In Want of a Child

Chapter 9:
Who’s On Top?
Moon of the Sea
Beta: Ari


Back in Snape’s quarters, Harry looked at the professor with a timid smile. “See, that didn’t go so bad.”


Snape lifted his eyebrow in an ‘are you kidding’ fashion.


“No really, all things considered it went quite well. I was very unsure of Ron’s reaction and he was just brilliant about the whole thing.”


“Hermione?” asked Snape.


“Oh, I am not worried about her,” sounding so sure of himself that Severus could not bring himself to argue. “Well, um… So we are here. Alone. In your quarters. After our first date.” He looked at Snape for his reaction. Not being able to read the Potions Master. He got even closer.


“Am I welcome to stay here tonight?” he asked not sure what to expect.


“That sounds like a pleasant idea,” said the Potions Master allowing Harry to come even closer. Close enough to kiss. Snape closed his eyes and welcomed the gesture. Harry brought his lips to Severus’ and started tenderly as if afraid of scaring or hurting the professor. But, when he felt Snape responding to the kiss he decided to go a bit further. The Potions Master’s probing tongue asked for entrance into Harry’s mouth. Not being able to deny his lover anything, he granted entry. There he was given carte blanche to explore while he was enjoying Snape’s surrender to his ministrations. When they had no choice but to come up for air, they stayed together, their foreheads touching as they breathed heavily.


“So… um…. I think… Wow. I don’t know why I am so nervous. I know you will be very loving and careful. Right?” he said looking into Snape’s eyes. Severus was completely confused by Harry’s statement.


“You do understand it’s my first time. To be completely honest Severus, I didn’t even fool around in school with the other blokes.”


“Harry, I don’t understand why you would be so nervous. Remember you will be in control.”


“No Severus, you will be in control. I have never done this and I will not risk hurting you.”


“The book…”


“Severus, do you have any idea how many times I read a potion but yet managed to screw it up when I went to execute it?”


Snape’s eyebrows seemed to shoot up with endless recollections. Harry smiled. “You are going to have to teach me with a hands-on approach.”


Severus lowered his head in an attempt to hide his smile.


“Harry, listen, I can guide you through it.”


“Severus, don’t you want to make love to me?” Harry asked, looking into Snape’s eyes for any sign of rejection, rejection that did not come.


“Harry, there is pain involved in this kind of lovemaking.”


“I know Severus and I need to know how much pain. The book was not clear about how much pain was involved. I won’t know until I feel it myself.”


“Harry, I cannot do this.”


“Yes, you can. Severus, I know you will be a kind and considerate lover. You will know how to make it good for me and teach me how to be a good lover. Besides, by now you should know when I will not take no for an answer.”


The Potions Master looked at him knowing that he was right. He closed the gap between them and kissed the Boy Who Lived. He began to unbutton Harry’s shirt and Harry took this as a cue to start on Severus’ shirt.


“You know, I know a very good disrobing charm.”


“ Harry, you did say you wanted me to be in control.”


“Sorry,” he said rather shyly.


“Just relax.”


Soon clothes were disposed of and Harry found himself on Severus’ bed. His lover was lavishing him with kisses and he was in heaven. Severus was kissing his neck and trailing kisses down his chest. Harry couldn’t believe how good it felt. He closed his eyes and enjoyed every kiss, every caress his lover was giving him.


“Harry you must turn over.”


“No, I want to look at you, Severus.”


“Harry as romantic as that might seem, this is best for you. It is your first time and I want you to be able to enjoy it. You must let me take control of the situation.”


The look of disappointment in the young man’s eyes tore at the Potions Master’s heart. “Why not compromise? I will prepare you while you are facing me and then you will turn for penetration.”


Harry looked at him and nodded in agreement. As he had expected, his lover was considerate and caring. He felt safe and secure in Severus’ arms.


Severus went back to peppering kisses all over Harry’s body. Harry almost jumped out of his skin when Snape started kissing his inner thighs. Harry didn’t know what to ask for but he knew he needed more.


“Severus, please.”

“Hush Harry, you never have to beg in my bed. Just tell me what you want. What you need”.


“More. Just… more.”


Snape went back to his ministration and in one gulp swallowed Harry’s manhood.


“Severus!”


Snape hummed his amusement sending additional vibrations through his lover’s body. He withdrew with a smile and opened the bedside table drawer, taking out the lube. Harry, knowing what was coming, held his breath.


“Relax,” Snape advised and went back to swallowing his lover. Harry immediately relaxed and enjoyed his lover’s attention.


When Snape felt that Harry was relaxed he inserted one lubed finger. Harry immediately came down from his high and tensed up. Snape didn’t move his finger but started to suck on Harry’s manhood and balls. Harry relaxed again but could not shake the feeling of dread. He had to do this for Severus. If their relationship was to be, he had to do this. Little by little, Snape inched his finger into Harry’s cavity. Harry tried to concentrate on how great it felt to have his lover giving him head. Finally, Snape’s finger was all the way in and he started hunting for the nub that would give Harry pleasure. Soon enough he found it and Harry was grateful for it. It gave him another point of pleasure to focus on. Before he new knew it, Snape had withdrawn his finger but was soon back with two fingers. Harry needed Severus to ground him.


“Severus I need your eyes. I need your voice.”

Severus let go of Harry with a pop and crept up beside him making sure not to dislodge his fingers.


“Am I hurting you?”


“No Severus, you’re not. But, I need to see you, to hear you.”


“Harry, if you want me to stop…”


“No. I don’t know how to explain it but I need this. I want this. Please Severus, I know I can do this.”


Snape crooked his finger finding Harry’s nub and was gratified by his lover’s moans of pleasure.


“Harry, I need to insert another finger.”


“ I know Severus; just keep on talking to me.”

Snape pulled out and coated his fingers with extra lube inserting the fingers with as much care as humanly possible.


“Harry, just relax. Trust me.”


“I do Severus. Is it supposed to feel like this?”


“Like what?”


Harry closed his eyes and took a deep breath, “Like, I really have to go.”


Snape chuckled and rubbed is forehead against Harry’s chest.


“Harry you are ready. We can leave it at this. The next step if fairly simple and direct I don’t have to demonstrate that to you.”


“Severus, we are doing this. We are doing it all the way. I want to be yours. You don’t understand how I crave to be yours. Please Severus you told me I would not have to beg in your bed. Don’t make me beg.”


“Never Harry. As I said before you will never have to beg in my bed. It is time to turn.” Harry understood and as soon as Snape withdrew his fingers, he flipped on to his stomach.


“Harry, get up on your knees but leave your head on the pillow.” Harry did as he was told and felt Snape spread his legs more. He could not keep from tensing up when he felt Severus’ penis at his entrance but immediately relaxed not wanting Snape to know how hard this was for him.


“Breathe, Harry. Just relax.”


Harry took a deep breath and a hard gulp of saliva. This is how long it took Severus to penetrate half way through. Harry’s whole body contracted.


“Harry, do you want me to pull out?”


“ No Severus, just give me a minute,” his voice breathy.


“Harry, listen to me, I need for you to try to push me out.”


“No Severus, we are almost there.”


“ Harry, stop trying to top and listen to me. I know what I am doing. Push, Harry.”


Harry made his anal muscles push and found that Severus was right. As Harry pushed out Severus pushed in and it was so much easier on Harry. Finally, Severus was all the way in and lost in the ecstasy of the moment. He reached around to Harry’s groin and started to stroke at the rhythm of his thrust. Harry concentrated on the hand that was pleasuring him. Within a couple of strokes, Harry came, pulling his lover’s orgasm with him.


“Oh Harry. So … so good. So… So warm. So tight. Harry, Harry, Haaaaaaaaaa…” Severus fell to Harry’s side not wanting to squish his lover.


“I guess we have established that you are not a bottom,” looking into his young lover’s eyes.


“Was I that bad?”


“ Not at all, but Harry you shouldn’t have to try so hard in order to achieve pleasure. Besides you were topping all along,” he said with his characteristic smirk.


“Caught on, did you? Severus, where are you going?”

“I am just going to get you a potion.” Soon he was back with the mentioned potion. Harry recognized it as a pain potion and was all too happy to take it when he stopped close to his lips.


“But, Severus, wouldn’t this be like taking a bath after we make love? Is it not like washing away your attentions?”


Severus looked at his young lover with a look that said ‘so young’.


“Harry first of all I will remind you that my ‘attentions’ are still lodged in your body and second, pain is not what I want you to remember from our first time.”


“See, I told you, you would be a kind and caring lover,” said the Gryffindor with a grin.