A Chance at Life
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Harry Potter › Slash - Male/Male › Harry/Snape
Rating:
Adult +
Chapters:
15
Views:
13,613
Reviews:
76
Recommended:
0
Currently Reading:
1
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Interlude
A Chance at Life - Interlude
Harry’s Journal - January 14, 1968
I write in this journal because I feel I might go around the bend with all these thoughts in my head if I don't get them out somehow. I can never truly confide my past to anyone so this journal will be it in a way, it doesn't matter if it doesn't make sense, it's just for me after all...
Many times I have wondered why I was chosen by the fates to do the things I have. I have hated them, cursed them and resented them. Now, I find myself alone once more. Alone in a place that I know and yet is alien to me at the same time. When I first came here I wondered why I was here, but now it doesn’t matter.
I believe I am here for Severus. Whether he somehow brought me here or I was brought by some higher power is irrelevant. The man that I knew back home had been like a parent to me. I always trusted the old man to do what was best in regards to Tom but I knew I could not trust him with my life.
That man I could trust to look out for me, to see me as I am, and tell me the truth no matter how awful it might be. He was there for me until he died protecting me. Now it’s my turn and it’s no sacrifice to take care of Sev; by making him my heir at least his financial future is now secure if I were to die unexpectedly. I am more than happy to do this and if this is selfish of me then so be it. I have already given most of my life for the ‘greater good,’ I can be selfish now if I want.
For the first time in my life I can choose what to do with my life.
I choose to be Harry, a muggle-born wizard with no past and no family.
I choose to be Severus’ guardian & mentor for as long as he needs me. I choose to fight Voldemort of my own freewill, because I truly have a choice. I choose this because I know that even if I die in this endeavor the future of the wizarding world will not die with me, and there will be others to take up the fight against Voldemort after me. My goal is simply for Severus to be able to lead a life of his own choosing, after that I will be able to die without regrets.
Whoever he chooses to follow I will be happy, because I will know he truly had a choice.
I realize that with this choice I have given up any chance of ever having a family of my own but that was a dream that died right along with Ginny. I will not risk trusting the wrong person or leaving a child of mine alone in this world to grow up like I did. I refuse to take that chance.
It is almost a given that I will die, I no longer have a power the he knows not (1)…and I have no wish to live for who knows how long with my…gifts. I am not suicidal; I am simply extremely familiar with what I am up against. This time my life (and death) will not be a sacrifice prefigured by destiny…
I am simply another wizard now. Here, Severus will be my family until I die and then I will finally be free to rejoin my own.
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(1) He means the Hollows
AN: The man he's talking is Severus Snape from his original timeline.
Harry’s Journal - January 14, 1968
I write in this journal because I feel I might go around the bend with all these thoughts in my head if I don't get them out somehow. I can never truly confide my past to anyone so this journal will be it in a way, it doesn't matter if it doesn't make sense, it's just for me after all...
Many times I have wondered why I was chosen by the fates to do the things I have. I have hated them, cursed them and resented them. Now, I find myself alone once more. Alone in a place that I know and yet is alien to me at the same time. When I first came here I wondered why I was here, but now it doesn’t matter.
I believe I am here for Severus. Whether he somehow brought me here or I was brought by some higher power is irrelevant. The man that I knew back home had been like a parent to me. I always trusted the old man to do what was best in regards to Tom but I knew I could not trust him with my life.
That man I could trust to look out for me, to see me as I am, and tell me the truth no matter how awful it might be. He was there for me until he died protecting me. Now it’s my turn and it’s no sacrifice to take care of Sev; by making him my heir at least his financial future is now secure if I were to die unexpectedly. I am more than happy to do this and if this is selfish of me then so be it. I have already given most of my life for the ‘greater good,’ I can be selfish now if I want.
For the first time in my life I can choose what to do with my life.
I choose to be Harry, a muggle-born wizard with no past and no family.
I choose to be Severus’ guardian & mentor for as long as he needs me. I choose to fight Voldemort of my own freewill, because I truly have a choice. I choose this because I know that even if I die in this endeavor the future of the wizarding world will not die with me, and there will be others to take up the fight against Voldemort after me. My goal is simply for Severus to be able to lead a life of his own choosing, after that I will be able to die without regrets.
Whoever he chooses to follow I will be happy, because I will know he truly had a choice.
I realize that with this choice I have given up any chance of ever having a family of my own but that was a dream that died right along with Ginny. I will not risk trusting the wrong person or leaving a child of mine alone in this world to grow up like I did. I refuse to take that chance.
It is almost a given that I will die, I no longer have a power the he knows not (1)…and I have no wish to live for who knows how long with my…gifts. I am not suicidal; I am simply extremely familiar with what I am up against. This time my life (and death) will not be a sacrifice prefigured by destiny…
I am simply another wizard now. Here, Severus will be my family until I die and then I will finally be free to rejoin my own.
___________________________________________________________________________________________
(1) He means the Hollows
AN: The man he's talking is Severus Snape from his original timeline.