasions when Remus made him cum. He pointed his wand at his hand and did the cleaning charm. He needed this so badly everything had been building up. And he needed to be relaxed if they were going to pull off what they needed too. Sirius looked at the vial with the hairs in it. He just hoped Ron would come through with the polyjuice potion.