Dark Desires

:: Severus entered the room and locking away Narcissa. He did not believe what she had just told him and he refused profoundly to believe it in any way. He knew that Laiza would be and could be killed, but he also believed that maybe he could spare her life.. but the fact.. that she has to die and the reality that he has to be the one to kill her…..





:: He looked around the room and found Laiza was not in the bed again. He looked around, the fireplace was burning and a robe was left on the couch. He walked to the next room and found her sitting inside the bath tub staring out from nowhere.





:: “What’s wrong?” she asked him as he entered, half ignoring the sight of her before his eyes, “Did you have dinner alrea-“ but before she could finished her words, Severus already went on his knees, knelt next to the tub and grabbed her soaking arms to him and pulled her into a deep kiss.







:: He didn’t care if she protested, but to his great and utter surprise, she didn’t. Instead, she wrapped her arms around him and was pulling him inside with her, he refused even though his full clothed body was already soaking wet.







:: His lips lingered with Laiza’s and Laiza’s damp hands and hair lavished along his shoulders and neckline. He didn’t know what he was doing, but neither did he care. This was against his strategy, it wasn’t the time yet, it sure wasn’t. But for Laiza’s time, it was perfect timing. He was vulnerable at this moment. And the more he thought she was the one who was in great need and is vulnerable, was enough to make Laiza’s plans work perfectly.





:: Her hands wrapped around him as she slowly unbuttoned his collar and moments later, left him barechest already, still kneeling next to the tub. His mouth lingered from her shoulders, to her shoulder blades as Laiza turned her back against him and she rested her head on his bare shoulders.



:: Laiza was already prepared for it, for whatever happens, for whatever the outcome. Like she has told herself already, Remus was nowhere, was in a comma and perhaps could die.. if he hasn’t woken yet.. there was nothing she could lose. This was the only way to get out of the **** she was in. she was already greatly prepared for it. Laiza was, but Severus wasn’t.





:: Just when Laiza was already helping him out of his clothes, he stopped and grabbed her wrists and stared at her eyes.. as if seeing through her.. inside of her. But there was none he could see. He was barred, but he thought he could not see anything.





:: Laiza knew that there was nothing he could see through, his emotions were now more powerful than his intelligence, he had sank already in the pit of her plans. He was under his emotions, under her control. It was no longer Severus’ game. It was Laiza’s already.







:: “Severus, why-“ “I can’t do this tonight,” he simply told her, caressing her cheeks and letting her wrists go, “I can’t-“ “What-but-Severus, please- I thought-“ “I’m going to rest now.” Severus simply told her, pulling himself out from the side of the tub and taking a towel from the drawers to dry himself.





:: “Severus, have I done anything-“ “It’s nothing,” he told her, walking to the side of the room and drying himself, “I just am really tired. Go to sleep when you’re done.” Then with that, he left the room.





:: He turned on his back and stared at the door behind him. Where behind that door, lies the very vulnerable form of Laiza.. her soul, awaiting him..





:: He clenched his fists. Just when this was going on already, something he knew was wrong. Something inside of him was already terribly wrong.. He couldn’t control himself anymore, he couldn’t see and think clearly.. and the more he would have stayed there and had her.. the more he knew, he was sinking himself in his own death..







:: The more his emotions depth for her, the more he knew, betraying the Dark Lord was what already he was doing.. the harder for him to realize and understand that in the end, and from the beginning, the plan was to gain something from Laiza and kill her.. for him to take the memory and for himself to kill her..





:: When Laiza returned to the room, she found that Severus wasn’t there. No, not tonight. He wasn’t sleeping with her tonight.. not yet anyway.





:: Her hair was still dripping wet over the towel that wrapped around her body. She shook her head, a glint in her eyes, knowing that she was slowly winning this battle.







:: She walked over to the dresser and took the brush on it. She stared at her reflection, halfway through brushing when she noticed someone was sitting on the armchair next to the fireplace.





:: “What.. what are you doing here?” she asked, a little scared at the sight of Lucius sitting there, holding a glass of wine.







:: She turned to him, backing away from the dresser, but still determined that whatever happens, is should always just have the ending that she was the one smiling over any Death Eater.







:: Lucius shook his head and smiled at her, his eyes roaming from her hair and down her feet and back again.





:: “I never knew that you had that beautiful skin..” he whispered, his eyes focused on hers, but Laiza stood there determined. It was her game now, even for Lucius.





:: “Well..” Laiza began, thinking quickly of something to say, “you never asked me, did you?”





:: Lucius didn’t say anything. But by the way it look, Laiza was happy to know that he was looking amused at her.. and rather, fond at the sight of her right now.





:: “I could hardly ask when Severus is always around, can I?” he asked, raising an eyebrow, “When he is always around.. watching you closely.”





:: Laiza gave a hearty laugh and looked around him, “Well.. I don’t see him anywhere around right now, do you?” she said, her voice soft.





:: Lucius didn’t say anything, then he slowly stood up and Laiza prepared for herself. Flirting with a Death Eater was one thing already, but actually being there stared by one, almost very much bare, was another story.





:: He walked to her, his boots clicking on the floor, his gloved hand reaching out to her hair. He stood so close to her, Laiza was already sitting on her dresser. He had his gloved hand tracing the lines of her shoulders, his eyes roaming her own beautiful eyes, and his lips, whispering words around her neck.





:: “I never knew that a sylph like you.. beautiful.. would waste such a time for Severus..” he said, gently bending around her neck, but Laiza stood immobile, half shaking, but still determined. Lucius’ attitude in this matter was legendary. One moment, he would be playing the greatest man and most gentle and kind man and later, one would find herself laying bleeding on the ground, with Lucius’ holding a lashing whip.







:: “Well..” Laiza began, and she actually started moving her head in the direction of Lucius’ will, as he began kissing her neck, “I could hardly do anything when that night he owned me, you didn’t do anything, did you?”





:: Lucius stared sharply up at her, a challenge in both their gazes. “Are you wishing me to take you away from Severus?” he asked her, as he bent forward and planted kisses in her neckline. Laiza shuddered and relaxed as his hands slowly reached around her shoulders, she was already bending backward the dresser as he advanced on her.



:: “I don’t hear myself wishing that.. but I hear someone else in this room wishing for it..” she whispered back and as he stared at her, he was half surprised when Laiza bent forward him and without another words, she took his lips ravishly to hers.







:: Lucius’ kiss was far from Severus’, Laiza realized. Severus’ was compassionate, warm and almost kind.. but Lucius.. his was.. more than just passionate, it brought a shuddering feeling through her body, like he was marking her completely, a possessive sort of kiss, sharp but delicate.. sweet but owning..





:: Laiza backed down on the glass dresser as he pushed her bend backward, his mouth going around her and Laiza’s towel tie slowly came falling.







:: Laiza could hear him and his ravish movements gave shudders all over her. The towel slowly came down from her chest line and slowly downward and Lucius’ warm clothing met with Laiza..





:: The dresser began shaking as Lucius did bring her to sit on it as he literary ravished Laiza. Lucius hands were around her waist and Laiza’s was around his neck; Lucius suddenly let go and Laiza stared at him, “Do you know what you are doing is against the code law of the slaves of Death Eaters? You can get killed when Severus finds out.”





:: Laiza didn’t say anything. He was testing her. He was provoking her if she was going to tell anyone. But Laiza was not to be shaken from her plans.





:: She smiled at him and took her lips around his neck, “And do you know what you are doing is far more punishable? You are doing something against the law of Death Eaters.. of a brotherhood..” her voice softened as she slowly bit his neck.





:: Lucius flinched away from her and an evil grin in her face. He stared amazed by her words and he simply let her go as he watched her pick the towel and wrap it back to herself, “Severus might come back soon..” she told him, turning away from him, but a secret grin in her face, “and I don’t think he will like seeing you here.”







:: Lucius didn’t say anything, but instead, he headed for the doorway and left her there, thoughts in his mind too.. Scheming how he can get what Severus manage to get.





:: Just few moments when he left, the door opened again just in time as Laiza got the bathrobe over herself and only pale looking.





:: Severus entered and walked passed her, as if he didn’t see her. He went straight to the fireplace and lit it with his wand. His swift and silent movements told Laiza that something bad must have happened that completely ****** Severus at that moment.





:: She didn’t know if talking or even going anywhere near him at the moment was a good idea. She really didn’t know. By the fire, he could see the great glint in his eyes.. something had truly hit him hard for some reason.. Whatever the reason, it must be something that crucial for him to look like that.. For staying this long with Severus, most of the time, she could tell his emotions already.. but not always..



:: But still, Laiza brought the courage to herself, whether he had seen her there or not earlier, she didn’t have to make him guess. Slowly, barefoot and silently walking forward him as he was not drinking a goblet of wine, standing before the fireplace, she didn’t know at first what to say. He seemed he came from some place for some while as he was still in his traveling cloak or something..





:: She walked behind him, half shaking just incase his anger would burst and he’d suddenly hit her.





:: “Severus?” she barely said another word as he walked up behind him and placed her hand an inch on his back when he swiftly turned towards her and threw the glass to the fireplace and grabbed Laiza’s wrist very hard and grabbed her to him, kissing her sharply..





:: Laiza didn’t know what to do next, for both his hands held her wrist tightly and his kisses weren’t warm and compassionate, they were full of anxiety, they were sharp and harsh..





:: “Se-v-veru-s-“ was all she could utter as Severus pushed her towards the couch near the fireplace and pinned her upon it. Laiza could react no longer, she couldn’t say nor do anything, Severus locked her pinned down on the couch, his knee bent over between her legs and his hands, tightly pinning backward the couch, his mouth lingering from her mouth and down to her neck, shoulders.. and so on..





:: Laiza felt his warmth, his want and his need to be with her.. She could feel his hands controlling her, his mouth luring her into the dark side..





:: Must she give in now? Was it a good cue? Was it what fate was calling for her to do? Was it a right cue to gain all his trust to escape this place forever..?



:: She didn’t know, she couldn’t think clearly. Half of her was panicking.. and half of her was getting angered by the way things were happening..



:: What should she do?





:: Severus didn’t say anything. He smelled with wine and his movements were still ravished. He slowly pulled down Laiza’s shoulder lace and untied her robe and his hands lingered around Laiza. All Laiza could do was lay there and close her eyes and let him.. But was it a good cue..? Was he testing her? Or was he really just needing her?







:: Laiza tried to push him away once, but he wouldn’t move. She tried again, yet he wouldn’t even dare try and notice her movements against him.





:: Suddenly, he stopped, he took her wrists to his lips, Laiza barely still dressed, he kissed her neck, “Laiza.. you do trust me, don’t you?” he asked and Laiza feared the look in his eyes.





:: She doesn’t fear him anymore, but the unexplainable fear in his eyes Laiza had feared. There were fear in them, something she rarely saw in Severus’ eyes.



:: “You do trust me, do you?” he asked again, taking her closer to him. Laiza shook her head, “Y-yes.. of-ofcourse..Ofcourse, Severus.. I..t-trust you..” she muttered, her eyes trying to look beyond his.





:: “Whatever happens, you will listen only to me, do you understand?” he told her, “Whatever I tell you, you would do, do you understand? Laiza, you have to trust me..” he told her, staring fixedly at her.





:: Laiza didn’t know what to say, but she nodded at him, she kissed his palm and nodded and took his lips, “I trust you,” she whispered, “I trust you, Severus..”





:: Then with that, she leaned forward for him to kiss her, but he didn’t. He completely let her hand go and stood up as if nothing has happened.





:: “Severus, is there anything wrong?” she asked him, standing up next to him and trying to get back his attention. Snape didn’t say anything. He didn’t speak. Instead, he was silent for a long time. Then suddenly, he turned to her.



:: “Laiza..” his words were soft, but stern in a way as he stared at her and grabbed her hands to him, “If I ask you to marry me, you do understand there is no choice for you, do you? You do understand it’s your last chance to live, do you?”





:: The fearful look in Laiza’s eyes was so evident that Severus’ eyes seemed to soften a little. It did occur to him that maybe he had scared her too much. Maybe she was prepared to stay with him, but not exactly bind her life with him.. but she didn’t have any choice.





:: Laiza didn’t speak. For the first time, even if she had all her plans in her head and heart, she didn’t know what to say next. She wasn’t prepared for that one, she truly wasn’t prepared for this one. What was she going to do? How was she going to get out of this one when there wasn’t any way out..?





:: “S-Severus..” was all she could whisper as Snape’s eyes softened, but his grip on her wrist was so tight, she could feel her veins pumping.. “I-I really-I’m-I-“ “It’s your only way to live..” Severus whispered, letting her wrist go but holding her face suddenly and holding her around the waist.





:: Laiza tried to push away, but for no use. He was a man, he was drunken and he was stronger.





:: “Severus..maybe..you’re-you’re getting this a little too far-“ “There is no little too far,” Severus told her, “you do understand your situation, don’t you?” he asked her, pulling her closer and closer to him and not letting her go, there was urgency in his embrace tonight.



:: “I can’t let them have you killed..” he whispered in her ear before kissing it, “I can’t let any other Death Eater have you.. I can’t let that happen-“





:: “What do you mean let other Death Eater-“ “The Dark Lord will kill you once they have taken what they need from you,” he told her, and Laiza focused on herself, it was a time to know as much as she could.







:: “But-why-I don’t-“ “They will rebuilt a new world under the power they are about to discover. Once you are of no use, they could dispatch you. I can’t betray the Dark Lord because this is what I want.. This is the only way I could get what I want-“ “What you want-“ “I want you,” Severus told her and he again grabbed her hands, “I want you, I want you.. I want you Laiza.. more than anything else in this world."



:: "But I cannot have that unless I have done my task for the Dark Lord, unless I have served him to the fullest extent until the end of this war. I cannot ask a reward I have not worked hard for. I have worked so hard to get you here with me,” he paused as if realizeing everything he spilled to her, “and I’m not letting anyone else get in the way of that. I will have you, Laiza,” he told her, “you will live this war.. But you have to live with me and by my rules.. With the way life I will tell it to be. Do you understand?” he asked, shaking her a little.



:: "Do you understand me, Laiza? You have no choice. This is your only option to live. I can’t have you taken away. It’s either you will die in this war alone, or you will die with me if we lose this war. I’m not going to let anyone have you taken from me. It’s going to be a do or die battle.” Severus’ eyes were shinning darkly, his fingers digging into Laiza’s skin.





:: Laiza didn’t say anything after that. After those words, Severus had let her go and pushed her back on the couch turning away from her. She didn’t know what to say. It wasn’t like she wanted to cry or something. But she certainly didn’t know what to do.





:: There were anger, confusion in her. But there was no way out at the moment. What was she going to do?





:: Her wrists were red and very painful, the look of anger and fear in her face was beginning to be visible. She didn’t say anything. It was too dangerous to go against anything Severus said at the moment. It was dangerous..deadly.





:: He turned back to her and saw the fear in her eyes but he ignored them. All that was in him was a plan to take her away from this death that was awaiting her. He needed a plan, and a good one. And this was the one he could find.





:: “I will not hear any argument from you about this. This is your only way to live..” he told her, walking around the room and taking his cloth, controlling himself, “the Dark Lord will not kill you after my request if I manage to do everything else he asks me to do. You are important in this war, you shall not be killed by far as I know. But I have to be assured of your safety. He will not think twice of killing you in front of me if I make a single mistake."



:: "You will be unharmed if you side with us, with me.. Do you understand that? Laiza? Are you even listening-“ “I’m listening to you!” she told him, suddenly tears began trickling down her cheeks, “I do understand you..” she softly said, looking away and wiping the cheeks.





:: “It’s the only way to live..” she said in a lower voice, avoiding his look as he suddenly went on his knees and caressed her cheeks, apologizing gently, “it’s my only way to live.” “You understand I don’t want you to die..” Severus whispered, caressing her cheeks, “I can’t lose you..I need you-“



:: “You need me?” Laiza repeated, looking up at him, “You need me, Severus? Or you want me? There is a difference. And you have to tell me what is the truth..if you’re going to let me live..” “Laiza, ofcourse I need you,” Severus said, hushing her with a kiss but Laiza pulled away for the first time. He looked into her eyes, reading her thoughts.





:: “Do you really need me, Severus? Or you just want me? Want me to fill up those long years of desires you had in you-“ “Laiza-“ “No,” Laiza said, shaking her head, “you will tell me the truth. Because I would rather want to know what life awaits me if I don’t die in this war..”





:: “A life of great pleasure will await you..” Severus assured her, brushing a soft kiss on her lips..





:: “Severus..” Laiza paused, breathing deeply, and gently pushing him away from her, “I have to know if I’m going to live this war.. as a prisoner of your desire.. or as a prisoner of your compassion?”





:: The look in Laiza’s eyes gave Severus the ultimate question he didn’t foresee he was too scared to know the answer himself.







:: Severus held her hands in his, his eyes, unblinking as Laiza stared at him, waiting for his answer..



:: He could, he found himself he was unable to answer. He couldn't answer her question.. It was too hard, too risky.. too painful for him to answer. He though he knew everything, until now.. until he found out how hard it was for him to understand his own feelings.. No, he understood his feelings, but it wasn't the right time to analyze it.. Because it will led to a defeat in this war.



:: His feelings and desire would be a great flaw in their plans, in this war.



:: Laiza stared down at him, she could see his insides paining.. His mind swirling and thinking.. She was distracting his thoughts, she was able to get inside of him and break his barrier..finally. She was breaking him in, it was the war she knew was the hardest.. But she was doing it. She was breaking inside the spirits and the mind of a man that was always great and better in these things than anyone else. She was doing it, she was getting through it.. Shew as winning it.



:: Laiza only needed few words to say, few actions to work with and few stares to do with.. And those things were making her win the mind game Severus was always best at.



:: "I knew it.." she whispered, slowly letting her hand slip from his, "you can't fight for me.. You're just like..any..other..Death Eater.." then she turned away from him.









:: She turned her back on him, and suddenly, Severus went back on his knees and grabbed her from the back, his hands tight around her waist as he pulled her tightly to him, "No!" he quickly said, his hands tight around her, "No! Ofcourse that's not that.. I'm not like that, I am not like any other Death Eater.. please.. Laiza.."



:: Severus couldn't see her expression, and if he could, Laiza would be dead. A smile was spreading in her face and she was faking her cry. Severuw was pleading to her.. He was showing more of his emotions, he was handing her weapons of his own destruction..



:: The emotions were the most powerful things Laiza could have right now. ANd it was Severus handing these things to her first hand.



:: "I can't live with you.." Laiza slowly said, "i'll wait for them to kill me instead.. I can't live with you if you can't fight for me.. All you have to do is fight for me.." she slowly said, sniffing some tears, trying to remove Severus' hands from her, but he held her tight.



:: He embraced her tightly from the back, "No, please.. Laiza.. don't say that.. I can't.. I can't.." he stuttered, unable to know what to say, "I'm not going to let you die in this war. you have to stay with me-" "you can't ask me to stay with a person who can't even fight for me-" "I'll fight for you," Severus slowly said, "I'll..do anything.. anything.. don't leave me.. Don't decide for your death.. Please.. Laiza.. you have to cooperate..and I'll do anything.. anything for your happiness.."



:: A spark in Laiza's eyes were blazing. Severus handed her everything she needed to have to live, everything she needed to have to go against him.



:: His emotions were in her hands already, his heart, his mind and soul.. Within her grasp..finally.





:: Severus slowly got up to his feet, his hands still around Laiza, his face in her jawline, luring her to come to him..



:: "I can't.." Laiza whispered, trying to push him away, "I can't stay with a coward in this war.."



:: THose words seemed to have ticked Severus off. HIs fingers dug into her skin for a split moment and he made her face him.



:: "I'm not a coward.." he whispered, kising her jawline, "I'm not.. And-" "Prove it to me.." Laiza said, and she leaned forward and took his lips to hers. It was a passionate kiss.. but Laiza quickly pulled away from the kiss, leaving Severus wanting for more..



:: "Prove to me that Severus.. and I will give you what you want.." her fingers traced the lines in his face.



:: A dark spark entered his eyes, "I don't need to ask permission from what i want from you.. you know that. We both know that." he pointed out, nodding at her and getting close to kiss her, but Laiza shook her head.



:: "Who says I'm saying about these?" she asked leaning forward, she leaned to his ears, "Death Eater or not.. I know it's not just me you desire. You desire me.. my soul.. my mind.." she whispered kissing his ear and her hands held his face, "and my heart.."



:: Then she looked him in the eyes for which Severus' eyes showed she was right. And she was right. Deep within Severus, he desired not only her body, but also her heart.. Something he desired more secretly than anything else.



:: "You can't be sure of that." Severus quickly said, grasping her wrist tightly and painfully. Laiza shook her head in pain, "I can be.." Laiza whispered, "and I can give you that.." "I don't need your emotions, I can live with only-" "You can't live with just that," Laiza answered, "we both know that's not the only reason you held me here. You wanted me to live, not just because you want me.. not just because of that, Severus. It wouldn't hurt if you'd admit it to me.. It's just me and you-" "Don't..cross..the..line..of..my..emotions.." he warned her, his hands digging in her wrists, but Laiza held herself for this. The more he pained her, the more she knew she was right.



:: "Fine," she whispered, leaning forward and kissing his lips for which he quickly took and passionately kissed.. They took moments with it for which Laiza was the first to let go again.



:: "Then you wouldn't mind.." she whispered, "that if you ever win this war.. and have me.. for the longest lifetime you have..you wouldn't mind if every single time you have me.. kiss me..touch me.." she slowly whispered, her fingers tracing his face, "I would be just closing my eyes.. and thinking.. it is Remus.. with me.." her eyes stared at Severus.. a great challenge in her eyes..