A Night Out With Snape

*

\'Where have you been?\'
\'I…\'
\'Well it really doesn\'t matter now Potter and it was a good thinking not to stay here in my rooms. I have no intentions of seeing you here ever again…\'
\'But…\'
\'Out!\'
\'Sev…please…\'
\'Have you gone deaf? I said out. I don\'t want to see you in my rooms or anywhere near me ever again, Potter.\'

*

Harry avoided Severus for the rest of the week-end not showing up for his supposed detention but sooner or later he knew he would have to face the man when they would have their Potions class. Harry slipped into cla classroom before anyone else and found a very far nook where he placed himself behind his cauldron. This time Snape didn\'t ask him to sit in front he didn\'t even approach Harry\'s table that he shared with Ron and Hermione and it was probably the first ever Potions lesson during which Gryffindors lost no points at all. Everyone noticed that Snape was out of it and kept to their own tasks and cauldrons trying not to infuriate their professor. Even Slytherins acted subdued not attempting to sabotage Gryffindor\'s work. Harry wondered if Severus had forgotten about him so quickly and so completely and as long as tears misted his eyes it was no wonder that his potion turned out the worst. It was hard to read right through the instructions when eyes just didn\'t want to see and brain kept on sending treacherous ideas about Severus not wanting Harry any more. Harry closed his eyes trying to concentrate hard on his work but all he got were pictures of his recent dream or better nightmare playing vividly in front of his closed eyes. He didn\'t know that he was holding a knife that started cutting into his palm while he tried to banish all the images of Severus leaving him out of his mind and it was only when Hermione shrieked that he snapped out of it and looked at his palm that was all covered in blood. Severus was standing beside him in no time regarding him with unreadable expression while Harry was looking back his eyes wet.

\'Sir, can I take Harry to the hospital wing?\' asked Hermione timidly.

Snape looked at her and sneered.

\'As much as I know that Gryffindors are always there to give a helping hand I suggest Miss. Granger that you finish this potion.\'

\'But…\'

Snape glared at her but it seemed that Hermione wasn\'t going to give up seeing as Harry wasn\'t about to protest.

\'Sir, Harry is injured, he needs to go to madam Pomfrey.\' she continued in a bolder voice.

\'Don\'t fret Miss Granger and continue with your potion and if you say another word you will land in detention. And as to your precious Potter I will escort him to the hospital wing myself.\'

The whole class gasped.

\'I am in no mood to endure the whole class of dunderheads today. Come, Potter.\' he ordered briskly his robes billowing after him as he left the classroom with miserable Harry behind.

Harry was looking at his feet not really following where they were going that\'s why he was really surprised when they appeared in Snape\'s quarters.

\'Sit.\' commanded Snape leaving the room.

Harry sat down his head still bowed when Snape reappeared again in the room. He stood on one knee in front of Harry and said in a softer voice:

\'Give me your hand.\'

Harry stretched his hand and felt as something cool touched it. He looked and saw that Severus was washing all the blood away with a cloth. When there was no blood left Severus put the cloth aside and spread what Harry supposed was a healing salve over the cut. When he was done with the cut Severus was about to stand up but before he could accomplish it he felt Harry falling into him wrapping his arms tightly around his neck and whispering hoarsely:

\'I\'m sorry. I\'m so sorry. Forgive me.\'

\'Harry there\'s nothing to forgive.\' said Snape softly cradling Harry in his arms. He lifted Harry\'s face up to his and started kissing it lightly.

\'There\'s nothing to forgive. It is me who should ask for forgiveness. After all it is all my fault. I should ask for you to forgive me because I couldn\'t protect you.\'

\'And I couldn\'t make you happy like I wanted too. You have all the right to dump me now. But I suppose that\'s what you\'ve already done.\'

\'Harry, I haven\'t done anything yet. And I am definitely not going to dump you.\'

\'I didn\'t want to anger you. But you\'re angry with me.\'

\'I\'m not.\'

\'You are. I know you are angry with me because I drank that potion and now I\'m carrying a Malfoy\'s child. And why would you need me with somebody else\'s child anyway.\'

\'Harry I am not angry with you. Most of all I am angry with myself for doing nothing to stop it and of course I am angry with Lucius for putting you through all this but I can hardly be angry with you after you sacrificed your life for me.\'

\'I am of no use now.\'

\'Harry that\'s ridiculous and you know it. You are of great use. You are of great need to me. I need you and I still want you in my life. No matter what.\'

Harry stopped crying and blinked several times.

\'Really?\'

\'Yes, Harry, really. Though I wondered why I haven\'t found you here when I came back and why you haven\'t showed up ever since I left you here with Lucius.\'

\'I-I thought that you left me. I didn\'t want to anger you any further and left. And then I had this dream where you dumped me and I-I…\'

\'Shh, Harry, I had no intentions of leaving you and I am truly sorry if that\'s how it looked like but I couldn\'t watch you and Lucius being intimate. I\'m sorry I made you go through this alone. But right then I thought that it was better to die at the hands of the Dark Lord than share you with Lucius.\'

\'It is worse than Imperius you know, Sev, this…this pregnancy. At least I can fight off Imperius but I can\'t fight my child and its needs especially if it is inside of me. It pushes me into Lucius\' arms and no matter how much I resist I know that I have to comply or something bad may happen. I really don\'t want to experience Lucius Malfoy\'s wrath on me while I can\'t protect myself. And I-I kinda got used to having and feeling something growing and fluttering and flipping inside of me. I begin to realize now that soon enough I will give birth to a new life and I don\'t care who\'s its father. I\'m sorry, Severus.\'

\'There\'s nothing to be sorry for Harry.\'

\'I love you, you know it, right?\'

\'I know Harry I know.\'

\'And we didn\'t you know…we didn\'t do anything…well almost…\'

Severus raised an eyebrow.

\'I mean he…Lucius…he was only holding me and…caressing me…my belly almost and…kissing me…\'

Severus eyes darted towards Harry\'s lips but Harry shook his head.

\'No, not on the lips. He kissed me on the lips once in front of you. When we were left alone he was kissing…umm…well not my lips…and then when he wanted to…to continue I asked him to stop and he did. I think he was afraid to damage the child if I resisted and he tried to use force so…he backed off. Maybe we can make a deal with him, Sev? Please don\'t leave me with him alone again.\'

\'Did he hurt you?\'

\'No he was nice, gentle, he didn\'t push and didn\'t force me. He did everything calmly, slowly. But I…I don\'t know what I feel towards him and what I would allow him to do if not for our child. I didn\'t tell you but he sent me roses every morning. They soothed me and made me feel better if I felt anxiety or worry. He treats me carefully and tenderly. He wants that child. But I love you. And I don\'t know what to do because child or not but I start having feelings for him too. He will be back in a week and I need you to stay. I need you there to hold me too. Even if you have to share me, Sev. Please.\'

Harry pressed himself closer into Severus\' body.

\'Sev?\' he whispered.

\'Ok, Harry, I\'ll stay even if I have to share you with him.\'

\'Thank you.\' said Harry with a small shy smile kissing Severus gently on the lips.

\'Oh I have to tell Ron and Hermione about you and me and Lucius and the child. If you don\'t mind that is.\'

\'Why?\'

\'Lucius told me to quit Quidditch and I agreed not that he gave me much choice but I think he is right. It\'s too dangerous to go flying with a baby inside and with Bludgers swooshing here and there. I will have to give explanation at least to my best friends. I need to. If you allow me.\'

\'It\'s your right Harry. There is nothing to allow you. There is one thing that I totally agree with Lucius on. I am not your master and you don\'t have to ask my permission before doing something.\'

\'And once again I\'m telling now to you that you are my lover and I want you to be aware of every decision I make. Besides it\'s not like it is difficult to tell you what I want to do and to ask for your permission. It makes me feel as if I belong to you. And I don\'t mind as long as you don\'t force me into things I don\'t like.\'

\'Oh, Harry.\' sighed Snape kissing Harry deeply.

After some time Harry looked at Severus a teasing smile on his lips.

\'Bed, Sev?\'

\'Bed.\' replied Severus taking Harry into his arms and carrying him to his bedroom.

*

It was long after they adjourned to the bedroom that they both remembered that they missed their other classes but for once they couldn\'t care less.

*

\'Harry! Where have you been?\'

\'We\'ve been worried sick, mate.\'

\'Madame Pomfrey said you wasn\'t in the hospital wing.\'

\'Everybody thought that Snape finally killed you.\'

\'Harry?\'

\'Guys, I need to tell you something very important.\'

Harry cast a look around the Common Room and finding it empty launched into his story. By the time he finished both Ron and Hermione sat with their jaws scarping the floor. Harry looked worriedly at them. It wasn\'t natural for either of them to be that quiet but then again his news wasn\'t very natural too.

\'So, guys, what d you say?\' he asked tentatively.

\'Wow, Harry,\' gasped Ron at last, \'some situation you got yourself into.\'

\'But Harry he is your professor…are you sure that it is not against the law?\'

\'Even if it is, it\'s too late now. But I don\'t care about the law. What I care is how you feel about it? Are you still my best friends?\' he asked biting his lower lips and closing his eyes shut. The next thing he felt was Hermione hugging him tightly closely followed by Ron.

\'We love you Harry…\'

\'Yeah mate…\'

\'And we are always there for you.\'

\'Thank you. Both of you. You have no idea how much it means for me.\' he gave them a genuine smile. None of them seemed to notice the door to the Common Room open.

\'Now the problem is how to tell Sirius that I am with Severus and at the same time pregnant from Lucius.\' said Harry in a puzzled way.

\'I think you\'ve just done it, Harry so not to worry.\' said the voice that unmistakably belonged to his godfather making the three of them jump.

A/N: Tell me what you think or I won\'t be able to write the next chapter. I need fuel guys.